Forward Spring 2015
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Forward Spring 2015
FORWARD SPRING 2015 Declare His Glory among the nations, His marvelous works among all the peoples! Psalm 96:3 TABLE OF CONTENTS INTRODUCTION Forward sPring 2015 Forward sPring 2015 Haiti . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . pg 1 Cornell Bang Haiti . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . pg 4 Daniel Suh Cambodia . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . pg 10 Bryan Cheah Philippines . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . pg 13 Hyesoo Rho Hello Bethany, We are Missions Ministry and our vision is to begin building a long-term ministry that the church can continue to build upon and shape even after all of us graduate. Another way to carry out this vision is to share our brother’ and sisters’ testimonies from their mission trips. Forward newsletter is a compilation of stories and experiences of our brothers and sisters who have gone to recent mission trips. This Spring 2015 edition includes the experiences of our brothers who went to Haiti this past Winter as well as an updates from our brother who is currently serving in Cambodia and our sister who is serving in the Philippines. We hope that as you read their testimonies, you will be encouraged by what God is doing and that you too would be emboldened to declare His glory everywhere you go. Please continue to keep these nations in your prayers as well as all the other nations in the world. Thank you, Missions Ministry HAITI Cornell Bang As our days progressed and the discomforts of heat, dust, and fatigue settled in so did the routine aspects of our day-to-day ministry. I particularly felt the numbness of the routine more so because I had been to Haiti so often. I don’t know where this comes from but I guess I can attribute it to my unfaithful heart? It felt painful to see and interact with the same orphans, same broken people and their same hardships. As I look back, it feels sickening to think that a new type of brokenness/hardship or new broken people would have made my trip better and exciting, because that’s basically what my complaints translated into. After being home for a while, I shared with a brother about my internal issues in Haiti and he reminded me that the options of change/choice in our post-modernist society have spoiled our appetites, produced an entitled attitude, and undermined the daily ministries of the faithful. He went on to explain that my heart reflected a boredom/numbness towards Christ and urged me to repent. As I repent about my heart’s attitude towards the daily routines in Haiti, I am beginning to see that all the faithful Christ-like people I know, continue to do the same repetitive things faithfully in their daily lives and ministries (pastor John, Shiyon, Steve, Eugene, Missionary Simon Kim, Pastor Vega, praise team, care, missions, outreach, etc). In retrospect, through this trip, it seems like God wanted to reveal my absence of faith and how I view Him, think of Him and His truth seriously needs to change. For example, God does care for the orphans, widows, poor, neglected, and yet in Haiti I didn’t find any comfort or confidence in this biblical truth. I saw the same malnourished kids put on brief smiles of joy while some of the kids kept their listless and dejected faces on without restraint. Even if the children responded in gen1 FORWARD SPRING 2015 uine joy, some did, it felt painful to leave them without truly getting to know them and commit to them (maybe this is one of the painful aspects of short-term trips?). I can only imagine what it’s like to have a team of Korean college kids come to your residence every few weeks and not harbor confusion, bitterness, or sadness because you know that they’re only here for such a brief period. Not to mention that most of these kids have lost their parents already so the feeling of abandonment cuts much deeper or doesn’t cut any deeper because they’ve felt it to the core already. I feel so helpless and frustrated when I’m at the orphanages and this leads me to sinfully view God as a helpless frustrated being like myself. One sister from the trip did suggest that this frustration possibly stems from our worldly desire to be “efficient” and obsession with results. I feel that this may be the same attitude that I had. What did comfort me, unexpectedly, was Missionary Kim’s honesty about the state of the orphanages and the orphans he partners with. I remember he mentioned that even when he goes to the orphanages (he’s been in Haiti for almost 10 years), it continues to sadden him and he sees that despite all that he does (vbs, basic needs, gifts, etc) nothing can really change their lives except the presence of God, but he is confident that God will care for His children. He also spoke about how he himself only gets a glimpse of the lives of the orphans when he visits, but that God sees all of their pain and suffering when nobody else does. His honesty felt surprisingly refreshing and helps me even now to redirect my unbelief to God and speak to Him about such things. Evangelism had a few encouraging moments throughout the trip. I remember speaking with a lady who had a desire to go to God but felt paralyzed by the fear that she would fall short of his expectations and not live like the “good” person God demanded her to be. As we talked, the teammates and I shared