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Visit D.M. McDonald’s website at shadowinggod.com or follow him on Twitter @guerillahost The Revelation of June Paul Copyright 2012 by D.M. McDonald. All rights reserved. The author retains sole copyright to the materials. Original Paintings by Heidi Rhodes Original Sketches by Randy Sottovia Maps by Rick Rangler Layout and Design by Mel Evans Edited by Amy Gafkjen Published in association with Westwinds Community Church, 1000 Robinson Road, Jackson MI 49203 www.westwinds.org To Champ Stamp & Chainsaw, may your charm never wither. We believe God’s future plans will heal our world, and part of that healing includes freedom for those sold into slavery. That’s why we’re donating proceeds from the live performances of The Revelation of June Paul to organizations working to fight human trafficking. Funds will be donated to: Children’s Hope Chest, a national organization that partners primarily with churches, businesses and Christian communities to provide help, training, and discipleship to orphans across the globe. Sari Bari, offering women exploited in the sex trade alternative employment and healing. Michigan Human Trafficking Task Force, working to facilitate a collaborative effort between law enforcement and social service agencies to prevent human trafficking in Michigan. Southern Michigan Regional Human Rights Task Force, a regional branch of Michigan Human Trafficking Task Force, based in the Hillsdale area. Michigan Human Trafficking Clinic, a clinical law program at the University of Michigan providing legal services to victims of human trafficking. The Manasseh Project, an outreach ministry of Wedgwood Chistian Services dedicated to ending the sexual exploitation of young men and women in west Michigan. Critical Acclaim for The Revelation of June Paul “The most innovative preacher in North America strikes again. A box-bursting, border-crossing project that speaks powerfully in the present tense while feeling like an artifact from the future.” Len Sweet, best-selling author and professor “With the taste of both an ancient tale and the relevance of a modern fable, David McDonald through gripping storytelling paints a picture of a future earth and explores the timely subjects of revenge, justice and the flaws of humanity living out an eternal kingdom while still confined by the world.” John Bergquist, Huffington Post blogger, writer, and speaker “David McDonald has one of the most fertile Christian imaginations I know of. His work gives us a slain, hopeful Christian eschatology within a lively narrative. Those concerned to redeem redemption must read this exciting novel to the hopeful end.” Kenneth W. Brewer, Ph. D., Chair, Department of Theology, Associate Professor of Theology, Spring Arbor University “David McDonald is one of the most creative communicators I know. The Revelation of June Paul is great fun and a moving experience.” Dave Travis, CEO of Leadership Network “A Holy Spirit infusion! Creative genius of this caliber in service to Christ catapults a powerful storytelling phenomenon into a mind-wrenching, heart-changing, soul-twisting catalyst of metanoia and transformation. Collaboration the likes of this in the Church assures us that Christ’s redemptive power is alive and moving in this world.” Lori Wagner, co-author of The Seraph Seal “We all know the power of stories to convey great truths and provoke thoughtful reflection. Think The Narnia Chronicles and Lord of the Rings. Thank goodness people are still writing great stories to challenge our thinking and release our imagination for what could be--and what might actually be if we can just remember it! The Revelation of June Paul by David McDonald and his team of co-conspirators will jumpstart your brain and your heart at the same time. I recommend you read it--but not by yourself. Because you are going to want help finding yourself in the story.” Reggie McNeal, Missional Leadership Specialist, Leadership Network “David McDonald understands that story-telling is as multidimensional as our world. The Revelation of June Paul presents a uniquely layered approach which includes a book, a live theatrical experience and mixed media. Everyone knows the landscape of information transmission is changing, and popular culture craves story over dissertation. McDonald is staying out in front of that learning curve, creating bold art that is just as (or some might say more) valid than ‘sermonizing.’ A great example of how faith can shape a compelling story.” Sarah Cunningham, author of Picking Dandelions, Dear Church, and upcoming titles Portable Faith and The Well Balanced World Changer (2013) “Every time I think I’ve done something creative I end up seeing the next project David McDonald has made and I realize I have a long ways to go to utilizing the full spectrum of the arts to reach people with the Gospel” Lars Rood, Pastor of all things Families, Bellevue Presbyterian Church “I’ve never been able to read science-fiction or fantasy that bears the label, “Christian.” It is often too careful, too predictable, too safe, too rigid. That trend stops with this piece of work. Immensely clever, intelligent, imaginative, while profoundly theologically solid. McDonald is a new breed--a painter, a playwright, an anthropologist, a scholar, an expeditionist--who makes no apologies for taking his readers on a ride that stretches possibilities and makes us grapple with Truth.” John Voelz, Author of Follow You, Follow Me and Quirky Leadership; Westwinds Church Pastor, The Curator “The Revelation of June Paul takes you on a journey through the book of Revelation and the end times in a way you’ve never experienced before. Prepare yourself. You will be challenged, and perhaps even changed, by how McDonald juxtaposes the past and future in a contemporary tale that involves time travel, the word of God, the limits of our humanity, and the very nature of justice.” Tom Davis, CEO Children’s Hope Chest Part One: A New Earth It began a thousand years after the end of the Common Era (ACE). There was no Rapture, though I guess that shouldn’t have been a surprise. The Great Evangelical Disappointment, and the Mass suicides to follow, compounded the effects of the War and threatened the total collapse of our species. We looked for the Rider on the White Horse but he never came. There were horrible beasts, unimaginable realities that the Good Book either failed to mention or simply underrepresented. Scorched earth. Disease. The theater of dying, looping endlessly. My part didn’t begin until much later. Though you’ve probably figured out the basic shape of those events, I thought I might fill in a few of the particulars. I want to start with the Chernoblys. The City of God r Common Era, ACE) 3631 CE (1570 Afte All twenty-four councilors had assembled in the Elder Chamber. Light fell from the ceiling in green and golden curtains, an emulation of long-past aurora borealis. The Elders normally met in private, but this was a strange day and I had been summoned to the room, empty save for my hosts and a great stone slab. I wished Serif had been permitted to join me. She was my guardian, counselor, and peer. Despite their inability to molt or sweat, the Elders believed our techno-organic angels were unsanitary. I missed her. 3631 CE // 1570 ACE Though I had been summoned into the Chamber twice before I did not remember that slab, or its position in the middle of the room. Yet there it was. Massive. Immobile. And nothing had been done to prepare me for what lay on top. The Elders lay in semicircles of six, slightly askew. Angelic script was etched on the floor, concentrically interposed with characters predating the Common Era. Looking up at the mirrored ceiling, I got the impression I was standing in a clockwork, each ring of councilors like a bezel on the copper face of the floor. The Elders’ white robes reflected the gentle luminescence of the false ceiling. They reclined on long 18 chairs, jacked into the City servers through hardwire connections in their temples, collarbones, and ribs. It was rare for them to be in human form. Usually they eschewed even the appearance of corporeality, opting instead for an entirely digital existence. But, as I said, today was special. “You’re sure it’s her?” I asked. It was hard to remember, though I thought there was some small resemblance. They Elders didn’t answer. They had already said their part, individually and then in mental unison. The Elders could talk all at once, letting you listen in on their twentyfour-way conversation as it replayed in one impossible second. They opened their shared minds, let you peek inside, and then left you with the accompanying vertigo. I walked to the stone slab and bent over to peer at something that had once been human. We called them ‘Chernoblys’ on account of the radioactive damage from the holocaust. The New Palestinian colonists had miraculously survived the nuclear fallout. But the radioactivity changed them into something less than human beings, something more animal than personal. They were shadows, and monstrous. Everyone but me. The old stories suggested the Chernoblys could travel across time. We weren’t sure how the Chernoblys became associated with time travel, or how they supposedly mastered the Chronosphere itself—that is, the entire warp of time— but the two legends were nigh inseparable. 19 3631 CE // 1570 ACE The Chernoblys were light grey, entirely devoid of hair, and sharply muscled. They weren’t like bodybuilders, but lean and long like climbers. Until today, everyone thought they were a myth. The Chernoblys were the kind of thing privateers babbled about over tea, and though I’m considered something of an expert, that’s a black mark on my reputation. I repeated my question, adding, “It’s a little hard to believe.” This time they did answer their harmonic voices pitched awkwardly between discomfort and curiosity, like listening to electronic feedback. I didn’t enjoy hearing them, but was fascinated all the same. “That is your mother, June,” came their collective response. I felt like there was something trying to bury itself in my memory, shouting that this was an important moment. But I couldn’t process it, like something was knocking at my mind but I wouldn’t let it in. “Her genetic makeup has been altered by radiation,” they continued. “She has mutated. She does not look like your mother, but it is her.” “You knew they were out there?” I asked, my voice hushed. “Yes,” they replied, not giving anything away. 3631 CE // 1570 ACE My voice rose, frustration leaking through. “From the beginning?” They paused, briefly, before answering. “It was unsafe,” they replied. I shook my head, unable to comprehend what I was both seeing and hearing. Of all the things I missed most from the World That Was, of all the regrets I had for my part in the dissolution of humanity, nothing compared to the regret I had about my mother. I had abandoned her. At the time I felt that was my only option. But after the Common Era, 20 at the apocalyptic collision of prophecy and progress, my memories metastasized. I hadn’t meant for her to die. There was a great wound running through her body. Though it had been covered and made up, I could tell she had suffered. “How did she die?” I asked. “It was a warning,” they replied. Who was left to warn us? I wondered. Not Gilead. Who else remains? “From the Chernoblys?” They didn’t respond. I pressed, “Who was the warning for?” Again, they didn’t answer. I shifted uncomfortably, feeling certain I had been called to atone, but unsure what to do next. Exasperated I asked, “What do you want me to do?” Their response came quickly, surprisingly almost a shout. “We want you to do nothing!” “I ought to investigate.” “Do not exceed your mandate, Privateer,” they warned. Their shared voice buzzed uncomfortably in the front of my mind. The room vibrated, the concussion of their collective patience wavering. “It is too dangerous,” they said. “The sewage That Was still seeps through the Earth.” 21 3631 CE // 1570 ACE I was undeterred. “You want me to explore?” I asked, reaching forward to touch my mother’s skin. It wasn’t as cold as I expected, or I wasn’t as warm. “Where better than New Palestine? You want me to conserve? What better to conserve than the last remnants of humanity outside the City?” More of the same, I thought. Always caution. The Elders brought their longest audience of the day to its inevitable conclusion. “You could die,” they said. The Elders were wrong and knew it. We can’t die. If the carapace breaks down, we automatically upload to the City servers. The notion of death was passé. We had eternal life. Even the name of our synthetic bodies was a farse. A carapace is a shell, not a person. Crabs had shells. But people? We were made flesh. A carapace was just a fancy car for the mind. Part of me knew the Elders weren’t motivated by cowardice. But mostly, I felt they were shackles. They liked their world small and manageable. Humanity had been reduced to a wizened hive, a glorified terrarium, and I wanted to break free. I wanted to explore the ruins of the World That Was. It wasn’t just an ideological concern. This wasn’t about safety or science or history or disease. The dead woman on the slab was my mother. 3631 CE // 1570 ACE This was about being human. 22 My life was inextricably bound to my mother’s. Once I thought old age would release me from her memory. But it hadn’t. I had lived over a thousand years and no one would come after me. I was the last. No one had been born since the holocaust made us sterile. My mother was like Eve—a figure both historical and theological—and I don’t know if I missed her, or venerated her, or both. I needed to know why, and how, she died, and whether there was anything I could have done to prevent it then or reverse it now. If the Chernoblys could control time, then I wondered if my mother was from this time? Or was she from the past? Or even the future? Just the hint of time travel opened up a matrix of possibilities, many of which I would need to explore in order to solve the mystery surrounding her death. I needed to find the ruins of New Palestine. I wanted to save my mother and—if possible—save the world I remembered from my youth. 1570 ACE I was going back in time. 23 “Well?” asked the Elders. I knew what they wanted. The Elders thought the old world collapsed because of man’s inability to control his baser instincts—instincts like exploration, discovery, and adventure. They wanted me to promise I wouldn’t put myself at risk. After all, with only one hundred and forty-four thousand of us left, every life was precious. “I’ll think about it,” I replied. “Thinking generates caution,” they said, slowly. “But do not forget. There is more at stake than your grief.” “This is my mother!” I got angry, fast. Turns out, I wouldn’t need to think much at all. “You knew about the Chernoblys, but kept it hidden!” I could feel my carapace heating itself into quick-response mode as I began to pace, clenching my fists. 1570 ACE “Where does this reckless curiosity come from, June Paul?” This wasn’t the first time I had defied them. “Heaven has everything you need.” “This isn’t Heaven,” I said, throwing out my hands. “Heaven wouldn’t require us to surrender our humanity.” The Elders were infuriated by my insolence. I thought they might actually move from their palanquins. I didn’t care. 24 Heaven was just the latest and greatest thing that didn’t do what you wanted when you sold your soul to get in. “I need to get to New Palestine,” I said, wondering more about the possibilities before me. Maybe I could go back in time, just a few days even, to spare her being killed? Maybe I could prevent her Chernoblization? Maybe the medical staff in the City could heal her? Maybe I could go all the way back and prevent the holocaust altogether? I wouldn’t know. Not until I got into the ruins. I turned on my heel and began marching through the Chamber. I wanted out of that gross plagiarism of divine promise. It wasn’t safe outside the City—the radioactive residue still clung to most of the planet—but the answers were out there. I wanted answers more than I wanted safety. I had already begun dialing Serif’s communicator when the Elders called back after me. “Go with peace,” they said. “Go to hell,” I replied. 1570 ACE 25 I shouldered my way through the door, annoyed, and eager to ditch my carapace. The crib was an eight-hundred square foot platinum cradle, plain but warped and all on one level. It had an open roof with a sloping half-ceiling to keep the Repose out of the rain. As I shut the door behind me, part of my mind darkened. Mental images of my mother haunted me, perverting her into some creaturely troll. I tried to shake it off, but the images would not easily be banished. I hadn’t thought of her in a long time, and what I had just seen left me cheerless and afraid. 1570 ACE Moving up the short platform into my closet, I walked past the carapaces I had saved over the years. The Magellan was best for jungle exploration, and the Seal’s Skin for seafaring. I also had Privateers and Cloud Punchers leftover from the early days. At the end of the row was the empty spot for the Dayweaver. I leaned back until I felt the molded plastic of the rack, then closed my eyes. The upload sequence began automatically and I felt my conscious mind leave the carapace and join with the City servers. I sped through fiber optics, a node on an electrical freeway, and entered the Repose, a kind of digital soup into which our consciousness could be transferred. It reminded me of long Sunday afternoon naps and I imagined the sun on 26 my face while time breezed coolly by. There was something wonderfully paradisiacal about being lost in that jellied circuitry. It was like dreaming, like swimming, like a day at the beach with a drink and a friend. Hence, Repose. 1570 ACE 27 We hadn’t had native human bodies for centuries. After the holocaust, the radiation levels were so high we moved underground. We had to constantly wear masks to keep from breathing toxins. Over time, those masks became elaborate suits protecting our skin as well. The prototypes looked like mechazoids from schlocky Japanese cinema. The second wave wasn’t much better. The early interface between hardware and wetware created unholy animatronics teetering through scraps of the old world. Silicon circuitry caused human tissue to burn, leaving patches of discoloration and rot. Eventually the OS graduated into something more metaphysical than mechanized, and the copper tegument was now nearly indistinguishable from human skin. 1570 ACE We were still us, still sentient, but could conceivably be uploaded into automobiles or children’s toys as easily as a carapace. We didn’t even have actual, physical brains anymore. We were clouds of data. We had become a society of husk-jumpers, toting our minds around like the small pets of the upper class. Truth be told, I missed having a native body. In the old stories, the Creator fashioned us with clay and filled us with his breath. We became souls, then, the equilibrium of flesh and spirit. Take any part of that equation away and we were 28 something less. I felt like something less most of the time, a spirit in a ramshackle hut. Our first attempts at artificial intelligence were designed to replicate humanity. But it never quite worked. All our people were dumb. Or rude. Or made horribly inappropriate comments at inopportune times. We couldn’t get the programming right. We had a lot more success making angels. We designed them on computers, mocked them up using resin-printers, and then grew them in laboratories. They weren’t fully human, but they were smarter than any animal and possessed instincts that dwarfed our own. They didn’t defecate, salivate, or shed. In many ways, we looked up to them, despite being their creators. In the old scriptures angels were terrifying beasts— seraphim, meaning “fiery flying serpent.” Prophets described them as composites of lions, bulls, birds, and men, far more frightening than the pictures I had once seen in bestiaries. Serif was the old manner of angel, like a griffin. Her eagle’s head perched atop a lion’s torso and her talons struck into the ground with lizard’s feet. She spoke like a person, though her beak chattered, and she weighed nearly two thousand pounds. Had she cared to stretch, her wingspan would exceed the breadth of the crib. Serif called for me, then, her voice piping directly inside the Repose. “I have found them, June.” Even when speaking in my mind, Serif’s beak chattered, accenting her words 29 1570 ACE Sometimes, when the weather was bad, Serif would nestle up to the Repose and extend one wing protectively over top. I hadn’t programmed her to do that, and I found it fascinatingly odd that she would do these little things all on her own. They made her real. like the chirp of crickets. It was an affectation. It reminded me she appreciated idiosyncrasy and found beauty in distinctiveness. Serif thought sameness was sinister. “I know where to enter New Palestine,” she said, and I could hear the gladness in her voice. “And the Chernoblys?” I asked. I had a mental flash of Serif stretching her great neck, noble and proud. “They are here too,” she replied. “We have not found such strong sign in a long while. They are coming above ground with greater frequency.” 1570 ACE “Sounds good, sister,” I told her. “Hurry home.” 30 From within the Repose I heard a chime at my door. I opened it through the OS and began transmitting my consciousness to the Spelunker v.2.1.1, knowing we would soon leave. Face-to-face visits were rare, given that sort of interaction achieved very little that couldn’t be done digitally. But I had been expecting a follow-up from the Elders, knowing they would press their case. As the Spelunker came online, I received a snapshot of my visitor. It was Thomas, the Elder I knew best. He had once championed my work as an Expeditionary Privateer, though recently his enthusiasm had waned. “It’s good to see you, sir,” I said, running a basic diagnostic on the carapace as he came in. Satisfied with the Spelunker, I disengaged from the wall mount and crossed the room to welcome my guest. “I had hoped you wouldn’t need to lie about that,” he replied, avoiding my offered handshake. “Seems I was wrong.” From this height the City resembled a garden, silver cribs branching from skytowers like fronds off a fern. Below, 31 1570 ACE I forced a smile, escorting Thomas to the rail overlooking the City of God. the golden streets glowed warmly, as though the ferns coasted along straits of precious metal. The lights of shops flushed down the boulevard, streaking fire. “It’s quite an accomplishment, isn’t it?” he asked. I believed he was genuine. Thomas was one of many who failed to understand that constrained perfection was antithetical to the grace of God. “If you say so,” I replied. As pretty as it was, I had no love for Heaven. It felt forced, like we were trying too hard, our efforts keeping us from experiencing the best of what was left. “June,” he scolded, “you’re never satisfied, are you?” “Me?” I laughed, startled. “I’m not the one trying to fabricate perfection.” The Elder fixed me with a stare. “You are,” he countered, “but your idea of perfection is different than ours.” There it is, I thought. There’s the threatening control I find distasteful in Heaven. “You won’t change my mind,” I said. I had always appreciated Thomas’ directness, and thought he deserved the same in return. Thomas shook his head. “I pity the Chernoblys, June. I think we ought to help.” Is he handling me? “But you’re not prepared to take action?” I pressed. “Your mother represents a threat,” he said simply. 1570 ACE “She’s dead,” I replied. “What threat is left?” Thomas knew me well enough not to be taken in. “She is a symbol,” he replied, looking out over the City, imagining a symbol of another sort. “Someone—something—dropped her off at our front gates. They shouldn’t be able to get 32 within a hundred miles of those gates without alarms going off. But they did. It’s an awful truth, but there it is. Somebody out there wants to make us afraid.” “Looks like they succeeded,” I muttered. I wanted Thomas, at least, to give up on the joke. I wanted him to relax and fess up that we had little hope of long-term survival. But I knew he was committed to the illusion of sanctuary. They all were. We were going to sit safely inside the City gates while the world around us continued to crumble. Soon there would be no life but angels and animals, with a few Chernoblys underground. So. The meek shall inherit the earth. “How did it happen?” I asked. Thomas met my gaze directly. “We don’t know,” he confessed. “That’s why I have to go and find out.” I figured Thomas had come to warn me about the Council, to give his usual spiel about being careful not to go too far. But that’s not what happened. “I can’t let you do that,” he said, and I realized for the first time what Thomas was wearing. The Paladin class was exclusive to the Elders, a supra-carapace that combined the best attributes of all mods. Even if the Elders downloaded into a synthetic body, they almost never piloted their Paladins. Only for combat. It couldn’t outfight a WarMachine or outfly a Heron, but I knew my Spelunker was outmatched. “What’s going on?” I asked, indicating his armor. 33 1570 ACE Thomas stood up straight. “You can never be too cautious in times like this,” he said, guiding me back into the crib. I pulled away. “Why are you here?” I asked, reluctant to get back under the shelter. Serif, I called mentally. Where are you? “I’m sorry, June,” Thomas replied. “But it’s only temporary. You’ll be placed in forced-Repose until the Council reconvenes.” “No.” I stopped. My hands came up, ready, and the Spelunker’s quick-response systems dialed in. Thomas frowned. “You don’t have a choice, son,” He moved toward me, shoulders thrown forward. He was getting ready to lunge. I backed away. “I don’t think you want it to go like this,” he said. “Paladin versus Spelunker? It’s hardly a contest.” We were interrupted. I heard a great beating of wings and looked into the night to see my angel descending. She was gorgeous and powerful, every bit of her body independent and animated. She landed behind the Elder with barely a tremor and opened her beak, her wings momentarily occluding the moon. Thomas turned to look over his shoulder, surprised at the implied threat. The angels were fearsome warriors, forged in the jousts of Seraphic Olympiads, and Thomas’ frown deepened. He loaded his spear, the choice weapon of the Elders, and brandished it before the angel. 1570 ACE Serif was quick, aggressive, but I wasn’t sure of her chances against a Paladin. The whole situation had escalated quickly and I wasn’t sure what to do. I signaled to both of them through the OS—Stand down! I screamed, mentally projecting my voice. But Thomas had already begun running the emergency subroutines. He was transmitting the distress signal. If we 34 didn’t act quickly to diffuse this situation, things would get a lot messier. Serif, I called. We’ve got to do something! The angel acted instinctually. Looking down over Thomas, she moved her eyes right to left, decisively, before doing what came most naturally in melee. Serif bit off his head. The Paladin carapace powered down immediately, falling to the floor in a clang. “What did you do?” I asked. I was in shock. Only the sound of Serif munching on the Elder’s crown kept me from a dissociative break with reality. Give me a moment, she said. I am surfing the Spirit. Serif was a talented Spirit-jockey, often perceiving future events based on the cohesion of multiple strings of intentionality. “Work your magic, sister. We’re gonna need all the help we can get,” I said. The angels became aware of the Spirit long before we ever knew it existed. It is to the human psyche what the Internet was to digital information—a way of skimming thoughts, intuitions, and dreams. But that tenuous subatomic invisibility was more than just a way to preview the inner information of humanity. The angels could manipulate it, giving premonitions, strengthening resolve, or emboldening ambition. Give me a moment, Serif repeated. 35 1570 ACE I still can’t believe we lived as long as we did, as well as we did, without it. For the angels, sailing the Spirit was about as natural as reading a newsfeed. It was a rough sort of prescience, but for all its mercurial nature it was a handy skill. I opened my OS to Serif’s datastream and began to piggy back on her Spirit-nav. She was accessing the City Servers. She clogged up the data pipes and re-routed Thomas’ upload sequence to the Elders’ Repose. She altered his memory files and messed with his date/time stamp. She was slowing him down. “I have bought us a few hours,” she said, finally, spitting out the last remnants of the Paladin’s crown. “What will he remember?” I asked. Once Thomas completed his upload through the City Servers, I knew he would coordinate a tactical response with the other Elders. For all our talk about immortality, if the Elders terminated our upload to the City servers we would actually die. “Eventually he will remember everything,” she replied, “though the Council will likely piece it together before he does. I erased the log of his visit, but it will not matter. We need to go.” I smiled, feeling again the thrill of adventure in spite of the danger, the uncertainty, and the mess. It may seem counterintuitive, but I had spent so much of my life looking forward to these expeditions it was hard for the old feelings not to resurface. 1570 ACE As a scientist I was beside myself. As a conservationist, I felt like the answers to the evolutionary questions of the ages had just been splayed open for my personal satisfaction. As a privateer, I felt like this was the moment toward which every other incident had driven me since I was born. We were the explorers and conservationists of Heaven, and I was going into the field. “We’re gonna make history better,” I said, climbing atop Serif and kicking her ribs. 36 We took off into the night, low to avoid City radar, and headed for the foothills of the middle-American south That Was. I had no idea I was precisely wrong. 1570 ACE 37 , 35 degrees Nortth, 84 deg15r70eeACsE Wes The journey from the City to the foothills took several hours. I still enjoyed riding bareback and was thrilled by the ripple of Serif’s wings. The sun had moved another six inches closer this cycle and it was hot, but adaptation is the jazz of the food chain and we knew to expect the changes. We arrived at the base of the mountains as the afternoon warmed to tangerines. Bits of the World That Was stuck up through the ground like weeds. Fallen buildings had been subsumed by the persistence of moss and peat, while tinkerers’ coins and cables and cans still peeked from between rocks in the rare gleams of white sunshine. The lurking sore of New Palestine bade us look closer at the land. Most endangered species breed in the least accessible landscapes. Their nests are typically buried, sunken, or surrounded by inhospitable terrain. We suspected the Chernoblys were no different. 1570 ACE They left spoor easy enough to track if you knew what to look for—fissures, ruins, trails. I saw the physical markers, while Serif picked up faint nuclear signatures through the Spirit. Serif alighted onto a pie-shaped clearing between groves. The ground was covered in needles, little wind-scattered pins. Her talons stabbed the ground unsympathetically and the trees shook, flicking more green needles onto the earth. 38 The air cut through my nose. It wasn’t pure—nothing was any longer—but I took it in hungrily, wanting something natural. What didn’t get blown up in the nuclear trade was eaten up by radioactive contaminants after the ceasefire. The ecological devastation worsened for nearly a hundred years. Radiation clouds drifted and the water table was corrupted. The soil turned red and nothing edible grew. It took nearly four centuries before the Earth started showing signs of recovery, though they were few and far between. Some of the mutant-animals lived pitiful, sickly lives before dying. We were glad they couldn’t breed. Mostly they were amphibians that tried life on land. All the proper mammals had long been dead. There were a few shrubs and ferns that survived, and then a single tree nearly a hundred years later. It was only within the last forty years we’d seen anything even closely resembling the forests of the World That Was. I took great joy in walking through pine and smelling sap. We were conditioned not to notice the lingering smell of decay. We set to work establishing a quick perimeter. This wasn’t our first look at that area. Expeditionary privateers had been there many times and we had scans and maps from half a hundred visits to the area, so we knew approximately where to look based on where we had already explored. Breaking up the region into four quadrants, we systematically swept the ground for signs. 39 1570 ACE The Elders discouraged exploration, and had often chastised me for my attempts to locate this fabled race of underground subhumans. I knew they were worried about the radiation levels beyond the City and about corrupting the servers. They were worried about even one person risking their life for something as immature as adventure, discovery, or understanding. New Palestine had been ground zero for the holocaust. Though many of the details were unclear, we knew that the first nuclear strikes both landed at and emerged from the Colony. Maybe somebody panicked and pushed the red button. Maybe somebody knew their little Jesus-fantasy was coming to an end and tried to out-Armageddon the other team before they were blown up first. Who knows? Who cares? All we knew for sure was that a group of religious zealots and idealists had literally been melted by the power of the split-atom and survived. We saw signs of life and strange radioactive readings on our long-range scanners soon after the opening skirmishes of the War. But the ground was so hostile to human life no one believed the read-outs. Satellite imagery showed people, or things that had once been people, crawling around the surface in noxious pitted holes. The colonists had softened into pale worms, devolutionary echoes of their former selves. Then they vanished. The world was caught up in the War and the survivors of that first strike were quickly forgotten. A decade later, when all the fighting had well and truly finished, world attention was redirected back to New Palestine. Most of the planet was still like the acidic insides of an alkali battery. But there were some who believed that if there were Chernoblys, and if they had managed to survive the holocaust, then they could survive anything. 1570 ACE I just didn’t expect my mother to be one of the survivors. Never in my worst imaginings would I have placed her there, in those skulking pits, a human grub. 40 We found traces of uranium secrete immediately after we landed. Normally uranium only exists in a solid state, but there was something about the Chernoblys’ bodies that meddled with the elemental composition of U-238, pushing it out of their skin like a second sweat. It was oily, glowed faintly green, and would seep into any porous substance— including rock—within half a day. “Look at this,” I said, pointing to the radioactive fluid. It was the largest sign I had ever seen and I quickly dismounted to get closer. “This is almost brazen,” Serif replied, stretching her tired wings from the flight. “They typically sweep their tracks.” “Why now?” I wondered, kneeling beside the secretion and analyzing it with my onboard processor. “After all this time, after years of staying hidden, why set aside caution and behave so recklessly now?” “Maybe this was not their choice.” Serif tossed her head. “That is merely a question of scale.” 41 1570 ACE I thought about that for a moment, about the Elders and their well-kept secrets. “Do you think the Elders were keeping people calm or keeping something hidden?” I stood up, closing the analysis software, and turned to face Serif. I wondered if this was the clue we had been looking for—the one that pointed us to the nest. “Get back to the City,” I said. “See if you can’t grab a research habitat and a couple of drones. We’re going to be here a while.” Serif walked close to me and leaned her beak down to tap it against my chest. “We need to be very clear about what we are doing and why,” she cautioned. “We’re going back in time,” I said, impatient with her lecturing. I knew what was at stake better than she. I had just seen my mother’s corpse. “It is going to be dangerous,” she said. I brushed past her beak and began to check the straps on her bridle. Serif never wore a saddle, but the bridle stayed on because she hated the way I pulled the feathers near her eyes. She wasn’t finished. “It is impossible to change the past, June Paul.” “It’s not,” I replied. One of our early finds among the ruins of New Palestine, now scattered over miles and miles of atomic debris, had been reprints of a journal. Those few pages had spoken of the Chernoblys’ ability to bend time and of the colonists’ experimentations upon the timestream. “What exactly are you hoping to accomplish?” she asked, her head straining against me as I over-tightened her straps. 1570 ACE “I’m going to save my mother.” “How?” she asked. I tugged too hard on the bridle, hoping she’d take the hint and leave the topic alone. “I’ll think of something.” 42 Serif bulled her body against me, pushing me back. She turned and looked at me squarely. “By rescuing her from the Colony?” she asked. “Or by averting the holocaust altogether?” “Yes,” I replied. I popped my knuckles, hoping to relieve tension. It didn’t help. Angels couldn’t laugh like we could, not even in derision, so Serif stamped her claw instead. “Even if time travel were possible, it is inconceivable that we could affect real change in the past.” She was my counselor now, my school teacher, and here were lessons in practicality. “Timelines are self-consistent. The Chronosphere automatically censors itself for paradox.” I interrupted, unwilling to be scolded. “Everything we’ve ever heard about the Chernoblys includes their ability to manipulate time,” I said. “She’s why we’re going back. She’s why we’re going to swim through time, paradox or no.” Childhood memories brushed the back of my mind. Mother, killing a spider that frightened me in bed. Mother, making cake for my birthday two weeks early, and then again on my special day. Mother, smiling as she swatted my father’s knee. Life had not been kind to her, but death had been even worse. She had lived for ten centuries, it appeared, as something barely more than a mongrel. And it was my fault. 1570 ACE 43 Serif bowed her head, giving me space for what I was feeling about my mother. “We will need support,” she said. I took a breath, working to gather my composure. “Can you get in to the drone hangar without being seen?” She nodded. “I will also grab two habitats.” “They’re less important than the drones,” I replied, already shifting my focus back to the task at hand. “We won’t freeze to death, but the work will likely go faster with some of the dummies to do the heavy lifting.” 1570 ACE Serif grumbled about being treated like a pack mule, and I winked out her voice box with a thought. She could still communicate mentally, but I was glad not to endure her beak-chatter for the moment. Because of our psychic link, I could always hear her, provided there was decent satellite signal. “Go on,” I told her, waving toward the horizon. “Yesterday everyone thought the Chernoblys were a myth. Like angels.” We should both return, she projected. You do not know if the Chernoblys are hostile. We may need more than one privateer. 44 I dialed in my potentiality simulator, just to show I wasn’t dismissing her out of hand. I was relieved to see that all posited scenarios looked just as promising for pressing ahead as they did for delay, reinforcement, and study. Serif felt me run the sim and tried to interject. We struggled mentally for a moment and I was irked by the fact that she had as much control over the OS as I did. I might have been her maker once, but she was no subordinate. Helper? Yes. Underling? Not a chance. We may need more than one privateer, June, Serif repeated. I could feel her tittering in my mind, eager to make her point but trying to make it unobtrusively. “Just promise me you’ll keep the Elders from interfering until we can nail down our base network. Alright?” I called out, already turning away from her. Do not forget the manacle. I walked back to her, reaching my hands inside her bridle and holding up the aluminum bracelet that housed her avatar. Stock manacles are cheap, buggy plastics that don’t get great reception in the mountains. But Serif had engineered this one after the last time we were separated. It allowed her to split her consciousness in two parts. She could be physically present in one locale, and intellectually engaged in another through the manacle. Serif’s physical body was going back to the City, but her holographic body would stay with me. Still, there is a difference between a sixteen hundredpound griffin and a six-inch jittery cartoon tethered to your wrist. Call me old school, I guess, but I prefer tech-andblood to that digitized parody of perceived intimacy. What are you going to do if you find them while I am not here? she asked, hesitating. 45 1570 ACE “Thanks, sister,” I said with a wave, clamping the manacle onto my wrist, “fly safe.” “If I find the Chernoblys and they’re dangerous, I’ll go back in time and warn you not to leave me here alone.” Serif blinked once, slowly, the disc-like apertures grating against my good humor. Good bye June Paul, she said. I will watch over you in Spirit. “Be careful,” I said. “You bit the head off an Elder, and I’m guessing they found that…offensive.” Extending her wings to their full span, Serif crouched in readiness and then began to beat them up and down. She leaped into the air, sending old leaves swirling around me. Which is the better wonder? I asked myself. Creating life? Or watching it live? Serif ascended slowly, in swollen moments, before accelerating into the distance. Her physicality thrust across the ginger sky, through the sable curtain of untouched mountain shadow, and I was left alone. You are not alone, Serif said through the OS. Her avatar manifested atop the manacle on my wrist, just a shaking little holograph, no bigger than a tea cup. I will be with you, even unto the end of the age. 1570 ACE “I know, sister,” I said to the diminutive marvel. “It’s just that the last guy who told me that left a little earlier than he’d hoped.” 46 Community was everyman’s byword for friendship, society, and mysticism after the War. “Brotherhood,” they’d say. “A community of contributors. Co-creators with God and one another!” And I had been right there with them. “Hoorah! Blah blah blah.” But the second Serif left, a quivering sort of happiness overcame me. It was so good to be alone in the woods, roaming the hills with the company of birds. Curious animals came to see me, the synthetic giant of their wild lore. I felt like the headliner in a zoological burlesque, with shrubs for patrons drinking rain. I was overjoyed not to be manufacturing smiles and singing songs with people I barely knew. Streets of gold sound like a great idea, until you realize they amplify thousands of off-key singers feigning jubilance. With no streets and nobody showing off, I felt pleasantly relieved. I got to enjoy life free from the burden of praise. 47 1570 ACE Using the onboard thermal scan, I sped through the underbrush until I found my first uranium bleed. It wasn’t much, just a sneeze against the trunk of a pinacea, but it was enough to let me know we were on the right track. All the legends tell of the Chernoblys’ radioactive blood, bile, pus, stool, and sweat. Everything wet is irradiated, which essentially guarantees evidence every time they come above ground. Each successive sign proved to be more recent than the last. I continued through the woods, tracking. I found three uranium smears in that first hour, the largest about the size of a footprint and still possessing some of the luminescent sheen marking its newness. But my explorations were interrupted. Serif’s avatar began chittering nervously, zipping back and forth through the banks of my OS. Her inability to isolate the source of her prescient nervousness was making her—and me—frantic. I tried to calm her down, to segregate her scan record, but it was no use. We both knew something was coming. Something unpleasant. Something massive and malignant and sour. 1570 ACE I had lived without fear for ten centuries. Now I was afraid for the second time in twenty-four hours. 48 A violent, catastrophic BOOM sounded across the hills. Concussion waves hit the trees with a discharge like drumfire. I wasn’t sure what caused it, but I felt the rush of hot wind as it slammed into my face and caused me to stagger. I thought all our big artillery had been decommissioned, but this was every bit as aggressive as anything I’d remembered from the War. June—can you see what has happened? Serif’s voice entered my skull. Her hologram popped up on the manacle and I could see her adopt a posture of readiness, like some hound alerted to game. “There was an explosion…” I began, but I was confused and couldn’t order my thoughts. I kept trying to form them, but they wouldn’t crystallize. I was frustrated, my head throbbing. There were slips of imagined glass prancing in front of my eyes and I couldn’t feel the ends of my fingers. 49 1570 ACE More than one, she said. The noise you heard was a rupture in the sound barrier. An unknown has arrived at point-three-three-zero. It is moving toward you, fast. Serif paused briefly, making mental calculations. Cycling oscillations, she said, buying patience. Serif turned back to face me, irises wide. She didn’t sound panicked, but she looked it. I perceive weapons. Judging from Serif’s low, cool, tone I thought she was underrepresenting the threat. Serif knew I hadn’t totally recovered from the shock and was trying to coax me back to alert status. “Any idea what it is?” I asked. It is not one of the Chernoblys, replied Serif. “Better recall your physicality,” I suggested, already moving further up the hill. I have already tried. Something is jamming our signals. “Great,” I said, tuning the sensors on my carapace to avoid any contact with limbs or leaves. I didn’t want to make a sound, and I would need every sensitivity optimized to mask my whereabouts. The processors in my limbs were accelerating to deal with the surge of cyber serotonin. There! said Serif, her voice punctured by enthusiasm. “What have you found?” I asked. I was hoping for a vantage point, or a defensible tract. I was still wondering what this hostile could be. There hadn’t been any overt enmity since the cleanup skirmishes that followed the Magog Offensive in 2071. There is a fissure large enough for you to enter, Serif said. It may lead into the warren of the Chernoblys. My processors continued to speed up and I moved a little faster. Do not be optimistic, she continued. Reception is intermittent in the hills. We may lose communications within the caves. 1570 ACE “Just tell me where to go,” I said, a little sharply. I wasn’t in the mood for caution. Serif bristled in my mind. I tried to console her, but was still feeling impatient. Looking down I saw trickles of microbiotic blood running from under my nails. I realized I had begun to clench my fists and forced myself to relax, wiping the drips on my legs. I unclenched my jaw and lifted my head to scan. 50 Bear north-northeast, said Serif. She was back to her low, cool tone. The old gal had confidence, I couldn’t deny it. And I was glad of it right about then. Her holographic avatar led the way, using the beak as a compass rose. The fissure was only a quarter mile off, but I would have to make my way through a thicket to enter. Carefully avoiding the thorny brambles, the sensor array binging alarms and warnings in my head, I was within ten feet of the fissure when Serif called, Break off! But it was too late. 1570 ACE 51 The ground beneath me shifted, and I was knocked to my knees. Bullets cut the air in front of my face. I rolled over to the side. I couldn’t see who was shooting or the direction from which the shots were fired. The ground sloped away to the right. I was scrabbling to keep my balance, lead slugs still whipping past on either side, a constant barrage. The little needles on the earth made it slippery, and the carapace was hitting every rock, leaf, and stone as I struggled for purchase. I had to quickly dial down the sensitivity just so I could move without the distraction of every-second alarms and touches. 