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Essays
Scotch Mist by Vanessa Mendoza
Furniture by Laura Alvarez
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Surviving the Truth by Jose Enciso
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Fiction
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Fuck You Speech Impediment by Rose Bence
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Darkness by Jessica Parra
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Gazing off into the Ether* by Nadia Solis Valadez
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The Bone Setter by Nadia Solis Valadez
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Bird of Paradise by Lener Macias
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Home in the Deep by Malcolm Armstead
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Mermaid Tears* by Anastacia Kellogg
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Life, Still by Roberto Cuevas
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Two Moons by Alejandra Aguilera
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Serena by Lener Macias
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The Tree of God by Vanessa D. Sanders
Ballad to the Nightingale by Jonathan Tovar
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Myriad of Dreams by Malcolm Armstead
Second-Hand/Hand-Me-Downs by Nadia Solis Valadez
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The Beauty of Queen Nefertiti by Darla Dotson
Tracing Grain by Ashley Pacheco
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Cirque Fille by Gloria Posada
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Ode to the Old Fig Tree* by Cherize De Leah
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Portrait of Disbelief by Nadia Solis Valadez
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January 5, 2015 by Alissa Ramirez
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The Sun Sets Without You by Laura Alvarez
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Social Network by Anastacia Kellogg
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Honored Warrior by Malcolm Armstead
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Dig by Laura Alvarez
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Fairy Tale by Lener Macias
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Phoenix of the Crown by Malcolm Armstead
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A Tribute to Arturo by Gloria Posada
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Like Hospitals by Laura Alvarez
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Drown It in the Bottle by Jose Navarro
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Never Let a Nightmare . . . by Suprena Simmons
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My Prayer by Fay Crawford
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What a Woman by Fay Crawford
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A Light to a New Beginning by Jose Enciso
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Untitled by Gloria Posada
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November 19, 2015 by Alissa Ramirez
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The Coyote by Alejandra Aguilera
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Young Love by Jose Enciso
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Contradanza by Nadia Solis Valadez
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Storms of Love by Jessica Parra
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Celestial Passion by Jessica Parra
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Tuesday by Anastacia Kellogg
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Thoughts of Me by Fay Crawford
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I Am NOT My Disease by Fay Crawford
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