about the normal yet painful slowness of growth, but also of God’s mercy with the disciples and how He helps them despite their failures and misunderstandings. So often when I sin, I find myself in a similar state of fearfulness and it drives me from God rather than to Him. I don’t know if she understood what we said, but her struggle definitely helped me to empathize, understand and pray a bit for the Haitians. I remember another encounter that I had with a young teenage boy and how he wanted to become a follower of Christ. We shared about the costs of discipleship and that he would suffer hardship if he followed Christ, but that it would be worth it. As we shared this, I began to grow emotional as I thought about my past four years 2 FORWARD SPRING 2015 and how God continued to pursue me and reveal himself by showing me that He is worthy. Overall, evangelism felt like a time to where I received much needed encouragement rather than a means to bless the Haitians, which I initially thought was the main purpose. The translators were also encouraging because they would approach anyone (age, gender, busy or not, etc) with the word and their zeal did not waver despite their fatigue. The translators struggle with the same sins as Americans as well, but they continue in their pursuit of God because they know and have experienced him. They definitely helped to encourage some of the team and their fellowship was genuine. HAITI daniel suh Dearest brothers and sisters: Daily Overview To give a brief overview of what our days looked like, our days were usually split into two halves – one in the morning (approx. 9AM – 12PM) and one in the afternoon (approx.1PM – 4PM). What we did during these times varied everyday between orphanage ministries, church VBS, evangelism, and wedding ministry (which was a pleasant surprise). We would then spend the evening debriefing and preparing for the next day’s ministries. Loving God, the Love of God, & Loving Others . Prior to going on the Haiti trip, as I had written in my previous updates, I found being a Christian very burdensome. It was filled with doing things, following commands, serving others, etc. My main encouragement to myself was that if I persevered until the end I would make it to eternity with God. However, quite honestly, it wasn’t the greatest of encouragements because I didn’t fully understand the goodness of being with God. Without a full comprehension of how good and glorious eternity with God is, the truths I repeated to myself didn’t have much power. For this reason, 3 4 FORWARD SPRING 2015 I became selfish, desiring to be catered to, wanting to be loved and served by others. Going to Haiti, I tried to grow myself in this hope for heaven, reading 1 Peter 1:3-9 during our first day there. Whilst reading, the verse that stuck out to me was v. 8, where apostle Peter states that though I have not seen Him, I love Him. This just wasn’t true. I had forgotten somewhere along the way what it meant to love God. I had once loved Him; this I remembered. So I began to meditate on a verse that I often repeat to myself: Matthew 22:36-40. Now, here, Jesus says that loving God is the greatest command. So what do I do? I started to read the Word to find out what it meant to love God. Knowing that John was the beloved disciple, I began to read 1 John when I came upon 1 John 2:5 It stuck out to me that apostle John would say that if I kept God’s commandments, then in me the love of God would be perfected. I don’t really know why (maybe it was what I wanted to hear), but at the time I took that verse to mean that when I kept God’s commandments, my love for God would be perfected, and I felt that a burden had been lifted. According to my (perhaps incorrect) understanding of this passage, love was more than just keeping commands. Somewhere along the way, in my head, I had made loving God = keeping His commands, and that alone. I am not saying that I don’t have to keep His commands, because as someone who does love God, it is the only response one could have. However, I felt that I had been working backwards, trying to keep God’s commands without loving Him first. With these thoughts in my mind, we went out to evangelize at a tent village. We were split into groups of 3 and were each assigned a translator. The translator in my group was Isaac, a Haitian preacher in his early 30s (who we also later found out was a hopeless romantic XP). During evangelism, he allowed us group members to lead the conversations, humbly serving us and translating with added passion. I was amazed, because I was reminded of how much I grumbled and complained about serving back in Ithaca. So during one of our breaks, I had to ask Isaac what motivated him to continue to serve in the midst of being jobless and homeless (he told us he slept at his church). His answer left me speechless. He said it was because Jesus gave His life for Him, so it only makes sense to do the same for Christ. When I heard this, I immediately began to shake my head and couldn’t help but chuckle at the simplicity of the answer. I was sort of, to use a Korean phrase, , which pretty much means “MIND BLAST”. In my head I was saying, “Oh yeah?? So simple, huh? 5 FORWARD SPRING 2015 It’s not that simple!” As I continued to work with the other Haitians at the Love and Hope Center, it became very clear that all the people were motivated by their love for God and Christ. So it got me