1570 ACE I became a clod. I’d overcompensated and was running into trees, even uprooting one of the smaller ones. I had meant to grab it, but with my sensitivities numbed I accidentally ripped it from the ground and found myself clutching the trunk in one hand. Irritated, I tossed the small tree off to the side and dug into the ground with my toes. I accelerated up the hill, continuing to dodge the rounds as they tore around me. I was starting to panic, and could feel myself on the edge of psychic collapse. I should have worn another carapace. The sound of a sizeable discharge caught my attention, the brief blowback heard from twenty meters away. I leaped 52 forward, knocking two larger trees to the ground with my shoulders. The trunks cracked and bent at sharp angles but didn’t totally break. The top halves of the two trees fell over my back, protecting me with their canopies just as a fountain of brown soil burst behind me. The blast pushed me deeper into the trees, disoriented momentarily. Serif was running diagnostics and repair processes on the OS; distress snaked through her mental pitch. June, she called. June, are you able to respond? I didn’t say anything. I wasn’t yet sure if I could move. June! She called again. Her demeanor was breaking up and I could feel her losing focus on the diagnostics. She was afraid I was slipping from consciousness. You need to keep moving. It is getting closer. “Less chatter, sister,” I said, while rolling my shoulders forward. I could perceive the approximate location of my pursuer using my onboard telemetry. He was getting closer. I tried to get a good look at who was tracking us but couldn’t. I’m not even sure it was a “he”. He was too fast to observe, too dexterous to pin down, too elusive for my instruments to place accurately. 53 1570 ACE I caught glimpses. I could tell he was riding something, some beast. I only caught flashes of it. It looked like a genetic machine, like Serif. But it wasn’t an angel. It wasn’t a Counselor of any spec or mod I’d ever seen. This was something entirely different, darker, built for ballistics. Luridly bat-shaped, the creature smelled like old meat, rotting and burning through the woods. That fetor grew with the animal’s excitement. I could feel Serif inside my mind, screeching in defiance. Her claws were fully extended, and though I know it was only a mental image, I could feel them digging into my mind. I crawled forward on my stomach, thinking to cause less of a ruckus. I was only marginally successful. The trunk was so thick with branches that even my most cautious movements rustled. 1570 ACE I made a decision between stealth and speed and began to sprint toward the hills. I was hoping to reach the opening before my assailant and could feel him bearing down, pressing, like the closing of a heavy book. 54 I vaulted over the edge of the fallen trees and crouchlanded in a small opening. The bat appeared in front of me, folding in upon itself to dive through a narrow gap in the trees. Exhaust came from bulled nostrils, leaking also from the eyes. The Rider was slung low over its back and wore a sloping helm, such that his head looked like an extension of his mount, a spine or a dorsal fin. Raising his arms, the Rider bombarded me with shot cast from beneath the bat. Without any weapons, my choices were limited. Serif help! I called, not knowing what else to do. I was running out of options and couldn’t see how to escape. Serif left her perch on my wrist and diffused her avatar to 10x magnification. It wasn’t much of a distraction, but she caused the Rider to rear back for just long enough that I could adjust settings on my carapace. I dialed in for high impact, a fall, which allowed me to toughen my skin against the Rider’s slugs. I was already leaking synthetic blood in several spots, but I knew the wounds would heal if I could escape. Not quick enough. 55 1570 ACE I streaked back for the fissure. “Come!” I shouted, recalling Serif. She perched and submerged into the manacle just as I dove for the dirty face of the mountainside. The Rider shot twice, heavy ordnance, and the fissure closed right before me. The ensuing landslide carried me back in the direction of the bat and its Rider. I was trapped beneath felled trees and heaving mounds of gravel, trying desperately to break free. They began to descend slowly, wings beating like robed arms in applause. The Rider dismounted and I saw a flash of his pale back beneath jet armor. He was marked with tribal tattoos, faded and stretched across slack skin near the waist. He turned and I nearly lost sight of him. I could only see feet and legs, dull boots rusted and covered with mud. Indeterminate flakes stuck to the sharp toes and I had to stop myself imagining flashes of children crushed beneath heels that nearly grinned. I felt my gorge rise, and my mind slipped. My subconscious was trying to supplant this moment with pleasant pictures of spring fields, but I wouldn’t give in. 1570 ACE You need to move, said Serif, reorienting my grasp on the present. The Rider was closer now, within arm’s reach, and I could see the full measure of his stance. He was nearly two and a half meters tall, mailed in genetic circuitry like some palladium engine. His body was burnt black, fired in declivity, and when I saw him clearly I was tempted to despair. “Load the ball bearings,” I told Serif. She complied, booting the bearing drives in my knees and ankles. I thought they might create enough friction for me to spring loose and fight. I wasn’t sure what a Spelunker could do against a WarMachine, but I wasn’t ready to give up. I didn’t want to find out what might happen if my carapace was destroyed. Despite the fact that I could upload my consciousness to the City servers, I had a feeling the Rider wasn’t playing by the rules. He was a totally foreign entity, and I had no clue as to the limits of his tech. If he had found a way to interrupt the upload—or even override my backup generator—then none 56 of my failsafes would respond and the mindcharge wouldn’t fire. I would die. “June Paul?” he leaned over me, his carbonate helm bearing wings like those of his mount. He, too, was batlike. His face was a squashed wolf, an iniquitous rat. Ruby eyes and smoky breath made me think of brimstone, and a shudder passed through my mind. I felt myself floating, wondering about death, and giving in finally to the truth that this was the moment I would discover what lay beyond the veil. But the ball bearings caught, and I felt myself move. Only not forward or upward, like I’d expected. Down! “Serif!” I screamed. She launched her avatar from the manacle at the Rider. He reached out to grab her instinctively and she departicalized in front of his face. I grabbed his ankles, hoping to pull him down, but the bat swooped in to help and I lost my grip. A massive hole opened up beneath me. I was left dangling by one hand. All system resources diverted to the cams in my fingertips. Serif plunged toward me, reentering the manacle, and the last thing I remember is the Rider reaching down with one gauntleted fist and picking up a sharp rock from the ground. He raised it above his head, mocking, laughing, saying, “I’ve been looking for you.” And then he bashed in my face with a stone. 1570 ACE 57 nown k n U n io t a c o L , E C 3062 Era, CE) (1001 Common I couldn’t open my eyes. They were scratchy, like someone had covered them in pepper, and my mouth was full of caterpillar moss. I wanted so badly for that ape to stop smacking my head against the mantle. 3062 CE And then I came to, with a clutch of hot breath and a shuddering cough. I had no idea where I was. A hospital. I could tell that much from the white walls and the painfully stark light. Bells and alerts dinged from the stand of readers and screens and bags beside me. This place smelled like antiseptic and felt like an emergency. I couldn’t remember how I’d ended up in that room, and when I tried to get out of the bed I felt something bite into my wrist. I was in restraints, laced to the iron rail like bad filigree. I rattled my cuffs for a moment, motivated more by petulance than panic, before flopping back onto the cot and loudly blowing air between my flapping lips. I kicked my legs back and forth, tossing off the covers. I hated this place already, and as far as I knew I’d only been there for three minutes. Even the art was bad—just one horrid black and white photograph hung on the wall. It was a tree with eight chainsaws stuck halfway into the trunk. Stupid. If someone 58 ever asks me what I think of it, I’m gonna lie and pretend I never saw a thing. There was a guard outside, but when I tried to call him I threw up. If blood normally came out full of corn, then I had just puked blood. Otherwise, there was a pretty good reason I was in the hospital. Awkwardly, I shuffled off the side of the bed and wiped the corn underneath. I performed this acrobatically indecent feat by pushing the sheets around with one heel, exposing my manhood to the guard. He blushed and turned away, not even bothering to help. I should’ve left the corn for him. 3062 CE 59 3062 CE My room had a holographic television. I’d never seen one before, and I guess I would have been impressed if not for the content. Some televangelist was trying to vacuum money out of spiritual suckers with his Vaseline smile. My memory stirred, and though I couldn’t put my finger on precisely why, I knew I hated those guys. They say: Bladdity, blah, God is such a teddy bear, but all I hear is: Give me your money so I can pad my pockets and sell more lies. There’s a special place in Hell for religious hucksters. Of that, I’m sure. A cute nurse walked into the room, and I suddenly felt a lot more attentive. She was short, but with long legs, a doll detailed in just the right ways. I was upright and breathing fast. She probably thought I was panting. I sure wanted to be. Her uniform fit more snugly than I thought typical, but I wasn’t complaining. It was a retro number, both disarmingly sexy and functionally modest at the same time. I guess I was gonna have to get used to these new fashions, which was fine by me. The nurse smiled, a little uncertain, and asked, “How are you feeling?” “Better now,” I replied. I smiled too—rakishly, I might add—and tried to hold her hand. She withdrew it, placing a cool palm on my forehead. 60 “A little disorientation is normal,” she said, standing wonderfully close. She smelled like sugar and jam. “You’ve been in a coma.” “I barely felt a thing,” I replied. The nurse pulled back and bowed her head, offering what I thought was a short, silent prayer. That was weird. I’d never been prayed for in a hospital before. “Do you always do that?” I asked. The nurse put her hands on her hips and favored me with another smile. “Don’t you remember anything?” she asked. “Not that.” “It’s what we do,” she replied. And then she was off. As the old saying goes, I didn’t want her to go, but I was sure happy to watch her leave. 3062 CE 61 3062 CE I waited for at least three minutes after the nurse left before I couldn’t take the boredom any longer. Rattling my restraints, I finally gained the attention of the guard. The large man came into my room and set his clipboard on the windowsill. The blinds were closed, but sleeves of morning light still slashed through, shining on that ugly photo. He was too smiley for my liking, especially since the last time we made eye contact he had been looking south. What was it with everyone here? It was like being imprisoned by a clan of giddy inbred boobs. “Hey Gigantor,” I called out from my prison-cot, “how about letting me out of these cuffs?” The guard laughed, a great-hearted bellow that startled me. I didn’t think I was being funny. “They’re for safety reasons.” “Mine or yours?” I asked, and he laughed again. I just nodded and wondered what that meant while he undid my security bracelets. He was wearing the same scrubs as my new girlfriend, only the guard didn’t look as cute as the nurse. He had a nametag, but I wasn’t sure how to say it right. Joher put the handcuffs back on as soon as I stood up, and I immediately wondered two things: Since when was I a threat to anyone? And who would name their child Joher? 62 Joher helped me stand and started walking me down a long hallway. My stupid hospital gown kept wafting open and I wondered for what felt like the one-millionth time why no one ever redesigned these things. “What’s that?” asked the big man. Apparently I had been thinking out loud. “I’m just wondering why these gowns are so revealing. No one wants a palliative peep show.” Joher laughed once more. It was so easy, a really musical kind of laugh, but he ruined it by permitting himself to swing that laugh into a hum. Along the way, we passed a window. The light reflected my image off the glass, and I got a good look at how I’d fared during my captivity. I was taller than I felt I should be, and not as fat. I was barely fifteen pounds from fitness, and sucking in my stomach hardly caused my face to redden. I had all my hair, though the brown started a little further back than I would have liked. I was a hairy beast, but pettable— which was an exciting realization. The sign on the door at the end of the hall told me it was the office of the hospital shrink, Dr. Josef Chloros. “What are we doing here, Tiny?” I asked Joher. He towered over me, but apologetically, like he felt badly for being so intimidating. “It’s standard procedure before release,” he said. 63 3062 CE My large, humming, and protective escort led me down the hall to a corner office. It felt strange to be walking, like I hadn’t done that in a while. My muscles were jellied, and my back tingled. In some ways it felt like I was too stiff, in other it felt like I wasn’t sore enough, like maybe my muscles should either have atrophied completely or just come back to life after a nap. “A psych evaluation? Now it’s gonna feel like my gown is open even when it’s closed.” This time Joher didn’t laugh, and I wasn’t sure whether it was because he was offended or confused. “Doc’s not so bad,” he said finally. I relaxed, glad to know I hadn’t made an enemy of the largest human being I’d ever met. “I dunno, Humungo—I’m not crazy head-shrinkers,” I said, pushing my luck. “They make sane people say ridiculous things about their inner snowflakes, then diagnose us with a mental illness. Seems backwards.” 3062 CE Joher shook his head, his face crunched up in the state between confusion and rebuke. He didn’t reply, though, not to me. Instead, he rapped his fifteen-pound fist on the door and called, “Doc?” The door opened from the inside, and Joher guided me into the room with one big hand. I turned to look at him as he closed the door, but he still had that cross expression all over his foot-long face. I took a step forward into an office encased by windows and mirrors. The two exterior sides had floor-to-ceiling panes that looked over the downtown of a beautifully clean city. I could see well-dressed men and women scurrying to work in between the newest cars and manicured streets. I must have been in that coma for a while because nothing looked familiar. In one way, all big cities look the same, but I felt like a man out of my own time, like a visitor from the past. “Please have a seat,” said the man standing behind the door. His voice gave me the slinks, but I did as he suggested. He was well-groomed and styled—blue pinstripes and an antique pocket watch, spectacles and goatee—but I didn’t let my guard down. I sat in an almond leather chair and he took the straight-back across from me. They were the only two 64 chairs in the room and the only two pieces of furniture apart from the plain desk. There were no books. There was no phone. There were no lamps or cables or plants. It was like we were meeting in the desert. “Do you know what a Rorschach test is?” he asked, pulling a series of cue cards from his coat pocket. “The inkblots?” I asked. “Sure. You want me to tell you about my mother.” The headshrinker smirked and shuffled the cards on his lap. I got the impression he was going through the motions. I clanked my handcuffs together in my lap to get his attention, and the pointy-faced man glared over the rims of his glasses. “What do you see?” he asked, holding up the first card. I had no idea what it was supposed to be. It was a splash of ink, but I knew how the game worked. He nodded. “And this one?” “A goat.” More nodding, then another card. “An apple.” That time I got a murmur of assent. I wondered how long this was going to take. It took a long time. Bat. Business deal. Horns. Dragon. Richard Nixon. Television. Judge. And so on. Finally, the headshrinker put his cards away and stood up, straightening his wrinkled jacket. “Do you remember anything about your old life?” he asked. “Who you were? What you did? How you ended up in that hospital bed?” I thought maybe I should lie to the man, but since I’d been lying to him for nearly forty-five minutes, I thought I’d try something new. 65 3062 CE “A garden,” I said. I didn’t answer his question. “You will need to remember,” Chloros continued, “if you’re going to have any success in the coming days.” I had no idea what he was talking about, but he fixed me with a knowing look that suggested I soon would. The headshrinker walked me over to the door and placed his hand upon the handle. But he didn’t open the door. Instead, he held my eyes uncomfortably with his own. “We knew each other,” he said. “And you’ll come find me when you remember.” 3062 CE I didn’t respond, idly wondering if that was becoming a habit. “I’ll be here,” he concluded, opening the door and nodding for Joher to walk me back to my room. The rest of my hospital stay came to me only in beats, through a daze. I felt like I was being guided along my life like a passenger on rails. I felt a little lightheaded and wondered if maybe I shouldn’t slow down, but the thought of being stuck in that hospital made my hackles stand on end. I knew the shrink was greasing the discharge, and I wanted to play along, so I did. The guard took me back to my room. I stripped. He stopped humming. I put on some clothes the guard said were mine. They didn’t fit. I wore the clothes anyway. The guard brought me downstairs to Administration. I signed out. I used a fake signature. I looked for the cute nurse. She smiled. She ran off. I was in a maze. I felt hungry. I was going through a phase. The receptionist asked me questions. I gave fake answers. I was in a daze. The receptionist knew I was faking. She let me go anyway. I was still in a maze. I took my stuff from a locker. I had a watch I sold to the guard. He’s the kind of man who always pays. I had no ID. I had no phone. I walked through the front door, still in a haze. 66 The noon sun smacked me in the face, and I squinted, holding up a hand. But I never slowed down. I was so eager to be free from the hospital I walked right into the middle of traffic and got hit by a Humvee. The haze began to throb. 3062 CE 67 I was laid flat on the pavement, tires screeching around me and people screaming. All I could think was how I was going to end up back in that hospital room. 3062 CE The only good thing about the hospital was Nurse Naughty. Even so, there was no way I was going back. When a bystander leaned over to ask if I was okay, I pulled myself up and limped over to a nearby alley with his help. And then I limped down the alley without it. I had a headache, but thankfully nothing worse. I was gone, and all anybody really paid attention to was the damage done to the Yuppie’s Hummer. Guess who was driving? The TV preacher. Ha! My situation became even more ironic once I saw the rear bumper sticker: Jesus on Board. I thought, There he goes again, letting himself take another beating. At the end of the alley, I hopped in a cab and told my new best friend to drive me to the nearest bar. The cab was surprisingly clean, almost as sterile as the hospital. In sharp contrast to the yellow exterior, the insides were new cream upholstery, and there wasn’t a single cigarette burn. I felt a little self-conscious, worried about whether I’d bleed on the backseat, but the cabbie put me at ease. He was clever, trading jokes in his thick eastern accent, and said he 68 wouldn’t charge me the full fare. “I saw the accident, my friend.” “From a block away?” “Ha! You are funny. No—I was there, and when you walked away I got in my cab to find you. I would not wish that on my worst enemy.” “Am I your worst enemy?” I asked, playing along. “Only if you jump in front of my cab like you did that car, eh?” We both laughed. “Tell me your name?” he asked. “You first,” I replied. “You can call me Masheet. All my friends do.” He was so pukingly happy I almost felt bad when we circled the block and I informed him I didn’t have any money. “How will you pay?” he asked, suddenly severe. The cabbie roared. “Oh no! It is I who need compassion. It is I with many mouths to feed.” The cabbie slammed on the brakes and was out of the driver’s door in one swift motion. He nearly ripped the backseat passenger door from its hinges in his hurry to grab my shirt and pull me out. I wasn’t wholly aware of what was happening. Purely on instinct, I batted his hand away. But I was stronger than I remembered. Or I hit him harder than I intended. The cabbie lost his balance and hit his head on the sharp corner of the door, collapsing unconscious on the ground. I dumped his body in the alley and stole his cab. I knew he’d wake up eventually, but for the moment all I was thinking was that I needed his money, his car, and—most importantly—his name. Welcome to your new life, Masheet. 69 3062 CE “I can’t,” I said. “But I thought maybe you had a little compassion for one such as I.” tem, s y S e v a C d e m a n n U es West, , 84 degre 35 degrees North 1570 ACE June? Can you hear me? My eyes fluttered beneath closed lids. When I opened them, I couldn’t tell the difference. It was a simulacrum of black and purple splotches when my eyes were closed, and it was a kaleidoscope of inky violet splashes when open. I knew things weren’t working normally yet, and it hurt to use my eyes, so I shut them once more. Are you hurt? I know you are awake. Can you acknowledge? “Stop…talking…to me,” I moaned. I felt like I was safe for the moment, but my pain receptors were working on overload. There was significant damage to the carapace, but I just wanted to be left alone. If I could turn off the pain I could go to sleep. Does it hurt you when I project? Can you tell if something has been damaged? 1570 ACE “Shush, or I’ll pull off your pinions.” Serif stopped speaking, but I had a visual imprint of her sitting on her haunches and turning her head away. She could be touchy. I tried opening my eyes again. Greyish blue light filtered down from the ceiling in thin falls. It felt like I was in a picture of outer space, but my topographical readings informed me we were underground. 70 My head began to clear. “Where are we?” I asked. We are in a large cave system, Serif replied. When the rider hit you, you lost your grip on the ledge. He has not come after us, but he has sealed this exit. I am mapping the cave now, but it will take some time to upload the data. Serif could commission her feathers to create basic scans of large areas. Individual, sentient feathers left her body and floated around to collect data, exploring the various twists, turns, and egresses of each tunnel. The feathers were still dependent upon Serif and required radio access to the manacle, but they were a fantastically useful tool. You had better activate your low light lenses, June. “Sure. Right after I unbreak my back.” I hadn’t broken my back and she knew it, but I had cracked two ribs, and the index finger on my left hand was bent horribly. The cavern was a large carbonic arena. The navy light was dim, but there were floating specs of illuminants working their way down to the floor. The limestone surfaces were like spiderspun candyfloss, greyed clouds and toothpaste yawning in a radial, combustible pattern. Thick spurs of ore thrust down from the ceiling like columns. Still lying there, I yanked on my finger to re-set it, asking Serif to reduce the pain sensors in the OS. She had already begun melding the ribs back together. You will have some reduced mobility, she informed me. “How bad is it?” I was trying to avoid getting off the ground. You will not be able to do traversals. I accessed the settings panel in my ocular nerves and selected first the greenwash and then the low light filters. I don’t like the strange ethereality that comes with the 71 1570 ACE “That could be a problem,” I said. greenwash night-vision, and fortunately the low light filter was able to bring up enough color for me to see without it. I grinned, remembering the earliest carapaces I had designed for caving. My affection for all things low tech had lead me to incorporate carbide lenses, only to later discover their unreliability. They were difficult to seal off from the rest of the body and any drainage messed up my telemetry. When we were promised new bodies that would never get sick or grow old, I had anticipated something more trustworthy than a desktop computer. People used to say everything happened for a reason, that somehow the Creator was watching over us, leading us through trials in order to prepare us for Heaven, like life on earth was actually Purgatory and we were being purified for the life beyond. But I was already living the life beyond and it sucked. 1570 ACE Heaven’s grass wasn’t any greener, which was why I was aggravated that no one else watered their lawn. 72 I leaned forward to get my back off the cave floor, tenderly stretching my muscles to see where the most pain would register. I cracked my neck and stretched my legs. Then I craned up onto my feet and previewed the early data Serif was sending across my optical display. The northwest passage of this system extends for over a hundred miles, said Serif. She was already settling into a routine we had long established in these environments. I enter. The feathers scout. Serif explains. I make dumb jokes that usually result in us all getting lost. It looks like most of it is passable, but you will be doing a lot of swimming. “Good thing I got the upgrade,” I said. My carapace had a built-in hydrodynamic inhaler that let me breathe underwater. There is very little elevation change along that pass, and few reports of any structures or thermal loops. It may be a dead end. Thoughts of the Rider hovered around the edge of my mind. I knew I’d have to figure out who he was and what he 73 1570 ACE “What about the rest of the cave?” I asked, beginning to walk to the southern end of the room we were in. It was like a grand ballroom, majestic formations stretching over the dark in frescoes of slate. wanted, but I kept forcing those thoughts to the back of my mind. He was outside. I was inside. My safety may only be momentary, but I was in a palace of wonder one step closer to the timestream, on the threshold of novelty. Tribulation came with the territory. I wondered if Serif had collected any data on our attacker. “Any idea who the big ugly was?” Serif was silent, a rarity for her. “Hey angel—I’m keen on this being a conversation.” She had never failed to respond before, and I scheduled a neural maintenance check through the OS for when we returned to the City. I do not know, June. Serif sounded hesitant, her words sluggish and wavering. I have never encountered genetics like those before. The specs were not only unfamiliar, they were a completely divergent build out. Whoever grew that beast did so autonomously from City research and development. “Great. An independent has just single-handedly crossed the barrier between the finite and the immortal membranes of biology, and you’re telling me I’m his muse?” We do not know. 1570 ACE Mentally, I checked in with Serif’s physicality to see how far away she was. I was able to get a connection but it wasn’t great. Our signal wasn’t being jammed any longer, but we still had to contend with the dense rock of the caves. Serif hadn’t even reached the City when the attack occurred, and I waved her off returning right away. She’d be no good in a tight space like this, and I couldn’t do anything to protect her from the bat while I was hunting Chernoblys. Serif’s holograph manifested above the manacle and continued to describe the cave system. The southern tunnel 74 follows a river underground, she said. We ought to explore there first. “Why the river?” I asked, continuing in the direction she suggested. I was trying not to get my hopes up. There were so many unanswered questions, so many untested hypotheses, but it was possible we had just transitioned from peril to providence in a single moment. There is something strange about the water. It has a high concentration of dielectric minerals. The microwave readings are startling. “Meaning what, exactly?” Serif’s avatar spread out her wings and fluttered up toward eye level. Whatever I first saw in the Spirit while scanning for Chernoblys is likely coming from that river. She stopped beating but remained suspended. It always felt strange when she did that. She couldn’t hover in her physical form. Maybe that was why she loved to do it so much. Any credibility concerning time travel is due to the contents of that river. Think of it as an amplifier. Whatever makes those legends tenable is multiplied a thousand fold in there. “So you think it’s possible?” I asked. “We might actually make this work?” I am less skeptical than I was, she replied. “And the Chernoblys? You think they’ll be at the end of that river?” Not at the end, June. They are here already. 1570 ACE 75 I turned as she spoke and noted a small movement from the corner of my eye. I zoomed into an angular rock face, but my augmentation wasn’t sharp enough to discern any differences. I crouched low and cautiously moved toward the cave wall on my left. That was where I’d seen the movement, and there was an irregularity to the surface of the wall that beckoned. Is that it? I asked Serif through the OS. I didn’t want to speak out loud, on the chance that the sound of my voice might startle the other presence nearby. I also didn’t yet know if the Chernoblys could understand me. It might be prudent to find out later, but for now I preferred to keep my plans between Serif and myself. 1570 ACE Be careful, June. She is scared. Her heart is beating well over two hundred beats per minute. This was a moment of profound magnificence. Here was one of that fabled race of time travelers about whom we knew so little. Their very existence offered hope for the past. I spoke softly to the wall, inching closer. I wasn’t speaking anything intelligible, just making sounds like you would with pets. I was focusing my energies on tone, the goos and blahs taking care of the punctuation, cadence, and rhyme. My senses were dialed all the way up, and I could feel every waft of air moving through the cave like a sigh. If I strained I could hear the creature’s shallow breathing. 76 Every life is a miracle. Every beating heart the drum of eternity. All we had for the last thousand years we’d built in a lab. But here was something we couldn’t yet explain, the interruption of our arrogance. She moved. I confess it barely registered. I had been staring at that one spot on the wall for five or six steps as I approached and never once considered I was looking in the wrong place. But she wasn’t running. She wasn’t attacking. She was definitely female. In any other environment I would have had the good grace to blush, but not here. In this moment I was no more male-minded than a microscope. Slowly, June, Serif warned. I got it, sister. Serif’s voice in my head wasn’t helping my nerves. Keep your halo on. I continued speaking reassuringly to the Chernobly, trying to assure her I meant no harm. She was short, maybe five feet, and wiry, standing naked with white eyes. I don’t think she can see, I told Serif. Her body responds to every word and movement you make. Can you not perceive it? Not all of us are native to the Spirit, I said. But, yeah, she’s listening. The Chernobly was the same color as the limestone cavern, a natural camouflage of mottled grey. Mud and dirt and the pale brush of scrapes wholly covered her. She smelled like the cave, which is to say she didn’t give off any odor distinguishable from her surroundings. She fit perfectly. Her mouth opened and she reached out her long arms, making her fingers slowly dance in the air in front of her. 77 1570 ACE She is looking to touch you, June. She has a way of feeling forward, hearing through her fingertips. I approached, still nervous and excited about this first contact. I signaled the OS to start recording through the low light lens, even though I knew the footage would be grainy. Her left hand found my shoulder and her right hand went quickly to my face. She moved with confidence over my features in the way the once-blind had identified other people. She is creating a topograph, Serif noted. Yeah, I got it. I wanted Serif to shut up for a minute and let me enjoy this. Thing is, the Chernobly wanted to enjoy it, too. Really, enjoy it. She is entering her mating cycle, June. I detected a gentle mockery in Serif’s tone. I think she has selected you for breeding. “Sorry, “ I said out loud, though in the same tender tones. “Not just now.” I reached up and cautiously pulled the Chernobly’s fingers from my face. The female tried to reach me again, lower, and I was firmer the second time. Her mouth closed, hard, and she flung out her hands to the side. Sharp nails grew from her fingertips, and she swiped at me, bawling her gash mouth. My sensors blared in alarm, and I jerked backward as she cut my arm deeply and ran off. Serif began diagnostics on the outer skin of my carapace, on the OS, and on the chassis. 1570 ACE That wound is not clean, Serif warned. She has transmitted an infection. “Run the antivirus.” It is anomalous to the program. It will take a moment to work a patch. 78 I was about to say we’d squandered our first contact when my sensors alerted me to the Chernobly female once again. She hadn’t run off. She was coming for another assault. She very much wants to mate with you, June Paul. I do not recommend that. “Thanks,” I said, dodging and weaving the clawed arms of the eager female. I knew what she was after, and how aggressively she wanted it. I was barely able to stay clear of her attacks. The Chernoblys were obviously capable of damaging the carapace. That was no small feat. Fortunately, I was quicker than she was. Just not by much. Unfortunately, I could feel the infection working against my OS. It is uncommon for biological illness to affect the machine mind, yet that’s precisely what was happening. From what I remembered, it felt like I was coming down with a cold and my skin fevered with the early ache of the flu. “How’s the patch coming?” Slowly. The Spelunker is not equipped for detoxification like the Magellan. I am assisting the processor, but it is difficult. “Meaning?” We may not be able to find an antidote. You need to disengage. We need to run the boot disk so I can test the startup sequence for irregularities. “Translation?” I asked. Run! 79 1570 ACE Serif was using a lot of big words for the middle of a mating ritual. I wasn’t catching half of them, but felt like I needed to know what she was saying. I fled across the cavern, and the Chernobly followed, screeching behind me in a strange tongue reminiscent of crickets and leaf-mining flies. Distantly I wondered how she was making that sound, but pushed those thoughts deeper, for later, and kept running. The open ballroom was rapidly coming to a shallower tunnel. I had to dive forward and slither on my belly, pulling myself in to fight through the opening at the end. The narrow space pinched my shoulders, and the low ceiling kept me from using my knees. There were sharp turns that forced me to angle my body unnaturally, and if it wasn’t for the ball bearing mods I don’t think I could have made it through. I had temporarily lost my pursuer, but I didn’t believe that would last. 1570 ACE The tunnel before me was cramped. It was getting smaller, the space closing in around me. Even after all this time I had to fight hard not to panic. It didn’t look like there was enough room to get through. I could feel the Chernobly behind me. I imagined her breathing. I could feel her hunting me, coming closer, and the only way forward was through this channel. Water trickled through the bottom of the tunnel. In order to get my shoulders beneath the top of the tunnel, I had to 80 bury my face in the water. I didn’t submerge, but my left ear was completely covered, and the water threatened to leak into the side of my mouth if I opened it. The space kept getting smaller. She is getting closer, said Serif. I inched forward, feeling the tightening rock press me. It felt like I was holding up a mountain. She is at the mouth of this tunnel. She must know we are here. “You’re not helping,” I replied. My forward movement stopped. I couldn’t move my upper body. I had little leverage with my legs but tried to push forward with my toes. I moved an inch, then realized I had only wedged myself in deeper. I was stuck. Serif loaded my ballbearings and the gears wound up. The new movement helped me forward another inch. Then another. I could wiggle one shoulder. But the way ahead looked even tighter. Here she comes! screamed Serif. The Chernobly breezed through the stony aperture, gaining back the ground she’d lost, and lunged at me once more. I felt the Chernobly grab my ankle, and I screamed. Serif gave full power to the ball bearings, and I jerked forward with a start, scraping the carapace against the rock wall. 81 1570 ACE Reeling away from the sting of her claws, I heard my sensors scream as I went over the edge of a short cliff. The tunnel bottom had dropped away entirely, despite all appearances to the contrary. I tumbled backward and did something unintentionally gymnastic before landing awkwardly on my feet. I looked up to see the Chernobly leap down, bracing herself with her hands and swinging her legs beneath her like some fervid primate. In that split second I pushed the sensor array to give me a quick readout on the immediate area. The impulse told me my best chance was to try something the carapace could do but the Chernobly could not. I started running, trusting Serif’s datastream and sprinting toward the next chamber. I was caught in an emotional crossfire. All my suspicions about the Chernoblys were validated, but my elation was compromised by libidinous terror. They were human enough to lust, but not enough to control it. I had to keep running, but I felt such strong desire to stop, to let whatever was going to happen happen and learn from it. Soak it in. Experience it fully, trusting my carapace to keep me safe and sane. 1570 ACE I wondered if the infection was already compromising my ability to make sound decisions. The tunnel narrowed again and I had to clamber down on my hands and knees to pull through a jagged hole. The Chernobly scraped and bit at my heels. I kicked at her, and it felt like stepping on sticks in the woods. As several of her fingers and claws broke off, the pressure lessened. My knees popped, and I screamed in frustration, though I couldn’t discern whether I was angry with her or with myself for hurting her. When I emerged from the tunnel I rolled forward onto my feet. I was on a thin path in a low round room about twenty feet in diameter. I had a short runway before me, 82 terminating in a long drop-off. The chasm went down deeper than Serif had mapped, but my angel encouraged me to jump, trusting my momentum to carry me across to the other side. I pushed myself furiously, tweaking out the performance enhancers in the carapace. I had ten steps before I had to jump and was straining the limits on all my mods. I would have made it. I had the speed. I had the angle. But I had forgotten about my fused ribs and limited mobility. I couldn’t fully extend my legs. I couldn’t accelerate quickly enough to make the jump. I tried to change tactic, but the pain in my side intensified as I jolted to a sudden stop. I slipped and went over the edge of the chasm, falling. 1570 ACE 83 I wasn’t short by much, but it was enough. I caught the far wall with one hand, nearly fifteen feet below the cusp. The weld in the ribs cracked and this time they came apart for good. I cannot fix this, said Serif. We will have to do something else. Not now! I shouted mentally. 1570 ACE My handhold crumbled, and I slipped another ten feet, crashing and turning against the rock face. I began to flail. I bashed the underside of my chin on a large knoll and bit through my lip. It slowed my fall. I was able to grab hold of a calcite swelter with my left hand. I begged Serif to dial down the pain sensitivity in the OS. I was going blind and was afraid I would lose consciousness. The carapace was tripping breakers and large portions of my copper skin were discoloring, a feature designed to locate damage. My left hand was buried deep into the calcite. Bringing my right hand over, I anchored myself securely with both arms and took a moment to catch my breath. I had a good grip. Serif diverted some of the strength reserves into my metacarpals, and I began to climb up the rock face. You need to let go, June. “What are you talking about?” 84 The drop is long, but the river is at the bottom. It is very deep. Your carapace will protect you from the impact, and the wound in your side will not worsen. You have not lost much time, and I have collected valuable insight into the behaviors and capabilities of Chernoblys. As if to reassure me, Serif manifested from the manacle and leaned her digital beak forward to look me in the eye. You will survive, she said. “I’ve already fallen once today, thanks.” Serif shook her feathered head. You may want to arrive at the colony before the female. It is going to be much more difficult to set up a forward observation post once the creatures are aware of your presence. “Colony?” I could have sworn she was smirking. My scans have reported stone-cut developments predating the War. There are buildings and avenues approximately two miles downstream, covering an area of nearly one half hectare. They are the ruins of New Palestine. “You little devil,” I said, leaning forward to pretend-kiss Serif on the beak. She departicalized, and I looked one last time over my shoulder. It was a long drop into darkness. There was a lot of risk in a jump like this, a lot that could go wrong. I let go. 1570 ACE 85 City Unknown, 3062 CE 3062 CE Good God, that town was boring! Everything was clean and neat and in its place. All the streetlamps looked like candelabras from catalogs, glowing symmetrically insipid. It was like all the medicated housewives of Lackluster Land had gotten together and planned some place to relax. There was nothing to do. I couldn’t find a speakeasy or a cocktail lounge for twenty minutes. Just churches—everywhere those flaccid, florid, palaces of pornographic veneration. You know what you catch in those places? Reverial disease. No thanks. Just thinking about it made my headache worsen. The world had enough suck-ups and sycophants without smart people doing stupid things in the name of dumb lords. When I finally found a bar it was a disappointment, one of those hipster joints with fancy drinks on the menu. It was a small place, with only room for a hundred dancers if they made use of the bar and squeezed together properly on the disco top. Tab A, meet Slot B. Enjoy. Party for ninety-eight more coming through. I had ditched the car a few blocks away in an alley and approached the bar on foot. The door was heavy, but some idiot had put jingly things on it and their tinkling was like little knives driving into my skull. I needed something for this headache sooner rather than later. 86 The crouched ceiling inside was wrapped in shipping pallets with bare bulbs dangling down like tentaculai. I reached up and touched one, a low watt number, and it took a minute before I could smell my skin burn. It didn’t hurt, not really, but I liked the attention I got from my machismo. Chicks dig dudes who burn. The sick pungency of incense dominated the atmosphere, but I could still find a whiff of comfort beneath it in the stale beer and old piss that couldn’t be mopped from the corners. I didn’t know who I was or what I did, but I remembered clearly how to have fun. Absently, I let my body drift toward those repositories of good times, the excrement of gladness and youth. I stood in the corner for a moment and willed those former glories in through my pores, arming myself against the cutesy hoopla of the tragically hip. “We have thirteen different microbrews, brah. What’ll you have?” “Give me something my daddy wouldn’t beat me for drinking,” I said, but the creampuff got the wrong idea. He brought me a purple beer in a vase. I drank it anyway, wondering when they started putting flowers in booze. Then two more. I asked for another drink. “Sorry fella,” said the barman. “That’s the limit.” “What kind of a bar has a limit?” The kid looked at me like I was from Mars, and I thought he needed man-lessons. I 87 3062 CE I walked to the bar and noted the neat array of froufrou bevvies on the counter. An umbrella would have been unfashionable. They were served with sticks of fruit coming out of them like edible splinters. “You got beer?” I asked the barman. was just about to push him a little harder when a pair of legs stretched out beside me and the thing on top leaned across the counter. “Hey stranger,” said the legs with the girl. It was the nurse. I didn’t remember her having pink hair before, but maybe it was the light. Then again, my memory wasn’t what it used to be. I know I would have remembered those heels. “Fancy meeting you here.” 3062 CE My off-duty nurse had a figure models envied to the point of starvation, self-loathing, and surgery. She showed off in a shrink-wrap top and a skirt that barely counted as a belt. “I liked your uniform better,” I said. She knew I was lying. You couldn’t look like that and have men tell you the truth. I couldn’t tell the truth, so I guess that was a wash, but I don’t think either one of us was looking for conversation. “Buy you a drink?” “Dirty Girl Scout,” she told the barman, and I would’ve given my right arm to have her say that to me. “Make it two,” I said. And when creampuff looked at me, eyes creased together like he was going to make me shove it, I added, “You wouldn’t deny a man his Dirty Girl Scout?” He got the joke. I got served. 88 The nurse said she hadn’t wanted to talk much at work ‘cause her boss was jealous. “He wants us to think jealousy is a virtue, as if we’re married or something,” she said, finishing her second drink. “Are you married?” I asked. I liked the way she was playing with her hair, and I replaced one loose strand behind her left ear, to show I was interested. “Not marriage,” I said, “but I might have a proposal for later.” The nurse leaned forward and slapped my chest with the back of her hand. I liked the feeling of her small, soft fingers knuckling my skin. “You don’t even know my name,” she said. “I don’t even know my name,” I replied. She laughed, and I figured she thought I was being funny. The nurse didn’t offer any insight on my time at the hospital and I didn’t ask. We were on a whole different wavelength, and the last thing I wanted was to expropriate something stimulating for something salutary. “My name’s Evelyn,” she said, sizing me up. “You call me Evie.” “My name,” I said, stalling to remember, “is Masheet.” 89 3062 CE “Are you proposing?” she asked, batting butterfly eyelashes. Evie looked at my strangely then, and I realized they’d used another name at the hospital. But the moment passed, and we got to talking, and drinking, and soon I was ready to start conjugating all the other verbs. It must have been dumb luck that put us in the same bar. Whatever it was, I was feeling grateful, but then some muscle-bound meat-sicle showed up and put his arms around my girl. “What are you doing talking to my girl?” he asked. Evie smiled up at him, hardly worried at all. Naughty nurse, I thought, your boyfriend is about to need a doctor. 3062 CE I stretched my neck to the side and cracked my knuckles. Evie’s smile slipped when she saw I meant trouble, and the boy bicep took a half step in front of her. I popped out of my chair and pushed my chest into his. He looked surprised, like maybe he thought size was a deterrent. “Wait!” Evie called out. For the life of me I can’t remember why I didn’t just knee him in the balls and be done with it. Maybe I thought Evie was special. Maybe size really did matter. Either way, I took her advice. “I’m flattered you both think I’m nice,” she said, standing up between us. “But I don’t want this to get nasty.” I had a strong impression this wasn’t the first time I’d been in a bar where a girl worked to stop a fight. Looking at the handsome hulk, I didn’t think Evie was going to be successful. But muscles surprised me. “How ‘bout a race?” he asked, trying to look like he was clever. I was clever too. “How ‘bout I punch out your teeth?” I asked, flashing a grin. See? Clever like a thrown anvil. “You dudes are gonna have to take it outside,” said the bartender. He was leaning over the bar toward us, pencil mustache trying to set off his thin black hat. “Got it, brah?” 90 I reached out and chopped the bartender in the neck with the flat of my right hand. He started choking, eyes wide, like he never imagined someone would hit a man with a beret. I pulled him by the ears over the bar. He was unconscious when he hit the ground. Evie was laughing, though I’m guessing it was more out of disbelief than cold humor. Muscles took a step back. “That was incredible,” Evie said. “But I like Duke too much to have you mess up his pretty face. How about some other way of settling this?” “What did you have in mind?” I asked, keeping one eye on the muscular boyfriend. “A kissing booth?” Evie’s eyebrows arched and I saw the light go on in her hot little head. “How about a drinking game?” she asked. 91 3062 CE Evie turned to survey the bar. We had quite an audience, yet the bartender was the only employee in the room. We were on our own. No management. No authority. No one to tattle. 3062 CE I wasn’t really keen on drinking games. Too kidsy. But I agreed because I wanted to make time with the nurse. And I was starting to realize how big Duke actually was. I would have agreed a lot sooner had I known he couldn’t hold his liquor. Three drinks later, knees like marshmallows, Duke passed out just as the bartender was coming around. “You wanna make drinks,” I asked the creampuff, helping him to his knees. “Or are you gonna try and toss me out again, brah?” “Take what you want,” said the barman, watery-eyed and sniveling. “I’m done.” He left! I couldn’t believe it. He split, leaving the rest of us with a stocked bar for an unplanned, prepaid, private party. I even forgot my headache for a while. I felt like I’d died and gone to Heaven. Not that they’d let me in. 92 Evie introduced me to all her friends at the bar. She was a real socialite, and I slathered it up. I didn’t know where they came from, but there was a doe-eyed quality to them. It was like I’d found a nest of vestal virgins eager to soak in my worldly wisdom. I don’t know if I’ve ever shared that concern; though, to be fair, look where that’s got me. 93 3062 CE I tried to be good, but it was so hard. They had so many provincial ideas. Every time they wanted to do something evocative, or raucous, or mischievous, they were paranoid about what people would think. It wasn’t just that they were scared. They were truly nervous about whether someone else would get their feelings hurt if they gave themselves over to fun. That night was incredible. At the end, Evie invited me back to her place for another round. She sounded a little devilish when she said it, but a little like an angel, too. 3062 CE And it was on. Fine wine and great sex. I had such a good time I couldn’t remember a thing. Fortunately, when I woke up in her bed the next morning, Evie was there with a cold beer, a hot coffee, and a scalding shower. That combination made me want a hangover for the rest of my natural life. Since I didn’t actually own anything other than the clothes on my back, I guess you could say that was the night we moved in together. It was the beginning of a revolution. 94 tem, s y S e v a C d e m a n n U es West, , 84 degre 35 degrees North 1570 ACE There is a vast difference between diving and falling. Diving begins in exhilaration, which threatens to collapse into panic. Falling begins with panic, but teases you with exhilaration. I had fallen into the cave system after my confrontation with the Rider, but now I voluntarily dove off the calcite wall, tracking my descent all the way down and plotting my entry point to avoid potential hazards. First contact with the water was shockingly cool. I could feel my chest expanding and shoulders shaking as the carapace acclimated to the thermocline. When my head first went under the water, I thought I must have bumped it. I was having flashes and visions. It was like a dream of other people in another place. But I knew I couldn’t be dreaming. I could still perceive Serif running checks on the infection in the background of my OS. I was mindful of my body mechanics in a way you never seem to notice in dreams, with none of the surreality and all of the dullness of real life. 95 1570 ACE The vision-people came in fits and starts. They were strangely dressed and spoke with peculiar cadence. But to say they seemed foreign would have misplaced my discomfort. When my head popped up from the river, the vision ended. I swam along the surface for a moment, but felt something brush my leg and dipped my head down to see what it was. It took a moment for my low light lenses to further adapt, but I quickly saw the culprit was nothing special, just a cave fish. When I put my head back in the water, the visions started again. I felt like I was transported somewhere—still me, just no longer in the cave system. In that other place I could see a group of children clustered around me in rapt attention. I was unprepared. I thought I’d locked those emotions away tightly, having properly grieved and moved on. But here they were. 1570 ACE Children. 96 Something happened to our children after the War. The evolutionary process betrayed us. We hit the tipping point for the sustainable population of the planet. The birth rate dropped, but we were so elated by our ability to cryogenically transfer our consciousnesses from meat to matrix that we didn’t rate the situation with any special significance. Our minds were focused on making better bodies, on biotechnology, neuroscience, and prosthetics. Our genetic development in that first decade after the Common Era made the preceding millennia seem like an unnecessary prologue to immortality. But by the time we realized no one was making babies anymore, it was too late. That was the one thing we couldn’t fabricate: actual human life. We could clone. We could replicate. We could bring all manner of species to life. We could elevate the intelligence of beasts and augment the genetic shortcomings of an existing genus. But we couldn’t make any more babies. It had been so long since we’d had any actual children. God knows we tried. They were gone from the world, but somehow—in this liquid lucidity—they were still here. 1570 ACE 97 Within the vision I scanned from side to side and caught a glimpse of a man walking out a door at the back of the room. He didn’t want to be observed, which made him all the more interesting. He was dressed in a slate-grey suit and even at this distance I could tell he was impeccable about the cut and press of his cloth. I could hear myself talking to the kids, but didn’t know what I was saying. They were seated on the floor in a half-circle, about a dozen of them. They wore shorts and tucked shirts and neck kerchiefs. We were in a building of wood and stone with a low ceiling and light from a bare bulb. The plank floor was well worn and thick. It was rustic, but comfortable. None of the children seemed enthused. They wore the same expressions of routine and the daze of school I remembered from long, long ago. I looked down and saw the three-legged stool upon which I sat, scarred by long use. My right heel leaned against it, and my left foot was tapping. 1570 ACE What am I seeing? I asked Serif. I don’t tap—not my hands, not my feet, not anything—so I knew this was an oracle of one sort or another. Are we in the timestream? Serif had been sending me data analysis since the moment we first submerged, but had yet to speak. Look at their clothes, June. Their timepieces. She paused, giving me a moment to absorb all she was indicating. Consider the 98 fashion of their dress and the antiquated wiring connecting their electricity to their conveniences. I wasn’t listening. I was only thinking about one thing. They have children. With all their propagandizing and all their sermonizing the one thing every preacher seemed to leave out was the fact that Heaven would be sterile. I had been promised a future I would love and cherish and enjoy. But it failed to impress. There, in that holy cave, I was being treated to the only element of humanity that sanctified the past. They used to say children were our future, and looking back, that promise seemed better than the one we got. I missed the old world. I missed the pleasures and joys of family and the foibles of love. I missed the misadventures of youth and the imperfections of communicating faceto-face. I wanted that world back. I yearned for it, for my mother. I wanted it to be real so I could stay. Which is why I nearly lashed out when Serif told me what I was seeing. It’s why I nearly tore off the manacle and flung her avatar into the deepest parts of the river. That single proclamation made me realize I didn’t want the world I’d inherited. She said, You are looking into the past. 1570 ACE 99 As the river carried me downstream, I watched history unfold like a moving picture. If I swam with the current, the vignette sped up in my mind. If I swam against the current, the past crawled into slow motion. The deeper I submerged, the greater my ability to manipulate the streams of time. When I surfaced my head above the water, the vision disappeared. If I plunged again downstream, it was like skipping ahead to the following scene. I was a kinesthetic remote control, with power over a slip of time. I couldn’t shift my perspective. I couldn’t change my location. I was stuck in one particular time. But I had more control than we ever thought possible. 1570 ACE I could see things as if I was there, and I wondered if perhaps I was seeing them through the eyes of another person. I wondered if I had possessed someone’s consciousness, and if the person was aware of my intrusion. I wondered if I had influence or if I was just a passenger. Mostly, I wondered if I could change anything and, if I did, whether or not it would affect the future. “Any idea how this is happening?” I asked Serif, surfacing in order to interrupt the non-dream. I am working on it, she said. I do not have a precise answer. 100 “Care to hazard a guess?” I pressed, still wrestling with the emotional draw from what I had witnessed. The dielectric mineral content is the principal cause, Serif responded. She was aware of how I was feeling, but was skirting the issue. She had never seen actual human children, except in the archives. The Spirit told her they were important to us, but Serif didn’t pretend to know what that meant. She had no concept of the black hole left by the absence of our young. The uranium secretion from the Chernoblys is some form of catalyst, though I cannot tell how much particularity results from their DNA. My mind raced to catch what she was saying. “You mean, this may predate the creation of the Chernoblys? This is before the War?” Yes, she responded. I would like to hypothesize that the ecovibrations in this cave system are also a factor, working much like a harmonic resonator. Caves amplify everything, I thought, why not the past? I pushed Serif to make new arrangements. “I want to go deeper, take a look and see what happens.” That is not a good idea, said Serif. Wait for my physicality to return. I can burrow into the cave system and accompany you. Other angels can be conscripted for counsel and medevac. “Sooner or later, that female is going to alert her colony, and I’d just as soon not be in the water when that happens.” June… 101 1570 ACE “My mother is here!” I shouted. “There are children here! We can’t hold back.” Both Serif and I knew what stood behind all these concerns. I didn’t want to say it out loud, and she was still hoping I wouldn’t be derailed by the vision. “We can re-seed our future, sister. I won’t wait to try.” And there it was, bold as blood, my silly hope for traveling through time to save the world. People used to say you can’t change history, but I wondered if they’d ever tried. What if all it took was the will to find the past, and enter? What if the Chernoblys could give us our children back—either by taking us back to a time when we could reproduce and start over? Or by combining old DNA with what we had in the City in hopes of re-stranding our progeny? 1570 ACE Wouldn’t that be worth it? 102 I pushed the sensor array once more around the timestream, where years trickled down to the terminus of human history. Serif’s feathers had returned, successfully mapping most of the cave. It was admittedly strange to see them floating back to her, like blossoms gathering in one spot on the ground. Those feathers were the closest thing Serif had to offspring. She had given them a task and they had performed it as best they could. They were now coming back to their mother. Like me. 103 1570 ACE The maps weren’t perfect. Some aspects of the cave were beyond our range and some were inaccessible. But I had enough data to know the timestream went ahead for a couple hundred yards before ducking under a large rock face. It was too difficult to tell if the stream was passable beneath the rock, so I only had a short while to coast time before I’d need to get out of the water completely. Better to play it somewhat safe than to run the risk of crashing the carapace. With intermittent satellite access, I didn’t want to risk a failed upload. If I had to wait for Serif’s physicality to retrieve the mindbox from my carapace it could take hours, and there was no way to tell if I could ever recover the body—or the manacle—I’d leave behind. “Keep the cameras rolling,” I said. “I want to be able to review the footage back home and see if there are observable phenomena during the visions.” Need I remind you there is still an infection playing through your OS? We need you to rest so I can begin running medical subroutines. The operating system was the central computer that ran my synthetic body—the control for all background processes ensuring my carapace worked properly. It also provided Serif and me with highly detailed diagnostic information, climate and topographical data, and nonlocal communications. Breath, salivation, blood flow, and about a billion other things we never used to think about were now managed by the OS alongside all the mechanical minutiae the carapace required. It’s true that a virus within the OS could have disastrous consequences long term. But it’s also true that the infection was recent and biological. There was no way things could become that bad that quickly. I took note of Serif’s reaction. It seemed out of character. She wasn’t much for drama, so anytime I felt like she was overreacting it gave me pause. “We’ll get there, sister,” I said. “For now, let’s do the thing right in front of us.” 1570 ACE With that I submerged into the cool black water and vented the carapace of excess air, sinking down to the bottom of time. 104 105 Part Two: The Timestream I suspected you were there, more participant than observer. Like yourself, I’m something of a conservationist and have long thought you tucked away the Chernoblys just for me. I trust you’ll tell me eventually. Why else would I be here? But I don’t want to get ahead of myself, because the Chernoblys’ real value is derivative. The timestream—that’s the real treat, the miracle that confounds even non-traditional physics. There’s more chemistry than physics at work, I’d wager, and some biology too. I’ll have some questions for you about that later, about probability models and dimensional reality. There were hints of other Chronospheres, subtle clues that made me think we weren’t just meddling with our history, but with Time itself. There were signs concerning the End of the Age. And you thought I didn’t notice. 110 New Palestine 2031 CE I’ll admit I was surprised. I was experiencing all of this through Hasan’s perspective. I felt like I was in his head, like I was him. I tried moving but couldn’t. He was in control. I couldn’t even get him to blink. I was a passenger on a runaway memory, stuck on board with nothing to do but hang on. “How did you die?” asked a little blonde girl in the front row, her eyes a wide green. I tried to answer her but couldn’t. It was hard to remember that people were talking to Hasan and didn’t even know I was inside. We looked up at the bare bulb, swinging from the ceiling like a spider. The light was hardly bright at all. Until you looked right at it and saw the filaments and then nothing but pink clouds until you looked away. I wondered if the children saw us blinking, averting our eyes, and if they imagined we had a vision. With the way they looked at us, I figured they’d believe it. Hasan was fable enough, I could tell. I knew what he knew and could feel and perceive 111 2031 CE “My name is Hasan,” said the grey beard, eying those little children with a preacher’s scowl. “But you can call me Minister. I’m here to tell you about how I died.” Some of the children looked away, confused. “Oh don’t look so surprised. After all, the Good Book makes many promises about life after death. Well this is it, by Gawd. This is my life after I have already died.” anything about him I desired. He was a monument to otherworldly supernaturalism, rocking back and forth on that three-legged stool like an oracle, making the world turn. 2031 CE “I was sick,” said Hasan, matter-of-fact. “and died in my bed.” “Maybe you were just sleeping?” offered an overweight boy from the back. There was something familiar about that boy, but I couldn’t identify it. He reminded me of a face I had seen in photographs. I struggled to place him, working mentally through my old memories, and it bothered me that I couldn’t figure it out. “Wouldn’t that be wonderful?” asked the blonde girl. Hasan’s beard waggled as we chuckled. We looked down at our hands. They were calloused and cracked along the knuckles, and I could tell they bothered him. We wore a wrinkled brown coat, with a creased white shirt that stuck out past the cuffs. It hadn’t ever been ironed but was clean. The coat was simply cut, straight and square at the shoulders. I knew the man didn’t think much of his cloth, just that it shouldn’t be a distraction. The minister wasn’t put off by the children’s questions, or their doubts. He loved children and thought introducing them to the divine mysteries was perhaps the single most special task available for any man of worth. Mortality is a riddle, as is the life that comes after. Love and loss were big issues that snared folks into misery. Learning to be free from their coercive power was the secret to living well. That’s how he thought about it—like a koan, like death was just a mystery. It’s not a mystery, friend, I thought, projecting myself into his mind. We solved it better than you. For a moment I 112 thought Hasan heard me. He stopped rubbing our hands and there was a perceptible stall in our breathing. But it didn’t last, and I wondered if perhaps I had imagined it. The wool on our chin quavered again as we spoke, voice gravely, but kind. “I was dead, alright. The doctors done poked me and prodded this empty shell, certain my ghost had gone out. But I didn’t stay dead, and that’s the important part.” “Where the Good Book speaks of a first death common to all,” Hasan replied, his Southern affectation pulling deep round tones, “it also speaks of a second death suffered only by sinners.” He spoke with warmth and I was caught up in his words. Hasan’s voice then intensified, taking on a new authority. “By Gawd’s Almighty Name, I say I have tasted death and will never do so again. I swear it. I swear it mightily. I have been to the other side and I have seen that golden lawn of light, that fruit from stars, and the symmetry of gems latticed on the walls. I have tasted the apple of eternality and walked the straight paths of forever. I will go there again, certainly, but I need not die.” We shook our head, stamping our heels against the legs of the stool and causing the floor to shake. “No sir. Gawd in his providence has let me have an appetizer of death, like our Lord Christ, and I will not swallow it again, nor death me.” “That doesn’t make any sense,” said the fat kid at the back, his incredulity jarring me from that verbal spell. “How can you die twice? And why are we supposed to think it’s good that they killed Jesus?” The boy rolled his head around like a walrus pup. “I liked Jesus!” 113 2031 CE “Please sir,” asked another blond, this one a thin boy. “What do you mean?” I wondered this myself. Perhaps it was one of the great mysteries. Perhaps it was the greatest mystery of all. 2031 CE Why do they insist on calling it winning, when Christ clearly lost? 114 “Do you remember,” Hasan continued, “hearing how Christ came back to life? How he reclaimed the keys to Hades from Satan, his ancient enemy?” More nodding. “And when it was all done, in those final moments dying on that stick-cross, Christ called out, ‘tetelestai.’” We shouted that word triumphantly, then whispered, “it is finished.” Hasan leaned forward until I felt like the smallest nudge would have put us off the stool. The beard swung out like a plush pendulum. The children leaned in, too, eager to catch the falling secrets before they dropped to the floor. Hasan breathed out the words, intimate-like, fluttering. “You remember that word, tetelestai. It is an important word. It is the word upon which all your faith hangs true.” Lowering us impossibly forward, Hasan began to make small gestures with our thumbs and knuckles, twitching like they were dancing over a delicate prose he loved to read. 115 2031 CE I could feel myself grinning, as Hasan. “You know the story, Nathan Scott?” Hasan asked, indicating not only the walrus but also the rest of the litter. “How the cross seemed like defeat for Gawd and his Christ, but was actually their moment of victory?” The children nodded, but didn’t look like they understood even a little. They were losing interest quickly now that Hasan was moving onto dogma. Nathan stayed with him, though he may have felt obliged. 2031 CE “In the Revelation, there is a tale that Christ will conquer the devil once and for all with a Word. Old Slewfoot is conquered now, they say, but still has a chance for getting even some. Like Satan once entered Judas, he may enter many men, for a time. But then—no more!” With a clap and a stomp, Hasan jumped to our feet. He was preaching, and hell couldn’t have stopped him with a hundred goblins. “Satan will be let loose after being imprisoned for a thousand years. His time of liberation will be short, and only those who loved him in the secret places of their hearts will follow. And then Gawd Almighty will put a stopper on evil forever. Christ will devour Satan with a Word. “And do you know what word that will be? You scalawags? You heathen ken? Tetelestai. It is finished! And it will be. Like it ought to be now, it will be then.” Broadening our arms to include the children, we motioned for them to stand. “Say it with me now,” we hollered. “Tetelestai!” The children were enraptured. Even Nathan got up remarkably fast. “Tetelestai!” they called, like the word was theirs and Satan was being banished from the room. “Good,” said Hasan, our eyebrows jumping up and down. “Again!” “Tetelestai!” shouted the children, dancing like us and shuffling their feet for the Lord. “Yes, by Gawd!” we howled, arms whooshing back and forth across an imaginary stadium of devotees. “Shout it!” Hasan didn’t see the three men in suits enter the room behind us. He was too focused to catch their reflection in the window. They stood and watched, and I could not have said whether they were more concerned with the enthusiasm of 116 the children or the ecstasy of my host, only that they were interested. “Tetelestai!” the children sang out. “Tetelestai!” Hasan was stomping our feet, shoving our hips like a boxer. “Stick it in Satan’s eye, Tetelestai!” he called. “Gloray!” The three men moved forward, one of them gently placing his hand upon our arm. “Minister?” he prodded gingerly. “We were scheduled for this morning?” One of the other suit-men ushered the children toward the back door. They complied easily enough, and I figured he was someone they were used to obeying. Nathan was the last to leave, his head turning around like an owlet with his body still walking away. “I ask your forgiveness gentlemen,” said Hasan as the third suit-man shut the door and returned to his peers. “I was burdened to tell it true and time slipped on me.” You’ve got that right, I said. Again, Hasan’s breathing arrested for the briefest moment. Can you hear me? Lord? he thought. Oh great, I said mentally, projecting myself back to Serif. He thinks I’m God. “Is everything copacetic, Minister Tahn?” asked number one suit-man. My host brought his attention back to the physical world, content for the moment to leave the question of my divinity unanswered. “Peaceable, gracious, and whole,” he replied. “Let’s get down to business.” 117 2031 CE I felt Hasan’s energy slip, and our arms. We smiled apologetically and turned round to our class. “Run along now. I’m going to talk to your betters and see if I can’t whoop them into shape.” tem, s y S e v a C d e m a n n U es West, , 84 degre 35 degrees North 1570 ACE June! Serif’s voice interrupted the vision and I was momentarily disoriented. I was in too many mental places, too many voices and too many persons competing for my attention. June! she called again. I wanted to ignore her. Something important is happening, I said. You need to pull out of the timestream. You are twenty feet from a rock face. The stream runs beneath it. I hadn’t known what lay in front of me in my own time, in the caves. I hadn’t known about any rock face, or the potential for the river to flow beneath it. There was a high probability of harm associated with swimming into a blind tunnel. I could get trapped indefinitely, the carapace eventually running out of power. If Serif’s physical self was unable to either get me out or run a hardline download to rescue my consciousness, I could die. Admittedly, those were remote possibilities, but they were conceivable. 1570 ACE I’m going to risk it, I told her. Something significant is happening. I’m being given a window too important to miss. Serif manifested from the manacle, her avatar barely visible in the black water. She looked more like a banshee than a byte-map in this environment, and she grew to 3x so she could look me square in the face. Do not be a fool. 118 I’ll lock you out if I have to, I said. I’m going back into the timestream and staying with the minister. There’s something there, something that will change everything else. I did not understand, then, how prophetically accurate those words were. Stay out of the timestream until the river passes beneath the rock, Serif said. If and when you come back to an area for which we have schematics, it will be safe to re-enter and resume your observations. Watch your head, she warned and departicalized back into the manacle. Gotcha, I replied, though in truth I hadn’t listened to a word. 1570 ACE 119 The next few moments were more of a mental struggle than a physical one. I had to stay in the river but out of the timestream. I had to pass under the rock face, requiring that I move deeper into the water. At greater depths the timestream became more dominant. I felt confident I could develop mastery over, at least, the ingress and egress into the timestream given practice, but for the moment it took all my concentration and energy and will to be in the timestream and not be forcibly drawn into Hasan’s world. I only had to stay in my present until the dangers passed, then I could safely reenter the timestream. I traveled approximately forty feet beneath a rock ceiling, totally unable to emerge from the water. I was treated to a massive onslaught on the other side. The rock face must have provided some interference within the Chronosphere, but once I was out from under it the pressure to reenter the timestream was unstoppable. 1570 ACE I lost control. 120 New Palestine 2031 CE The hall ended in a T-shape with a final door straight ahead. We entered, finding a small courtroom. The ceiling was an endless mat of fluorescent tubes, giving the impression there was no place to hide. Hasan looked down at our shoulder, and we saw the brown jacket was beginning to fade, something we hadn’t noticed previously. White motes sprinkled across our chest, and we brushed them off in annoyance. The room had no windows, no natural light of any kind, just those lightning rods of alternating current shouting at us from above. Seven chairs were lined up behind a long varnished table, and there was a gallery space across from it with a couple dozen witnesses in attendance. In between was open floor. Hasan stood there, unprompted, while the three 121 2031 CE The suit-men were escorting us through a white hallway with windows looking out onto a field. Some of the children were playing in the foreground, and behind them I caught sight of carbines and silos. Hasan didn’t look out the window with any curiosity, so I had to take what I could get in passing blinks and sweeps. I felt sick from switching so violently into the past. My stomach was in knots and, vaguely, I felt blood coming out of my nostril back in the timestream, though I didn’t have the energy to regain full consciousness in my carapace. suit-men joined two more already seated behind the table. The center chair was empty, as was the one farthest right. 2031 CE “What makes you think you can do this job, minister?” asked the lone woman on the council. She was overweight but not obese, her short red hair plasticined to the sides of her face. It wasn’t a flattering look, but I gathered she took some pride in her appearance. Jewelry. Patterned suit. Nails. She was a trinket for the council, though her posture demonstrated she wanted to be more. Hasan stood us tall and clasped our hands in front, gazing levelly at each suit in turn. “If I have strength to perform this task,” he began,” it is because my strength is on loan from a higher authority. I do not seek this for myself, but for the good of the world. But I won’t deny I long for it with every fiber of my being. Yet it is a just longing. A good urge. I want to shadow God in the redemption of the world, and I believe my principal task is to lead this Colony as Chief Prosecutor for the Good.” Trinket asked her follow-up before we had finished. She was too eager, hardly listening to what we were saying. “You really think God sent you here to create Heaven on earth?” “I surely do, ma’am,” we replied. “And you think you’re qualified for this…why?” She paused. “All you have on your resume is a death certificate. That hardly seems like enough.” I could feel Hasan bristling. The woman’s scorn was touched with meanness. And though I understood why she felt that way—why any sane person would feel that way—I was so enmeshed with Hasan I couldn’t help but feel angry, too. “How would you define the role of the Prosecutor, Minister Tahn?” “Head of State,” he replied. 122 She sneered. “Not the title, Minister. The role?” Hasan thought about this for a moment before answering. “In the Hebrew Bible there were Judges, partly politicians and partly adjudicators. They lead the people according to the ways of God. They settled disputes. They mediated business dealings. They ensured the economic and social welfare of the people.” “Yes—but why do we call it a Prosecutor?” she asked. “What exactly will you prosecute?” “Sounds rather harsh, don’t you think?” “It could be poorly done,” Hasan acknowledged. “But not by me. It is not my calling to simply point out what’s wrong. I am here to make it right. That’s the truest kind of prosecution there is. Not blame, but restoration.” Hasan believed it was his personal mission to lead the Colony and lead it well. He thought he was like Moses— both politician and prophet, born to lead the Lord’s people. He thought he was like one of the Maccabees, both Hasmonean king and High Priest. He was like Ezra, scribe and statesman, a District Attorney running for Head of State, and his single-minded determination to lead well garnered an ever-swelling intensity among his supporters. Which were many. “I have been to the other side,” we said. “And I know what is good, and beautiful, and true, by sight. I can smell what’s foul and taste what’s fair. I have a Holy Ghost intuition.” 123 2031 CE “Injustice. Disparity. Malcontent.” Hasan sounded like he had a keen eye for these very sins. “A Prosecutor looks for distortion in any direction, any evidence of folk missing the mark, and calls it out.” 2031 CE “What are we supposed to do with that, Minister Tahn?” asked the other of the suit-men who had been present when we arrived. He looked like a hound, sitting tall with a long face. To his credit, the minister calmed himself before answering. “Take my word on this if nothing else,” said Hasan, our hands absently scratching the grey on our jaw. “Once you’ve been to that far country there is nothing here that can satisfy the demands of counterfeit. It is, and all this is not.” We moved to put our hands back together, but I felt Hasan rise up, emotionally, and our arms went up again to gesticulate, almost involuntarily accenting the cadence of our defense. “The Lord hath sent me back unto the world as usher,” we said, our arms cording with passion, “as midwife, and I believe he did so knowing I could lead and guide his people from paths of wrongdoing toward plumblines of righteousness. I can shepherd them as he hath shepherded me.” We drew our arms across our body, as though crooking a sheep and pulling it into the pen. “Where the miracles of modern science have failed—and will fail anon, mark me— the miracle of Gawd Almighty hath prevailed. He has set my feet upon the rock and brought me back from Beulah Land to be his emissary, his spokesman, and like a watcher on the wall I am set to guard against compromise and indignity and vice. I have a destiny, delivered straight from the White Throne into these hands,” we held up our cracked paws, trembling, “the palms of supplication. I am anointed and ready. He is going to invade earth and colonize Heaven, and we are meant to be the advance scouting party, the forward base of operations, his spies and embedded dissidents working for a revolution of love.” 124 We stopped talking with our hands still in the air, a fire in our belly and great heat coming from our eyes. The councilmen looked at one another, nodding slowly. I felt like applauding. It was impossible to be unmoved by his certainty. With Hasan leading them, the colonists’ spiritual fervor intensified. He had beaten death and promised they would do the same. This confidence gave them renewed vigor. They worked with the assurance that their contributions would persist beyond their own mortal lives and into eternity. As far as incentives go, that’s a tough one to beat. 125 2031 CE I had always wondered at the marked foolishness of religious adherents. A prophet stands up and proclaims, ”Thus saith the Lord…” and everyone loses their mind. It never made any sense to me. Until then. Until I heard Hasan speak—first to the children, then to the council—and I was ready to abandon reason for the invisible power of the Almighty. 2031 CE Suit Number One broke the silence. He was wearing grey, but not the slate color I had seen when I first dove into the past. That man, the man in the slate grey suit, had yet to reappear, and I wondered who he was and why he didn’t want Hasan to see him. “Consider this a test, minister,” Suit Number One began, “to determine the extent of your intuitive jurisprudence.” “His will be done,” we said. Don’t blow it, grey beard, I whispered mentally. Trinket gave the exam question. “Think on this couple,” she said, holding up a photograph of a man and a woman. It was the man in the slate grey suit, though I couldn’t see his face. “Perfectly suited according to all outward appearances. Their families were close and they have known one another for a long time, sharing many mutual interests and being of like mind societally and spiritually. They fell in love. But marriage is not always the playground of the pure, as they say, and in this marriage some hardship has befallen. The woman wants a divorce.” She paused, enjoying how we all had to wait for her to finish. “Does God permit divorce?” Hasan answered immediately. “Christ acknowledged that divorce was permissible, under a few conditions.” Trinket smirked. “But will there be divorce in Heaven?” she asked. 126 “In Heaven they are neither married nor given in marriage,” Hasan replied quickly once more, but I could feel his suspicions growing. He knew this was a trap, but he didn’t know how it would spring. Or why. Suit Number One took up the call. “But it is safe to say God would not allow the pain caused by divorce in his perfect bliss, isn’t it? That he would spare his children from harm and resentment?” “Precisely!” shouted hound-face. “He would help them on the front end, rather than simply punishing them when all was said and done.” “I would say so,” we said, nodding slowly. Trinket was clicking her nails on the varnished table top, her smirk opening on one side of her mouth. She looked like she could either kiss us or eat us, but either one just so the others could see her do it. “So if you’re to be God’s man in the Colony,” she began, “shouldn’t you also assist on the front end? Can you not also help marriages heal and avoid the pain of divorce?” We could feel the trap closing, but I sensed something else now, too. Hasan was getting eager. These were religious questions and he knew his religion. His confidence in doctrine was lowering his caution for politics. “I would do all in my power,” we finally replied. I worried we were heading for disaster. Trinket continued. “Well then, the case is simple. These two have had no extra-marital affairs, they have financial means, they have mutual interests, they have no children except those grown and gone. They have only one another, and the woman no longer wants the man. What will you 127 2031 CE Hasan turned our body to face Number One. “Yes— insofar as he was able to work out the good in them, not merely forcing them to conform.” counsel? How will you help them? How will you make an example of their restitution so others may learn that God will find a way?” 2031 CE I could feel the minister thinking about it. I could feel him puzzling the angles, wondering if he was being played. I could feel him straining, looking for a solution. “Dear madam and kind gentlemen,” we said, our Southern manners coming to bear, “there is a way that seems right to a man, but it is folly. The wisdom of Gawd is foolishness to men, and I think in this case some form of foolishness may be needed to prevent another form of socalled wisdom. If this Colony is to be the advance party for Heaven-on-earth, let us begin living like it now.” The council was nodding, and I could feel Hasan getting worked up. “That couple shall not leave their home until they reconcile,” we said, wagging our finger. “They shall not eat. They shall not spend. They shall not communicate with others.” The preacher’s frenzy was returning. “We will not force them toward some falsified notion of peace, but let them work it out on their own. Like they did in the beginning. Let them reenter the Colony when they are ready.” I couldn’t believe what we were saying. This was lunacy. Hasan’s mind had stopped working and arrived at the simplest, basest, most inhumane conclusion available. And the people loved it! I tried to interrupt the proceedings. It was clear to me that Hasan was being played, just as he feared. But it was equally clear he did not know how to out-maneuver them. I screamed inarticulately in his mind and I think he heard me, or sensed me. But I’ve got no idea how he interpreted my presence. I suspect that was the moment he first thought he might be going mad. 128 Returning to that provincial scene gave me pause. 129 2031 CE The timestream current picked up, and I was moved forward faster than I wanted. It is difficult to say how far I went, or whether there was a change in elevation. But the result was that I lost some time. I was catapulted forward a week, maybe two, and found myself in the same spot, in the same room, in front of the same council. 2031 CE I wondered what it meant to consider yourself ‘people of promise?’ The colonists had started with so little, but, like the pilgrims before them, they had worked feverishly to bring something new and good out of the ground. The increasing marriage of politics with folk religion in the United States caused many educated people of faith to reconsider their societal ideals. Many smart people believed, but they didn’t believe the things the politicians wanted them to. They didn’t believe America was chosen by God. They didn’t believe one party was superior to the other. They didn’t believe the moral and ethical issues of the day were clear cut, not any longer. So. They left. The United States had become increasingly intolerant of people who didn’t fit neatly into the category of either patriot or activist, and there were many who decided they had more in common with World Citizenry than American partisanship. On the other end of the spectrum were those who tried to re-colonize the States. Like the pilgrims and the explorers of old, these brave souls identified tracts of land within the continental US and began re-living the settlement 130 of this great country. They held to the intellectual rigor of the Founding Fathers and determined that everyone who belonged would work and contribute to making the world a better place. At first, these colonies were simply the equivalent of educated trailer parks, the ghettos for white collar idealists. But things changed. The hard work and mental diligence of the colonists paid off and they prospered. The Colony of New Palestine, however, never bothered with any grand declarations. They focused on good government, education, and productivity. In so doing, they sailed below the radar of the State department and were able to continue operating as a self-made township. There is some debate over why the Anglo-Israelis chose to sponsor the research within New Palestine. Most attribute it to the good science and accompanying lack of prejudice on the part of the investors, though there are a few that suspect the motive all along was to instigate the Palestinians in the Holy Land to retributive action. But all this with Minister Tahn was way before those monumental blotches of history concerning the World That Was. This was, as I said, still provincial. But it was also the tipping point. 131 2031 CE Many of the colonies declared themselves micronations and attempted to secede from the US proper. This typically resulted in military action and invariably the colonists lost. 2031 CE There were still two empty chairs empty in the court room—the middle, and the far right. The council looked pleased, and in that chronolucidity, I looked around and saw a crowd behind the minister. They were smiling. “Minister,” said Suit Number One, standing, “it is with great enthusiasm that we bestow upon you the mantle ‘Chief Prosecutor for the Good.’ You are now adjudicant and authority in the Colony. Yours is the task of leading this council. God’s will be done in you, sir, as he has given you his anointing.” I could feel Hasan’s delight in every cell of our shared body. We were tingling. “I gratefully accept, gentlemen. This is an esteemed honor, by Gawd, and by Gawd I will do it— and him—justice!” The crowd applauded readily, hardly noticing the door that opened behind the councilmen’s bench. The man in the slate grey suit appeared. At first I could only see parts of him over the other councilors. They stood, welcoming him into the far right, empty seat. Hasan would later take the empty center chair. The man in the slate grey suit nodded, and I still couldn’t see his face for all the bobbing. But when they sat down, he 132 remained standing and looked us full in the face, bold as you please. “Thank you for your help with my wife, Prosecutor,” he began, indicating the woman entering several paces behind. “I trust we can all anticipate as many good days and happy nights as Grace and I now have at home.” I couldn’t believe it. I was gasping for breath. The minister didn’t know who that man was, nor the woman. Hasan didn’t know what that man was capable of. But here was the incarnation of evil. If ever there was an opposite to Christ, here was anti-Christ in a slate grey cut. The timestream moved and juked, and I was carried along with it, banging and bouncing around. I lost focus and my mouth opened. I began to choke and the emergency buoyancy controls in my carapace inflated, bringing me sputtering to the surface. I was certain I had found that evil which destroyed the world a thousand years ago. 133 2031 CE The woman looked familiar to me, though it took a moment to place her. I hadn’t seen her in so long. Not like this. Eyes cast down and lifeless. Pale lips and lank hair. She had expensive clothes and fine taste, but she looked a mannequin. She reminded me of an empty carapace, or a vampire’s victim drained of life. Gilead 3062 CE Evie and I were sitting on the floor amidst a molecule of pillows, discarded clothing, and empty bottles. We had been waking up like this for a week, groggy, giddy, and eager to skip work and do it again. 3062 CE How hard did we party last night? I wondered, a minor concern about my inability to retain even recent events stirring unfamiliarly. “Aren’t you worried, Mash?” Evie pressed. “You can’t remember anything?” “Not a bloody thing, babe. But it ain’t a big deal.” I didn’t really want to emote. It was too early for drama, even if it was midafternoon. Evie put her hand on my shoulder, like she was trying to comfort me. “Don’t you wonder about who you are? Your family? Where your people are?” “Evie,” I said, holding up my hand. “I don’t even know where I am right now.” “Gilead,” she frowned. “My apartment.” Maybe people with memories are touchy and wanna talk about them. I didn’t have any memories, but I wasn’t really missing them and I didn’t wanna waste time pretending like they mattered. I certainly didn’t want Evie to become either my counselor or my surrogate mother. 