thinking about something that I had been praying for since my junior year. During my junior year, 2 years ago now, I came to the realization that I did not really love Christ as I should; if I can go as far as to say this as a Christian, I did not fully realize just how much God’s love could be seen in Christ. So I began to pray, asking God to reveal to me His love that can be seen through Christ. I bring this up because God began to slowly answer this prayer after 2 years. I had forgotten about it throughout my senior year, but God did not forget my prayers; he was faithful to answer my prayers. During the rest of the trip, I began to read the gospel of John to hopefully see God’s love through Christ. And by the Spirit’s help, I began to see it. I began to see God’s compassion for His sheep, the lost, the poor, the widow, the orphan in the ways he healed the sick, he preached to all, fed over 5,000, etc. I cannot take any credit for the unveiling of my eyes to this love because I’ve read the book of John multiple times. Heck, we even went over the book of John during Bible Study at Bethany, where I taught on the book for one semester. I am still reading the gospel of John and I am seeing that God’s love is not only one of action. I realized this as I read of Jesus’ reaction towards Martha and Mary when their brother Lazarus dies (John 11). This chapter is probably known even by non-Christians for having the shortest verse in the Bible v. 35: “Jesus wept.” And in v. 33, it says that Jesus, upon seeing Mary and the other Jews weeping, he was deeply moved in his spirit and greatly troubled. To me these verses are sweet melodies to my ear. I’ve come to know that God acts out of love for His people. He keeps them on the narrow path, He fights on their behalf, He disciplines those He loves, but to know that He weeps for those He loves…this is something that brings me to my knees and in tears. That my King, my God would weep for me… This was especially comforting as I realized that I have additional misconceptions of God’s love towards me. I had become convinced that God performs acts of love and bears with me because He must keep His promises and for He is jealous for His glory and not because He genuinely loves me. But to know that He delights in His children and weeps for His children...this is a God I would want to stay with for all eternity. 6 FORWARD SPRING 2015 Now, naturally, because God has revealed to me more of His love for me, I have grown in a desire to love Him. Even in human interactions, we all know that it’s easier to love those who love us. And, surprisingly, it has caused an overflow and desire to love others as well. I don’t really understand the mechanisms behind how this overflowing thing works, but it is somehow working. I have actually been excited to return to Ithaca and serve again, whether it is through praise, Amazing Race, or small groups. Part of it is to see if what I learned in Haiti about God’s love and loving others in Haiti will translate, but another part of it is out of a love for God and out thankfulness for what God has done for me through Christ. Die to self and live as Christ did, daily Before going to Haiti, I had written in a previous update about Tim Keller’s quote on selfless love equating thinking of myself less. I went into Haiti desiring to put others before myself just as Christ did and this was something that I was reminded of daily, whether it was with the team, Missionary Simon and his family, with Haitians during evangelism, at orphanages or at churches. In Christ, God has given us a perfect example of a man who is wholly pleasing to God and someone who loves God perfectly. Missionary Simon additionally reminded me after our first orphanage ministry that we are to follow Christ in His character. That night as we were debriefing Missionary Simon gave us a sobering reminder that our main goal as a mission team is to reflect Christ’s character for those hours that we are there. We should reflect Christ’s love for the orphans and His children while we are there. Our main goal is not to perform our skits and songs flawlessly to perfection, but it is to allow the orphans to see Christ’s love for them through our mission team, whether it be through a smile or an embrace. For me that was very convicting to hear and was a helpful reminder as we continued our ministries because at times our ministry would feel routine and would be physically draining. Reminding myself that my goal was to faithfully reflect God’s love and Christ’s love, not merely to perform helped me think of myself less. With the team and Missionary Simon’s family, I was encouraged by everyone’s desire and willingness, whether conscious or not, I do not know, to be like Christ, serving, encouraging, bringing joy to those around them. Seeing Missionary Simon serve us and speak to us every night despite his apparent fatigue was especially humbling for me. Being surrounded by brothers and sisters who desire to be like Christ helped 7 FORWARD SPRING 2015 me and grew in me a desire to do the same for my team members and the Haitians. I’m sure our love towards one another was not perfect, but it seemed it, for the most part, and seeing everyone striving to keep the second part of the greatest command was encouraging. “Forget about Haiti in a Month” . During one of our last debriefs, Missionary Simon said something that continues ringing in my heart and