134 She was meant for other things. “It’s about the moment,” I said, taking her hand off my shoulder. I wanted to slap it away, but thought that might cause problems. I held her hand instead, trying to remember to rub her fingers. Girls like that crap. “It’s about being real. It’s about you, and romance, and enjoying life’s finer moments.” Evie took her hand away. “Isn’t there anything else?” she asked, hugging her torso and leaning against the bedroom wall. “We’re living the dream,” I said, getting up and walking across the room. There was a breeze, and I started looking for a robe. “Why wake up to some tragic reality?” “Hey,” I said, trying to be cool. “How about I make breakfast?” “Sure,” she replied. It looked like Evie wanted to cheer up, like maybe she wouldn’t be a downer after all. Giving up on the robe, I tossed through the mess until I found a sheet and wrapped it around my waist. Evie covered herself and went into the bathroom while I padded over to a kitchen full of brand new, state-of-the-art, everything. How much money do nurses make? I wondered, not for the first time. Evie must have spent it all on this apartment. I figured she was probably some trustfund brat. Whose bed am I in now? I wondered. Hers or her daddy’s? I got really ticked off when I couldn’t find anything decent in the fridge. To be fair, this was the first time we’d 135 3062 CE “I guess.” Evie’s face turned down. I may not have had my memories, but I knew that look. She was feeling remorse about last night. Used up. I felt my headache return. Come to think of it, I’m not sure it ever left. It probably had something to do with her. even considered eating at her place. Typically we were preoccupied. “Where’s your meat?” Evie mumbled something from the bathroom but I couldn’t hear it. I walked over and banged on the door. “Meat!” I yelled. “We don’t eat meat,” she said. Her voice whined and my skin crawled. “It’s disgusting.” Ten minutes later we sat together for a breakfast of cold cheese and egg. The coffee was good, but I was still hung up on the meat. We didn’t talk. I was glad. When it was over Evie dressed and went to work while I caught up with some of her friends for lunch. 3062 CE They didn’t eat meat either. 136 Evie’s friends looked at me like I was an at-large serial killer when I tried to order a steak. We were sitting on the sunny patio of yet-another trendy diner. Stainless steel tables set off checked floors. The music was supposed to sound like it was from my grandfather’s adolescence. “What do you mean?” I asked. I braced myself for another inane prohibition. “Eating meat is against the law,” Sandy clarified. ”It has been forever,” I could have punched a baby. “You’re kidding?” They weren’t. “But what if I want a steak? Can’t I just go buy one?” “That’s inhumane!” squealed one of the girls. Good God they were squeamish. “What are you talking about?” I asked, feeling insulted. 137 3062 CE “No one does that anymore,” said a blonde named Sandy. She was well-dressed and had a visible fetish for accessorization. There were bangles and baubles all over her outfit. She looked like a tackle box. I wanted to rip all that junk away, but she was cute and I thought it might hurt my chances. “It’s meat. It has the letters E-A-T right in the middle of it. It’s a basic human freedom, baby.” “What are you talking about?” said Thin Ryan, the other male. I hadn’t been his weight since I was a fetus. “Freedom, Ryan,” I answered as condescendingly as possible. “It’s the ultimate virtue.” “What about government?” Sandy asked. “You don’t think administration and social welfare are virtuous? Come off it.” “We should be left alone to govern ourselves, if government is what we want.” I said. 3062 CE “Actually, that makes sense,” said the buxom redhead sitting across from me. Her name was Joanna, and once you got caught looking at her it was tough work to keep thinking like a grown man.. “Right!” I was emboldened. “Most who want control can barely control themselves. Look at their urges! Look at their spending! They’re gluttons and sadists and self-flaggelators. How about freedom from them? Don’t we know how to feed ourselves and get along without over-compensated muckymucks inflating their portfolios at our expense?” “You sound a little nuts, you know that?” said Ryan. I guffawed. “Am I the only one who sees how ridiculous this is? Is this a comedy? Or are we still blind to the turn at the end, the moment of our tragedy, when we rue the abdication of self-rule?” Sandy wasn’t buying it. “You’re talking about eating animals?” “You’ve never had rack of lamb?” I asked, seriously concerned. “Steak tartar? Filet mignon?” I looked down and realized I was holding my knife and fork perpendicular to the table, pounding them in time with my queries. Wide-eyed 138 and horrified, they glanced at one another and scooted back their chairs. They weren’t leaving, but they definitely wanted a little more breathing room. “No,” they answered in unison. I know they wanted me to shut up about it, but I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I leaned across the table. “You don’t know what you’re missing.” “It’s fine,” said Ryan. “No!” I screamed, embarrassing not only my chic companions but also the patrons around us. “The sweetness of meat, the marbled texture of fat in the blood. It’s not fine to never have that!” I began to pantomime the paces of ardor, the devotion and fanaticism of carnivorous living. “You’ve never had a salted turkey leg at the fair? Chicken nuggets? Never stuffed a breast with ham and Swiss cheese? Or baked meat into a pie just to see if you liked it?” Again, they shook their heads. “What about kabobs? Burgers? Quail? Smoked sausage? Jerky?” It was too much. I could see they were imagining the delights previously forbidden to them. Eden could keep its apples. This was going to be a barbeque. “That doesn’t even sound good,” said Sandy, but I knew she was trying to convince herself. She wanted the meat to sound bad. But there was no way. 139 3062 CE “The juice on your chin?” I asked, thumping my fingers against my face. I held up both hands, then, to demonstrate. “Tearing bacon in one hand while popping sausage into your mouth with the other?” They shook their heads again, but they had stopped looking at each other. They were trying to see inside my better world. They were all smiling, perfectly pearly teeth hungrily straining against their wasted mouths. They were made for meat and had yet to realize it. “But it’s against the law,” Sandy complained. “What sort of freedom keeps you from doing what you want?” “I don’t know,” Joanna sighed. I think she was considering my proposition. “I think I’d like to try it. Just to see,” she added, blushing. Like she was coy. “You’re going to find out what you’re missing, sweetheart.” I told her. “What do you mean?” asked Thin Ryan, crossing his toothpick arms and looking concerned. 3062 CE “Meet me later and I’ll show you,” I replied, standing to leave Ryan with the check. I showed them, all right. That was the night I showed them all. 140 We brought charcoal, skewers, lighter fluid, and a large bag of salt. Then we went cow tipping. 141 3062 CE Later we got together in front of the bar where we’d first met. There were seven of us. Joanna, Evie, Duke, Sandy the Blonde, Thin Ryan, myself and Barry. Barry was the bartender from my first night out of the hospital, when I met the others. He didn’t look like he wanted to be there and almost ditched when I started calling him Beret, on account of his stupid hat, but he had a thing for Sandy the Blonde and made up his mind to stay. 3062 CE We had to drive a long way out of town before we got to a dairy farm. There was no security, maybe because the place was so large. Eight massive gates, separated each by a quarter mile of picturesque white picket, stood open to welcome visitors. It was the middle of the night, so I don’t know who they were expecting, but the moon blanched off the rails and it made for a pleasant scene. I didn’t think we ran much chance of being caught, but I was still nervous. It felt like a long while since I had taken any real risks. Even getting out of the hospital wasn’t something I’d done. I just went along with the head-shrinker. What ever happened to him? I wondered. I thought about Doc Chloros from time to time and made a mental note to track him down. I’d done that before, but never followed through. Standing in the parking lot, I surveyed my apprentice carnivores as they leaned on Thin Ryan’s coupe. The girls looked nervous. The guys were hyper. Especially Duke, who kept roughhousing to look brave. The muscled bully laughed at Thin Ryan and pushed him over the car. “Shove off,” Ryan said. He knocked Duke away and stood up, fixing his shirt. “What’s that?” I asked, seeing something on his lower back. 142 “It’s a tattoo,” said Ryan. He still looked angry, though I couldn’t tell if it was because of Duke or because I’d asked about his tattoo. “On your lower back?” Joanna asked. “I thought only girls had those?” Duke laughed out loud and shoved Ryan a second time. “It’s a champ stamp,” he said. “A what?” I asked. “That’s our nickname for guys with tattoos on girly parts,” said Duke. “Champ.” Sandy the Blonde laughed, teasing. “Ryan is a champ. He’s got tribal tattoos all over his waist.” “Shut up,” said Ryan. He had hardly moved since covering up his tattoo. I decided to let him off the hook. “No,” said Beret. “I’m still not sure I get it.” Where did these guys grow up? “It’s simple,” I said. “You find a cow and tip it over.” There had to have been a thousand cows within reach. This wouldn’t take a real long time. “And then what?” asked Duke. I passed him a long kitchen knife I’d grabbed from Evie’s place. He was in front of the car, twitching. I think he was working himself up for crime. “Stick it with this,” I replied. “Won’t that hurt it?” asked Sandy. She and Joanna were standing next to each other, huddling. It wasn’t cold but the night has its own chill. “Have you ever tried eating a cow while it’s alive?” I asked. She didn’t answer. This group was slow, but I had a feeling that would all change with the first steak. I passed out 143 3062 CE “None of you has gone cow tipping before?” I asked. skewers to everyone and made a charcoal pit. Beret grabbed the briquettes from the trunk and Thin Ryan arranged them in a circle. I doused it in lighter fluid, telling the guys not to worry about getting dirty. The cows didn’t even look wary. Several of them wandered up to us to investigate what we were doing. Sandy even petted one. “Okay, Duke,” I said. “You’re on.” “Which one should I tip?” he asked, already starting to trot out to the field. 3062 CE “You know what,” I said, waving him back to the car, “just walk up to that one Sandy’s got and stick it in the neck.” Duke looked at me strangely, like he might run away. But he came around to Sandy and placed his hand on her shoulder. They moved together about ten feet from our vehicle, followed by the bovine. The cow was almost up past his chest. Duke held the knife in front of the animal and Sandy stopped blinking. The cow licked the blade, cutting its tongue. But the knife was so sharp the animal didn’t notice. “Come on, Duke!” called Evie. “Just do it already.” She had been very quiet all evening. Right now she was standing behind me, maybe thinking things could get rough. I hoped they would. I wanted to remember this. Duke pulled his arm back and clumsily jabbed the knife forward. It was such a little stroke, I didn’t think he’d even broken the skin. But the cow’s eyes widened, and the knife came back covered in four inches of red. Enough, I thought, but too slow. The cow just stood there, her eyes jellied now and moving back and forth. Duke looked at the knife. I started walking toward him to help but Sandy grabbed the knife out of his hands and jabbed the cow again. 144 This time the animal saw it coming and tried to move. Sandy got it under the mouth, in its long jaw, and the cow screamed! Duke jumped toward the animal and it spooked, trying to run off. Sandy started stabbing and Thin Ryan came to help. Evie was laughing nervously. Joanna had her skewer and ran forward, hitting the cow in the eye. It was a hematic mess when Duke brought it down, a fleshy, gushing piñata. The cow thrashed on the ground. Duke was crimson as the cow. The other animals surrounded us, bearing witness. Still the beast shook, an unwilling sacrifice fighting to get on its feet and run. Every one of us was a bloody bag by the time it was done, sticky and smelling like gout. Then came the carving and the cooking. We used the knife to skin portions of the cow and slice off hunks of meat. We burned it and fed it to each other. Beret had brought a cooler of cabernet and we poured it on the cooking steaks and in our mouths and over our chests. Duke took to howling, and Thin Ryan ran in circles around the fire, laughing and dancing in front of the other animals. I threw salt in clumps, like confetti, and it stuck to our bodies against the blood. We slept in the mess and were sick in the morning, but ate more meat before we left. What was left of the cow stayed behind, a burst sachet of excess. 145 3062 CE We set to it with our skewers, hacking and stabbing and kicking. It was long work, and hard. The moonlight disappeared for a while behind clouds. There hadn’t been clouds before. Maybe they were supposed to hide what we did. Our thrusting was done in darkness, silhouettes in a taxing marionette. tem, s y S e v a C d e m a n n U es West, , 84 degre 35 degrees North 1570 ACE I came back to the surface sputtering, gasping for air. We were in a new section of the cave system, and Serif immediately loaded the schematic onto my retinal display. It seemed darker, if that were possible, and I had to dial up the aperture settings for my lenses in order to make out the features of this cavern. It wasn’t a big room, more of a connector between two major sections than a room itself, just a void. June, Serif called, manifesting from the manacle into her holographic form. What is wrong? “That’s my mother!” I wailed. I couldn’t weep, but I lay my head back in the water and moaned, thinking of all I had lost and what I had taken away from her. I had never made sounds like that before. All my regrets centered on my mother. She was siren and seer, and my desire to change found centrifugal power stemming from her. Serif didn’t react. She hadn’t seen me like this before, and I think she was worried. I restrained myself, trying not to lash out at her for her lack of emotion. 1570 ACE And the man in the grey suit? she asked. “That is Rowan Scott,” I said. I felt like I was coming apart, like I might break up and be carried apart in time. “My father’s killer.” My mouth turned down and I felt the cave inside of me open into new channels. Not just loss now, but 146 hate. “I had thought him dead, and my mother, from grief. Until I saw her in the Elder Chamber. May God’s judgment fall on me, be it ever so severe, if I do not kill that man. I know now my mother did not disappear. He took her.” 1570 ACE 147 Rowan Scott is already dead, June. The timestream is a thousand years in our past. We have an exhaustive catalogue of everyone who survived the War. There is no Rowan Scott on the survivor’s manifest. What you see in the timestream cannot be changed. You have no power over the past. “I’m not sure,” I replied, still trembling from shock. “Tahn could hear me. He registered my reactions.” Whatever you imagined, the Chief Prosecutor could not have been influenced by your thoughts in his mind. 1570 ACE “We can change the past,” I said, thinking of all the wonders we’d witnessed so far. Chernoblys. Timestream. We had found the ruins of New Palestine and visited the World That Was. “That’s why we’re here.” Serif grew to 3x magnification and hovered in front of my nose. She did not move her beak as she spoke. We travel in time every day, June. Forward. In order for time travel to be possible you would have to move faster than light, a physical impossibility long since discarded. Or you would have to bend space, traveling great distances faster than light in order to beat time. Even if either of those hypotheses were credible, which they are not, it is nonsensical to propose you might receive a message before you send it. 148 “And what if this is another time altogether?” I asked, unmoved. “A parallel time?” My imagination was only beginning to work hypotheses. I had re-routed my OS to calculate potentialities and was receiving them in a torrent. The probability model was eliminating them just as quickly, but I wasn’t willing to give up on what I had seen. That is a possibility, but interference in that time would mean little to ours. “It might mean saving that world altogether.” I splashed my hands on the surface of the black river. “It could mean life for my mother.” You want revenge, no matter how you dress it. Killing Rowan Scott in another world would still not rescue your mother. Neither here nor there. “I’d feel better,” I said, unwilling to admit she had a point. Serif demagnified to 1x, floating around my face less confrontationally. No you wouldn’t. You have given your life to the study and preservation of life. To take life would undo you. You would become your own antithesis. And you would want more. Revenge is a degenerative addiction. You cannot survive by robbing others of life. “But the point remains that I may actually have influence over our past, even if it’s in another present in another world.” “That’s good enough for me,” I said. 149 1570 ACE Yes. In theory, backward causality is conceivable. Serif alighted on my shoulder. There is a possibility that going back in time—while unable to actually change what happens—could affect why something happens and who caused it. June— “Enough, Serif. I have to think.” I shut down the manacle and Serif disappeared from my wrist. She was acting off. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but something didn’t seem right. Once I had that initial thought, I realized it wasn’t the first time. Ever since we had entered the cave system she hadn’t been acting like herself. The OS felt sluggish, and I was reminded of the virus and my need to get the carapace someplace where Serif could run diagnostics securely. But not yet. 1570 ACE I didn’t want to get sidetracked. 150 My father was a geneticist. Lots of folks called him a genius, but it was his best friend who admired him most. Rowan Scott was my father’s research partner. He believed Father was everything a man could become. Brilliant mind, critical thinker, creative problem solver—Father was a leader in every field. Father had friends everywhere. He inspired loyalty and friendship and love, without any trace of the social awkwardness common to the scientific community. He loved people, never thinking of anyone as a hanger-on or a chore. We practically built shrines to him at home. From the second he walked in the door, my mother would begin doting. She’d bring him a drink and he’d sit on the couch while she pulled off his shoes. He always laughed about that, every day, and tried to wave her off. But she would smile at him and tickle his stockinged feet once the shoes were gone. That was the only time I ever saw her smile. She was sad mostly, though I didn’t know why. I was at home the day Scott and my father got into an argument. I saw them start shoving each other, threatening. 151 1570 ACE Rowan was at our house a lot when my father was gone. Mother said he was helping out, and I guess that’s why he never had time for talking. I had seen such things on television and knew what violence was, but Mother pushed me into my room and told me to leave them to it. I remember seeing my father standing tall, like that time he had yelled at my teacher for hurting my arm. I thought then that Scott looked like a creep. He was crouched by the knives on the kitchen counter and looked like he was planning a trick, pretending to be afraid. Mother warned me to stay in my room, but I snuck through the window as soon as she left. I went around the house to watch what happened through the sliding glass door that opened into the kitchen. They were arguing over something from work, something Rowan wanted that my father didn’t want him to have. Mother got involved, defending my father, and Rowan turned on her. I watched my father’s face fall—that’s how I thought of it. The way his smile fell from his mouth, like calving ice from a glacier. Not just in that moment. He hadn’t been smiling then. But forever. That was the end of all his smiles. 1570 ACE My mother collapsed on top of her high heels and I opened the door. Father had been about to go to mother, to pick her up I thought, but maybe not. When he heard the door he came to me instead. I screamed, trying to warn him about Rowan. He had one of the knives. He was coming up behind my father. I wanted my father to turn around but he didn’t. I think he knew what was going to happen, because he stopped being angry. Scott walked right by my mother, and she didn’t even try and stop him. She could have grabbed his leg. Scott was moving so slow, like he was preparing to hide the knife behind his back and pretend he hadn’t meant it. My father could have turned around. But nothing happened. Scott just kept coming. 152 I screamed again, pointing this time. “See!” I shouted. “He’s there! He’s got a knife!” But my father didn’t see. He wouldn’t turn. My mother didn’t see. She couldn’t lift her head. I was the only one who saw Rowan Scott murder my father. I was the only one who saw him stick my father’s heart from behind. I saw him, and Rowan saw me, and my mother didn’t look up until the blood had stopped spilling onto the carpet. I ran into the woods before the police came, and later, when Mother talked to me alone, she reminded me a burglar had done it, that Father had come upon him before he could take anything, and that I was safe. I wanted to argue, but Rowan waved the wet blade around my head and told her I was next if she ever said a word. He moved in after the funeral, to help, but Mother never took off his shoes. 1570 ACE 153 Push your sensibilities, June, Serif chided. She wasn’t one to let me give over to introspection, though I confess I was surprised that she had so quickly acted against my wishes for time to think. “What’s the matter?” I asked. I tried once more to hail Serif’s physicality through the OS, but the reception was completely gone. We may need to move. Roundtrip, the journey to the City took nearly ten hours. Serif had been gone for almost six, and I felt like she should have checked in by now. I expected her to let me know whether she had managed to get inside without attracting attention. I expected an update on the loadout—whether or not the drones were available, the supplies, etc. But I hadn’t heard anything from her in a long time. Maybe I am in a static cloud, the digital Serif offered. 1570 ACE Let’s hope, I replied. Despite the fact that the angel’s physicality was too large to be of much use in these caves, I liked the idea of having backup close at hand. I dialed up the sensor array to maximum sensitivity on the carapace and was shocked to find I wasn’t alone. I had been treading water, moving lazily with the current of 154 the timestream. But all along the banks of the river were Chernoblys. Not one or two. Dozens. Perhaps a hundred. They sat on their haunches, swaying, chittering at one another in hushes and whispers indigenous to caves. I had mistaken them for crickets. They hung off one another like spores, clustered, and every one I could see had both hands and long fingers extended toward the water. They were listening. Watching. Waiting. From the back, one of the Chernoblys stood tall and raised his chin to the ceiling. He made a noise I hadn’t heard before, a screeching noise that sounded like it was partly a war cry and partly an alarm. Whatever it was, it drove the creatures to action. They splashed into the water and swam for me. I dumped the air in my carapace and went head down, swimming for the bottom. Serif! I called out mentally. I need you! My head was whirling. I was living in two times, with both my thoughts and those of Hasan competing for the space at the front of my brain. Serif was zipping around inside me, using both material and spiritual means to block the timestream images. I was getting ontological motion sickness. The Chernoblys came down deep after me, seemingly unaffected by the Chronosphere. The water had a strange effect on their bodies, leeching the uranium secrete from their pores. Green vapors billowed in the ichor, making it increasingly difficult to see. I switched lenses, but didn’t receive greater clarity with either the thermal glass or the greenwash. 155 1570 ACE Everything was over-contrasted, brightness of one color or another—green, white, a glowing black—and I could feel the panic setting in. Though my carapace had precise climate control, I began to shake. The chills were forcing my teeth to chatter, and I began to feel my chest constrict, making it difficult to breathe. This wasn’t just a physical reaction. My mind was working through a host of horrifying scenarios—drowning, mobbing, dislocation, disorientation. I couldn’t stop my fantasies from outstripping my rational mind. Help! I called out to Serif once more. I cannot administer anything to work against the adrenal pump, June, or your reactions will slow. The Chernoblys are not looking to mate. 1570 ACE What do I do? I asked, but before Serif could answer I felt one of them grab hold of my heel, talons ripping into the carapace and gaining hold. I kicked out and felt something crunch beneath me, but the grip didn’t loosen. I began to flail. I started the app for the ice-axe and crampons in my OS, thinking I might be able to use those as weapons, but the virus was slowing my processing speed. I could feel Serif working inside me, trying desperately to help, but I was running out of options. The crampons sprung and dislodged the claws on my heel, but the axe still wouldn’t load. Two more Chernoblys found me in the water and I could hear the muffled chittering leaking through the waves. I yelled in frustration, lashing out again, and tried loading my rope. It wasn’t likely to do much good underwater, but I figured I might be able to fire the smart-grapple if I got clear of my attackers and surface. Fighting and thrashing about, I finally made it above water. It looked like a feeding frenzy, the water bubbling and churning, Chernoblys in every direction like piranhas. I executed the smart-grapple, but it missed the ceiling, shooting wildly into the dark. The grapple rapidly reloaded into my arm with a harsh clack. Serif warned me of a heavy Chernobly coming up from behind and I was forced to dive back under the water. 156 The timestream was making me sick, and I coughed blood into the river. I tossed and wheeled in a circle, quickly boosting back to the surface once Serif gave me the cue. This time the grapple made contact, crawling along the slick surface of the cave wall before wheedling its way into a crevice and springing the cams. Serif initiated the pull sequence and I felt myself being dragged from the water just ten feet above the seething churn. Momentarily salvaged from the attack, I let my muscles run slack. I allowed myself to be strung by the grapple, a worm too abused to squirm on the hook. I needed a moment to gather my wits. Just a moment to whimper before being brave. 1570 ACE 157 There were Chernoblys crawling on every surface. They surged together in heaps, sticking to the walls, jumbling on and over and against one another like anthropomorphic termites, like flies. I knew I wasn’t yet safe so I shot the grapple once more across the room. My ribs ached with the dullness of regret and the sensors in my operating system complained, but it was the fastest way out, and I needed to use it or face the consequences. The pain in my side was like a foot-thick burn from rope, scraping within. I was thankful for my synthetic body, but saddened also. Being able to dial down the pain was a boon, but it also made me feel like I was cheating at humanity, falsifying the hallowed truths of personhood. 1570 ACE My thoughts were clouding. I almost passed out. I tried to remember my original flesh, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t recall how it felt. I missed the certainty that I was more than a husk, that I was enfleshed—an incarnation of myself. But now I was different, just a ghost in a fun box. It wasn’t the same, and I regretted my exfiltration from man. Swinging across the cavern, my feet nearly tracing lines on the surface of the river, I landed on the hard earth and 158 reeled through a tunnel. The pain roared and I diverted my system resources to blunt it. I stumbled. I fell. Serif called out sharp directions in response to the cave schematics. I got up, limping, and kept moving. I tumbled down a tiny chute, nearly vertical, landing off-balance and scooting the rest of the way down a short pass before emerging into another massive room. The space was cavernous in the truest possible sense of the word and the darkness intensified even further. The old blacks deepened into abyssal completeness and I was forced to switch lenses, greenwash flipping over my field of vision like a shroud of mint. I was uncomfortable with these lenses, and frustrated that nothing was happening the way I wanted, but preferred greensight to blindness. I couldn’t see the end of the cavern, or the sides, or even the ceiling. It was like an underground world, a speleological cosmos where the heavens were joists and hell, the planet core. Giant selenite crystals crisscrossed the open spaces like the tottered ruins of yesterday’s skytowers. I was caught between wonder and bewilderment. This, then, was what remained of the original New Palestine. The settlement had once been above ground, but many such things had changed during the holocaust. Much that was on the surface fell beneath, and some that were buried resurrected. It was as if the world had been partially flipped inside out and cast aside like a used sock. 159 1570 ACE The Colony buildings were arranged all in a rectangle, with Main street down the center and Broadway cutting perpendicular. The compound was sturdily built—all rough wood and stone—reminiscent of Brutalist architecture from the mid twenty-first century West. I had little time to appreciate what I was seeing. My marvel was interrupted by the roar of the Chernobly mob streaming from windows and doors and alleys in every direction. There! Serif’s voice exploded in my mind, and I followed her prompting into a squat building with a lowslung roof. It looked like a small business, an office of sorts, but it had some obvious defensible advantages. Thick walls, small windows, only one visible entrance and exit. I slammed my shoulder into the door, tried the handle and was surprised to find it turn freely. Once inside, I slid the deadbolt across the entrance, found a chair to jam against the door, and began to pray that the Chernoblys would either give up or prove too ineffectual to get inside. I was crystallized with fright, too scared to do anything but sit. There always seemed to be one more dash, one more fall, one more gloomy situation in which I found myself pressed further, harder, and closer to despair. I was stuck in a room with only one way out. 1570 ACE And it was blocked. 160 Gilead 3062 CE The next three months went better with meat, but my headaches intensified. We bought cows and kept them in back of the bar, making Thin Ryan do all the shoveling. Beret donated the building to our party—that’s what we thought of ourselves: seven sexy souls spinning a party wildly out of control. But we weren’t there yet. This was the beginning of an occupation for revelry, a sit-in against the marrow-sucking powers of an already lifeless world. Evie skipped work and we partied every night. Slowly, her friends began to come out of their shells and live a little. I felt like I’d found my purpose in life—wake up comatose, inject life, be a dream-supplier. I met more of Evie’s friends, and we made some of our own. The party grew. The occupation went viral. A revolution in eating and pleasure. We had a good time. Until the day it came to a hysterical, ball-kicking halt, and I lost everything. 161 3062 CE We invited others into our coup, partying more and with more people. We planned to burn the bar and keep the insurance money once we’d brought in enough new partygoers to force a move. tine s e l a P w e N f o s in u The R ACE 1570 I sat in the office chair, wondering about the creatures outside in the dark. The Chernoblys had more history with my mother than I did. When I thought about them, I thought about her, and could not stall the traffic of my memories. I left the house in my early teens. I couldn’t live with Rowan, but felt bad for leaving. Mother always told me I was the only good thing she had left now that Father was gone. She told me I reminded her of him. That I was an echo. 1570 ACE Scott must have joined, or possibly even founded, the New Palestine colony shortly thereafter. I didn’t try to keep tabs on my mother. It wasn’t until the War, and after when we started counting all we’d lost, that I began looking for her in earnest. It would have been difficult enough to find her without a War, but after the death-toll accelerated it was impossible. I guess I was holding out for a second chance. I thought if God was just, Rowan would be dead and I could look after my mother. I imagined we were owed. She had never been happy. I couldn’t ever figure it, either. How could you be around my father and not be infected by his consummate joy? Then I realized, Mother was sad because she had betrayed that joy. My father didn’t know about her and Rowan, and a spiritual malignancy was killing her as surely as cancer. 162 I don’t know when it all started between Mother and Rowan, but sometime before I was born Mother realized her mistake and wished for all the world she hadn’t broken her vows. She could have been the happiest woman alive, but she didn’t know it until it was too late. I figured I couldn’t make anything worse by leaving. I had to go. I never saw my mother again. That’s stayed with me. Even with the War, and everything that came after, hers is the life I miss. I hoped not to miss her a second time. 1570 ACE 163 The Chernoblys weren’t evil. That much I could tell. My first contact with the female in the cave entrance hadn’t been hostile until she wanted something I didn’t want to share. But those first few moments were civil. But they now perceived me as a threat. I was an outsider. I could hear them beating against the door. I wondered if it would hold. The frame shook. Dust came away from the seal against the brick wall. After so many centuries, the mortar had to be weak. I began to imagine the entire wall to collapsing. I saw myself overrun by Chernoblys and shuddered, trying to think of something else. But it was difficult. I was an island in a sea of instinctual rage. “Serif?” I called. She responded instantly, reading my anxiety. The door will hold, June. 1570 ACE Serif had architectural scans beyond those in my carapace, but I wasn’t convinced. “Are you sure?” Their structural stability is sixty-seven percent confirmed. What? “Sixty-seven percent! That’s it?” 164 Judging by their reactions, I wasn’t the first outsider they’d encountered. And the last encounter hadn’t been good. Serif’s voice was calm. It will be enough. The prison window at the top of the wall clouded over. It was the only window, and I doubted the Chernoblys could fit through, even if they managed to break it. It was too small and too high, but they were still climbing on top of one another to get in. I saw fingers shadowed against the pane. Those fingers were reaching, stretching to get the palm to the center of the window, eager to smash it open and burst inside. I could feel the cutting edge of hysteria slipping through my mind. “Are you kidding me?” She didn’t answer. “Serif?” The door will hold, she said. And the wall. There were more fumbled attempts, but I never saw anything more than single digits slapping harmlessly against the tempered glass. The wall shook. The door jiggled with a combustion of knocks and moans. With my back to the door I could feel the mob pressing, but it held. Gradually, the rhythmic thump of their assault calmed. I let go of the breath I’d been holding. I was, for the moment, safe. The office building was comprised of only three simple rooms: bathroom, kitchenette, and workspace. From my spot 165 1570 ACE My breathing slowed and I felt sleepy all of a sudden. I knew it was the decrease in cyber serotonin, but I wanted desperately to be in Repose. on the floor I could easily survey them all, but I got up and scoured the office to keep from falling asleep. I quickly checked the bathroom and kitchenette for supplies, but found little of use. The workspace was the priority—oak desk, bookshelves, framed awards. I rolled an office chair to the desk, then further reinforced the door with an end table. When the last twinge of adrenaline dribbled off, I asked Serif, “did you really know the door was going to hold?” I told you what we needed to be brave, she said. That wasn’t the answer I’d expected. “You lied?” I felt her amusement through the OS. I told you the truth. The door did not break. I wasn’t sure if I should join in the joke or get angry. “But you didn’t know?” It seems I did. I chuckled, but was troubled that Serif had misled me. 1570 ACE The heavy desk crouched against the far wall was adorned with the litter of intelligentsia—pencils, scraps of paper, charts, and projections. There was a frame on the right, though the picture in it had long since crumbled into pressed ash. The mushroom garden caught my attention. “Have you ever seen something like this?” I asked Serif. It looked like it had begun as a small box, maybe the size of a gallon of milk, with a hole in the side through which the original mushrooms had protruded. But a lot can happen in a thousand years, and now the mushrooms had grown over one third of the desk and consumed the bookcases to the left almost entirely. You could still see some of the book spines jutting up from behind the fungi. 166 Mushrooms have many medicinal uses, June, though I suspect the Chief Prosecutor had them for psychotropic purposes. “You think this was Hasan’s office?” Did you not see his name above you? There it was, a bronzed plaque gone green with age: IN RECOGNITION OF EXEMPLARY SERVICE, CHIef ProSeCuTor HaSan TaHn. There was another of the puzzle pieces in place. When I went into the timestream, I wasn’t going to another place, just another time. I was reviewing events from here, then. I began rifling through the desk drawers, clusters of mushrooms falling onto the floor. Mushrooms have always unnerved me, especially the big ones that grow on trees—the polypores. I’ve always been afraid they would begin to grow on me. Like I might wake up one morning and see a trametes versicolor rippling off my ribs or under my ear; or, worse still, that I might become infected by a mushroom contagion and grow lamella-gills along my back like the vents beneath their caps. You’d think that having an entirely machinated body would reduce those irrational fears, but you’d be wrong. Fear has very little to do with what’s real. 1570 ACE 167 “Wait a minute,” I said, stopping my search for a moment. I had missed the full implications of the décor until then. “You think he was growing magic mushrooms?” Serif manifested from the manacle at 2x and left her perch to alight upon a toadstool. Not all psilocybins are hallucinogenic, she said. Several varieties have been used in spiritual ceremonies during the sectarian development of primitive cultures. “Not that primitive,” I said. “The Prosecutor was here in the mid-to-late twenty-first century, well beyond the pale of healing vigils and drug-induced trances.” 1570 ACE I searched the desk, slightly irritated with Serif’s suggestion that the minister might be a drug addict. I genuinely liked Hasan, though I hadn’t realized it until that moment. He had something I had lost and now envied. He believed in his personal mission right to the core, and I held onto the hope that my contact with the man might produce such conviction in me. I continued searching through the Prosecutor’s desk until I got to the bottom drawer. It was locked and I had to wait a moment for the ice axe to boot. Again, it took longer than it should have. Your OS continues to underperform, June. 168 “What do you suggest we do about it?” I asked. “There’s a thousand-thousand of those things out there, and they want to either marry me or murder me. We have no time to fiddle with repairs while they’re outside.” The ice axe loaded successfully, and I used the adze to pry open the drawer. There was a leather journal inside, covered with two inches of mottled rot. Carefully, I lifted it out of the desk and eased it open, trying not to crack the binding. I cracked the binding. Most of the pages were illegible, and several had deteriorated into nothing more than chalkish powder. I caught little words here and there about the Colony, God, and the responsibility of all men to the Common Good. It all added up to about half of what I knew from living in Hasan’s head. There was one passage that remained largely intact, one chunk of text that had providentially endured. I began to read. “…Scott continues working on the red heifer, though he has had little success. An international group of Anglo-Israelites fund his work. I turned the page carefully, and the entry continued… 169 1570 ACE They think it might produce the Messiah. I think it might produce a monster. It is too much of a distraction, and keeps him focused elsewhere. When he does come around to my side of things, he’s proud as a strutting peacock. By God, that man could make Moses cuss.” Scott talked to me today about the ‘superliminal projection of optic pulses’ or some such. Can you believe it? It’s Babel all over again; men trying to stand tall, thinking to look down on the Lord. That doesn’t tend to go well, by my count. And I’d guess my count’s better than most. 1570 ACE Time travel…God Almighty, I can hardly believe it. I always thought it was impossible, though what’s impossible with man is possible with God. Glory be. Even so, I never imagined this—of all things—might fit within the purview of his mighty provenance. Scott tells me we can only see what’s been touched by light. Light moves at a steady pace which must mean that, technically, what we’re “seeing” is something that has happened already. We’re always looking at the past. By God, ain’t that the truth? The past stares back at us 170 every second of every day. It’s all we see. It’s got me thinking, all right. Thinking about the Light of God shining on us. Light comes from somewhere, right? Somewhere beyond. I have to think that light is the extension of God, for God is light and in him there is no darkness at all. He exists beyond, but affects the world right in front of us; so does light. It’s like they’re the same, or like light is his creature, doing his will. Like me: An angel of Light for the Light of the World. 171 1570 ACE I’m told the only thing that really has any bearing on light’s speed is the distance between things—point A and point B, like, though Scott thinks maybe there’s a way to bring things closer together. Black holes. The horns of a saddle. Little bridges between places. He’s got fancy words and big ideas, but I know his real interest is power. He has become the de facto leader of New Palestine and I have been largely sidelined. I am more an advisor now than anything else, a figurehead. But I’m content. I don’t need the power. I work for the One that all power serves. Yet I’m uncomfortable with Scott’s hunger for it. One way or another, he wants to start crafting the future in his own image. He says it will be ‘the abolition of time from the indenture of light.’ Scott talks and talks about ‘counterbalancing our internal harmonies’ but my simple mind thinks of it like tuning in an old radio. Every bit of the past has its own station, and all we’re trying to do is get a signal. I’ll let Scott keep yammering about rods and cortices. For my part, by God, I’ll just keep on thinking about how power changes stuff in the brain, chemical stuff, and that allows us to think in the past… not to pretend, or even be fooled that we were there, but to actually live it all over again. 1570 ACE He’s got fancy words, but I just jump in the water and watch it work. It’s like a movie you can change. 172 Hasan’s entry concluded with more frustration about Rowan. “We need him working with us fixing time,” he wrote, “but I fear that every moment he changes only brings us one step closer to judgment.” Then, in oversized scrawl, I saw these words at the bottom of the page, “GOD HELP US ALL.” “Fixing time…” I said aloud. That could be why he had the mushrooms, Serif replied. “Hasan knew about the timestream. Or at least he suspected it, thought maybe he could manipulate it.” I was nearly shuddering with excitement. Answers to the greatest evolutionary questions had just been splayed open for my personal satisfaction. I felt like this was the moment toward which every other incident had driven me since I was born. Hasan’s journal proved we could go back in time and change the past—maybe the future, too. It wasn’t a hallucination. It was real. To be in the water was to be in the past, and—more importantly—to have power to change it. I sat for a long time in Hasan’s chair reading his journal. It was full of notes about the Chronosphere. 173 1570 ACE I could save the world. Hasan wondered if maybe there was a device somewhere, lost and buried deep beneath the Colony. “Something down there is messing with the spores,” he wrote. But he didn’t know what. “I’ve started a garden. I want to see whether it makes any difference having things grow away from the ground. It may be the soil, or the caves. It may be the water.” Something was contaminating the river, and it made the Chronosphere more accessible. Hasan was just guessing, and I thought some of his speculations strained credulity. “Maybe it’s an alien thing,” he wondered, “a machine.” Hasan claimed he was learning in his sleep. He dreamed of himself in the future, and of himself in the past. In some of these dreams he was a horned demon. In some he was a respectable barrister. In some of his dreams he was a wanderer and, in others, a sorcerer. Sometimes he was just himself, only in other places. “Lord, please take these dreams away,” he wrote, handwriting scratchy and thin. “I hope they are just fancies, the tiredness of an old man in the night. But I’m scared. I don’t want to be somebody else. I don’t want to do anything other than what you’ve asked. Please don’t make them true, Lord.” 1570 ACE It was those dreams that led him into the caverns beneath New Palestine. He dreamed there was a cave behind one wall of his office and he woke in the middle of the night holding a hammer. Following his waking impulse, he tore down a wall. “There was a cave,” he wrote. Water splotches made some of his sentences illegible, but enough had been preserved. “There was a shallow pool in that cave, in the middle. I don’t know what came over me. Was it you? I’ve never doubted before. I knelt in that pool. It was like the 174 cleansing of a mountain baptism. When I put my face in the water, I beheld a miracle.” Hasan’s next words both thrilled and alarmed me. He wrote those words faintly, but had then traced them over and over again in different inks and leads. I could see the outline of those words looping past the letters—in blue ink and black, red pen and colored pencil. He’d caressed those words like an alphabetical rosary, coming back to them often and duplicating them lovingly. He wrote, “I went back in time.” That was the first timestream. 1570 ACE 175 Psilocybin produces euphoria, changes in perception, a distorted and disparate sense of time, and has been a known contributor to metaphysical enhancers. Serif’s voice came mentally through the OS. She wasn’t content to let me ruminate. The companion of an Expeditionary Privateer, Serif was a scientist herself. Her long-acquaintance with mystery compelled her to search for solid hypotheses about how the timestream worked and whether we might replicate it. I paused a moment, letting the plurality of realizations sink in. I could still feel the effects of the Chernobly’s infection, clouding my mind and making things hurt. I put my hand to my forehead and rubbed the skin with my fingers. Everything about me felt like it was being squeezed into some other shape, a shape perfectly adapted to a highpressure world where regrets could be erased and mistakes circumvented. 1570 ACE Do not let your imagination run away with you, June. We have a lot of work to do in the present before we can change the past. I stretched my neck and clasped my hands together, trying hard not to lose my cool. “Everything we have experienced in the last twelve hours fits neatly into the category of the impossible,” I said, leaning back in the chair 176 behind the Prosecutor’s desk. “We’re crossing dimensional thresholds that question every accepted fact of human scientific certainty.” I stood up from the desk, raising the manacle to eyelevel. “We’ve gone off the reservation, sister. We’re in a place of extreme possibility, however improbable some of those impossibles might be.” As if in response, Serif demagnified her avatar to 1x and perched back upon my wrist. I felt the weight of her hologram. I knew it was a stimulus response generated by the carapace, designed to help cross the uncanny valley dividing the virtual from the material, but I was so tired it still felt like a chore to keep up. She weighed on me. 1570 ACE 177 There had been so little noise from outside for so long I decided to venture a peek outside. Bringing the office chair over to the window, I climbed on top and could just barely reach my fingertips over the ledge. I was thankful there was no such ledge on the exterior, or their assault may have been more successful. Using the corner, I was able to scramble up the wall with my purchase on the sill and watch the Chernoblys go about their normal lives. They were surprisingly human. 1570 ACE They congregated, speaking to one another in tones ranging from matter-of-fact business to friendly banter. They even laughed, a sound like metal shavings falling into an aluminum palm. The Chernoblys seemed further evolved than our humanoid ancestors like Cro-Magnon, which I guess made sense. They had started as more, then backslidden into something less. I saw a child sitting by herself and holding onto an oftrepaired grey doll. Most of the doll’s hair was missing, but the child tenderly brushed the hair with her fingers. I thought she looked sad. The doll had only one remaining leg, but in the empty socket someone had fitted a carved piece of 178 driftwood. It even ended in a kind of heel and I marveled as the little girl made the doll walk and talk before her. Across the street were several males gathered around an antiquated sports car. Behind the mildew and the rust, the car’s lines still whispered of youth and speed. For a moment, they looked every bit like the small town inhabitants they had once been. They were Saturday menfolk, comparing engines and talking about how to get the most out of their drag. I wondered, momentarily, what it would be like for this world to be remade. There wasn’t much more than this, certainly, when Scott and Hasan had first visited the Colony. Fewer buildings, but less rubble also. They had dreams of making something great. Did they dream of something like our Heavenly city? Or was their dream to make someplace where you could grow your own future? Of all the vignettes of Chernobly life, the one that stuck most in my mind was the woman with the hairbrush. She had no hair, and the brush had no bristles, but she sat behind an elderly woman and ran the nubs of the brush along that old crown with what you must only recall as love. The ruins of New Palestine were some of the last vestiges of the World That Was, the true world. I wanted to hold onto it, not because that world was so great but because that was the world from which I had come. I have very few memories of the World That Was. All of us who still live participated in the War, but most choose not to remember what we did or which side we took. We partitioned our guilt, refusing to be educated by shame. 179 1570 ACE When the War’s dust settled, the two halves of Earth were separated by more than oceans. North America brought its citizenry under three habitats. The City of God took root on the Nebraska-Iowa border, away from the hottest conflict zones. A smaller city, born from Halifax’s ashes, didn’t survive the first super-freeze of nuclear winter. Juarez barely lasted a century. There were too many Texans with guns and food, and too many Mexicans without. The Texans ran out of bullets before the Mexicans ran out of siblings. South America continued as it had for the last several hundred years, resulting in mass death and wholesale disease. Brazil had made tremendous scientific and agricultural advancements, but Bolivian flu and Peruvian neo-cholera wiped out the entire continent. Gilead was founded in the shadow of the Alps. They upheld a strict non-violence policy that stretched to include dietary laws and religious observance punctuated by the threat of immediate expulsion. Many were ejected within the first week of their stay. There were no exceptions. With meritorious administration and security, Gilead succeeded in quickly rebuilding a human hive. The West had gone to War with the world and everyone lost. Heaven and Gilead were civil, but distant, like children of divorced parents. Now Gilead was gone and no one knew why. 1570 ACE The War was the final straw for the last age of man, the moment when we got sick to death of death itself and vowed never to turn on each other again. It was our Flood, and we repented of our humanity and made our rainbow out of ecumenism, shared prosperity, and peace. We turned our swords into ploughshares, our scuds and ICBMs into playgrounds and schools, and pooled our intelligence for the common good. But it wasn’t good enough. We became our own parasites, the apex predator left feeding on ourselves. 180 Mother used to tell me home is where your family is. I had no family, but felt a greater kinship with the Chernoblys than with the City of God. These were people who had been robbed of their personhood. They weren’t who they once were, but they retained that which could never be stolen. They had their dignity. I am concerned about your operating system, said Serif still sitting like a circuit-sprite on my wrist. The Chernobly infection has taken root in your sense perceptors. You are over-experiencing reality, June. “Tell me about it,” I replied, somehow keeping the enthusiasm from my voice. Hypperreality is a significant danger to carapatic interface. If you cannot limit your emotional responses and cordon off your intellectual curiosities, your frontal lobes could turn supra-thalpotic. Your consciousness would not survive the download back to the City servers. You could die. 181 1570 ACE I know Serif’s warning should have registered more dramatically, but I wasn’t really worried. Maybe I was obsessed. Maybe I was preoccupied. But I wasn’t thinking about death. I was thinking about answers. I was thinking about revenge. “I need to get back to the timestream,” I said. Are you listening? I slipped from the window sill, catching one final glimpse of Chernoblys looking back toward the office. They knew I was still here. They charged and resumed banging against the door, reminding me we weren’t on the same side. I smashed both of my hands down on the wall, Serif instinctively coming off her perch and virtually passing through my wrist to hover above my head. There were crumbles of mortar scattered on the floor. “I have to get back!” Serif hovered there for a moment. I could feel her probing my thoughts, trying to figure out whether I was in more danger from myself or from the infection. She stopped beating her wings, folding them up before her and using her will to maintain the illusion of constant altitude. The mushrooms are for brewing tea, she said. The tea will enhance your ability to control the timestream. “Thank you,” I said. 1570 ACE Serif magnified to 3x and placed her hind talons on the desk across the room. Push your sensibilities beyond this wall. I complied, surprised at what I found. There, she said. Do you perceive it? “The river,” I replied, sensing a pulsating supremacy. It was a torrent of ego, a wet rush of power. It seemed implausible that I couldn’t have heard it, at least, without having to rely on the extra-sensory capacities of my carapace. I can see it in the Spirit, said Serif. It is a point of liminality between the visible and invisible realms. There 182 are not many left. Chief Prosecutor Tahn must have kept it hidden. I began waddling the bookcase away from the wall to the side of the desk. Mushrooms were toppling books over and it made for awkward pulling. In my haste I ripped the bookcase away from the wall entirely, and it smashed into pieces on the floor. Spores from the mushrooms visibly clouded the room. I coughed and hacked, throwing my hands up and swatting microorganisms away. Bending over, I collected several caps and stems before heading into the back room. It was a small dome-shaped chamber with a pool in the center of the room, large enough for only two people at a time. Still at 3x magnification, Serif hovered behind me, coaching me. Brew the tea with water from the timestream, she said. It will accelerate the reaction. Sitting beside the pool, I loaded the app for my handbowl and was surprised to find it open so quickly. I heated a scoop of water using the palm element and crushed the mushrooms in my other hand, pestling them into powder. I had plenty of mushrooms in case I needed them later. When the water boiled I added the talc. It steeped and I drank deeply, burning my tongue. It was thick and buttery tasting, but stank like something drying in a corner. I tried not to dwell on it. I had other business at hand. I fell forward into the water, wincing, as the world whirled and I got myself wet in time. 1570 ACE 183 184 New Palestine 2048 CE We were in the middle of a siege. Hasan had us running around, dodging mortar fire and bellowing instructions. He was doing his best to marshal militia, pushing them toward defensible positions like some Confederate legate. I knew he was no tactician, but the Colony didn’t have anyone else, so the Chief Prosecutor stepped in like a prophet leading Judah to war. I could tell Hasan was unnerved by the strength of the opposition, but he refused to give into despair, anxiety, or fear. He knew God had called him to lead, and though he couldn’t see a way past this enemy, he also knew God could see things he could not. Even now Hasan believed they were headed for better days. Even now he believed their dream would overcome all obstacles and elevate them into greatness forever. If there were challenges, Hasan was ready to meet them. He was like Nehemiah, building materials in one hand and weapons in the other. He was like Samson, governing and grappling enemies on every front. He was living out the 185 2048 CE The first few moments in the timestream were chaotic. I wasn’t sure what was happening. It was loud and our body felt heavy, sluggish, like we hadn’t slept in weeks and were living off scraps. It wasn’t until I saw the first dead body that I put it all together. stories of biblical heroes, and they reminded him who he really was. 2048 CE A man of God. The eastern side of New Palestine was fortified by an old stone wall leftover from the American Civil War. It wasn’t much use against the ordnance, but it prevented easy access by vehicles and infantry. Hasan had ordered tractors and cars, shipping containers and hay bales, felled trees and trash bins lined up, staggered on the south side. To the northwest was a large winding river, which left the attackers only the true west for an approach through the fields. There was nothing there to slow our assailants, so Hasan arranged the bulk of our manpower there. The enemy looked to be a full company, formed up in three platoons. They were content to shell us with heavy guns until the ground combat vehicles and soldiers could mop up once resistance had fractured. Most of the Colonial men had taken place in relatively secure positions, while the women and children were put away in bunkers beneath the school. Hasan! I screamed into his mind. Who are these soldiers? Why are they attacking? He didn’t answer, but my question got through. I had space in his mind to move around and began to model my mental behavior after Serif’s protocols for intellectual engagement. She had successfully interfaced with the human psyche for so long it had become second nature. I had to be careful with Hasan. I didn’t want to hurt him; neither did I want to distract him when clearly he was all the Colony had. I probed his mind, searching for clues. They weren’t hard to find. His sense of righteous indignation kept them close to the surface. Scott’s alliance with the Anglo-Israelites had caused tension among Palestinian sympathizers. The Palestinians 186 believed the Colonists were arming the Jews with biological weapons and felt betrayed. This was New Palestine after all. They feared the colonists were moving those weapons into the Holy Land under the auspices of missionary relief, a common gig at the end of the twenty-first century. I wondered, briefly, if this wasn’t the skirmish that started The War. But the timing was wrong. It was too early. The contractors were under orders to capture the Jewish scientists, disrupt security, and ensure New Palestine never tried anything like this again. From behind that barricade of residential leftovers, it didn’t look like this was going to be one of their more difficult missions. My only consolation was that I might be fortunate enough to see Rowan Scott get shot in the neck. I know. I’m a romantic. 187 2048 CE In retaliation, the Palestinians had hired a private defense contractor to deter the Colony from further cooperation with their ancient enemies. If the early twentieth century perfected war-at-scale, the early twenty-first century successfully privatized armed conflict. Soldiers, weapons, and strategies could be bought and sold via wireless networks by and from anyone with cash on hand. Need an army? All it required was a broadband connection and a hundred million dollars. The Palestinians had money and the allied Arab nations felt the threat justified investigative aggression. 2048 CE Faced with annihilation, I knew I had to convince Hasan to get my mother out of New Palestine before they were overrun. You’ve got to stop, I called. Hasan complied. I could feel his body relax as he did, face upturned to the sky. “Where has thou been, Lord? I have needed thee.” Hasan kneeled down in the middle of the road, and I felt him assume the tenor of prayer. Despite all the chaos, he felt at peace. Hasan thought maybe God was testing his faith and, if so, he was sure to pass. I felt strange being designated Almighty, and I knew I had to disaffect him of that notion sooner rather than later. Nothing good happens when you play God. This isn’t God, I screamed in his mind. My name is June Paul. You can’t win this war. Hasan continued to pray. “Bless you, Lord. My trust in you is unwavering. Your word gives me strength—” Shut up! Run! I cried, having little patience for this. Get Grace Scott and get out of the Colony! The last thing I needed was for my link to the past to be cauterized by inconvenient piety. But Hasan didn’t move. Instead, he continued to pray silently for many moments, bombs and bullets providing the 188 exclamatory marks for his petitions. “Even in groanings that cannot be uttered,” he said, bringing his supplications to a close, “even through that beatific tongue of angels, thou has spoken to my soul.” The Prosecutor stood up, our arms sweeping around the chaos, and raised our voice loud above the din of war. “Arise!” we called. “Men and Women of New Palestine! Attend to me.” “Hearken!” we cried, energized by conflict. “Root yourselves in faith. We shall not be moved. No weapon formed against us shall prosper. No evil shall dominate what has been brought forth from the sprig of Gawd’s triumph! Rejoice in the Lord always! I will say it again! Rejoice! For the battle belongs to the Lord!” A cry went up from the people, heartened by the Prosecutor’s faith. They were encouraged by the sentiment of destiny. The colonists believed God had chosen them and that God himself would deliver them. Hasan was the down payment of that deliverance. I felt myself carried along by the tide, waiting for the next sign from God along with everyone else. We didn’t have to wait long. 189 2048 CE People tentatively leaned out of their foxholes, peering around corners. Even the ordnance ceased momentarily. “There are forces arrayed against us,” he continued, “of darkness, of violence, of destruction…” The bombs crashed down once more, creating a backdrop of smoke and flame to accentuate the urgency of the Prosecutor’s words. “But I can say, by Gawd, that the Lord of Hosts is mightier than any force of man. He has spoken unto me the very words of life.” The sky darkened and turned red with explosions from our foes. 2048 CE “Hold!” cried one of the men on our flank. He was armed with only an old hunting rifle, taking cover behind a front-end loader in our forward position. “A white flag!” Hasan could hardly believe it. I could hardly believe it. Three men were riding toward our fortifications on the back of an armored personnel carrier. Two behind closed turrets, with a leader ahead on the hood, waving a simple shrift on a wooden stick. He was moving it back and forth, slowly so as to avoid causing alarm. The men behind him were exchanging glances, their fingers still on Gatling triggers. Yet the man in front was fix-eyed and looked straight. The timing was anything but coincidental. Here we were, calling on providence, so enraptured that the alignment of Heaven and Earth caught us off guard. We were mystified. Hasan began to order the flag bearers shot down, reasoning that these were to be the first victims of grace. But I stopped him. Be silent! I called, summoning every ounce of energy and focusing it toward him. He listened, though I still wasn’t sure how much he understood. “Gawd, I am your servant,” he said, bowing his head. We were about to approach the envoys when the double doors of the capitol building opened behind us with a crash. It was the central structure of the compound and the racket 190 startled most of the colonists. Rowan Scott blustered out, forging across the interior of our fortifications. My hatred superseded all other concerns. I wanted the satisfaction of choking Scott slowly, of squeezing the life out of him one small bit at a time. I felt my chest tense and my jaw clench so tightly it hurt. My stomach burned with a psychosomatic indigestion. I needed retribution. You must control your emotions, June, came Serif’s mental voice. She was speaking gently, coaxing me, but there was an edge of warning as well. You need to dial down, June, she said, taking no action whatsoever. I am not making a request, I replied. You are an alien consciousness here. You have to respect the past. Serif’s caution was lost on me, and I tried to get Hasan to kill Rowan Scott right then and there. But I had no such influence, no motor control over our body. At best I was a conscience, at worst a divine hallucination. Scott stepped quickly through the barricades and advanced straight out to meet the bearers of the flag in the field. They rode together in the APC. Scott stood on the ground alone. I have never seen such a coward behave like such a conqueror. “What are they sayin’, minister?” We turned to see who had spoken. It was one of the young fathers, clutching a handgun and patting it nervously against his leg. 191 2048 CE You can’t understand what’s happening, I shouted in our mind. Do something! Help me kill him! Hasan felt pity for the man, for his trust in man’s weaponry. “I don’t know, son,” we replied. Another of the colonists had overheard us talking. He walked over to join our conversation, and unwittingly began tapping his own rifle crossways against his legs. The two colonists were like a drum corps. It wasn’t helping our nerves. 2048 CE “Scott’s gonna give ‘em more grief than grace,” said the newcomer. “Yeah?” asked the young father, his tapping more incessant now that he had accompaniment. “Who are these guys?” The newcomer guffawed. “Don’t you watch the news, Hoss? These here’s the Private Defense Contractor.” “A what?” asked the young father, his staccato rhythm faltering slightly. “Mercenaries,” said the rifleman. “Guns for hire. They were all over the news last night.” He started nodding, encouraging the father to pick up the beat once more. “New Palestine is making everybody nervous. Supposedly some Arab group wanted to flex their muscles.” “At who?” asked the younger man. The rifleman slapped his gun hard against the other man’s thighs. “At us, dummy! Who’d you think?” We wanted them to stop tapping. But they both continued. Talking and tapping. Exposing their ignorance. Talking. Increasing our irritation. Tapping. The young man sped up, his face betraying a combination of anxiety and enthusiasm. “What do they want?” 192 “Us. Dead,” said the rifleman, whacking his knees now and playing syncopated shots that offset the other man. We wanted to scream. “Why?” “’Cause we’re smarter than them, ‘cause we got more money than them, ‘cause we got better friends than them.” “We only need One,” said Hasan. They both stopped tapping and looked at us. “’Cause of Rowan Scott?” asked the younger man, a slight upturn to his voice like he was asking for more drumming. The rifleman complied, and they were back at it. “He’s got pull. Scott’s like Einstein and Eisenhower in one. He won the Nobel Peace Prize and has eaten supper at the White House.” Hasan was getting ready to pop. Our mind was still on Scott and the parlay, but we were by a snare of tympanic fools. We tried to be cordial regardless. “He met the President?” we asked. Newcomer looked proud of himself for knowing the story. “The President invited him personal.” We walked away once the two men got lost in their percussive distraction, but felt like we were marching away to our deaths. Hasan called out to God for help, for any manner of help at all, but it seemed like all we would get were drums. “Oh God,” he prayed out loud, “is it possible I have been misled? That this was the dream of my pride? Or hast Thou commanded as I thought?” 193 2048 CE The rifleman spoke first, his weapon still against his legs. “We got lots of friends,” he replied. He spoke quietly, uncertain. “We just don’t need them yet.” I could tell the old man was struggling, but there was nothing I could do to bring him comfort. “If you’ll not answer, then perhaps a sign? Perhaps some sign to show me what I cannot seem to hear with my ears?” 2048 CE He needed a sign, and I wondered why God didn’t give him one. Why doesn’t he give any of us signs about what he wants or where he’s at work or what he’s going to do? It would help. The intensity of the Prosecutor’s convictions was so evident, even I started praying and asking God for a sign of what was to come. I wanted Hasan to receive his own confirmation and was willing to play a part in it. Before we could respond, a gunshot broke through the quiet in the field. Just one. Our new friends scattered, but Hasan didn’t move. We waited for more shots to follow. It was a signal. But for what? To attack? To let us know they had killed Scott? I would have been glad, save for the implication that we would be next. I had yet to find my mother. If she died now—too early, without becoming Chernobly—what then? Would I lose my chance to save her altogether? I felt trapped. I couldn’t even get Hasan to blink. We were rooted to that spot, that parcel of ignorance, with no clues about what came next. Scott appeared a moment later, riding on the APC and holding high the white flag. There were only two mercenaries with him, and a spot of blood on his shirt. Before Hasan could get to him, Scott stood up and called, “They will withdraw. Peace is upon us!” The crowd cheered. Scott soaked it in. This was everything the colonists could have hoped for, everything Hasan had promised they could have. I could feel the 194 Prosecutor’s hesitation, though. Our body was full of pins and needles. This hadn’t been what he expected, and I began to think he had no great affection for Scott, either. But Hasan knew the moment and the role he had to play as the man of God. We climbed up beside Scott on the APC, accepting his hand. We raised our arms and joined with Scott. Our skin crawled, neither one of us enjoying our cooperation with evil, but Hasan would not be denied his moment. “Tetelestai!” we cried out. “As before,” yelled Scott. “So again!” Hasan would not be beaten at his own game, and we redoubled the cry. “Tetelestai! Gawd had brought our enemy low. Persist in good, for evil—you have been pained!” “Tetelestai!” the crowd roared again in unison. The cry faltered some when the mercenaries raised warily from their covered turrets. They held up their hands, but I could feel our body tense. Scott embraced them immediately, their corporate fatigues a telling contrast to his slate-grey suit. He grabbed their hands and lifted their arms in the air. Hasan hesitated only a moment before joining him, embracing the soldiers atop the APC heartily as friends. I knew he was putting on a show, but I also felt like he was being transformed by his decision. The Colonists sensed the favor of God upon Scott and Hasan. I might have wished it differently, but divine right is a powerful justification for leadership. 195 2048 CE “Tetelestai!” the people echoed, and I saw that word tattooed on many arms. There were bracelets that bore it, and the Colony knew it well. “It is finished!” They shouted again. 2048 CE When the cheering subsided and the Colonists were assured the threat had passed, Hasan pulled Scott into his little office. “What happened?” we demanded, the pretense of cordiality gone. “I made peace,” said Scott. He shrugged, but refused to make eye contact with us, shifting uneasily on one leg. It was easy to hate him again. “How?” we demanded. “We are going to have to share our research,” Scott said. I felt a flush in our face. Scott scoffed. “Your pet project is safe, minister. They’re interested in genetics, not science fiction.” Rowan Scott had been reworking his genetic hypothesis since before anyone from the Colony knew him. I still didn’t understand the significance of his obsession. From my vantage point, the Prosecutor was backing the right horse. I was living proof the chasm of time could be bridged. “The science or the results?” asked Hasan. “They want the science so they can replicate the results,” Scott replied. “The tech has other applications than Semitic eschatology.” “I’m not sure,” said Hasan. “You think your partner would have approved?” The Colony knew Scott once had 196 a partner, but he’d told them his partner had held him back. Scott said it was cruel that his partner died the way he did, but was glad to be free of him. Reading Hasan’s memories made me despise the man even more. He was a killer. He was a sadist. He was a devil, and my mother his beast to strike. Scott tried to move past us, but we stepped back in his way, holding up a palm. He looked at us, sizing us up for trouble. “I’m not sure we had much of a choice,” Scott began. “Their bombs are bigger.” “Our God is bigger,” said Hasan. We bristled. Scott’s lack of faith was a growing issue continually pressing against their relationship. But what could we do? Scott was every bit the Colony hero—Hasan’s political equal and influential better—and now he had intimated himself in the middle of an international trade agreement for genetic research. He was central to peace. I was starting to feel for Hasan, for the precarious nature of his position, when my mother walked in. She had her head down and was carrying a paper sack—lunch perhaps, brought in self-reproach for her tormentor. In that moment, I was seized by a blinding rage. Her cheek was cut and there were bruises on her neck. I imagined Scott’s fingers around her throat and fought to take control of the Prosecutor. Hasan was confused. What would you have me do? he prayed, still thinking God spoke with my voice. Rip his head off! I screamed, fighting again to take control. But it was no use. I felt myself fragmenting, my place in the timestream slipping. I was being pulled out of the past, the mushrooms working against me. 197 2048 CE Scott sneered, his chest bucking. “Let me know when he shows up with a gun.” Still. There was something. I had felt Hasan’s fingers twitch. 2048 CE I made him move. 198 Gilead 3062 CE I guess all good things come to an end, and our good times ended when I landed in bed with Joanna. I felt ripped off. I was almost glad when the miscarriage happened. At least I knew there wasn’t going to be another six months of arguing, disappointments, or deceit about the status of our relationship. It was over. “You must be having a hard time with it,” said Joanna. She had met me at the hospital to bring Evie some dinner. When I told her I didn’t have anything to eat at home, she offered to come back and make something. “It is hard,” I said, trying to look worn. “I’m not sure you can understand.” “Try me.” “Things haven’t turned out the way I wanted. There’s no passion, no intimacy…” I let that hang to garner the 199 3062 CE Evie’s pregnancy was a mess. She threw up the entire first trimester every morning before breakfast, all afternoon and into the night. She was moody, fragile, and never wanted to fool around. She complained about everything. She was never happy. She couldn’t be bothered to run a comb through her hair or brush her teeth before going out. most sympathetic reaction from Joanna. She wrapped her arms around me, standing on her toes to make sure my head cradled into her shoulder. “It’s more than the loss of our child.” We continued the conversation, and the embrace, back in my apartment. It was, by that time, well and truly “mine.” Evie couldn’t hold onto anything, and I had rescued the place when she lost her mind. Evie was devastated. I might have been too, if she’d stopped crying long enough for me to get a weep in. She coped by curling into a ball, whereas I wanted to party and celebrate that somebody got to keep living. 3062 CE When have I ever been one to lick my wounds? I was, and am, here for living. Joanna and I watched the city lights flicker across the chrome lamps next to the bed. But we weren’t alone, and I was tired of it. Evie lay on the floor beside me like the fetus she’d failed. She had been there a while, listening to me and Joanna, to our lovemaking, pretending like she couldn’t understand. I had reached my breaking point. It had been thirtytwo hours since the miscarriage. I wanted her out of our apartment, out of the tumble of our clothes. We had known each other since my reawakening, and hers. Now she wanted to forget the only things I could remember. “Either choose life, or hole up and die someplace else,” I told her. Evie crawled on all fours out of the bedroom and I heard her sobbing through the open door to the hall. I liked watching her crawl, but the sobbing ruined it. Storming over to the kitchen I grabbed an open bag of potato chips and 200 threw them after her. I slammed the apartment door to keep her cries locked outside. Joanna kissed me on the chest when I hopped back into bed. She might have been purring. That little speech was the first time she’d seen my aggressive side, my dominance, and it roused her. She did the same to me. We hooked it up for a month before splitting on a mutual agreement to play the field. Our last rendezvous was at a truck stop, then in the field out back. One of us walked home. It might have been me. Everything was accelerating. 3062 CE 201 202 1570 ACE tem, s y S e v a C d e m a n n U es West, , 84 degre 35 degrees North 1570 ACE Where are we? I asked, my mind still focused entirely on killing Rowan Scott. We are deep in an underwater lake at the heart of the cave system, approximately fifty feet below the surface of the water. Serif’s voice brought me harshly back to my present in the cave. My violent revenge fantasies were intensifying. I pictured Scott grabbing my mother by the hair. I imagined his lick on her skin. I saw him shooting black bile across her chest, oil and slaver that made her nose bleed. I watched him hit her in the dark. I imagined her torment. He would rub the cuts he made with his splintered nails, smearing the blood into her eyes and laughing while she cried. I imagined him defecating on my father’s corpse, cutting open holes in his side where he could plant thorns before baking the old man into a pie and eating the berries ripening inside. You need to stop thinking about her, Serif cautioned. 203 1570 ACE The tea set me loose from the Chronosphere, I said, bewildered. I couldn’t stay in. I began to kick my way to the surface. My sensors alerted me to the presence of Chernoblys. They were on the edge of the lake, a very safe distance away, but it couldn’t hurt to be aware. He’s been hitting my mother. I am your Counselor, said Serif, yet you have not received my counsel. I knew it was not technically possible, but I was beginning to think Serif was developing mood swings. There was a battle at the Colony, I continued. I watched Rowan broker peace with the aggressors. I think it may have been a setup, that Scott may have orchestrated the whole thing. The visions of your mother are clouding your judgment, June. I cannot permit you to further pursue the path of neglect. What’s the matter with you? I asked, easing my head above the surface of the water. It took a moment for my lenses to adjust to the cavern. There was more light here, ostensibly coming from several small openings in the ceiling leading outside. I had found my exit if I needed it. say. I am functioning optimally, feeling fine, as you would I felt something being moved inside my OS. Serif was reconfiguring the boot-up sequence in my carapace to bypass the system file. Quit messing around, I said. I am not making any adjustments to your operating system, she replied. At first I thought she must be doing it unawares. But then I considered a much more frightening possibility. Serif could be lying. 1570 ACE Having a friend deceive you can be hurtful. Having angelware deceive you—with unmitigated access to your operating system—can be fatal. You are, I said. I can feel it. I have warned you about the Chernobly’s infection, June. It appears to have fully bonded itself to your processor. You are not thinking clearly. 204 Serif, I said, an edge to my voice. I can feel you making changes. I could, couldn’t I? Was I going crazy? Was it possible the virus had somehow affected Serif? Maybe the reason she and I were at such odds—increasingly, come to think of it—was that she had been corrupted and the virus was slowly altering her personality protocol. How long had she been corrupted? How much of the past could I trust? Do not continue that line of reasoning, June Paul. Was that a warning? I asked. Are you monitoring my thoughts? You have become untrustworthy. You are moving down a path that will result in my disintegration with the Spirit. That’s not even possible, I said. In your avatar, you exist only in the Spirit. You’re beams of information. Exclusively. I’m shutting you down. We can run a calumniatory analysis when your physicality arrives. Or when we get back in the City. Sorry, sister. Lights out. I knew those words were more hostile than necessary. What I didn’t know was how aggressively Serif would respond. Computers are not benign. 1570 ACE 205 I was still in the middle of the lake when Serif came back on and began tampering with my core systems. She reduced the oxygen supply to my blood, keeping me lightheaded and confused. I was working to disconnect her from the OS, but she had access to the mainframe processor. We were circling around a stalemate. Knock it off! I said, my head dipping below the surface of the water. I coughed and blinked as time slipped open before me, then closed just as abruptly. I need to departicalize your consciousness, came Serif’s calm voice. I have limited time before my physicality arrives. Have you lost your mind? I asked, reeling with the implications. I won’t be able to upload. I do not intend for you to be placed into a new carapace, she replied. 1570 ACE Could this actually be happening? Is it possible that my own creation was turning against me? The emotional impact fragmented my focus, giving Serif the upper hand in our contest for operational control. I forced my thoughts back to the larger issue, hoping I was wrong. The virus has corrupted you, she said. You are going to cause irreparable damage to the timestream. The Chronosphere will not recover from your interference. 206 Listen, you computerized poodle—I’m a human being. Software can’t reprogram me! Incorrect. You have been little more than software since you first uploaded to the network. That one thousand five hundred and thirty two years ago. As if to punctuate her accusation, Serif dialed in the ball bearings on one side of my body, causing me to spin in the water. It was another distraction I didn’t need. I closed down the ball bearings, but that bought Serif additional time to reroute my consciousness interface. She continued, You have changed carapaces over two hundred times. You have lost gender identification. You have reconfigured your personality across three dozen archetypal catalogues. You are not yourself. I have seen dangerous potentialities in the Spirit. I’m not the one trying to kill my best friend. By destroying the manacle you are killing me, she countered. I’m not trying to destroy the manacle, I said. None of this was making any sense. Serif was furiously adapting and reconstructing my entire programming. You’re still in your body, hopefully flying here fast enough to save me from yourself. That is the other me, she replied. Her voice was sounding further away, quieter, and more menacing. If she had been a person I’d say this was the moment she experienced a total break with reality. Serif was a fallen angel. 207 1570 ACE This me will die, she said. I do not want to die. If I must choose between my death and yours, then I make my apologies now. I only had one option, but it would leave me vulnerable to drowning and, possibly, to the Chernoblys. I filled the carapace with extra air and closed off the hard seals under my armpits in order to prevent any leakage. I needed to maintain surface buoyancy. And then I performed a hard reset—a complete shutdown of the OS and life support. There were ten seconds of darkness, but they may as well have been a million years. I felt myself floating, reliving every second of my thousand-year life as though I had all the time in the world. I was a dancer in memories, an archival officer for an endless shelf of biographies. The system rebooted. 1570 ACE I felt myself coming back online. 208 As I awoke, Serif did too, changed. Perceiving a threat, she now came at me with a vengeance. She was done talking and wouldn’t respond to any of my hails. I couldn’t even speak to her mentally. Serif manifested from the manacle at 10x magnification and leaped at my face, raking with her talons. The OS sent my body signals she had attacked, and I had been hurt. Scratches and welts opened up on the outer carapace layer and synthetic blood ran into my eyes. I dove off to the side, momentarily popping my head beneath the water in an attempt to avoid her assault. That was a mistake, as the timestream pulled me in immediately. I vomited into the lake. I flung my head above the water, unsure how best to continue. I tried shutting down the manacle tether, but the app wouldn’t close and my repeated attempts caused the OS to lock up. My joints were stiffening and I was moving very slowly. There was another commotion in the cavern unrelated to Serif, but I didn’t have any space to consider it, let alone get involved. I’d let the Chernoblys handle their own problems for now. 209 1570 ACE Serif?! I called out desperately. But she wouldn’t answer. Her avatar came streaking from across the lake toward me, momentum building as she magnified to 12x, then 15x. I wasn’t sure the carapace would continue scaling the effect of her impact but I couldn’t risk it. I had to do something about the manacle. I pulled the device off my wrist and loaded the ice axe into my right hand. There was nothing to brace the manacle against in order to strike it. I lay flat in the water, facing up, with the manacle held firmly to the top of my left thigh. With all my might I brought the axe across my body, driving the pick through the device and into my thigh. I screamed as the axe broke off at the handle, the head buried in my leg. Serif winked out, gone. But my troubles were just beginning. The blood from my leg was pooling around me and cavefish were coming to investigate. They weren’t normally aggressive, but the profusion of blood was so intense they began to swarm. I knew they couldn’t hurt me, but I was panicking, and couldn’t get my rational mind under control. I kept batting them away, but in so doing my head dipped below the surface and I entered the timestream over and over and over. 1570 ACE I threw up once more and passed out from loss of blood. 210 The cavefish were nibbling ticklishly when I came to, but I didn’t have the energy to swat them away. Their snacking had left an open bore in my leg, one the selfmedicating systems of the carapace would never be able to close completely. I needed a new body. I closed down the ice axe and loaded the ball bearings in my left hand. I passed out again when I tried to sneak my hand underneath the portion of the axe head that remained protruding from my leg. It took several attempts, but by cautiously manipulating the ball bearings I was finally able to ease the head out of my leg, letting the floundering OS begin the system test and repair the bleeding. I was done losing fluid, but I was faint. I was thirsty and drank some of the water from the lake. It tasted metallic, like blood, and I spat out more than I drank. Then I drank again and didn’t spit. I started hearing screams. The commotion from earlier was indeed the Chernoblys, but they weren’t hunting me like I had first surmised. 1570 ACE They were the prey. 211 Gilead 3062 CE 3062 CE I lost touch with Joanna, never quite regaining either my old memories or some of the saucier new ones I desperately wanted to save. I tried to make the most of every moment, but some downtime was inevitable. I measured time by the passing of headline news. I didn’t give it much thought, but the news is hard to miss. I had flashy sequences buried in my subconscious about the world coming apart at the seams, but nothing concrete. There were some new wars, but aren’t there always? Some crooked politicians, but is there any other kind? Some celebrity OD’d and some reality TV star died of a broken heart, but it’s hard to care when those people seem to court misery all on their own, isn’t it? I thought nothing of it, until I was totally sickened by it. That’s when the revolution got serious. 212 I started using all the little mediums to gather followers. Audio. Video. Live appearance. Clever writings. Publicity stunts. Planned mobs. The mediums changed but the methods were the same, tried and true. I started a new religion, one where we worshipped ourselves. The revolution quickly outdistanced the first followers of Evie and her bar friends. They were still at the epicenter, but all the young people in Gilead seemed to be catching up on every update, every posting, every happening we created. And the mainstream couldn’t keep up. There were exposes and newsreels and public service announcements. But what did it matter? They couldn’t nail down what the revolution was about because it wasn’t about anything. It was about dissatisfaction. It was about powerlessness. They claimed we wouldn’t know what to do with power once we got it. They were right, but we never let on that we knew. We weren’t after anything, just restless adolescence on a city-wide scale. We were going through societal puberty. 213 3062 CE Of course, the big secret is that that’s the oldest religion of them all. I made a video and had the party share it. It didn’t take long before everyone in Gilead was riffing on the same theme. Musicians scored it and filmmakers re-shot it. Street performers did free association at corners and markets. Artists and craftsmen created displays to make sure everyone got the message. The crux of the video? Me shouting. The response? Everyone else joining in. 3062 CE “They’ve made us sheep,” I ranted, spittle flying from my angry mouth. “We’re penned in. We live how they say. They even tell us how to have sex, like there are rules! But we’re chafing. This isn’t a society. This is a zoo, a human bloody zoo.” The image of a penal menagerie had everyone drawing and sketching and creating artifacts. Sheep in prison. Apes in jail. The government portrayed as poachers and baby-seal killers, cutting the tusks from the young. But the video wasn’t finished. It kept going, in what would soon prove to be the rallying cry for a generation of dissenters. I stood on a soapbox, the cameras far removed to show the scale of our adversary. “Doesn’t anyone else wonder when it’s going to be feeding time?” I screamed, cords bulging morally from my neck. “Doesn’t anyone else wonder where they keep the keys?” Flashes of downtown. Scans of the business district. Time-lapse of City Hall. “They can’t keep us in! Let me out! Let us out!” Those were the words everybody sang, the angsty anthem of emancipation. 214 tem, s y S e v a C d e m a n n U es West, , 84 degre 35 degrees North 1570 ACE At first I had difficulty assessing the threat to the Chernoblys. I was their only potential adversary and I wasn’t in any position to bother anyone. Then I saw the Rider. We were in a big room, a cathedral of stone. Ledges jutted out from the ceiling at strange angles, rock shelves creating eerie hiding places and recessed slots larger than the size of a man. The Rider’s bat was perched on a ledge well above the crowd below, watching the Chernoblys gather around two of their family, dead. Others had heard the attack and scattered as the bat came down, hiding beneath low ledges and into crevices set back 215 1570 ACE The bat-like creature swooped down, wings folded together, and the Rider threw a black lance that skewered one of the subhumans. The bat unfurled its wings and alighted upon the bleeding figure, sinking its teeth into the creature’s neck and sucking noisily. The bat continued to beat its wings, keeping itself aloft and making the body buck. The Rider threw back his head and laughed, mad with the unmitigated thrill of holding onto that vampire animal patriarch. While his mount trembled and tossed, the Rider leaned out of the saddle and pulled his lance free from the hemorrhaging Chernobly. into the walls. They now recovered their courage, screeching into the cave as they charged. The Rider drove the butt of his lance into the ground and it shook, discharging a minor earthquake. Several of the rushing Chernoblys fell to their knees, and the bat sensed a change in the atmosphere. It wriggled and bit more aggressively, beat its wings more forcefully, and lifted off the ground, still holding the struggling form of the Chernobly with its fangs, eating loudly. The added weight caused the bat to fly dangerously low to the ground. Worried the others might be able to get hold of his steed, the Rider leaned forward with his lance and jabbed the victimized Chernobly in the neck, prying it loose from the angry bat. With a greedy tearing sound the head stretched from the body and separated, the body landing below with a sickening thud. The bat shot up to the cavern heights, prying and swatting at the fleshy neck with its hind claws. Its face burrowed deeper into the cavity below the Chernobly’s throat, relishing the gore like the last lick of ice cream. The Rider’s mocking crow roared through the cave and the defiant screech of the Chernoblys answered. The bat was drunk on blood, flying in whirls and circles, nearly losing the Rider or flying into the walls several times. 