mind; it was to forget about Haiti in a month. Now, out of context that probably sounds wrong. I mean, we should continue praying for Haiti, for Missionary Simon’s ministry, etc. He began to explain what he meant. He gave an analogy of hikers on a mountain. God is at the top of the mountain awaiting His children. His children climb their way up towards God and often stop at rest stops along the way. However, too often people remain at the rest stops looking back, admiring how far they’ve come and reminiscing on what they’ve gone through. They too often forget that they have not yet made it to the top and become complacent. Missionary Simon was encouraging us to continue moving on up this mountain not dwelling on Haiti. He prayed that we would meet God in such a new and amazing way that within a month, our experiences of God/with God would be faint memories in light of all the new experiences. He told us that if we do not change upon arriving back in the States, continuing to be unloving, hating our enemies, that we should not even mention that we ever went to Haiti. He had seen too many people talk about how they went to Haiti years ago, still clinging to that as if the Haiti trip would be their salvation. He urged us that our mission actually begins upon arriving in the United States where we are called to reflect Christ’s character and be a light in the midst of the darkness. This is a constant prayer of mine upon my arrival back. Learning to Pray . I think one of the things I’ve learned to do since preparing for Haiti until now is to pray and not only for myself, but others as well. Learning to pray for the burdens of other team members, learning to pray for the Haitians, learning to pray for Missionary Simon has been a blessing. Also, having been on the receiving end of prayer for missions, I have learned to participate in missions even whilst in the States through prayer. 8 FORWARD SPRING 2015 Trust God and Just be Faithful This is something that I kept repeating to myself during the trip. Being a short-term trip, there wasn’t much we could do for the orphans, poor, etc. other than to reflect Christ’s love. At times it was frustrating and truly heart breaking, especially at the orphanages and when we talked to hardened Haitians during Evangelism. However, I would need to remind myself that all I can do is be faithful, which is difficult in it of itself. The rest is in God’s hands, and I must trust that He will do as He wills. Thanks to…. I thank God once again for each and every one you, my supporters, who were with me from the first day till the last through prayer. I pray that we would continue to keep in touch, spurring one another on towards God until the Last Day. I also want to thank this winter’s Haiti team. It was such a joy serving with you and as I told you guys at Haiti, it truly was the highlight of my year. Each of you has a special place in my heart and may we continue to meet together sharing how we are experiencing God in new ways. With faith, hope, and love, Dan Suh 9 CAMBODIA Bryan Cheah Dear friends and family, As February draws to a close, I’m still dumbfounded by how much can happen in such a short amount of time. You may think I’m saying this because I’m the one on the overseas adventure, but trust me. After 7 months, life gets very normal. Despite this sobering reality, God has been doing mighty things daily through IJM and even in my personal life. People I have a disciple named Sonam who I’ve been meeting with for 5 months now. He’s a young guy and a new Christian who traveled from Nepal to work in Cambodia. Because he works in a Nepalese restaurant most of the time, he rarely has time to fellowship with other believers and so I meet Sonam at the restaurant every Saturday afternoon to spend two hours with him in Bible study, prayer and discussion. We are going through the entire Bible together and are currently finishing Acts, then moving onto Paul’s letters starting with Galatians. While he is my disciple and I enjoy sharing wisdom with him, over time Sonam really has become a dear brother in Christ to me. Sometimes I teach him for most of our time, and others I pour out my struggles while he listens and comforts me. We’ve become close friends, and recently he’s been at a loss of words when trying to thank me for giving my time. I can never make it clear that this is my duty and my joy to do so, but we’ll get there eventually! Pray that Sonam will mature in his faith and receive all joy from his relationship with Jesus! 10 FORWARD SPRING 2015 I also have a friend named Maxime who I hang out with nearly twice a week. He’s been such a blessing and comfort to me, and God taught me through him how to like people and enjoy their company again. For a time in college, I actually forgot how to be friends with non-Christians and couldn’t interact or connect with them in a way that didn’t involve speaking the Gospel message in our first conversation. I thank God for restoring my capacity to be patient with His saving work in people and to genuinely care for Maxime’s whole being (not just his spiritual being [y’know what I’m talkin’ bout church]). I’ve already shared the Gospel with him, so pray for God to draw Maxine into a relationship with Jesus! Work With the big J3 Conference over, my boss has me launching the justice student movement in Cambodia. What exactly does this mean? IJM wants to sustain the gains we’ve achieved in Cambodia’s public justice system, and another strategic way to do this is by investing in university students. We aim to expose students to issues of interpersonal violence against the poor, equip them with knowledge and resources to address these issues, and encourage them to commit their lives to seeking justice for the weak and vulnerable in their communities. This is an exciting new project that I am pioneering, and it’s a big one. God has already connected me to leaders involved in student ministries and Christian dormitories, so I am learning a lot about the Cambodian students’ perspective – what they know, what they want, what they’re receptive to, and what they don’t groove with yet. It’s overwhelming admittedly, and I’m supposed to host an event to kick everything off before my internship ends! This is big, but I have some ideas and am genuinely excited to see how God will mobilize students in the university here to own their not-so-distant responsibility to prevent CSEC from happening in Cambodia. 11 FORWARD SPRING 2015 I plan to engage with Christian university students first because they can most readily identify with every aspect of IJM’s vision, and thus receive training faster and be equipped to advocate for justice among their peers. This first event I mentioned is intended to be an intimate orientation session where IJM invests in a small number of students to establish a core base community committed to learning about biblical justice and spreading it through discipleship in the church. Justice in discipleship. Discipleship as justice. This is my vision for the university students in Cambodia. Pray God continues granting me wisdom, strength, resources and relationships to begin engaging university students on issues of interpersonal violence and inspiring them to commit to ending CSEC in Cambodia! Me As for what’s next, I’m still not totally sure but God has given me clear directions to take. I’ve been exploring the summons to pastoral ministry for some time now, and having spoken to my pastors in America and after reading some books, I now understand and appreciate the office of the pastor with more informed weight. I am still exploring it, but what’s changed so far is my timetable. At first I was okay with entering seminary right after my internships ends in June, but now I have a stronger preference. I want to work for IJM full-time (wherever they assign me) and at the same time serve in a local church and develop a home church relationship. From what I understand, prolonged involvement in a church is an effective “proving grounds” for whether a man is seriously called by God to lead Christ’s church. I don’t believe I absolutely need to have had this home church relationship before beginning training for pastoral ministry, but after what I’ve learned, this is what I want too. So I’m just being very plain about all of this so you know exactly what’s flowing through my mind. If you have any advice/encouragement/rebuke(?!)/comments, please let me know and let’s chat! Thank you for listening to me and praying with me everyone. If you’d like to keep up with more detailed updates from me, just pass me your email at [email protected] or find the group “Team IJM Cambodia 2014” on Facebook. Be sure to update me with how you’re doing too when you can – I miss you all! Blessings, Bryan 12 PHILIPPINES hyesoo rho Hello everyone! Again, thanks so much for all of your emails, kakaos, snapchats, facebook messages. I really appreciate everything you guys say to me, and the conversations I’ve been able to have have really been lifting me up. :) Another reminder that I update my blog http://hey-brooke.tumblr.com with snippets that I don’t repeat here. WHAT’S MY LIFE LIKE NOW? After all of the craziness of December & January, I have a very regular schedule now, which makes the weeks go by very quickly -- FORWARD SPRING 2015 things but they aren’t true. I’m getting a glimpse of how hard ministry really is. The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. God has still allowed me to see some progress to encourage me. But I know the credit is not mine to take. @ Good Shepherd (a house for sex trafficked girls) A few weeks ago, it hit me that I’ve been gaining a real rapport with these girls. This amazes me - when I first came, they were too shy to speak to me because they have a poor grasp of English. But now, they’re far more confident in speaking English-- even if they don’t know the words, they try. Monday: Sabbath (Monthly meetings at RBR - drug rehab) Tuesdays: Art Lessons with the Home School Girls Wednesday: Good Shepherd Refuge House, Weekly 1:1 Discipleship Meetings with Kim Thursday: Korean Lessons Friday: Prayer Meeting, Music Lessons with youth Saturday: Small Group with the youth, YG Meetings Sunday: Church, movies with the youth “Giving up” is a familiar concept to every one of these girls. They are all at Good Shepherd because at some point in their lives, they gave up. Running away from home, abuse, negative financial situations, reality, etc... So, seeing them endure in speaking English, learning math, and playing guitar... It’s a true shift in their character that I’ve witnessed even in the past few months. And some of them have even grown to be attached to me, which I hadn’t expected too much... I’m not sure if you can tell, but I really appreciate the ability to have this consistency. It’s really helpful. The missionaries