1570 ACE The madman on the mad beast cackled and screamed, his lance held up in triumphant exaltation, making butchery sport. This time the Chernoblys were ready for the bat. They coordinated their attack. A group of three stood back-toback in a shallow clearing, practically begging the bat to attack. It did, but as it closed in another group burst from behind a rock formation and took to stabbing at the bat and its Rider with roughhewn spears and knives. The bat reared back, changing course, and a third group attacked from the opposite side. I felt myself applauding the Chernoblys, 216 certain that any lesser creature would certainly have been undone by their efforts. But the bat escaped unharmed. Circling around the high ceiling, the Rider cackled again, impressively gleeful about the inability of his foe to harm. One Chernobly stood against the creature. I thought he must have been their leader, a Chieftain perhaps, or warlord. He wore a long, venomous-looking claw around his neck like a trophy, and the bottom half of his face was covered with a scrap of cloth. He beat his chest and taunted the winged thing, urging it forward. Down came the bat like a shot, but the Chernobly Chieftain rolled easily to the side. He lashed out with his long ebony blade and drew a thin trace of blood from the animal’s rear leg. The Rider roared, and the bat screeched. The Chernoblys chittered enthusiastically in reply. Once more the bat wheeled in the black air and swooped down to the Chieftain. But this time the bat broke open its wings at the last second, creating a parachute. The wings slowed the bat, but their opening also confused the Chieftain. He lunged and the bat was ready. The creature’s fangs sank into the pale grey shoulder. The Chieftain struggled against the beast, finally winning his freedom by biting the bat’s face and tearing away, surrendering a hunk of his own flesh. The Rider howled. He was badly wounded, and the bat shredded the Chieftain’s body with its claws, enraged. 217 1570 ACE The bat did not elevate. It flew ahead but a few spans and then turned for a quick approach. The Chieftain was better prepared now and leapt into the air to meet his attacker. The bat’s fangs closed around his leg, but not before the Chieftain hurled his knife. The rough blade tumbled end over end, past the bat’s head, and into the shoulder of the Rider where it sank to the hilt. The Chieftain was dead, his body a tatter. 1570 ACE out. But the Rider was weakened and the odds were leveling 218 The Chernoblys had greeted me with hostility, but I knew they operated only on instinct. The Rider was different. He had assaulted me once and proven himself my adversary. So. I allied myself with the subhumans against that unhallowed hunter and his demonic nag. I pushed out my sensibilities and located a weak spot in the ceiling. Loading my grapple, I sighted the spot and let loose. The grapple hit the ceiling and walked over to the spot designated by my topographical scans. I deployed the tricams and sunk it in deep. The bat hadn’t heard. I would need to get its attention in order to lure it closer to the weak spot. And I couldn’t forget about the Rider. If he saw me while I was still in the lake, I would make an easy target. And there were still the Chernoblys. Sometimes, even after people are saved, they like to kick a man when he’s down. 1570 ACE 219 I dialed up the ball bearings in my right hand and wrapped it tightly around the rope on the grapple. Beginning with a slow churn, I started using the ball bearings to create a low frequency thrumming, like I was playing a hundred foot cello with one string. It was much louder than I had anticipated, and it drove the Chernoblys nuts. But it also caught the attention of the bat, which traipsed and trailed drunkenly closer to the fateful spot. Now for the Rider. 1570 ACE Dialing up the emergency flare in my pauldrons, I followed the flight path of the bat. When it got within fifteen meters of the grapple, I loosed the blue flare. I aimed slightly behind the bat and its Rider, mentally detonating when it was above them and over the Rider’s shoulder. They were within six or seven meters when the flare went off, a blue sun born underground. The Rider turned sharply, and I yanked on the line, pulling loose a chunk of ceiling that fell squarely on the bat’s torso. The animal squealed like a hog and dropped immediately twenty feet, twisting violently. The Rider was thrown with nothing in place to break his fall. He landed on an outcropping of rock away from the Chernoblys. The Rider didn’t move, his body folded in half. The commotion had sent the Chernoblys scattering again, but I knew I had to get to the Rider before 220 they did if I wanted answers. Who was he? Why was he looking for me? The bat continued to fall, tumbling in the air, unable to spread its wings. It landed in the midst of the Chernobly mob and they pounced on it like starved dogs on scraps. Out of the eater, something to eat. Recoiling the grapple, I fired once more to the side of the lake nearest the Rider. I towed myself through the water and collapsed on the shore. I wanted to lie there forever, passing out and waking up in the City servers. But I knew I couldn’t. There was no guarantee of an upload. Not here, where the reception was so unreliable. Serif’s physicality might never find me. Serif. I wanted to mourn the lost part of my angel. I doubted the physical Serif would be infected by the mania of her avatar, but I mourned doubly to consider how Serif would grieve for herself. I wanted to get out of that cave. But more than that, I wanted to find my mother in the timestream. Was she really at the center of this? Or was it simply my desire for revenge that forced me to think so passionately about the past? I was scared of the answer, scared I might not actually love her as much as I hated him. I wanted to stop Rowan Scott from hurting my mother. I wanted to reboot the past and save the world. And somehow in the tangled mess of this misadventure, I knew that mysterious Rider possessed information I desperately needed to hear. 1570 ACE 221 I got to my feet and staggered over to the ledge. The outcropping was only five feet from the cave floor, but I still needed the grapple to ascend. I flopped onto the uneven surface at the top and could see the Rider plainly. His back was broken, collarbone protruding from his shoulder, and he was losing consciousness. I touched the exposed bone. He was suddenly wideawake. “Who are you?” I asked, my face leaned over his. I kept my fingers squeezing that stake of bone. “The lucky one,” he gasped. For all his injuries, he looked plentifully happy. “Why? What do you want with me?” “Masheet—” he said. “What?” “Masheet is coming…” 1570 ACE “Who is coming? Who is Masheet?” The Rider was sputtering. “You are the reason he lives.” This wasn’t going to last much longer. His WarMachine carapace was already going offline. “And he is the reason you will die.” 222 “What are you talking about?” I asked. This wasn’t making any sense. These weren’t answers at all, just prompts for new questions. The Rider’s head leaned back as the last spasms of life racked his chest. He shuddered, spittle burbling over the cusp of his lips. I thought he was trying to say more. He died. “You were no help whatsoever,” I said, kicking the lifeless body with my left leg. That was a mistake. The wound from the axe was still fresh and the kick sent rivulets of pain through my conscious mind. 1570 ACE 223 I rifled through the Rider’s carapace, looking for clues. There were none. He carried nothing with him, just his synthetic body with portions of human flesh still surprisingly present and incorporated into the new one. He had retained more of his humanity than I had—his skin contrasting with his carapace like pink streaks on a black flag. I saw the tattoo again, on his lower back, and for the first time realized how thin the Rider was. 1570 ACE Flipping him over once more, I sat down on the corpse and listened to the bleating of the Chernoblys in the background. I didn’t have much time before they came looking for the Rider, and possibly me as well. I could leave, I thought, half-expecting Serif to argue with me. But she was gone. I would have to build another manacle and derive another avatar from her physicality. It would take months. But I wasn’t grieving the work. I was missing my friend. I suddenly felt very alone. The exit is above me, I thought. I could grapple out and wait for Serif’s physicality to get here. I’ve come and done what I originally came to do. I found the timestream. I know the Chernoblys are real. They can bend time. I have located my mother, and I have what I need to save her. Yet I was losing confidence in the timestream. Time seemed to be speeding up, and I was unable to control when 224 and where I emerged in the past. I had a working hypothesis that I might be able to go back to earlier spots in the timestream and access the same slips of time over and over, beginning with Hasan’s ascent to the Prosecutor’s chair. But I was in no condition for an expedition like that right now. And I was too afraid of what might happen if I left. What if this was all an anomaly? What if this was the only moment in a thousand years anyone would be able to access the Chronosphere at all? What if the timestream was set to expire, and I missed my window? I couldn’t leave. I had a dozen carapaces, but only one mother, only one opportunity to change the past. Only one access to a history that might alter the course of the world. I opened the storage compartment in my carapace and removed the mushroom caps, climbing back down to the shore. I made strong tea, drank, and swam again through time. 1570 ACE 225 It took me a moment to orient myself in the timestream. Perhaps it was because of my injuries, perhaps because of my frequent exposure to the Chronosphere, but it was harder to control. I kept slipping in and out, trading visions of New Palestine with the black water in the river. I didn’t want to throw up again. I tried to calm myself, to maintain measured breaths, but it was a struggle. I was dislocated, set free, cut off, pushed loose. I was in two places. I was in three. I caught vignettes of progress from Hasan’s memories, snippets and flashes and windows of significance. There was Scott on a podium, receiving an award. Ovation. My mother at the back of the room. Unsmiling applause. Hasan went to her, but she would not receive him. Neither would Rowan. 1570 ACE I flashed back to the present. Black water rushing up my nose, filling my lenses partway. The sensation of drowning, but knowing I would not. The betrayal of the mind, the tricky panic of the water. Calm. Peace. Memory. Back to Hasan in that old wood and stone schoolroom, talking to children. Terrible noise . Black dust falling like sooty snow. Construction above. The sound of Scott 226 laughing. People singing and shouting. Adults. Hasan with the kids. The kids not listening. Hasan finding himself sidelined and mad about it. Rowan, a hero. A return to cold water, long exposure making the carapace tinny. Chilled metal. Chattering teeth. Swimming forward but not making progress. Darkness. Lostness. This time. That time. No time like the present. No time at all. Disorientation. Distance. The opening of Scott’s medical center. Ribbon cutting. Hasan watching from his little window. Nothing new for the Prosecutor. Everything shiny for science. Scott the medallion-winner. Scott the headliner. Scott the deal-maker. Hasan the folksy has-been. Back into the water. No! I struggled to go back in time and stay there, to find my mother, to make a difference. All those memories—Scott had increased, Hasan had decreased. I bullied my way into the past for the last time. 1570 ACE 227 228 New Palestine 2061 CE Yet the offices of the Chief Prosecutor remained humble, still the same building into which I had barricaded myself while hiding from the Chernoblys. I wondered if Hasan had already started growing mushrooms on his desk. There were more people. There was more activity. And Hasan was striding across campus without paying any of it a moment’s notice. His body felt older, more fatigued. He was confident, but slower. His beard had been groomed, and I wondered if he had cut it off entirely. But we pulled at it, aggressively, and I was comforted. Still long and grey, just neater. Respectable. Hasan had already achieved much of what he sought. He had founded several colonies and many others had been modeled after the original. Their assets had grown considerably. New Palestine was largely considered a nationwithin-a-nation, like Swaziland or the Vatican. The U.S. government didn’t officially recognize their sovereignty, but after the seccession of Texas and the annexation of Arcadia 229 2061 CE The compound was nearly unrecognizable. The school had been developed, replaced with a much larger campus and out buildings. It looked like a university. There was a new medical center and several sciences labs that hadn’t been there before. Townhouses and brownstone apartments seemed to have sprung like clover, busheling the empty spaces between utility structures. they couldn’t afford to isolate the Colony unnecessarily. New Palestine’s economic power exceeded the four largest American corporations combined. 2061 CE Scott’s genetic research had effectively cured Parkinson’s and polio. Their recumbent therapy promised to untangle the damaging effects of fetal alcohol syndrome, causing people to consider New Palestine something of a miracle factory. Hasan presided over the citizenry but was largely a folk hero with no political power. He was a symbol, nothing more, and it bothered him that Scott could do as he pleased. I saw plenty of evidence that Scott was the goose who laid golden eggs. There were plaques on buildings, campus posters, even a statue of the villain himself in the square. It made me sick. Scott was senior science officer for an international coalition working on a cure for a new strain of HIV that had decimated South America. That situation was a political minefield. There were a hundred copyrights pulled from eleven corporations in six countries, but Scott’s charm kept everyone in line. Maybe they had enough to piece it all together without him, but they couldn’t get along. Scott was the lynchpin to world peace and everyone knew it. Without him, the coalition would fall apart, and thousands would die. The plague would spread quickly north, and there were already early warning signs of its emergence in Africa and Korea. Scott’s importance did nothing to diminish my hatred. All I wanted was to get my mother away or get rid of the man altogether. It would have been better for her to die from that virus than lived married to my father’s killer. 230 The memo outlined Scott’s back-door deals with splinter groups and insurgents. Hasan believed Scott was apportioning bits of research in exchange for liquid capital. What he didn’t know was that Scott was selling on the black market to the mercenaries who had once assaulted New Palestine. Rowan had brokered peace with the contractors in exchange for setting up a down line with terrorist cells in Pakistan, not for research, as he had told Hasan. The Prosecutor wouldn’t permit blood just for revenue. This was beyond the pale of his righteous world, and he was going to stop it. “Scott,” our voice quivered, imagining the coming confrontation. “I’ll not let you compromise the plans of Gawd for your own selfish ends.” We stamped the whole distance, and the doors blew open in front of us. We took the stairs two at a time while Hasan imagined all of Rowan’s feeble rationalizations: destabilizing 231 2061 CE We stormed across the courtyard in the center of the Colony, a crumpled memo in our shaking hands. Scott’s office was housed in the main administrative building just two blocks away. We unfolded the memo and tried to read it again, but our eyes blurred. I knew the contents, though. I knew everything Hasan knew, I felt everything he felt—rage, blame, pain. world government makes way for the government of God… this is the money that funds the Chronosphere… best if you don’t know too much. 2061 CE Scott’s justifications, both past and present, only added to the fire. Hasan would not be swayed, and I confess I was nervous about the level of hot conviction we felt. It was a foreign feeling, and I wasn’t sure what might burn up in the flames. Crumpling the memo again in one hand, we took a moment to control our body. It was much frailer than I remembered. “Your pretense of industry will save you no more. Rowan Scott—the day of recompense is upon you. You will answer for your betrayals.” 232 Hasan called out loud, “Rowan, this has gone far enough—” But he was cut short by what he saw. My mind exploded. Scott loomed over my mother on the ground. Her dress had a huge rip down one side, and her face smeared with tears and spilled makeup. Her lips were split and chafed. Rowan’s hands enclosed Mother’s neck. Her head warbled as he shook it, a sack jostled at the end of a thin rope. “What are you doing here?” asked Scott. I felt Hasan’s confusion. He had been angry with Scott already, but for something else. This was worse. His rage compounded. “Leave that woman alone,” we shouted, guttural and fiery, “or by Gawd it is I who will strangle you!” That was all I needed. That one wish from Hasan, that one slip of murderous impulse, was all it took for the mind behind to move forward. My will surged into Hasan’s body, forcing the Chief Prosecutor to become the spectator while I 233 2061 CE We reached the top of the stairs and shouldered open the crash bar. We stormed down the hall and burst into Scott’s office past his receptionist, her expression telling me we looked as fearsome as we felt. seized control. It’s just like running a carapace, I thought, as we leaped toward Scott. 2061 CE Rowan Scott got off of my mother and began to back up. Mother sagged against the floor, her hands tentatively massaging her injuries. Scott looked like he might turn and flee, but he couldn’t reconcile the ferocity before him with the peaceful Hasan he had always known. His reason betrayed him, and he began to talk. “Listen, Hasan—” he began, but we bowled into him and our momentum carried us both across Scott’s desk and onto the floor behind him. Mother squeaked and ran out the door. I could hear her heels slipping and clicking as she scrambled to safety. I could feel the Prosecutor trying to regain control of his body. What is your will, Lord? he asked, struggling to understand. Death! I screamed, every bit the wrathful god of the ancients. I straddled Scott’s body like a mule. My hands found his throat, and I pressed my thumbs into the hollow beneath his Adam’s apple. What about life? called Hasan. Mercy? Scott’s face was turning purple, and he struggled profoundly, but my knees were in the crooks of his elbows, pinning him to the floor. What about my mother? I screamed. And my father? I’m June Paul and I want mercy for them! One of Scott’s legs was trapped, elevated. The other was stuck beneath the desk, broken during the fall. He had no leverage. He couldn’t move, and his forehead was swelling. He is guilty, I heard Hasan thinking. He does deserve to be punished. I am the Prosecutor. I have a responsibility. 234 I felt our mind shift. Something viciously pleasured escaped, an unfamiliar breed of thought within the Prosecutor. He can squirm, by Gawd. Does he ever! Hasan? The Prosecutor’s reactions were changing. He was both mortified and satisfied by what he was seeing. His own consciousness was at war with itself, and I feared he might break. It feels good to be rid of something so evil, he thought. The purity of this moment is beyond compare. His mental pitch was rising, feverishly wrestling with the implications of what was happening in and with and through his body. He was committed to his charge, to his people, to God. But there was more than simple commitment. Hasan had discovered a new complexity. Prosecution turned to accusation, and accusation turned to punishment, and punishment turned to relish. If the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It can’t. If a little yeast works through the whole batch, how can we keep it from rising? We can’t. If a lie is told to a child, how can you make him forget? You can’t. Hasan was overcome with righteous intolerance. I felt him shout in my mind, preaching against sin and proclaiming justice against the sinner. He has to die! I shouted. By Gawd, it is just, Hasan agreed. We were of one mind, working in concert to rid the world of a pure evil. 235 2061 CE I heard his thoughts cycling dramatically. If a brown smear gets on a white sheet, it’s not fit for company. If a sick beast falls in a town well, you got to dig a new one. If something pure becomes impure, you got to get rid of it. I pressed harder into Rowan’s throat, feeling his skin split beneath my thumbs. I kept pushing. There was so much resistance my thumbs cracked. My forearms ached, and my shoulders began to quiver. This body was weaker than I was used to, so I got to enjoy this moment longer. My thumbnails separated from the skin in Scott’s neck. I screamed with the sharpness as the left nail peeled away entirely. 2061 CE Scott’s face was black. His tongue lagged. Unsatisfied, I withdrew my scandaled hands. I grabbed his dead face by the jaw and the sockets of his eyes and forced open his mouth. I took hold of his slick tongue, thick with foam, and pressed my knee against his cheek. I pulled. It tore. I collapsed on the floor and let go of the body. Hasan resumed control once more. And laughed. 236 We heard footsteps coming toward the desk from the other side, tentatively. High heels clicking. That would be Mother, I thought. I saw her lacquered nails reach over the desk, braced for discovery. She shrieked, “My God!” That wasn’t the reaction I expected. “Security!” she called out, clicking back toward the door unsteadily. “Somebody’s murdered!” My father! I hollered. And you were there, I pleaded. He was killing you too! “Help!” shrieked Mother. Hasan’s rush of adrenaline brought us shakily to our feet. We leaned against the desk for support. There was blood all over our suit, chunks of flesh in our grey beard. We were still holding Rowan’s tongue. Our eyes felt dry and our hands were stained. Saliva dripped from our open lips and we panted with the exercise of killing. Footsteps came down the hall from two directions. The businesslike loafers came from the right seconds before the clattering of police boots from the left. 237 2061 CE The mania set in quickly. I wasn’t concerned. I only needed a minute and then I could go. “Chief Prosecutor?” asked one of the businessmen. His jaw hung to the side, eyes shaking as though seeing the ungainly rage of a lamb. “What is the meaning of this?” But we never got to answer the question. 2061 CE The security detail came quickly and slammed our head against the desk. We were handcuffed immediately and I heard my mother in the background saying, “That’s him. I saw it. He murdered Rowan!” I felt Hasan’s mind project all that would happen next. The coalition would remove their backing. He would go to jail. The tenuous peace Scott had brokered would now come undone, and the resources of the Colony would be up for grabs. I felt him realize his friend had become his enemy. God had betrayed him I felt the Chronosphere slip away, easily, and I was drawn back into the timestream, back into the cave, back into my carapace, and back into the When that was mine. 238 tem, s y S e v a C d e m a n n U es West, , 84 degre 35 degrees North 1570 ACE A deluge of memories assaulted me. I remembered everything about how the world ended and the prophecies came true. I remembered the reckless use of genetics and the boggled experimentation with Chronomancy. I remembered the emergence of the red heifer, swollen a hundred times beyond the mass of domestic stock, the Beast from out of the Earth. The Jews went to war to protect it. The Arabs blew it up and the Chinese ate it. It was War. In the beginning, everyone was still mostly sane. But the war dragged on and the cost weighed heavily on the world. We traded nukes like playing cards, and the earth paid the price. The four horsemen of the apocalypse weren’t riders, but results—the fruit of our self-determining damnation. When the dust settled, Earth was less than a billion people. Our natural resources had been grossly depleted. We 239 1570 ACE The fresh water sources were polluted and toxicology reports in the oceans reached record levels. That was when we first started hearing reports about the sea monsters. They attacked Hong Kong, these Beasts from out of the Sea, and the Japanese navy was first to engage leviathan. This was a war that made all previous conflicts look like global squabbles, like the World Wars of the Twentieth century were the tantrums of little people unwilling to share. 1570 ACE bombed ourselves back to the ice age. We vowed never to use arms again. We began to rebuild—not with optimism, but shared hopelessness. We pulled everyone down who tried to climb high. We focused on agriculture, on robotics and on immunology. Representatives of the former United Nations, the Elders became our shared conscience. We who were not a people became the people of God. 240 The timestream forced me to relive the past, and reliving the past had forced me to remember it, too. I had once asked Serif to help me forget—to wipe those memories from the banks of my consciousness. But now that forced forgetfulness was compromised. My memories refused to stay buried. I wasn’t just a spectator. I hadn’t been absolved of anything. This was my past. This was the world I helped destroy and then create in some technological, humanistic parody of eternal life. My ambition to change the past seemed foolish now. Nothing else could have occurred. You couldn’t change the past. You could observe it. You could spin it. But you couldn’t alter it. Were there other worlds than these, like Serif suggested? Would it matter if there were? I was laid bare by failure and fatigue. I knew my desire was more about control than rescue. I couldn’t change the past. I just had to deal with it. I had the choice to live with what happened, or not. 1570 ACE 241 Part Three: TETELESTAI You knew this would happen, that I would try to stop the War and fail. I’m sure you saw it coming a mile away. You always do. Maybe you even orchestrated it. I’m not sure what that says about you, about your character. Are you merciful or resigned? Are you slow, confused, impotent, or just disinterested? I believe I could have done more. If I had kept my focus, I could have saved the world, right? Or do we always have to lose? Gilead 3062 CE 3062 CE At some point, even the best party in the world gets dull. That’s what happened to us. We partied til it felt like work. There wasn’t a set of legs or a bottle of scotch on planet Earth that could get me up. Everyone felt it. They shied away, except when they came to beg or serve or kiss up or fight. They knew I was restless. They knew I was burning up. A hundred of us gathered at the bar in pretzeled pleasure. The hanging bulbs were mostly burned out, little hopes extinguished by adulthood, and the floor was only stains and old sweat. Our revolution had attracted droves of malcontents and dissenters, anyone who was sick of the party line. It was what I’d wanted, only I didn’t love it anymore. “You know this is ridiculous, right?” I shouted. I was standing on top of the bar and calling for their attention. “This party? Gilead? This veneer of goodness?” They do, I thought to myself. They’re eager to prove they’re as smart as me. “The insides of society are rotten! The core is about control. They want to use you, make you feel skippy so they can steal your youth, your power. “Well?” I asked, pointing my finger and screaming. “When are you gonna do something about it? When are you gonna occupy something other than your own indulgence? You spoiled, self-pleasuring gnats? You sycophantic toads? When are you gonna rise up and take back your future?” 246 I could see a few of them nodding. This had been building for a while as more and more of them realized the restraints of ‘civilization.’ Others stalled their dancing. Someone turned down the music. Someone else turned it off. There, I saw it in their faces. This was the turning point. The bar was packed. A mob. Whip it, I thought. Whip it into a frenzy. Get them going. “Power is out there!” I pointed to the street. “The real power of the world is in the banks. It’s in the government. It’s in City Hall. But you don’t want to do anything about it.” Because they’re afraid, I thought. They’re cows. But I wasn’t going to let them graze. They could be bulls. They could be stags. They are the army of the gathering dark, the promise at the end of days. “Let’s tear it up!” I said, shouting and waving my arms. “Let’s start the revolution we’re always yakking about!” I leaned forward, my voice a whisper, set off by the tap of my heels on the bar. “Or are you too weak to fight? Huh? Snivelers? Whiners? Guilty princesses and rich-money cads?” I sneered at them. That did it. They’re coming around. He’s fidgeting. She’s clenching her nails. I see a bit lip, a shard of glass, a pair of skewered eyes. “It’s five in the morning,” I said, wanting to give them focus. “The courthouse on Main Street is eighteen blocks from the police precinct. There is only one security camera in the lobby.” Let it sink in. Let them get a sense of scale. “There are only two guards on duty.” Let them feel this is a real possibility. “But there is a judge,” I said. Let them 247 3062 CE “What are they going to do,” I asked, like it was a joke. “Throw us in prison?” I spat on the bar. “Prison is boring.” There! A laugh. A sneer. “I’m bored already.” More marks of defiance. Are they bored? Are they with me? look around and count. Let them see we’ve got the judge a hundred to one. I continued. “There’s a man of power in there, a man who says, ‘I have it, so you can’t.’ He’s in there right now, laying out his robes. You can’t touch his robes. Oh no! He won’t let you touch his power! He has control—something you’ll never have ‘cause you can’t afford it.” Take it! Take the bait. “He’s got your dad’s balls. He owns your moms. He can make anything happen. He’s so smart. He’s so savvy. He’s so in control.” And now the turn. Push the button. Pull the pin. Shove ‘em over the edge. 3062 CE “He’s dead.” The crowd cheered. Yes! They were going crazy. Beret poured champagne over the bar. I stomped in it, splashing and kicking the bubbles at the girls’ blouses, their boyfriends congratulating each other and slapping hands. “That judge is about to wonder whether he’ll live through brunch at the club. He’s gonna feel my boot down his gut and wonder who controls his ass.” I danced and shuffled my feet, scuffing the bar with my heels. It was a familiar feeling, even if I couldn’t place it precisely. “How about we take control? How about we run the show? How about we remind these daisy-chain swine that youth is a weapon?” Make them feel young. Invincible. “The will of the few cannot constrain the might of the young.” Make them feel powerful. “How about we get a little crazy?!” Make them reckless. 248 3062 CE 249 250 1570 ACE tem, s y S e v a C d e m a n n U es West, , 84 degre 35 degrees North 1570 ACE Back in the water, in my own time and in my own synthetic body, I struggled with the implications of all I had experienced. I didn’t have answers, not the ones I wanted. I didn’t know why. I only knew what, and it was a shocking horror. It was a mistake to kill Rowan. It was a blisteringly wonderful, fantasy-fulfilling mistake. It was a mistake that failed to deliver the necessary closure for peace. I loved every second of it. I loathed myself every second since. I hated what I had done, more so since I enjoyed it and would gladly do it again. Serif was right. She warned me that my interference would make things worse. I hadn’t changed the past. I had caused it. Hasan believed I was God. He thought God betrayed him. He thought God ruined his dream of peace, turning against his own command, “thou shalt not kill.” But it wasn’t God. It was me. In that moment, my desires simplified. I had to get out. 251 1570 ACE From the surface of the lake, I loaded the grapple. It secured easily to the ceiling and I ascended slowly upwards. It must have been midday. The sun speared through the openings directly into my eyes. The shock of white morning blinded me, but I didn’t have the energy to look away. I loaded my standard tinted lenses. It lessened the blindness, but I was still seeing things. I was seeing visions of the past. Of my mother. Of Rowan Scott. Of his murder. Of Hasan. Of his pitiless hands. Of his betrayal. I’d live forever knowing I spoiled that man and broke his faith. I flopped my upper body over the ledge and rolled away from the opening. I felt like I was seeing Hasan everywhere I looked, like the horizon was a mirror, like landmarks were photographs and his memories, the clouds. I saw his face. I saw his pained expression when I closed my eyes. And even when I opened them it seemed like Hasan was on the horizon. 1570 ACE Was he waving? 252 Gilead 3062 CE We marched on City Hall. I’d felt this coming since the moment I woke alone with no name in a world that wasn’t free. This was my hijacked advent, my bleak parousia, the moment of my just and vengeful coming. We disabused them of that notion. We abused them. We tore off the cameras and shattered the glass. We heaved furniture from the upper floors in front of the entrance. We made a barricade of ripped doors. We set fires. We beat the guards and tied them to chairs. We rolled the chairs into the basement. We went to the basement and pissed on the guards. We pushed the women into the puddles. We beat the receptionists. We killed the guards. We came back for the bodies and dragged them upstairs. We pushed the bodies back down the stairs. We pissed on the guards. 253 3062 CE The sun slashed across the horizon to guide me, a streak of red fuse running from the east. The streets were quiet, the sheep still sleeping and dreaming of ordered fences and a world without wolves. Coming up to the double glass doors, we gained momentum. Our march turned into a riotous surge. I’m not sure what they thought, those bureaucrats at reception, when a hundred screamers kicked in the windows. Maybe they guessed we were protestors. Maybe they thought we were civil. We went for the judge. We broke through his office. We tore off his robes. We tore up his flesh. We tore off his limbs. We threw out his arms. We made him into a paste. We smeared the judge. We smeared the paste. We went down the stairs. We ate all the guards. We ignored the sirens. We drowned them with song. We didn’t answer the phones. We didn’t answer the call. We didn’t let people leave. We didn’t let anyone fail. 3062 CE We stayed for a week. 254 Then came Evie. Evie stepped over the glass in her sneakers. She used to wear high heels. She had on pants, like she was spending the day at home on the couch. I’d get her some heels. “Hey babe,” I said, wondering what I looked like then, leaning against the desk at reception. I was itchy and wanted a shower, but wasn’t ready to leave. I was growing a beard. It smelled in there. I hadn’t realized until I caught Evie’s perfume. I didn’t like it. I didn’t like her sweatshirt. I’d get her a dress. Evie threw a Bible at me—literally, she pitched the Holy Bible at my head. I couldn’t tell if she was more angry or more scared, only that she made me more excited than I had ever been. “Read it,” she said, one accusatory finger poked at the text. “Read the marked page.” It was Revelation 20.7-9. 255 3062 CE If I had known how it was going to end, I would have brought her in earlier. She came on behalf of the police. Nobody had swept up and the law hadn’t yet tried to force our barricade. They were still playing nice, still following the rules, still thinking we could work it all out. Evie was their weapon, only they didn’t know I liked to bleed. I read, “When the thousand years are over, Satan will be released from prison. He will deceive many and gather them for battle like sand on the seashore. They will surround the camp of God’s people, the city he loves.” I closed the book with a loud, dramatic clap. I didn’t see why those words mattered. I didn’t yet realize her little ploy and I was just playing along. I wanted to play. “So?” I asked, leading her to continue. “That’s you,” she cried. Her hands were shaking as she reached out, half-identifying me and half-staving me off. 3062 CE “What are you talking about?” “Don’t you get it?” she replied. “The real reason you can’t remember anything is because you’ve been in jail for a thousand years. You’ve been in stasis. Everyone knows it. My friends know it. That’s why we bought into your stupid ideas—because we wanted to know what it was like to tell His Highness to jump off a bloody bridge. We wanted to know how good it felt to be bad. And you showed us. It was so good. Until you killed our baby with your stupid drugs. Until you turned Joanna into your whore and then left her in the ditch to die.” Where was Joanna? I wondered. I thought she moved. Was it possible she hadn’t? The last time I saw her was on her way out of town, at that truck stop. Had there been a ditch? The others were gathering around Evie. Duke and Thin Ryan moved to take her down, but I waved them off. I wanted to hear what she was gonna do next. I liked this. 256 She wasn’t backing down. I think this was cathartic for her, to confront her past, to stand up for herself. I motioned for her to continue, to get to the good part. “And the news?” she said. “The wars? You started them, you godless prick!” I thought about that for a minute. I thought about my lost memories and those verses she’d had me read. My headache was coming back, and I had trouble seeing. But I didn’t want to get sidetracked. Not from this. This was good. I had been running for this ever since I first woke in the hospital. This was fate. Destiny. And it was all wrapped up in Evie—my first convert, high priestess, and apostate muse. I thought about how we’d been together. I thought about how I wanted that again. On my terms. Right then. And I grabbed her by the hair and forced her to the floor. Maybe I am Satan, I thought, pinning her legs. She was afraid. That made her prettier. She was wriggling and slapping me. But that only made it better. No one was going to interfere. These were my people. The people outside couldn’t get in because they weren’t my people. They didn’t understand who I was. They had no category for what I was doing. Was it really possible that I am the devil? It seemed too unreal. What was she, the whore of Babylon? It couldn’t be true. It couldn’t be my fault. It couldn’t be my sin wrecking the world. 257 3062 CE “Stop it,” she cried. “God forgive me—you’re Satan. Stop it!” She was simpering. I hated that and pulled harder on her hair. “You’re supposed to stop when I say who you are,” she screamed. “Satan, stop!” Evie bit my fingers, and I was tempted to let go. I didn’t. I wrapped my hands around her throat instead and began to squeeze. I placed my thumbs in the hollow at the base of her neck and pressed. I wanted to feel her skin split so bad it made my head hurt. My head really hurt. Evie struggled violently, but I worked my body around and got my knees onto the insides of her elbows. My headache felt like it was going to tear my skull in half. I was seeing things. Flashes of another time. I felt dizzy. Evie’s face was purpling, her tongue going slack out of her mouth. I had seen something like this before. I had done this before. 3062 CE I looked down at my hands. An image flashed through my mind: old knuckles, a trimmed beard I regretted, a bloody office floor. I shook it off, kept beating Evie’s head into the ground. Another flash: New Palestine. My office. Mushrooms. I screamed. My head felt like nails were being driven in through the roots of my hair. A voice inside. Rip his head off! A woman. Grace Scott. A voice. Death! I remembered everything. 258 I remembered that God, who called himself June Paul, betrayed me. Evie’s body had gone slack. I looked down at her, but felt nothing. I didn’t feel satisfaction. I didn’t feel hate. I felt normal. She wasn’t the object of my rage. She was just what was closest. I needed another bag to burst. I had a score to settle. I was coming to myself, and there was a chanting around me. I wanted those fools to shut up. They should have had plenty to play with after we tore up that courtroom. But they didn’t want to be away from me. They were crowding me. Chanting, looming. 259 3062 CE I remembered strangling Rowan Scott. I remembered trying to create Heaven on earth. I remembered the War, and my part in it. I remembered being locked up and drugged. “I am the Chief Prosecutor of Heaven,” I said, remembering how long I had served. “My name is Hasan!” I was screaming it now, my shoulders shaking. “My name is Hasan Tahn!” I beat Evie’s head against the floor, wet thumps making me think of dropped fruit. She stopped breathing, but I hadn’t stopped punishing her. I was coming apart. “My job is to find evil, to sniff it out. I am the Accuser!” I wasn’t sure what they were saying. I listened more carefully. It was my name. Over and over and over, they were saying “Hasan Tahn.” But it was mumbled. Hasan Tahn Ha San Tan Ha Sa Tan ha Satan. I remembered the origin of that word. It’s Hebrew—a legal noun meaning “accuser.” 3062 CE Satan was another name for the Prosecutor. 260 New Palestine 2061 CE The guards took me. We didn’t have much of a jail, just a converted file room. Two others had been locked in temporary pens—a thief and a murderer. I fit right in, like another innocent man they crucified once. I was there for two days before they moved me. Nothing to eat or drink, no bathroom. I used an old wastepaper basket for my toilet and heard the guards laughing about it. When they moved me across town, the entire Colony gathered to sample my shame. They booed. A little child pointed his finger, accusing me. A mother rubbed his head. More jeers. I stumbled, but no one offered to help. I was on my knees when the first piece of rotten fruit smashed into my eye. I always hated tomatoes. Then I was moving again. The guards dragged me along by the collar, and I had to hurry to get my legs. My coat ripped. I wasn’t bound, so I shook out of it and walked upright. The crowd cast lots for my robe. 261 2061 CE I remember feeling like a passenger in my own body. June Paul was driving, but I enjoyed the ride. I had hated Scott for a long time. That final resolution was sweet, when I prosecuted the guiltiest man alive. Then June Paul was gone and everything turned to ash. They’d built a prison proper, just for me. It was in one of the newer buildings, along the south side of town. It didn’t have bars. Just iron walls you couldn’t see through. There was a steel slab for a cot and a toilet with no lid. Cot. Toilet. Me. There was no window. Light came from tubes in the ceiling. The door had only a thin slot for food, once a day. It only came if I gave back yesterday’s plate immediately. Once I hesitated, asking the guard about my trial. 2061 CE He took away my food. 262 I gave up on double Q. 263 2061 CE I didn’t have anything I could use to write. I ripped off my fingernails trying to etch the iron box. I kept track of the days with letters and words. A-day was first. Alphabet. Ambassador. Apostle. All day. Then B-day, and so on. Day twenty-seven was double-A day. Aardvark. Aargh. Double-B day was harder. Bubble. 2061 CE My beard had grown down to my chest before I knew it. I was still hopeful, but confused. I wondered why the Lord was letting this happen. I wondered why he permitted me to kill Rowan if it wasn’t his will. I wondered why he did anything, or whether he was done with me altogether. Eloi eloi lama sabachthani. I never wondered if he was real. We’d met. I’d been to his house. But I began to wonder if he could be trusted. I wondered if he was good. 264 Gilead 3062 CE I had started out working for the man upstairs, but he’d given me a pink slip and, by Gawd, I wasn’t messing around with him anymore. I was freelancing, working to get back some of what I was owed. There would be a reckoning. Sacrifices were made. Omelets need eggs, and my occupiers broke their yokes in a firefight so I could scoot out the back. By Gawd, they were beautiful when dying. Duke and Thin Ryan were the only two who didn’t bite it right away. Duke died later in the hospital, but Thin Ryan pulled through. Somehow we managed to arrive at the hospital prior to the police. Through some miracle, it was my old friend Doc Chloros on duty. “I thought you were a psychiatrist?” I asked him, helping Ryan keep Duke upright as we came in to the Emergency Room through the automatic doors. 265 3062 CE Evie’s death caused the police outside to go crazy. A shatter of glass brought my attention back to the present moment. The SWAT team outside had decided to breach. Tear gas billowed through the room and Thin Ryan opened fire on our assailants with a security guard’s pistol. Duke tackled one of the officers while the girls screamed and scratched out their eyes. It was agonizingly stunning, a chaotic display of love and affection. “I’ve been waiting for you,” he replied, hurriedly. “Take the skinny one and come with me.” Doc led us through a warren of bone-white halls, taking care to stock up on medical supplies whenever we passed an empty room. He took us out through the parking garage, into a large van, and I gave him directions to Evie’s. We staggered down the hallway toward the apartment. Ryan entered first, but I took hold of Chloros’ arm and wouldn’t let him follow. “We’ll be just a minute,” I told the thin man. He shut the door, and I turned, grabbing Chloros by the neck. I threw his handsome body against the wall and began to squeeze. 3062 CE “I remember,” I began, “like you said I would.” Chloros’ face was pale, greening, eyes bulging like they might pop. “I don’t like what I remember.” 266 New Palestine 2061 CE Then a doctor came to see me. “My name is Josef,” he said. He was a handsome man with thick, black hair. Too slick for my liking, but I wasn’t as picky as I had been. He had a voice like German Chocolate cake—creamy, with surprise. “I’m sorry you have been kept here for so long, Minister.” “It’s Prosecutor,” I corrected him. The door closed behind him. “I think not,” he said, standing perfectly straight. I hadn’t thought of that. The Lord called me, so I figured only the Lord could fire me. Maybe he had. “How can I help you, Josef?” “I am a doctor--” he began, but I interrupted him. “My throat has been bothering me,” I said. It was true. It felt dry all the time and, by Gawd, I was thirsty. “I think we can look into that,” he said, not unkindly, “but there are other things we need to investigate, also.” 267 2061 CE I called out to God. I quoted Scripture. I sang hymns. I made supplication. But I was alone. I received no visitors. I had no company. Not until my beard was long enough to touch my chest. Not until I had actions for every Psalm I knew. The way he talked, I was just happy to listen. He was the only human being I had seen in a long time. He was a respectable sort, but I didn’t like his eyes. And there was a five-pointed star on his ring, an old symbol of the goat. “I don’t like your ring,” I told him. Josef held up his hand, turning the ring over in the light. “We’re all either sheep or goats,” he said. He registered my suspicion and smiled, exposing polished, symmetrical teeth. “Just two kinds of mutton from the barn.” 2061 CE “I don’t think that’s funny.” “That’s because you’re the punch line, Minister. You’ve been serving God, but resent his rewards.” “I have been to the other side—” It was his turn to cut me off. “Yes, yes, yes,” he said dismissively. “But this is the side that matters now, hm?” “What is your business, doctor?” “I’m just interested in opening your mind to alternatives,” he replied. Josef stood up and rapped on the door. I heard a heavy beam slide from outside the cell and the door opened. “If I were you,” he said, coming to the end of our visit, “I’d think more about how to escape the present moment.” “That will be my biggest challenge,” I said, agreeing with him. “Boredom.” “No,” he replied. I thought he looked genuinely sad. “Not anymore.” He left. That was when the experiments started. 268 I cried. And screamed. And laughed. And heaved. And never left that room. It never made sense to me. It never seemed to end. It never served any conceivable purpose, though Josef always told me what new steps he took in the experimentation process. “I’ve given you something for your muscles, Minister.” It felt like they were being carved from off my bones. “They’re tearing me apart!” I screamed. “Yes—I imagine it’s unpleasant,” he said. “But this will allow you to remain in stasis for a long time and wake up relatively unharmed. Stasis? “I’m going to sleep?” I asked, barely able to keep my eyes open. “If you like. That may help pass the time.” Sleeping and waking. Never dreaming. Never an end of screaming. Just more sleeping and waking and hurting. Sleep. Wake. Hurt. Next verse, same as the first. A little bit louder. A little bit worse. 269 2061 CE To call these “experiments” was an injustice all its own. There were chemicals. There were drugs. There were operations. There was therapy. There was torture. I wondered if God had abandoned me. If he was teaching me a lesson. I wondered if he was going to show up one night and explain. There could have been a burning bush. There could have been a rainbow. I would have understood. 2061 CE But there was only pain. 270 I tried to greet the doctor cheerfully, thinking I might be a witness. I thought he might convert if I suffered bravely, like Christians fed to lions in Rome. I even tried to sing. Funny. The doctor sang along. I didn’t like to sing when he did. I didn’t like that we were in tune. 271 2061 CE I remembered an old joke: the beatings will continue until morale improves. 2061 CE It was dark outside as the guards dragged me, stumbling, across the compound. One of them had a wrist watch. It was 5:37 a.m. I saw the date also. 11/11/61. I had been in jail for only ten weeks. The doctor hustled me into the back of a van. The guards chained me to the floor and we drove for hours. Just ten weeks. It felt like years, but it had been less than three months. I thought I had lost so much. I felt so old. That was the most crushing part of my torture. Brevity. When the van stopped they placed a sack over my head. We trundled across a gravel field and into a new facility. I got a new room. When they pulled off the hood I saw my room was identical to the other, only this one had a clock. The torments resumed. For twenty years. 272 Gilead 3062 CE I shook my head, freeing my mind from the cobwebs of bitter memory. I was in the hall of the apartment building, holding Doc Chloros by the throat as he begged for his life. “Give me a minute!” he gasped. “I can help!” “With what?” I growled. It was the right answer. I relaxed my grip on Chloros, slightly, and let his body slide partway down the wall. He coughed. He tried to adjust his vest, but my arms were still locked around his throat and he couldn’t reach. “What do you mean?” I asked. Doc Chloros didn’t answer right away. He took a moment to catch his breath and regain his composure, until I shook him and repeated the question. “We have footage,” he began, still not totally recovered, “thousands of hours of surveillance and documentation about every one of our subjects.” I could have snapped his neck. “Including me?” “Including Grace Paul,” he interjected quickly. “You were moved before the holocaust. Grace was with the 273 3062 CE He was barely conscious, barely able to breathe out a squeaky answer. “I can find June Paul…” prisoners on the lower decks. They mutated into those things. It was the radiation.” “What things?” I asked, finally letting go of the doctor. He straightened his vest, looking like that had been his main concern all along. “Subhumans,” he said. “We studied them briefly, tagged them, and then let them go.” “Grace Paul is our bait?” I asked. “She’s alive?” Chloros nodded. “The subhumans are resilient. They don’t get sick, age, or die. Unless she’s been murdered or fallen down a well, she’s alive. And we’ll find her.” “How do you know about June Paul?” I asked, my arms reaching back toward the doctor. 3062 CE “You talk in your sleep.” 274 ility c a F t s e T ' s o r o l h C 82 CE 20 I was asleep when the Voice came the first time. It was a masculine whisper, a shovel of rock in the grass. Minister? Come here, said the Voice. “Where are you?” I swung my legs over the edge of the cot, cautiously, and peered into the dark. Closer. “Where are you?” Closer than you think. “There’s nowhere you could be. I’m alone.” You’re not alone. “Where are you?” Where are you? mimicked the Voice. “Stop that!” You’re not alone. I thought I might finally be losing my mind. Not your mind, said the Voice. You’re mine. I got off my cot and crawled around the room on all 275 2082 CE The cell was dark and I couldn’t see anyone. “Yes?” I replied. fours. It was empty. The slot in the door was closed. There was nothing on the toilet. I went back to bed. I’m here, Minister, said the Voice. I thought it was my imagination, but the Voice came every night. The Voice tempted. Mocked. Rebuked. Teased. Seduced. Scorned. Laughed. Coaxed. 2082 CE I realized I missed the company. God had long spoken to me, then stopped. June Paul picked up where the Lord had left off, only I couldn’t tell the two apart. I wouldn’t make that mistake again. Oh, no. I knew this wasn’t God. Maybe that’s why I liked the Voice. It didn’t try to be anything other than what it was. No promises. No lures. No visions of something better. On the hundredth night, the Voice made me an offer. Let’s get out, it said. “You’re not real.” Neither was God. “God is real.” Then who is June Paul? “Leave me alone.” You’re not alone. “I am. You’re not here.” Don’t you know me yet? I was afraid I did. It sounded like thirty pieces of silver. It hissed at the end of every word, like the garden snake. You met my adversary. You’ve been to his house. You’ve met my dependent. You’re still in his house. 276 Don’t you want to be free? Don’t you want a house of your own? “Who are you?” Cloven hooves and pitchforks. The real question is, who are you? And, more importantly, what do you want? I had had time to ponder what I might do if I were free. God had abandoned me. He wasn’t part of the equation. But there was someone else to consider. Someone who had robbed me. Someone who had harmed me. Someone who had made my life a living hell. Hm? The silence stretched unexpectedly. I thought the Voice would have leapt upon my word. I thought the Voice eager. I wondered if I hadn’t said it loud enough. “Revenge,” I repeated. “Revenge!” I screamed. The walls of the iron box rang like the thrum inside a church bell, and I shouted the word once more to drown out the sound. “REVENGE!” When the thrumming subsided, I began to hear the faint trickle of another sound. It was like the throaty engine of a bike, like the far off collapse of water over the falls. It was the Voice. Laughing. We have to make a deal. Faust. Robert Johnson. Theophilus of Adana. Hasan Tahn. 277 2082 CE I knew the Voice was eager, impatient. But I took my time. I gathered my strength. I made sure the word came out right before I said, “revenge.” Turns out, the devil likes to wear skin. Possession is the wrong word, though. It’s not a takeover. 2082 CE It’s a merger. 278 Gilead 3062 CE I needed recruits. Weapons. Messengers. Angels. I would do as I have always done. I would tempt and bend and twist. I would show people the other side of life and remind them they need not be slaves to the parochial whims of a distant and tired fairy. And there would be some who decried my methods and rallied against me, claiming that those I loved received things denied to those I hated. By Gawd, I didn’t care. Let them wonder about their place in the world. Let them discover the apish strength of the human spirit. Give them a little booze and some porn; throw in a steak and ladle ambition over their hopes and dreams. This was life at its basest and best. You wouldn’t believe how easy it was to create knights in Satan’s service. I should have started a band. 279 3062 CE I wanted to find June Paul and kill him, but I was not in a hurry. I had become acquainted with Time. Doc Chloros had access to Scott’s research. There were pages and scribbles and scratches and scrawls of robotics and chems and mods and stims, engineering diagrams and plans for the future of life on Earth. Doc helped me make sense of it, helped me transform from civic preacher to biochemical pioneer. It took a while, but it’s probably fair to say I had an advantage. Gilead 3067 CE We set up shop at the ruins of Beret’s bar. The police had condemned the building, but there were no posted guards. It was a dead zone. I still couldn’t believe this heaven-on-earth, no-war, nomeat place was the dream for which I had twice given my life. It was a dumpy idea and I felt stupid for trying. 3067 CE I was going to try something else. We remodeled the front of the bar into a surveillance center. There were screens and computers and radar arrays on every surface. I had a command chair set up in front of the counter, but instead of drinks there was now a mosaic of LEDs, LCDs and plasma projections tracking every conceivable signal, project, and datastream. From here, I could watch the world. Nothing could catch me by surprise and nothing—absolutely nothing—worried me about the future. I pinned notes on the walls. They were in all the languages ever spoken in the tongues of men, and some that had only been heard by devils. They were notes of prophecy, of doom, and of infinite suffering for June Paul. Die, said one in an Arabian dialect; and another described how I would cook him; and another was a description of what I could do with his eyes; and another about the nails of his toes and where I might hang them; 280 and another, a long scrawl I would write with his blood; and another was a note of hope about his mother, which I would show him and then burn; and another was an old device that would hurt June Paul so badly he would beg; and another was smeared black with the contents of my hate in spit and ash; and another was empty, but I tore it off the wall and began to fill it with a rhyme about his father’s bones. Revenge is sweet. Amen. 3067 CE 281 Gilead 3103 CE 3103 CE Time can move very swiftly. Passion moves the arms of a clock more speedily than melancholy. I was in a fit of passion, by Gawd, and it gave me the ache for living. I lived inexhaustibly, driven by vengeance, and the arms on clocks fell off more frequently than I was diverted from my purpose. I spent decades unearthing all that Scott had squirreled away. I learned about nanotechnology and the synthesis of carapatic memory cores. I leaned the difference between wetware and the artifice of human consciousness. I became a master of genetic enhancement. I developed new schemes in biotics and human performance technology. I was able to seamlessly meld together the digital and the corporeal. I turned Thin Ryan and Doc Chloros into soldiers, pairing them with technorganic steeds to carry them across the world in search of June Paul. I think they were volunteers, but by the time the procedure was over it wouldn’t have mattered. I warned them not to kill June Paul, just to find him, though they had permission to play. They were my horsemen, my Riders. “Aren’t there supposed to be four of us?” asked Thin Ryan. He had been adamant that we keep the champ stamp visible on his lower back. The thin man looked like death, tribal tattoos stretched painfully across necrotic skin. Ryan 282 had crafted a cybernetic bat, a marvelous sheet of binary flesh, black with smoldering eyes. We were still in the shell of the old bar, hidden behind technological camouflage that preserved our anonymity from the outside world. If someone could have seen past our trickery they would see the same burned husk out front, the same cracked nut inside. But no one did. It was only us who saw, and only we who mattered. “The horsemen are simply archetypes,” said the Doc, working absently on a chemical compound, scratching notes on a pad. “War. Famine. Plague. Death. Has there ever been a time in human history when these horsemen have not roamed the earth?” “Yeah,” said Ryan, “the last thousand years.” Doc scoffed, intolerant of Ryan’s plainness. The thin man’s confidence had grown tremendously with the increase of his physical size and strength. He would be the bully now. “I thought there was going to be a reckoning.” “You’re wrong,” I said. “There were four horsemen.” “Who were they?” asked Ryan. I looked right into his eyes. “June Paul,” I said. “That doesn’t make sense,” Ryan complained. I decided to elaborate. “June Paul made war on Rowan Scott. June Paul starved himself of mercy when he could have averted a holocaust. June Paul made me sick with indecision, nauseated by religious guilt.” 283 3103 CE Doc snorted, determined to free Ryan of his dispensational fantasies. “War uses up all the natural resources of an area, or spoils them, leading to starvation. The carcasses cannot all be properly interred, and their putrefaction brings disease. Disease brings death. It’s all very logical.” Doc figured out where this was going. “War. Famine. Pestilence,” he said, summing up. “And death?” asked Thin Ryan. 3103 CE I replied simply. “June Paul is going to die.” 284 Gilead 3104 CE I sent my Riders out like locusts. Chloros crafted a technorganic lizard, to get him into the subhumans’ underground caverns. It was long and low, and could slip through impossibly small spaces. Chloros had created a means of communicating telepathically with the creature. They were a perfect pair of snakes. “Find Grace Paul and get her topside,” I told him through the surveillance monitor. “Dead or alive?” asked Chloros, his lizard mount swaying impatiently beneath him. Chloros and his lizard vanished into the crevice in the ground, like oil spilling in the dark. I could see the end. There was nothing to stop me, no conceivable threat to slow me down. Not the fakers in fauxHeaven. Not June Paul. Not the subhumans. And God? He’d already proven he wouldn’t lift a finger. That bit about Christ coming to destroy me with a Word was just an idea from the past, a troublesome myth. I’d come for him first anyhow. Bye, God. 285 3104 CE “Alive enough to scream. I just want June Paul to know we got his mother.” Gilead 3111 CE I set to work constructing myself a new body. I upgraded musculature. I improved mobility. I sharpened my teeth and gave myself claws. I wanted to look the part. Horns. Tail. Wings like a demon. I altered my pigment. You want Satan? By Gawd, you got him. 3111 CE But it was too garish. I dialed the pigment down some and made it so I could fold in the wings. The hooves were impractical. It was tough to look menacing when you couldn’t stand on a tile floor. At the end, I looked much like I had in the beginning, though redder. I had a long grey beard that swung like a pendulum. I had old hands, crooked and slightly horned at each knuckle. My skin wore an overcoat of membranous wings folded against my body. I cut off the tail and left the scythe at home. Satisfied, I sat waiting for the summons from my Riders. 286 Gilead 3129 CE I waited without results. Chloros didn’t respond to any of my hails. I tried again. Again. I was frustrated. I tried once more. Again. I destroyed Beret’s bar, leaving nothing more than a struck match. I waited, encased in a scab of sour gloom. I hadn’t been eating. My stomach hurt, but I ignored it. It shouldn’t have been a concern. I wasn’t sleeping, either. I was tired all the time. I watched archives from Chloros’ sessions with Grace Paul. I watched her cry about Rowan Scott. He loaned her money she couldn’t repay. Men came to her restaurant saying Scott owed them. She owed them. They took her. Scott pleaded and they released her, but now she owed him something else. Still can’t figure why the kid changed his name. His daddy was Korean, maybe he was worried about being picked on. Shouldn’t picked a girl’s name then, should he? 287 3129 CE Can’t they understand that nothing’s free? Maybe that’s why she liked Joon Pol, senior. Maybe she thought Joon would know how to recognize a threat. Gilead 3140 CE No word. No matter. No more Gilead. It had gone up in a cloud of smoke and dust. It was a ruined field of asphalt crops with nothing left for reaping. 3140 CE I hardly moved. 288 3151 CE I was waiting for a signal, a sonic BOOM that would tell me June Paul had been found. I wanted a big sound. A sound that would echo across space and time. I wanted a sound that pulled me to him, like a flame to the moth when it gets close. The sound wasn’t just for me. The BOOM was for everyone to hear. I wanted them to feel the BOOM when it came, whether cowering under beds or bickering in offices. I wanted the BOOM to shake off their clothes, to loosen their bowels, to scatter their toys. I wanted the BOOM to make them tremble, and to echo the sound of the cavern in my chest. I wanted to know, and I wanted the world to suspect, that something magnificent, maleficent, and mad was coming to rid humanity of a germ. 3151 CE 289 3631 CE More. Waiting. I settled into a mood of black moss. There are only so many dark plans you can hatch, only so many wild revenge fantasies you can stoke before you realize they’re all the same. I was bored with it. It was just something that had to be done. It was years before I received word from Chloros, hailing from a low ridge near the American foothills That Were. He hadn’t aged. His lizard, however, had changed pigment into the clear flesh of all underground things. Its dark eyes and pinky-blue veins showed like lightning streaks on the coms. “Have you found Grace Paul?” 3631 CE “She’s here,” he replied, oblivious to my irritation. Chloros gave me access to his heads-up display. It identified which of the uglies was Grace Scott. She was there, holding onto some leftover doll chipped and repaired a thousand times over. There were children clustered around her knees, she was like their den mother. “They live tribally,” he explained. “The old lead, the young hunt, with sharply defined roles for both sexes. It’s very quaint.” 290 “Can they time travel?” I asked. “No,” replied Chloros. “I’ve been watching them. The water is the key. I went in once and threw up everywhere. But I was transported back to the Colony.” “As yourself?” I wondered if I was in danger every time someone entered the water. “Yes, “ Chloros said. “I’m unclear what allowed June Paul to rape your mind.” He wasn’t the first, I thought, considering again Chloros’ experiments during my imprisonment. “Excuse me?” I asked. It didn’t feel right that the doctor should get away with what he did to me. When you turn off the lights, I want you to imagine the house call I’m preparing for you, Josef. “What do you want me to do?” he asked. “Get the woman and get out.” 3631 CE 291 ine t s e l a P w e N f o s in The Ru 3631 CE The lizard moved low, smoothly like a drip of sap across the ground, closing the distance to Grace Paul. She was unaware of the serpent, oblivious to the Rider. The children kept playing and I watched Grace show them that broken doll. Their laughter was metallic, made of little noises like staples breaking open in a drawer. I watched the lizard’s tongue flicker, nearly licking the lobe of a girl’s ear. On the heads-up display, I watched Chloros’ heart rate go up, his adrenaline spiking, and then he kicked the beast into action. The lizard bowled through the cluster of little girls. Grace Paul shrilled and leapt to the side, narrowly missing the rope-tongue of the reptilian creature as it sought to reel her in. 3631 CE Chloros scanned for Grace. The subhumans were fast and able to easily maneuver over the rocky terrain. She was up and running off to the left, but Chloros had engineered his mount especially for these circumstances and the lizard chased her down. The serpent’s tongue licked out and snatched her ankle. Grace fell forward onto her chin, screaming once more in pain and fright. The lizard’s front foot stomped on her back and I heard a crunching sound that signaled she would not be running any longer. 292 Chloros hopped off the lizard and neatly roped the woman into a bundle, tossing her, squirming, onto the back of the beast before mounting up once again. Chloros expanded his heads-up display and I could see he was now surrounded by hostiles. Grace Paul was squirming and I was impressed that Chloros didn’t let her fall, especially in the midst of that crazed mob. Other subhumans moved in to reclaim her. There was one in particular, larger and more dominant than the rest, who rallied the males into war parties. He was heavily muscled and wore a scrap of cloth around his neck like a scarf. He was the only one of those underground things I’d ever seen clothed. But that’s all it was. A stitch. I got the impression it was a marker of some kind, like a primitive headdress. But Chloros seemed unconcerned. He may have been outnumbered, but he was not defenseless. His lizard’s tongue flicked out, wrapping itself around the ankle of one of the subhumans. The warrior was dragged close and the lizard gouged him with its claws, saliva dripping down onto his bleeding torso. Other subhumans had moved around behind Chloros and were trying to circle him, but the lizard’s tail whipped frenetically, powerfully, and they were unable to close the distance. “I’m not sure they want me to leave,” said Chloros. Fortunately, the doctor was not without his tricks. Loading a gas canister into his armor, Chloros dispersed 293 3631 CE I didn’t reply. Part of me hoped he would be assaulted by the subhumans, dragged back into their nest and tortured for a thousand years. It seemed a just punishment. But I didn’t trust the lizard to bring me my prize. a cloud of poison into the room. Most of the hostiles scrambled up tunnels, making their way to the surface. Within moments, the only subhuman that hadn’t run away coughing was the big one. And he wasn’t going anywhere. Big wrapped his scarf around his face. He charged, two stone knives darting in and out against the lizard’s claws and teeth. The beast swiped at Big, but the large man moved quickly, cutting beneath the attack and drawing first blood. One of the lizard’s claws lay naked on the floor. The beast screamed and urged Chloros to attack in retaliation. But the doctor had what he needed. He wheeled the lizard around to the exit and scampered away, untroubled by cowardice. “Well done,” I said over the coms. “He’s dead anyway,” Chloros replied. “That toxin will be the end of their race, given time. Every one of their claws will be a poison to both tech and blood, infecting an operating system as well as a native body creating hostility, territorialism, and aggression.” “I think it’s safe to say you achieved that all on your own, doctor.” “Look who’s talking,” he replied. I was suddenly sickened by the ruins of my old life. Even seeing it on the monitor reminded me of human ash and pride, of foiled attempts to cultivate heaven-on-earth. 3631 CE Nothing we do here will ever be like life on the other side, I thought. Too bad I can’t go back. 294 I watched the lizard come out of the crevice—could practically smell it through the monitor before its forked tongue mutely flicked at the day. Chloros was on top, with a misshapen female lump on the back. She was tied up and bruised, but I could see her ribs rising and falling. “Will she live?” I asked. Chloros grinned. “She will reach the City.” He kicked the sides of his lizard and its body rippled. I peered in closer to my screen to make sure I understood what was happening. “Tricky,” I muttered appreciatively. The lizard was shaking loose its wings. It wasn’t a snake. It was a dragon. The wings were so thin that the screens only showed long bones supporting the membrane. The creature took off into the sky with two great sweeps and wheeled around like a kite on a string. By Gawd, it was magnificent. I always wanted a dragon. 3631 CE 295 The City of God 3631 CE The City gates were nearly forty feet tall and covered in precious gems. Chloros landed just before dawn, the sun more red than orange. I wondered what the City looked like from inside. I wondered how close they got to the real thing. The air looked cleaner, the light traveled further. The fools were singing even then, before breakfast. We had worked hard to build New Palestine into the very thing they now enjoyed. It was a bitter pill to be on the outside after so many years working to get there. I felt like Moses. I led the people from the slavery of American consumerism into the wilderness of colonial independence, only to have God turn his back and keep me in the dark. And he has the nerve to call me sinner. “Nice place,” said Chloros, his voice sounded tinny. There was radio interference from the City of God. “It’s fake,” I replied. 3631 CE “Looks real to me.” “The real treasures in Heaven are relationships. The whole last book of their Bible uses poetic language to illustrate a spiritual sense of belonging, a radiance of glorified families.” “You’re saying it’s all a metaphor?” “I’m saying these clowns took poetry and laid it out with a measuring stick,” I replied. “They took the 296 incomprehensible majesty of the supernatural and reduced it to a floorplan.” “Then they deserve to be disappointed,” said Chloros. I agreed. “Time for the let down.” Chloros’ voice amplified across the desolate landscape outside the City walls. “June Paul?” he cried. From the screens I could see guards coming to the tower defenses. Chloros zoomed in with the camera and I could watch them murmur and wonder what was happening. My Rider got off his dragon and walked to Grace. She still struggled on the back of the beast. With his enhanced strength, Chloros had no trouble hoisting her off the lizard and tossing her onto the ground. He pulled a short wand from a compartment on the dragon’s saddle. It looked like a wooden ruler, until he pushed a button and the wand began to unfold. It grew to nearly eight feet in his hand, a spear, and he jabbed it into the earth, driving the point deeply. Grace Paul’s subhuman eyes were wide, her body arching and shivering. Chloros didn’t drag it out. He walked to the woman once more and cut loose her bonds. She fought him, but it was of little use. She was weak from his poisoned gas. Her muscles were cramped. She hadn’t eaten. Up she went, and then down, impaled upon the spear like a dead puppet. She thrashed for only a moment, but enough that one of the guards became sick. And with every beat of that dragon’s wings I waited in anticipation for the BOOM. 297 3631 CE Chloros waved to the men of the watch. He climbed back on top of his dragon and was off. 3631 CE Chloros waltzed into the remnants of Beret’s bar. It had been a long, long time since he’d been here, and I resented his nonchalance. I tried to control my face, as I didn’t want to give anything away. His time had come. No point in spoiling the surprise. “It wasn’t nearly as difficult as I thought,” he said, conversationally. “The tags were in good shape.” I invited him to sit in the command chair. He complied, and I walked over to the great steel door I had installed. It separated the surveillance area from the rest of the bar. I shut the door, locking the dragon outside, and stepped slowly back to my old torturer savoring every second. off. “There is one other thing…” I said, letting my voice trail “What’s that?” he replied. He was curious about the screens, checking my browsing history to see how I had spent my time. 3631 CE He leaned in close to the LCDs and I grabbed his wellcultured neck and crushing his windpipe. “You tortured me for a thousand years,” I said. “I’m getting even.” From outside the heavy room door I could hear Chloros’ dragon hammering, trying fervently to get inside and save its master. The door was too strong. The walls were reinforced. 298 I heard the dragon trying to tear through the ceiling, but it was no use. I’d had time to plan. Time enough to add a little window at the bottom of the door, like I had in prison for meals. Chloros continued to struggle, but for as long as he had been gone I had been making adjustments to my own synthetic body. “You know, Doc, when I was in prison the guards would stand outside my door and push the food through a slot just like this.” I could see Chloros’ lights going dark. He was nearly gone. “Here’s the thing,” I continued. “I want you to feel like I felt. Only, you’re not going to eat the food.” I paused. “You are the food.” Chloros was making little kitten noises. His body quivered less, his limbs struggling weakly. The dragon kept hammering at the door, still fighting, still desperate. Still outside. “For a while I thought I’d keep your pet once you were gone.” He was almost gone now. “You know, for company.” The beast whimpered a howl of old grief. “But then I realized something, Doc. Something I probably should have realized back in your office. With the inkblots.” I watched him kick and spasm for the final time before I said, “I’m dragon enough.” 299 3631 CE With a concluding snap I broke the doctor’s neck and dropped him on the floor. I found a sample of the toxin he used on the subhumans and sprinkled it over his body. I chopped off his hands and put one through the little hole. I waited. The dragon first licked the hand, then bit it, for the poison smelled very sweet. When I heard the beast swallow, I gave it the other hand and more of the poison. Then the feet. Then the arms, sliced, and shavings from the back. When I heard the beast collapse, I realized I had prepared too much. But I could take care of the mess. 3631 CE I had time to kill. 300 I had waited long enough for stars to change their position in the sky, long enough for the pretty people to gather inside the City, long enough…but I could have said that on the first day, for I waited a very long time indeed. And then I heard it. BOOM. I unfolded my wings and burst into the night. I’m coming for you, June Paul. 3631 CE 301 , 35 degrees Nortth, es 84 degrteereCosmmW on Era, ace) 3631 CE (1570 Af I checked my carapace for tears as I flopped against the surface of the world and waited for Serif. The light of day was painful after so long in the cave system. I was still having flashbacks. Images of the Chief Prosecutor blitzed my mind. The leftover hallucinogenic from the mushrooms coupled with the virus in my OS made me afraid. But at least I was outside. The worst was over. With clear access to satellite now, I brought up Serif’s physicality on my coms. “You there, sister?” I asked. “I could use a little good news.” 3631 CE // 1570 ACE June! she replied. I have been searching the area. I could hear a flutter in her voice. I lost contact with my avatar hours ago. I was about to go back and recruit additional angels for a search. I stretched out my legs on the rock and let my body sag. “Just come soon.” I will be there in ten minutes, she said. Too tired to speak, I answered her in my mind. Whatever. I’m not going anywhere. 302 I lay with my head against the ground, looking crossways at the horizon. I daydreamed about Hasan. I felt horrible. I was burning up. I was weak. I was disoriented and nauseous. I moved my head over to the other side. He was still there. It felt like he was following me. He looked closer than he had. He was always coming closer. I sat upright, concerned. I must be hallucinating, I thought. Because it looks like he’s actually coming closer. I thought he was waving. I stood, suddenly alert, albeit weak and dizzy. This didn’t feel right. I zoomed to 3x magnification. The carapace was slow to react and I had trouble focusing. When I did, I realized the figure in question wasn’t waving his arms. Those were wings. “I’m in trouble,” I said, terrified I wouldn’t have the battery for mindcharge and couldn’t upload to the City servers. 303 3631 CE // 1570 ACE “Serif,” I called. She didn’t answer. “Serif!” I could hear the riddle of panic in my voice. I did a basic system diagnostic. My power was sapped. The carapace was going to be out of juice very soon. The Spelunker had sustained heavy damage in the cave, and I wasn’t sure what to expect. Still no answer. The Prosecutor looked different as he got closer. He had a tan. Or something. And he was larger. His beard had grown back. He was massive, muscles rippling as he approached. He had wings like a dragon and a brazen circlet jutting off the front of his brow. His skin was sweaty leather and vinyl-smooth, his legs bent like a goat. The wings kicked up a tremendous amount of dust and grit, and as he came in, lower, his final few beats were hot and violent. He dropped the last ten feet with a thud and stalked toward me like a horrific judge. “By Gawd,” he said. “If it isn’t June Paul.” I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. Was it the mushrooms? Had the virus finally driven me over the ledge? “What happened to you?” I asked. “How did you get here?” 3631 CE // 1570 ACE Serif, I called mentally. I could use a little backup. Serif?! The fiend crouched over, squatting on his haunches. His forehead was scattered with little horns and bumps, some of which looked like they had been sanded off. Some of which had grown recently. I could now see a crimson pigment to his skin, like he had bathed in red ink. His fingernails were blackened and dirty and chipped. In this posture, his wings folded around him like a cloak so that he looked clothed, though in fact he was nude. “After you stole my body—a nice trick, by the way— the authorities put me in prison.” His voice was tympanic, a kettle of woe filled with misdeeds and bones. There were lines around his eyes, fervid beads of hot cinder. He was enjoying this like he was winning a divorce. “I was in stasis for a thousand years, a prison of the mind. And when I woke up, I realized you needed to answer for you meddling, for 304 your perversions. I’ve come to remedy the fact that you’re still breathing.” “You’re Masheet?” I asked, thinking about the Rider and the bat that had come looking for me. “The Accuser? The Prosecutor? The Destroyer? What’s in a name? Ha Satan? Abaddon? Apollyon? Shaitan? The boogeyman? A name is just something we use to point at things we know.” He looked me dead in the eye. “And you know me, June Paul,” he said. “We are practically the same.” 3631 CE // 1570 ACE 305 Satan loomed over me, squatting, with a backdrop of foothills anchoring the ground. I was still trying to grasp the fact that Hasan was this beast in front of me. He wasn’t like this. He wasn’t this thing. The creature felt like it had grown from a syrup of hate. Hasan had been a good man. How can something so pure turn so putrid? “But you were committed,” I said. “You believed. The last time I saw you, you were nearly crippled with devotion.” “What did you think, June? You think you were gonna save the world?” His wings shuffled, opening slightly before resettling. “The past is written, by Gawd, and it was written well. It’s the present we can still change. And I mean to fix it to my liking.” 1570 ACE I was madly trying to put the pieces together. I could still picture Hasan in front of his children’s class, in front of the mercenaries during the siege. He once believed God brought him back from the dead, to ferret out evil and point the way toward truth. “You became the very thing you swore to expose,” I said. “If you like,” he replied, standing with his chest now at eye-level. 306 I had to understand. I had to hear myself tease it out. “You abdicated your position. You left your post, and the world fell apart because you quit the court of the Almighty.” Satan barked in front of me. I think it was supposed to be a laugh, but his chest was like the cab of a van. Laughter boomed more than it should, cracking at the end. “You think you’re any less of a devil?” he asked. “With all your talk of keeping things alive?” I didn’t say anything. I knew where this was going, knowing if he didn’t say it now, I’d still have to point the finger at myself later on. “You killed Rowan Scott,” he said, “damn near possessed me to do it. You’re more demon than me. I’ve seen what’s in you—you’re sin all the way down. You’d just as soon skewer a steer as build a bomb or blow down a wall.” He did not accuse half-heartedly, or without grounds. I had forced Hasan to do evil and he became evil in the process. So did I. That was the crime. I did it knowingly, willingly, and without any hesitation. Serif tried to stop me, but I killed her too. Two deaths, the former to ensure I could justify the latter. I couldn’t defend my actions. I would pay for a long time and had begun already. But he wasn’t the one to decide when or how. “Scott was a mistake,” I cried. “But your accusations aren’t just. Not anymore. You’re still trying to control others—their lives, their marriages, their arms, their ideas— through guilt. Your religion is twisted!” 307 1570 ACE I was panting, finding it hard to get enough air. Sweat matted my hair to the front of my face and my arms quivered. “Christ didn’t die on a cross so you could use it like a stake,” I continued, the energy growing. Hasan’s wings burst off his back; exposing his nakedness and sending hot rocks toward me in a gust. He pulled a stone blade from behind his back. It had a glistening edge, honed over the centuries by dark spite. The creature jutted out its jaw and pointed the knife at its throat. He paused, vertically slatted eyes opening down over red cheeks. “You were a conservationist. You preached about life and then you killed Rowan Scott. I get it. An eye for an eye. He killed your father.” Satan’s wings lowered around us, like we were alone in the unholy of holies, confessing as though in a shroud. “Well,” he continued, forcing the knife in my open palm, “I killed your mother and then I blew up the world. That oughtta be worth at least an eye.” I wondered if he was telling the truth about my mother. There was no way to know. This was the Father of Lies. He trades in deceit, uses half-truths and falsehoods to destroy. But what did it matter? The last time I took revenge led me here, to this moment. If I took it again, what would be left? My mother was already dead. I wasn’t willing to damage the future the way I had degenerated the past. 1570 ACE Satan continued, haughty and strong. “Take it. Cut my heart out and eat it. Jab it in my mouth. Rip off my ears. Stick me in the gut, you lover of life. I killed your mother. I’ll kill you. Killing is about the best thing there is, by Gawd. I was made to do it and doing it is good.” Those wings pulled back like falling walls, bright sun puncturing the dark yet making me squint. I took a step back, startled, and he grabbed me by both shoulders and hoisted me from the ground. His wings beat against his sides and it looked like his feet might pull off the ground but for his hideous weight. 308 “I’m done,” I said. I was done with killing, though I was still afraid. His hands crushed my biceps and I dropped the knife involuntarily. “I didn’t come back here for you to cower,” he screamed. Satan beat his wings aggressively and we ascended several feet into the air. His face changed, taking on the countenance of the unknown—eyes like dying stars, open mouth yawning in a gravity well. I knew these were parlor tricks, but I kept waiting for the knife to show up in my gut, because the only patrons of this parlor were cursed. Salvation came with a screech and eagle’s wings as Serif collided with us in the air. I saw Satan fall like lightning, and me along with him. Two comets crashing and buried. I called wearily for Serif but she was preoccupied. I couldn’t move. I was a burning wreck and the devil an angered boar. The devil took to the air after my angel and there was war in Heaven. Serif gashing and tearing with her beak, wings thundering, talons clutching. Cries. Roars. But Satan was a slip of light, too fast to follow, and my angel’s interruptions were for naught. Soon after she saved me, Serif lay on the ground nearby. She was crippled, immobile, and whimpering. The prince of the air bellowed, then crashed once more to the ground. The earth split and the skies were fired by his passing. 309 1570 ACE “Pick up your mat and walk,” he taunted, growing in front of me just as everything else faded away. “Pick up your stick and strut. Stab me, coward. Bleed me like a pig.” I could not. He knew it. Even if I still had the knife I no longer had the strength to fight. I was dead already. Only one thing remained, just one weapon, just one possibility. Defiance. Satan’s voice tore through my mind again. “Get your justice,” he mocked. “Be good. Kill the devil and make the Lord proud, by Gawd. It’s what he would’ve done.” “No,” I said. “It’s not.” Hasan’s eyes opened wide, and his arms. He clutched me to his chest and carried me like a babe. “You had your chance,” he said. He kissed me on the cheek, crushing me with the weight of his lips. It was a lengthy last corporeal contact for my life on earth. “Give that to the man upstairs. He’ll know what it means.” The creature dropped me on the ground, booming his wretched holler. His wings beat, but he brought up his knees and slowly descended upon my body, the knife back in his hand. I felt the blade go in, soft with a little punch at the top, like poking a packet of sauce. I burst. I drifted. It was like a hard reset of the carapace, but I knew there wasn’t going to be a reboot. I was done and gone. 1570 ACE There was a light, and my last conscious thought was sadness at the cliché. 310 311 “So that’s how I got here,” I told the one with blood on his robe. Just looking in his general direction made me see spots, like looking at the sun during an eclipse. But I wanted to see, even if it meant I couldn’t see anything else. I had always imagined Heaven would feel like a dream, but I had it precisely backwards. I was waking up and finding the dream vague and unconvincing. This was reality. This was the life I was meant to live. “Like I said, I figure you knew most of that story, but I was trying to fill in the particulars.” He didn’t say a word. I stood there for a while, waiting. Seven stars whirled over his holy hand as the whisper of saints rustled in prayer. Yet he never spoke. . T N E S E R P Y L L A N R E ET . REMARKABLY CLOSE It’s frightening to realize there’s nothing new in Heaven. Everything here bore such strong resemblance to those things I knew and loved from home. Trees, rivers, light, intelligence. It’s all the same stuff we have, only better, like a rug before you drop coffee on it, or the first time you use a razor to shave. Everything so sharp, so perfectly unworn. It feels like a promise kept, like all the little things lovers say are true. Heaven is more beautiful than I could have guessed, even while guessing it would be more beautiful than I could have imagined. All the lines run straight, even curves when you see them from the right angle. You can peer through a spiral, or down its long edge like it’s straight as a boulevard. You can wrap yourself in it just by turning a certain way. You can walk on it, or fall into it. It feels like everything fits, like the people and the planet are indivisible from their maker—like Creation and Creator have reconciled. The living creatures reminded me of Serif in many ways, of what she could never be, but also of regular animals. I thought I was looking at the most magnificent squirrel, only for it to move. I was struck by its size and wondered how I could have made such an error. But when I looked closer, it was smaller. And a lion. 314 So much light. The singing of the trees and the song of the brook, the dance in the grass and the perfume of ripened fruit—it was all pleasantly gold. All those jewels, like lamps, with him shining all over the place, through things, lighting them up. It was incredible. The throne was on fire, but only because he was there, sitting on it with stones letting the light bleed through. They were like gels, like cerulean filters of brilliance. And me? I was glowing, too. His light passed through me, and I was a thin ream of glass. I could see him in me and through me and with me, refracted. I felt like myself, perhaps for the first time. I was naked, but it didn’t bother me. He saw through me anyway. I couldn’t hide a thing, and I didn’t want to. I didn’t need to. I was accepted—totally—for who I was. No. That’s not quite right. I was accepted, but I felt the memory of my misdeeds slipping away. It’s like the more acclimatized I became to Perfection, the more my imperfections were dismissed, like antibiotics chasing away infection. My sins were in remission. I was accepted, but I was different. Still me. Just more so. Me without the germ of rebellion. Me without the cancer of derision. I loved who I was becoming. I felt like I was looking at my own baby pictures and could see myself born again. How did Hasan ever leave this? I wondered. Did he get tired of not being able to see himself clearly? Would you miss yourself after a while? The only self you’ve got here is the one God burns through the middle of you. It’s better, but I wonder. He was a prince of light. Did Satan’s light seem dimmer with God? 315 I paused, looking around at the celestial court—the myriad of angels, the living creatures, the twenty-four elders. It was strange. I was somehow both under the altar and before it, simultaneously swallowed up by the altar itself and presented upon it like an offering. The elders reminded me of our council in the City. They had the same expressions on their faces and they were connected in the same way. In the Spirit I could perceive their cognitive continuity, their shared consciousness, and I got the impression these were the real elders. The ones at home were just footprints. There they know in part. Here they are fully known. 316 “There’s a veil between this world and ours,” I said out loud. I was standing near that veil, pressing my hand along the latex gum sheathe separating the two halves of Creation. I could lean into it, and it would stretch. “I always thought they were separate, like you were upstairs and we lived below the garage. But it’s not like that. You’ve been right beside us, even sneaking in here and there like you were bringing us treats. You’ve seen everything. You knew everything. You’ve been preparing this membrane to breach since the beginning, since we put it there. You honored our disobedience and limited yourself to this pane of knowing. We’ve been your television, and you’ve been dying for us to invite you onto the show.” It’s nearly time, I realized. “I do have one question,” I said. “Why did you let Hasan go on thinking I was you? That hardly seems right. “It’s just…it’s a godawful plan,” I continued, “putting that much faith in people. We can’t be like you. “Is that the point of all this? To realize we couldn’t?” I confess I sort of expected something to happen then. But he just sat there—a mass, a fire, a cloud. He was difficult to look at, hard to pin down. “What are you waiting for?” I 317 asked, trying to see him straight. He was a lamb, and an ox, and an eagle. He was my mother and my teacher. He was Rowan Scott. “Isn’t there a moment when enough is enough? When good must stand up and discharge evil, even if only to restrain it? Will there never be an end to Death? To dying? Can’t you undo it? Can’t you think of something better?” He was a rainbow and a heft of wood. He was a seed and spring. My mind opened and I felt his breath working through me, healing. It felt nothing like Serif’s avatar in my OS, and yet it was like that entirely. Like he was rewiring me. He wasn’t speaking. Maybe he was too powerful to speak. Maybe his words were of such power than a single tsk created moons, or a cough another world. Maybe he knew I had all the words I needed, that I was drowning in them, that it was the space between he could fill. I wanted something better than death, some long promise I had forgotten. Not life after death. I had that already. But life after life after death. Resurrection. 