here emphasize this, because you are able to see your impact when you show consistency in your actions. And along those lines... The nun running the facility speaks very highly about our group... And it looks like she wants to continue our partnership with them (Rick has only been going there for about a year) and even do more activities with Rick’s ministry. SOME PROGRESS I’VE SEEN... @ Bible Study (weekly Bible Studies I run on the book of John with the local youth) Disclaimer - I wish that I could tell you that I’ve seen people turn to Christ left and right, I wish I preached and people were transformed,... I wish I could tell you these These Bible studies have grown to be my favorite part of the week, even though it took a while to find a format that worked. In the beginning, many of them didn’t 13 14 FORWARD SPRING 2015 FORWARD SPRING 2015 come... one of the main youth members actually told others that “it was boring” and that he wouldn’t come unless one of the funny girls came. Discouraged, hurt, and exhausted of their expectations for me, I took the encouragements of Jiji to heart and strove forward with even more tenacity. Even if he rejected me, the others didn’t. My natural people pleasing tendencies make me feel like I need everyone to like me, but this doesn’t make for effective ministry, and this doesn’t glorify God. And now, many weeks in, I see that many of the youth value the weekly hours we spend together, and I can see a difference in the ones who have come consistently every week. They are more curious about the Bible now, and try harder to find the right answers on their own. Even though their English is good, they’re far from fluent so they still have difficulty reading some of the passages. So it feels awesome to be able to unpack the scripture with them. @ RBR (Drug Rehab - photos are not allowed here, so here is a photo of my notes with the girls’ names) We only come to this ministry monthly, but it’s my favorite ministry. Maybe it’s because it reminds me of ICM/Philly and of Hana Missions/Paterson. Once a month, Rick preaches, we prepare follow up questions, and split the large group of men and women into smaller groups. Because of the time constraints, we are unable to choose our small groups - we get whoever we get. Except... for me. Because I am the 15 youngest in the group, I am consistently placed with the women, of which there are less than a dozen. Over the past few months, I’ve had the privilege of building up a relationship with these women. They’re from richer families, (you need money to have a drug addiction here, and you also need money to be placed in a rehab) so they are very good at English. I see them warming up to me a lot now, and they share more openly about their lives and their hopes. I know SO little about drug addiction and recovery. After all my weeks in Philly, because I’m not trained and I haven’t had first hand experience, I’m so uneducated. But I’ve received good guidance and somehow the girls still trust me enough to open up to me. One of the girls is actually a Filipino American from New Jersey! My heart goes out to her the most. I hope that when she returns that I can continue my relationship with her... @ Korean Lessons of good progress, especially with Mara. I feel like these Korean lessons are the biggest part of my ministry here because these girls are the ones who don’t have any solid faith even though they do believe in God. I’ve had a good relationship with them from the beginning, but it’s really cool to see them improving so much at Korean. My korean’s not perfect either, so I struggle sometimes, but I see a lot Even though many of these girls only want to learn because they are obsessed with kpop, for some of them, there is a real goal here. They want to take TOPIK, which 16 FORWARD SPRING 2015 is an exam that will let them work in Korea as temporary migrant workers (OFW Overseas Filipino Worker)... OFWs earn more money than they would back in the Philippines, and often are an important source of income for the families here. & WHAT’S BEEN ON MY HEART... So many things.. Here’s just a few... I want increased intentionality. And the energy to follow through as well. I really have only like a month left with these youth, because I am taking next week off because a friend from Korea (leigh) is visiting me. Despite all the time I spend with these youth, I still don’t feel like I’m bold enough with them! Especially the ones who aren’t involved in the church, and don’t have a real relationship with God... present vs. future... I have a very hard time simply ENJOYING & LIVING in the present. I’m always thinking of the future, always planning, scheming, whatever. Part of it comes from my architecture background - you don’t do anything without knowing how it fits into the big picture. And after listening to Jiji, I don’t think this is necessarily a bad thing, but I need to know how to control my thoughts and how to let go when God says “stop”. I’ve also had so many soooo many thoughts on the future, but I won’t bore them with you here.. Just know that I too am surprised at where God is leading me. (And maybe at.. how normal it is??) COMING UP: March 28 & 29: Amazing Race Auditions March 29: Tubonghan HS graduation March 30 & April 6: RBR April 11: Amazing Race w/ the Youth Group April 17: My Last Day. Thanks again for praying for me. 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