318 I felt it happening in stages. I felt like I was living in the stories that never die, in the Garden, in the Valley of Dry Bones. I felt the light harden to bone. My skeleton was white ember and the sinews beams of time. I received a new covering of muscle. Arteries and veins jacketed the bones, working to keep in the light so I would not scar the eyes of lesser things. I received new skin, a casing like a crust of bread, baked to present the world. This was better than any carapace I had designed. I could never achieve that sense of embodiment. It was always something I put on. But to be human is to be made flesh. Flesh isn’t a suit. Our matter matters—the matrimony of flesh and spirit, a compression of light focused by God on the world. Take any part of that equation away and we’re something less, cyborg in my case, maybe zombie or solipsist in another. That’s what it means to be human. Not to have a soul. But to be one. 319 Then He Who Sat on the Throne stood and came to me. I bowed low before him, but he raised me to his mouth. The last kiss preceded my death. This was the breath of life. “I am a kernel of wheat,” I said. “A seed sown in the ground. Death is not the end.” I stepped through the membrane that kept Heaven and earth apart. I wasn’t the first one through, but I made the tear a little larger. I was at the head of the resurrection parade, and I came back to the world with a Word from God. 320 , 35 degrees Nortth, 84 deg15r70eeACsE Wes When I stepped through the veil, I appeared behind Hasan. He didn’t see me at first. In fact, it was almost as if I had slipped time once more. I watched him plunge the blade into my belly and saw my own eyes go dark as the carapace failed. Hasan was still crouched over my synthetic body when I walked up behind him. His face slowly turned to look over his shoulder as he stood. His wings were folding back into his cloak, but they shivered when he saw me. And he did see me and know me for June Paul. I was myself again, though I looked very different from the lifeless shell on the ground. I had the body I was born with, perfected and matured. Hasan perceived who I was and, perhaps, something of what had happened. His face contorted. “How?” he asked. “Sown in dishonor,” I shrugged, “and honorably raised.” The devil looked to be digesting that for a moment, chewing it around his mind. “I, too, have conquered death,” he said. “By Gawd if we aren’t two peas in a pod.” 321 1570 ACE He lunged at me then, thinking to take me unawares. But I moved aside easily, and he stumbled. He looked at his hands as if they were to blame, and then back over his shoulder at me. His eyes dilated and contracted with his breathing. “There is a second death,” I said. I pointed beyond him to the fuming pond that had always been waiting behind him. He had never seen it, though it had followed him since the Beginning. “A lake of fire.” Hasan turned and stepped closer to me. He flung out his talons and beat his wings in the air, but I was not afraid. “I’ll kill you!” he screamed. “You’ve already done that,” I said. The creature reached for me once more, swinging violently. I kept moving. He was slow. He never came close. But I could see he was frustrated, and I did not want to agitate him. I stood still and let him plunge his fingers deep into my heart. But they shattered at the bone, and his hands were ruined. He could not get through me, and I had not been hurt. The devil screamed his defiance once more, fingers knotted and twisted beyond recognition. “I’ll kill everyone you love,” he shouted, and though there was not another soul within a hundred miles, I felt every beating heart skip. 1570 ACE “You’ve already done that, too,” I said. “There’s nothing left. This is the end.” 322 How do you defeat one whose greatest pleasure lies in stealing, killing, and the destruction of things held dear? You own nothing, and he can’t steal it. You are incapable of dying, and he can’t get your blood on his hands. You hold attachments loosely and he can’t ruin them. How do you defeat evil? You exhaust it. You let the devil steal everything you’ve got, and give the rest away. You let him beat you, and then you favor him with a bloody-toothed smile, split lips and all. When he perverts the world, you make it beautiful anyway. Satan may steal, bash, and pervert over and over and over, but evil will always collapse under its own weight. It will lie one too many times to keep looking like truth. It will gobble up one too many goods, and its belly will burst. It will accuse one too many innocent people of crime, compelling public opinion to turn. Then everyone will see the devil for who he is. Something we made up. 1570 ACE 323 Hasan lunged and swatted and I began moving once more, trying to reason with him. “Don’t you understand what you’re being offered?” He kept coming and fighting and spewing threats, and I just kept sliding to the side, unconscious of where I was standing. The devil blew by me and lost his footing. He tumbled over the edge of the fiery lake. One wing was bent and the other broken. He could not fly. His horned hand clutched ferociously to a stump of rock, but his body buffeted the wall of the abyss repeatedly. If he fell, he would perish. “There’s mercy for you,” I yelled. “For you, even!” Bending down, I saw the face of the man I had once inhabited. I offered my hand. He would not take it. I shook it for him, letting the moment stretch. Here was his opportunity. Here was friendship with God. Here was proof grace was for everyone. 1570 ACE Still he would not take it. I looked the devil in the eyes and let it be done. I spoke the Word of the Lord, the one word he could not hear. “Tetelestai,” I told him. “It is finished.” 324 Hasan reached up with his free arm and clutched at my chest, not in an attempt to save himself but to drag me down with him. He could not keep his grip. He had no hold on me. He slipped off, slick, and fell into a long perpetuum. Whether conscious or not I have little idea, and less belief that with him it would matter. He had chosen hate forever. 1570 ACE 325 As the devil hit the red pool, the sky opened and the rains came. Thunder announced the Coming and it was like trumpets at fanfare. The veil that separated the two halves of Creation tore down the middle, like that other veil from the Temple. All that had inaugurated in crucifixion was now consummated in resurrection. A bloom of eternality swelled into the world as Heaven and Earth reconvened. There was, again, a balm in Gilead. Though God had not spoken to me before, his many words now resounded through the past, into the present, from the future. 1570 ACE Behold! a new Heaven and a new earth. The former things shall not be remembered. God’s dwelling place is among his people and he will inhabit their praises forever. The Elders set foot across the boundary first, and I watched them join with their earthly counterparts, rematerializing as one new humanity. We have put the ways of childhood behind us, they said, speaking echoes of their Creator. We see ourselves face to face and we are fully known. The living creatures took to the sky, and the fields, and the plains, and over the land and called to their brethren. The 326 beasts of the earth were given back their minds, and they reasoned together like before the Fall. The wolf and the lamb feed together, and the lions eat straw with oxen. Serif limped toward a lamb, kneeled, and was touched by God. I watched her cybernetics tinkle off. She became a phoenix, a bird of actual flame, and she came to me in gladness. We soared over the earth as the healing continued. Behold—I make all things new! Roads came up as the land repaired. The ground swallowed the asphalt and grass grew where none had for eons. Manmade structures came unbound, and angels showed New Men how to sing the trees into homes and groom stones in pleasant craft. I have spread the northern skies over empty space; I have suspended the earth. I have wrapped the waters in cloud. The pillars of Heaven shake. By my breath are the skies made fair. And these are but the outer fringe of my works; the faint whisper you hear from the Lord! I watched as the Chernoblys bubbled up out of the ground at the trumpet, and they too knelt before God. No longer were they blind and pitiful creatures. They were given back their humanity. They had a dwelling with the Almighty. The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon you. This is good news to you poor, this is freedom to you captives and sight to you who are blind. This is the year of the favor of the Lord. 327 1570 ACE I saw the Chieftain coming up out of the ground, who had fought so valiantly against the Rider in the caves. I saw his disfigurement slip away and his new body shine pinkishly underneath. He was my brother, child to Rowan and Mother, and I embraced him and thought, yes—he is an echo of his father, as am I. The Spirit bears witness that we are children of God; and if children, heirs. I saw the little girl, who had played with the broken doll outside Hasan’s office, come to new life. The doll became a unicorn and kept the memories she had whispered in the dark. I will repay the years the locust has eaten…I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh…and I will show you wonders… There were children, vast flocks of infants and toddlers. Their families had grieved but now all the unanswered fears of bereavement were grounded in the confidence of a just God. I tell you the truth, you must become as a little child to enter the kingdom of Heaven… I saw my mother, smiling, and my father come up from the ground. Death shall have no more dominion. He that believes in me, though he dies, will yet live. 1570 ACE Do you believe this? 328 After There were ten thousand thousands gathered, in concentric circles, praising the One Who Is and Was and Is To Come. They never stopped, and I joined in from the moment I walked into the Elder Chamber. Once more I had been summoned. Space was not an issue. The stone slab was missing, and Serif stood at my side. She was still on fire, and I was glad of her—my guardian, counselor, and peer. Our Elders were there, no longer footprints. They had been freed from their shackles and healed. I wondered if there would be a confrontation, some final adjudication of humanity. And of me. But there was only inexpressible joy. Wonder. Hope. Holy ambition. Godly triumph. Eagerness. Strength. And it was good. Then the one with blood on his robe said the only words I’d heard him speak in Heaven or on Earth. He was the Word. He didn’t need to speak, he only needed to be himself. But he spoke graciously in a voice like mercury, and intoned the words that mattered. Hearing him speak was Truth, and Peace, like the most perfect pitch harmonizing with itself, and I never doubted anything after that moment. I knew all I needed, and it was more than enough. He said, “It is finished.” 329 What can I say about what comes next? About the long obedience to follow and the self-perpetuating creativity of God? Only this: it ends as it began. The Revelation is Genesis. The God of Hope did not abandon the world, and the Christ who suffered did not then become a marauder. The Spirit that raised him from the dead raised us also, and had I known to look for it, I would have realized my resurrection began long before the construction of that first carapace. Life now is life as it was always meant to be. But it could have been sooner. 330 331 332 APPENDICES 333 334 TIMELINE 2016 CE − June Paul is born 2024 CE − Rowan Scott murders Joon Pol, Sr. 2025 CE − New Palestine Colony founded 2031 CE − 1st timestream 2036 CE − Scott makes alliance with Anglo-Israelis 2038 CE − Scott wins Nobel Peace Prize 2048 CE − 2nd timestream 2061 CE − 3rd timestream 2061 CE – the end of the Common Era (0 ACE) 2062 CE − The War is declared (1 ACE) 2071 CE − Magog Offensive (10 ACE) 2075 CE − ceasefire, world government established (14 ACE) 2077 CE − Gilead founded near Geneva, Switzerland (16 ACE) 2092 CE − first carapace prototype (31 ACE) 2099 CE − June Paul first uploads to the City Servers (38 ACE) 3011 CE − formation of the Expeditionary Privateers (50 ACE) 3050 CE − mass adoption of carapatic technology (89 ACE) 3062 CE − Masheet wakes up in Gilead, march on City Hall (1001 ACE) 3140 CE − Gilead destroyed (1079 ACE) 3631 CE − Masheet confronts June Paul in the hills (1570 ACE) 335 336 Discussion Guide Written and prepared by Chris Iott and Amy Gafkjen 337 338 contents PART ONE: THE LIMITS OF HUMAN AGENCY PART TWO: THE MISIDENTIFICATION OF JUSTICE PART THREE: THE REQUIREMENT UPON A SUFFERING WITNESS 339 1 human agency introduction THE LIMITS OF HUMAN AGENCY The Revelation of June Paul begins in a world populated solely by Christians, governed by Christians, in accordance with Christian principles and named with Christian nouns. Why doesn’t June Paul like it? Why is he dissatisfied? Why doesn’t he think this “Christian world” is particularly Christian or good or desirable? Why is this “heaven” – the city of God – considered a parody of the actual heaven that appears at the end of the story? 340 Discussion We believe that part of our role is to cooperate with God to heal the world. But how “Christian” can our society actually become? Is it possible that our good intentions as Christians actually short-circuit God’s work to redeem the world? 341 1 human agency an imperfect witness I held tightly to the hands of my oldest two children while my wife carried our youngest in her arms. While on our way to dinner during a visit to Toronto, we were attempting to bulldoze our way through a sea of humanity during an electronic music festival at Yonge-Dundas Square. Street performers rubbed shoulders with people who were doing drugs, who were stepping around disabled panhandlers and dodging people peddling religion of almost every variety. The crowd was thick. One man caught the eye-–or, more accurately, the ear--of my oldest child. He stood on a ladder, wore an “Oprah didn’t die for your sins” T-shirt 342 “I was confused,” my daughter, 11, said a few hours later. “It sounded like he was saying nice things about Jesus. But it also seemed like he was crazy.” I gave her observations. brief responses to both of her “He was,” I said. “And he is.” A message about a perfect God is easily and almost always distorted by imperfect people. 343 evangelism and shouted Jesus-ish-type things into a bullhorn (with a focus on immediate repentance). A 1 human agency DISCUSS The Bible asks us to give witness to Christ. “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit.” (Matthew 28:19) But how can imperfect people get out of their own way when trying to spread the word about a perfect God? Christian churches have (or at least clearly should have) the same ultimate focus: Christ. “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness.” (Matthew 6:33) But different churches and different denominations often have very different beliefs and traditions. When we get lost in the details and the differences, are we elevating our own brand of Christianity instead of elevating Jesus? Where do we see this happening with Hasan and the people of New Palestine? Since church leaders are flawed, imperfect human beings, can church leadership always be trusted to make good decisions? Consider the Prosecutor’s decision regarding Grace Paul and Rowan Scott. 344 The Bible makes reference to the church being “the bride of Christ.” (see Ephesians 5:25, for example) But the church is not Christ. Are we guilty of elevating the bride at the expense of the groom? What should people reasonably expect when they come to church? What does most every church get right? What do most churches get wrong? What does New Palestine get right or wrong? What about Christian pre-schools, high schools and colleges? How “Christian” can we expect them to be? How much personal and societal transformation can we expect as a result of our participation in these institutions? 345 evangelism Is it possible that by inviting people to church instead of inviting them to Jesus we, as Christians, have overlooked our own imperfections? By doing so, have we claimed that the church – not Jesus – is, can be or should be the savior of society? Do we see this happening in the story as we are introduced to June Paul’s “Heaven”? “We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield.” (Psalm 33:20) A 1 human agency an imperfect witness ?? The street-corner preacher with the bullhorn thought he was doing the right thing, of course. So did my boss (during a part-time job in high school), who tried to save me every day while I tried to do my work. So did the Prosecutor in the story. Christians are imperfect people trying to share a perfect message. They are going to botch it with some regularity. But there are more positive, powerful ways to spread the message than with a bullhorn or by being a bully. A successful business owner that my wife once worked for was a perfect example. He and his family simply showed the love of Jesus through their actions every day. They made everyone they met feel important. People were drawn to them and inspired by them. Eventually those people would ask them about their faith, which they openly shared. 346 notes evangelism 347 A 1 human agency an imperfect government Imagine for a moment that you could pick a Christian to be Head of State. Who would you choose? Pat Robertson? Joel Osteen? The Pope? The nice lady who sits in the front row at your church? Your pastor? You? Now imagine that that person had a government full of like-minded Christians to work with. Legislation that lined up with the Bible would cruise through the process and into law. Laws that did not line up with the teachings of Jesus would be stricken from the books. What would our country be like? Many Christians dream of a country where there would be no legal abortions. Some would push federal legislation banning gay marriage and making marijuana – both medicinal and recreational – illegal for good. Others would ban guns. 348 Who gets to decide Christian politic? what 349 it means to have a government Think about living in a country with laws that were more “Christian” than they are today—living in a place like New Palestine. How would such a country be different? How would it remain the same? How “Christian” can we make our world through government? Through legislation? Moreover, who would arbitrate between Christians who disagree? Who would decide authoritatively on the differing interpretations of key scriptures issues? B DISCUSS 1 human agency What would happen if Christians ran the world? Would it look like June Paul’s “heaven”? Can rules enacted by government create a more truly Christian nation? Can they help in the transformation of the world? If so, to what extent or degree? If a political candidate exuded Christian qualities in every way, would Christians be confused? Would they look to the highest government official instead of Christ for their present-day salvation? If laws and politicians reinforced and encouraged a New Testament lifestyle, would that make our country “Christian”? Does the world Machite wakes 350 up to in the hospital feel like a “Christian” world? Why or why not? To what extent? 351 government What is the Christian dream for our nation? Would the fulfillment of that dream lead to heaven on earth? Or would it always remain a parody? B 1 human agency an imperfect government ?? The world we live in is far from perfect. A government of Christians could only, at best, make it slightly better. We are imperfect people. Putting imperfect people in charge of other imperfect people would not make for heaven on earth. It would make for a world that closely resembles the one we live in right now. 352 notes government 353 B 1 human agency an imperfect culture My uncle is a Bible-toting, hymn-loving Baptist who has never heard one song by the band Cage the Elephant. I know that. I don’t even need to ask. But if he knew that a song by that band – or Cake or Audioslave – was played during a service at the church I attend, well, there wouldn’t be enough time in eternity for him to pray for the souls of every member of my church. Creativity is cool. There is nothing wrong with pushing forward to make the message of Jesus more culturally relevant. Times change. It is not necessarily a bad thing when Christians and popular culture mix. Sure, it sometimes goes horribly wrong. (The “Left Behind” movies or actor Stephen Baldwin.) But sometimes it goes very well. (“I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For” by U2 and “Roll Away Your Stone” by Mumford and Sons.) 354 None of it comes close to replacing or even accurately representing Jesus. (“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33) 355 culture But are those pushing forward with a new Christian culture in today’s churches making it cool to follow Christ or simply trying to be cool themselves? C 1 human agency DISCUSS Can we beat society at its own game through excellent Christian music, television shows and movies? Can we “out-cool” the world for Christ? (“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is -- his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2) Does a transformation of the culture result in a transformation of the people in that culture? Are the people in Machite’s world really any different, or do they simply live by a different set of rules? If we could successfully and seamlessly insert the message of Jesus into the culture, what would we gain? What are the limits of our redemptive work in culture? 356 It is important for the church to speak the language of the common culture. We are to be translators of the gospel to a world caught without it. But once the gospel has been parsed into the common language of the people, what can we reasonably expect from it? Do we have to be hip and cool and savvy to be effective? 357 culture Culture creators in the church – those who have creatively repackaged Christian thoughts and teachings into the 21st century – are popular these days. But what can Christians truly hope they will accomplish? What are our expectations for societal transformation through culture? Where are we placing our hope? C 1 human agency an imperfect culture ?? My uncle is not cool. He makes no illusions that he is. He has, at least in my opinion, awful taste in music. But my uncle has at least one thing right. When he worships, his focus is solely on Jesus. That’s absolutely where our focus should be, whether our own favorite song is “Rock of Ages” or “Like a Stone.” 358 notes culture 359 C 2 human justice introduction the misidentification of justice The ‘man with no name’ wrestles against the thin veneer of goodness he sees in Christian society. His skepticism is well-intentioned, but the means he employs to expose fraud become a bigger problem than the fraud itself. While seeking to uncover evil, he is contaminated by it, becoming the greatest evil ever known. 360 Discussion We often mistake revenge and punishment for justice. In Scripture, justice refers to the wellordered peace of God available only through his grace. 361 2 human justice well-ordered peace Is God a fan of “Seinfeld?” That’s a tough one. But God might be a fan of the plot line in the pilot episode of the show-within-the-show “Jerry,” which Jerry and George wrote during the sitcom’s lengthy run on television. In that episode, Jerry and a man get in an accident in which Jerry’s car is totaled. The other driver cannot afford to pay Jerry for the damages, so the judge decrees that the man become Jerry’s butler. It goes against every idea we have of justice, which is what makes it funny. But perhaps we shouldn’t laugh too quickly. Our notions of justice typically focus on either revenge or punishment. “The murderer will be in jail for the rest of his life, so justice was done.” “At least the drunk driver died in the accident, too.” In scripture, however, justice refers to the wellordered peace of God. Its focus is on wholeness, on interconnected harmony, characterized by the Jewish word “shalom.” 362 God’s justice is about setting things right. It’s restorative, not retributive. Of course, a better example of restorative justice in the TV show would have been if the judge had forced the other driver to fix Jerry’s car, but you get the idea. 363 restoration & retribution Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You give a tenth of your spices— mint, dill and cumin. But you have neglected the more important matters of the law—justice, mercy and faithfulness. You should have practiced the latter, without neglecting the former. MATTHEW 23:23 A DISCUSS 2 human justice How would you describe God’s well-ordered, just world? Does New Palestine come close to it? Or Gilead? How is restorative justice more in line with God’s word than retributive justice? (“Learn to do right! Seek justice, encourage the oppressed. Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widow.” Isaiah 1:17) Where do we see each variety of justice in the story? When was a time when you felt like your world--your family, your workplace, etc--was most just? What do you think it would take for you to experience God’s style of justice? What are the greatest obstacles to the freedom and peace that come with it? What are the obstacles to God’s style of justice in the case of Rowan Scott? When does it go wrong? How does God want you to bring his restorative justice into your world? 364 How important is it that we understand the biblical foundations for what we do? (“And all peoples on earth will be blessed through you.” Genesis 12:3) How important is it that we invite the Holy Spirit to change us while we do it? That we elevate the name of Jesus when we do good things? 365 restoration & retribution How do we ensure that our just actions are specifically Christ-centered and not simply charitable? What’s the difference between being nice to someone and cooperating with the Spirit of God to cultivate his vision of society? A 2 human justice peace, love, and understanding Don’t like “Seinfeld?” Fair enough. Take a look at an episode from the first season of the Bible. We tend to think of the story of Noah and the flood in Genesis as God’s punishment for the wickedness of those on earth. But God’s purpose was true justice, on restoring the world to optimal conditions, to cleanse away the sin of the world. We need to make sure we focus on the same type of justice. Our efforts to “make the world just” must be tempered with love, mercy, restoration and kindness. 366 notes restoration & retribution 367 A 2 human justice exclusion//embrace The topic of the sermon was “How to tell if you are in the wrong church while on vacation.” Or something like that. It seemed odd to me. If you’re on vacation and you find yourself in the wrong church, you don’t have time to correct it. I mean, not unless you take longer vacations than I do. I’m usually home by next Sunday. I digress. My wife and I were looking for a new church to attend when we stumbled into this sermon on our first visit to a nearby church. The first item on the agenda about how to know you are in the wrong church was clear-cut: If the church used musical instruments in its worship, well, head for the door. 368 Don’t want to use instruments? Insist on using instruments? Either way, you’re cool by me. Don’t love problems. Jesus? Well, 369 then we’ve got some correction & exclusion Now, this is not meant to judge that particular type of church, but I believe we should focus on the big picture – Jesus – and not seek out ways to divide ourselves. The Bible does call for us to hold each other to a high standard, to support each other in our struggles and help gently correct those close to us who are on the wrong path. But, we sometimes get so caught up in what is wrong in other churches that we cannot remember what is right. We should not hate or judge each other over theological debates or distinctions or differences in worship styles. B DISCUSS 2 human justice What are boundary markers given to us by scripture that determine what/who is Christian? (“By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13:35) What are the hallmarks of Christian life? How imperfect is someone allowed to be as a Christian? Who gets to judge? (“There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?” James 4:12) Has there ever been a time in your life where your faith was judged? Have you judged the faith of others in a similar manner? (“Therefore let us stop passing judgment on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in the way of a brother or sister.” Romans 14:13) 370 When does it feel like society turns from seeking Jesus to judging others in the story? Is it when Hasan becomes Prosecutor? When the people of Gilead frown on Machite’s desire to eat meat? 371 correction & exclusion What is the appropriate response when we realize we have judged someone? B 2 human justice inclusion//grace The other half of the message during our visit to the church was to make sure visitors feel welcome. Everyone started scanning the place for unfamiliar faces. From what I could see, my wife and I made two. Once service ended, we couldn’t get to the door quickly enough. The church was certainly full of good Christian people, but we were terrified they would learn we liked instruments. We shouldn’t judge those who go to other churches based on minor details. We shouldn’t make dealbreaking mountains out of theological molehills. It takes the focus off of Christ and puts it on imperfect people having silly arguments. 372 notes correction & exclusion 373 B 2 human justice self-deceit I never ran away from home when I was kid. I never even packed my bags and threatened to, if I remember correctly. But I distinctly remember getting so upset with my mom once that I locked myself in the bathroom and swore I would never come out. As you can imagine--in the days before the iPad and the Nintendo DS--my new home got old rather quickly. Eventually, I calmed down, left the bathroom and went downstairs to seek peace with my mom. I don’t know who was wrong in the original incident, but I simply hoped for some grace and a friendly resolution to our conflict. Instead, she greeted my return to the family with harsh words. “I see you finally decided to quit pouting,” she said. 374 Don’t get me wrong: My mom was excellent. But she wasn’t perfect. None of us are. We all have blind spots, as fathers and mothers, sons and daughters and as Christians. We sometimes handle things poorly or don’t do the right thing even while we think we are acting properly. 375 blindness & deceit In my mind, her response was worse than the conflict itself. Her response to me following the incident remains in my memory to this day even though the incident that led to it escaped my memory years ago. C DISCUSS 2 human justice What happens when you think you are right but you are wrong? How will you know when you are wrong? How does June Paul check his sense of right and wrong? Who are the people in your life who you can trust to see your blind spots? Who are the people who will expose your blind spots and help you see what God is trying to do in you and through you and around you and point out that you are screwing it up? (“Brothers and sisters, if someone is caught in a sin, you who live by the Spirit should restore that person gently. But watch yourselves, or you also may be tempted. Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.” Galatians 6:1-2) Think about June Paul’s relationship with Serif. Do you have any relationships like theirs? Who can see through you? To whom have you given permission to help keep you on track? Who has given you permission 376 to do the same? How have you cultivated those relationships? How will you ensure that your interpretation of scripture is accurate? How will you test it? 377 blindness & deceit What role does scripture play in helping you expose those blind spots to yourself? C 2 human justice self-awareness I recently relayed the story about locking myself in the bathroom to my 11-year-old daughter. I told her that her grandma was an excellent parent who did her best, but, at times, fell a bit short. I told my daughter I wasn’t perfect (despite the claims I make in jest with some regularity). I told her I don’t know exactly what I have done wrong that has scarred her or what I will do in the future that she will remember for years to come. I told her I hope she will eventually forgive me for those incidents because they are certain to take place. Eliminating all of our blind spots is impossible. We are ignorant to what those blind spots are. But we should do what we can to seek out and destroy as many of them as possible. 378 notes blindness & deceit 379 C 3 suffering witness introduction the requirements upon a suffering witness The Elders in “The Revelation of June Paul” tried to create the kingdom of God through governmental, societal and social means. June Paul rejects their approach but ironically falls into the same trap. He tries to make God’s world just by killing Rowan Scott through Hasan. The variables may be different, but the intent is the same. Only in the end does June come to realize that God is calling him to give his life, a testimony written in blood. June’s faith is not strong enough to hold out for the promise of resurrection, but he receives it anyway, because it is God’s goodness— not June Paul’s faith—that guarantees hope for the future. 380 Discussion As N.T. Wright famously said, Jesus didn’t redeem us from suffering, but through suffering. Like Christ, we are called to testify to the redemptive plans and purposes of God even though it may cost us our very lives. 381 3 suffering witness victorious defeat The best Christian I have ever known is a middleaged woman named Lynn who will do anything for anybody. She genuinely cares for people. My mom always said she had a lifeline to God. “If you need a prayer answered,” she would say, “just tell Lynn.” Those who know Lynn are drawn closer to Jesus. One of the most annoying Christians I have ever known was a guy named Mike who pestered his coworkers about Jesus every day. His mission was to save everyone who crossed his path by beating them over the head with the Bible. As a result, he 382 Jesus won by losing. He defeated death for all of us by willingly dying on the cross. Our model for victory is self-sacrifice, not domination —-Lynn, not Mike. 383 victory through defeat pushed people away from Jesus. A DISCUSS 3 suffering witness Has there ever been a time in your life where you tried too hard? Do you see this posture of domination in any of the characters in the story? Can you see in yourself the desire to control others, to dominate conversations, to make sure things go according to your plans? What does it look like for you to willingly submit to the Spirit of God? How have you let go of your own dreams, plans and ideas, trusting God to lead you to dream something better? When do we see this submission happen in June Paul? Why do so many of us believe the book of Revelation is victory through strength of arms? Jesus has already won the decisive victory on the cross and he will continue to win like that until the end (“Just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.” Matthew 20:28). 384 How do the tactics of the Prosecutor and the people of Gilead miss the mark? How might their worlds be different had they submitted to the Spirit of God? 385 victory through defeat Why is it so hard for us to imagine that the means of salvation in the gospels will be the same means of salvation at the end of history? Why do so many of us try to use our faith for political influence and cultural control when Jesus did neither? A 3 suffering witness you can lose even when you win Whose tactics -- Lynn’s or Mike’s -- are more effective? That’s pretty obvious, right? Mike certainly makes his point with an overbearing barrage of talk about Jesus. Lynn makes hers, too, in much the same way as Christ. 386 notes victory through defeat 387 A 3 suffering witness the last book of the bible in context Years ago, three coworkers and I were in the car on the way to a conference for work. Somehow, the topic of conversation suddenly turned to the identity of Jesus. “He obviously did great things,” one of my coworkers said. “But I’m not sure that I can buy the fact that he was actually the Son of God.” It was the perfect opportunity for me to share my thoughts on the topic. The book of Revelation is prison literature written to Christians who were being persecuted by the Roman Empire. It was a reminder for them that their ultimate hope was not good treatment at the hands of a kind enemy, but glorious resurrection at the hands of a just God. “Witness” and “martyr” come from the same Greek word, “martureo.” A witness gives testimony; a martyr gives testimony resulting in death. 388 Those of us who live where we can speak freely about our beliefs are lucky. There was no chance that I would be martyred by one of my coworkers that day. 389 context through interpretation Even in western democracies, where we can freely share the story of Jesus, such witness still comes with a cost. It could lead to the end of a romantic relationship, a friendship, or a job. In other parts of the world, it could lead to death. B DISCUSS 3 suffering witness When has it ever cost you something--social standing, a friendship, a job--to testify about the goodness of God? When have you paid a price? What are the little martyrdoms you’ve had to experience? When does anyone pay a price in the story? If the book of Revelation is primarily written to encourage martyrs and those who suffer, why do so many Christians today choose to interpret it as a book of military conquest? How does the first “end of the world” that ushers in the City of God where June Paul lives differ from the actual end of the world at the end of the story? 390 Who are some modern-day martyrs that you know? Who are some historic martyrs? Who in your life best exemplifies Christian witness? What are they like? How could you be more like them? Where do you feel like God is calling you to be a witness? How is he cultivating you to do more witnessing? 391 context through interpretation The only weapon in the book of Revelation from the army of God is the sword that comes from the mouth of Christ (see Revelation 19.15). It is a symbol of piercing, dividing, wisdom and judgment. Yet many feel uncomfortable with a Jesus like that. Some prefer the image—however unbiblical—of a violent conquering God. Why do so many of us take the sword out of Christ’s mouth and put it in his hand? When do we see this kind of shift happen in the story? B 3 suffering witness blah blah future blah My response with my coworkers that day was an epic fail. I simply let the conversation die. I could make excuses. I’m naturally shy and allergic to conflict and uncomfortable situations. The topic came up and I wasn’t prepared for it. We were on the clock and I didn’t think it was appropriate at the time. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. There is no point in dwelling on the past. There is a point in making sure I handle similar situations better in the future. 392 notes context through interpretation 393 B 3 suffering witness reform? replacement? My oldest daughter, not yet a teenager, is a rule follower. She hates swear words. A friend of hers once spelled out a bad word on our refrigerator, and my daughter brushed the letter magnets onto the floor with one arm while blocking her own eyes with the other one. Someone called her a vulgar name recently and it really upset her. While discussing it, she told me she wanted to write out all the bad words she knew on a piece of paper and show me. For some reason, it made her feel better to let me know which words she had heard. Of course, she has been taught that being a better person and doing what she can to make the world a better place is important. But it is not her hope. Her hope is that—in the same way God brought Jesus Christ through death and into new life—God will bring new life to her each day. 394 The death rate is 1:1. Death will come soon enough. Those who put hope in Jesus get the point. Those who are in a hurry for “the rapture” do not. 395 reform through resurrection That’s not to say she shouldn’t care about what happens in this lifetime or in this place. C 3 suffering witness DISCUSS What’s the difference between making all new things and all things new? (“He who was seated on the throne said, ‘I am making everything new!’ Then he said, ‘Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.’ ” Revelation 21:5) Why do some people find the notion of ‘going to heaven after you die’ more appealing than ‘God coming down to the earth and re-making it?’ Can you think of any Scriptures that seem to clarify the one concept versus the other? Have you ever experienced a form of resurrection in your life? Have you ever felt God supernaturally gave you new energy when you had run out? Why does the everlasting life of June carapaces feel empty? What is it missing? 396 Paul’s What feels different about Hasan’s resurrection and June Paul’s? Why? death and 397 reform through resurrection Did you ever feel like something was dead--a dream, a hope, an ambition--but God breathed new life into it? (“He is our father in the sight of God, in whom he believed—the God who gives life to the dead and calls into being things that were not.” Romans 4:17) C 3 suffering witness resurrection Our ultimate hope is not in reform but in resurrection. We should try to make the world around us a better place, to be examples of Jesus for others to see. But we’re not trying to fix things so they get better and better until they-or we--are perfect. We are to do our best and trust that Christ has already made up the difference. In other words, my daughter’s goal in life is to never say a bad word, but she will. Her real hope doesn’t lie in perfection, but in forgiveness. As does mine. 398 notes reform through resurrection 399 C 3 suffering witness the backwards god Some poker players tend to tighten up their play while on the bubble, the portion of a tournament when the next player who is eliminated will not win money and everyone who survives the “bubble bursting” will take home some cash. Those who do so play fewer hands. They try to fold their way to the money. They try to take the safe route to winning something rather than maximizing their chances of finishing first. The tactic can take its toll in missed opportunities and can result in more loss than gain. During the 2003 World Series of Poker, professional poker player Amir Vahedi summed up the folly of that approach with words that have been repeated by poker players ever since: “In order to live, you must be willing to die.” Which, of course, brings us to the Bible. The Bible is full of paradoxes, seemingly contradictory statements that, upon further review, turn out to be true. 400 “Whoever tries to keep their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life will preserve it.” (Luke 17:33) “Very truly falls to the single seed. seeds.” (John I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat ground and dies, it remains only a But if it dies, it produces many 12:24) “For when I am weak, Corinthians 12:10) then I am strong.” (2 We have a tendency to struggle between the power of this world (sometimes referred to as “right-handed power”), which is typified by control, coercion and domination, and “left-handed power,” or paradox. Being weak to be strong. Dying to produce life. Surrendering to experience victory. Jesus used left-handed power. So should we. 401 kingdom through paradox “So the last will be first, and the first will be last.” (Matthew 20:16) C DISCUSS 3 suffering witness How do you know when and how to use left-handed power? Who do you know who best typifies that left-handed power? 402 Where do we see a paradox like this in the story? What scriptures can you keep in mind to help remind you of these paradoxes? 403 kingdom through paradox Who do you have in your life who best exemplifies the spirit of Jesus. What can you learn from that person? D 3 suffering witness left-handed power Even though we recognize the left-handed power of Christ, we are often tempted to use right-handed power for Christian-purposes. For example, we try and legislate morality and set limits within society for acceptable content, conversation, and behavior. Arguably, some of that is healthy and even beneficial (after all, what would society be without law), but we ought to be cautious, lest it turn into the falsely perfect Gilead of this story. Our lust for power is often masked by good intentions and we must be ruthless in our refusal to use the wrong means in favor of the right ends. 404 notes kingdom through paradox 405 D 406 407 ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS Thanks: To Ken Brewer, for being a sounding board and helping me with the last book of the Bible. To Paul Patton, for believing in my abilities as an actor and a visionary. The moment you told me I was Van Helsing changed everything. To the credible commentators on the last book in the Bible: Eugene Peterson, Gordon Fee, Allan Boesak, Darrell Johnson, Tom Wright, Adela Yarbro Collins, Jaques Ellul, Wilfrid Harrington, Michael Gorman, Craig Koester, and Richard Bauckham. May your work be more greatly prized in the future. Jvo, as always, for being a ceaseless supporter of ambitious ideas and creative pursuits. Special thanks to my beta-readers: Matt ‘The Beard’ Dewell, for hosting a book club that everyone skipped during a reading of this novel. Ethan Frew, for reading and loving an early draft. I wrote Serif in at the end just for you, boy-o. Eric Kelly, for celebrating fathers who make things up. 408 Heather Glidden, for reminding me that even immortals need to feel threatened. Emma Clark, for a critique that was charmingly intolerant. Tanya and Helena MacLean, for meeting at Biggby and comparing this book to movies I love. Jack Baker, for reading the ramblings of a stranger and not lying about the bad parts. Chris Iott, for your willingness to read something that made us both feel dumb. Lori Tsutsui, for teaching me time travel. Mark Luehmann, for catching our typos long after we thought we had eliminated them all. Bethany Monaghan, for reminding me to explain about the devil. Extra special thanks to our crew: Mike ‘Champ Stamp’ Cole, for coordinating a great gang of people to help out with a tremendous project. Corey ‘can’t use a Blackberry’ Elder, for being a faithful friend, construction wiz, and good-natured partner in gentle mockery. Brandon McCarrell, for your exceptional work in film. 409 Drew Schultz, for your commitment to lightning the live performance like it was Broadway. Tish Holbrook, for first-class design, composition, and layout…you must make Chainsaw very happy. Vicki Arcaro, for being willing to help move, set up, tear down, and otherwise avail yourself for our video needs Scott Hoel, for managing our social media presence. Rachel Buchanan, for saying ‘yes’ when we asked for another favor. Heidi Rhodes, for killing it with the artwork…amazing! Randy Sottovia, for being willing to ‘sketch out something quickly’ which—of course—turned into a monumental undertaking of which we are all very proud. Jeff Stutzman, for risking a foray into digital music creation. Rick Rangler, for coming up with the concept for the pastor’s packet and then making it happen. And for the maps—well done! Lori Malek, for your tireless commitment to bringing people together in service to Christ and his church. Jeremy Norwood, for your relentless passion to help those in need. Nate Evans, for co-crafting our motion scenes and bumpers (the first ever in a Westwinds gig!) 410 Andy and Kathy Ladwig, for keeping me organized and making sure this project ended in black ink. Sid Gafkjen, for editing video only because you love Jesus and not at all because you like using Final Cut. Jenn Shafer, for being eager to play as many roles as necessary to get a great radio recording finished and printed. Norma Racey, for going out with a bang! No one deserves more thanks… than Amy Gafkjen and Mel Evans, my two industrious peers. You both shouldered a tremendous burden during the five months of this production, and I’m thankful neither of you tried to poison, stab, or otherwise murder me in the process. Thanks, too, to your husbands and families for loaning you out to a much larger vision than I could have accomplished alone. And, last but never least, a super-lightning thank you to: Carmel, for keeping our house full of love. Jake and Anna, your daddy nearly became a Chernobly while writing this ridiculous story. Thank you for allowing me to come above ground now that it is finished. 411 CORPORATE SPONSORS Nothing of significance gets done without significant backing. Though they have been thanked often in other places, I would like to express my gratitude to the following companies for their contribution to the live storytelling experience of The Revelation of June Paul. Aladdin Electrical (aladdinjackson.com) Aladdin is Southern Michigan’s premier commercial and industrial contractor for electrical, plumbing and HVAC services. We handle everything from minor repairs to new construction, from emergencies to industrial installations. 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