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OUR CRIMES SCALE THE HEAVENS On the night of the last blizzard I found myself walking around alone. The financial district is always em pty at night but the travel ban made it especially desolate. The only movement was infrequent, a snowplow driving on another street. As I walked I enjoyed the silence and the emptiness. When I started down John St. I heard a shout from somewhere behind me. I turned and walked towards it. As I got closer I heard more voices, getting louder and clearer. I stopped when I heard a resonating “Fuck yeah dude!” and on a narrow street, in between two buildings, in the yellowish light of a streetlamp, four dudes had set up a beer pong table. One of them noticed me, “Dude, come join us!” I hesitated but submitted at the thought of free lite beer. They introduced themselves, Eric, Reed, Jack and Scott. Reed was impressed by my celebrity shots and let me take his place in the next game. Scott and I were on the same team. Before we started he took out a nail and heated it up with his butane torch, Eric passed him the rig and Scott dabbed. They had set up this table for old times sake. I sank a shot. Scott asked me if I wanted a dab, I looked at him and declined. I had met Scott before, Scott shadowed at Bear Sterns the summer before it got liquidated. His father rented him an apartment on William St. right across from the most popular spot that summer, a long diamond plated ledge. Our skateboards echoed loudly along the tall buildings and late at night the neighbors would get upset. They would deal with us by throwing shit out their windows: eggs, glass jars of tomato sauce, cucumbers, packages of tuna fish. When my friend Chito got hit by half a cantaloupe he yelled out a threat to whoever threw the melon. It was Scott. He was upstairs getting high when he had enough, he had just finished a long day at the office. When he called the police, they told him to be downstairs when they arrived so they could identify the perp. He came down and waited by the ledge, smoking a cigarette and watching us. As more and packaged food and produce rained on the sidewalk, I approached him to bum a cigarette, a Parliament. We talked about skateboarding. He used to skate but had to stop in high school. He lit another cigarette and offered me one. I declined. When the police arrived Scott was quick to single out Chito. Chito got cuffed and led to the car, I think he had a warrant out. Scott stood around and I watched him carefully, we locked eyes as he turned towards his apartment. They sank a shot. I drank the beer and looked at Scott in the eye. Scott knew who I was and I knew who he was. The snow was starting to cover the folding table and the breeze made it sprinkle down towards the white street. I held the ping pong ball in my hand, Scott was scared, so Scott dabbed. SOYEZ DE VOTRE SIECLE BE YOUR CENTURY The unrest among the affluent white-male urban community has been a hot-topic among talking-head media outlets throughout the past few months. President Trump, in a press conference that took place at the White House on Tuesday night remarked: Since the incidents in Greenwich Connecticut and Martha’s Vineyard, it seems that there has been a new injustice brought to light at least every week. We have seen many instances of serious inconveniences put upon our fiscally buoyant white middle-aged citizens captured on camera in the recent months. But let us not pretend this issue is new. Tension has been bubbling under the surface for a long time. The most recent offense took place in an upscale after-hours lounge in New York City’s Meatpacking District, where a man was denied table-and-bottle service despite whisperings of a last-minute cancellation. The subsequent boycott of the business by a group of seven 30-something investment bankers has taken a severe toll on the cache of the nightclub. When asked how badly his business has been affected by the boycott, the owner of the club sarcastically replied, “I’m not sure what incident you’re referring to,” before ducking out of sight behind a row of heavily muscled security guards in tank tops. Since the infamous Greenwich Connecticut “martini too dirty” incident, a mirror has been thrust in front of the tumultuous history of that town, which in only the last 200 years has done a 180 degree turn from being almost completely uninhabited, to 95% affluent white. The authorities in place have been slow to adjust to the changing demographic, and the ability of the township to “get in front of the issue” is a hotly debated topic among the group of former sorority sisters of whom the majority of the community board is made up. Last week the cover of Time magazine showed a man clutching a first-class ticket being forced into an economy seat after an unanticipated airplane change. In the corner of the image the date “1974” was crossed out, and “2015” was penciled in underneath. The temptation is to believe that nothing has changed in this time, but something has; these men are much wealthier than they were 40 years ago, but still subject to the same unjust treatment. The more salient concern is: why hasn’t society been able to keep apace with their growing impatience? The Scott has roamed the urban sprawl for as long as I can remember. Merrill Lynch sweater vest, topped with the alma mater curve-brimmed shitbag baseball cap. There lies a deep hatred within most of us when they swiftly lurch by screaming sales into their smartphone, but this hatred must be filled with understanding. My peers and I gather At the edge of the top The whole city is visible Over the drop What was the point Of these so many lives Spent scooping up much From their edge of the sty The muck gets thrown down Where nobody looks I ate my wife’s cooking Now she doesn’t cook When J-CREW cashmere pills I want to shoot up the brand So I smooth down my feathers With four oily hands A poor wasted bum Begs me for change Eat the front of a bus That’s a good change The city’s no cleaner Since freeloaders got offed Now models and artist assistants Commit vandalism and theft The hood of my PATAGONIA jacket Whips in the helicopter breeze The pilot keeps on waving Who could kiss that fucking goatee Tunnels are halted Bridges have screeched Jam packed with people Behaving like beasts We fly back on Sunday I COULD NOT BE TRUE AND CONSTANT TO THE ARGUMENT I HANDLE, IF I WERE NOT WILLING TO GO BEYOND OTHERS; BUT YET NOT MORE WILLING THAN TO HAVE OTHERS GO BEYOND ME AGAIN Silky sheets Cold feet 9-5s Real clean My comb, black sheen Routine My morning protein Trains into town Elevators up Runways down White collars 10 cards 3 gray hairs Break with a date They write you? Her name is Kate Wooden heels Swiveling wheels Dollars for beggars Hours for commuters Towers in the sky An office meeting Papered report 6-8 Back home Monitoring phone I remember when you could trade up without worrying if you'd get caught. I remember when they didn't watch your every move. I remember when DOW dropped 20 points in a day and we went to the Patriot to celebrate and that sexy Asian with the massive midriff was there giving out shots. I remember the truffle butter. I remember when my kid asked me what I did. I told him I printed money. I remember where I was during the crash. I remember the taste of my secretary's pussy. And her sister. And her hooker friends. And her coffee. I remember the time my wife showed up at work with a turkey sandwich and Jack had to talk her away from my office because I was having lunch with Cassandra. I remember all the lunches. Oh the lunches. The glorious cash lunches. Snails for breakfast. Cocaine for lunch. I remember my office with its west side view. Looking over at New Jersey. Reminding me of what could go wrong. How close they are. But how far at the same time. I remember my suit. Correction, suits. I didn't have just one. The Hugo boss, the Armani, the Brooks brothers. Enough exotic fabric to drown in. I remember when I flooded the apartment below me and Cassandra saved me. She said I was passed out in the shower, butt over the drain with a drink in my hand. I closed on CRT later that day. I remember how mad the wife was about the water stains on the freshly laid Venetian wallpaper. She threw a pure silver pan at my head. A 12000 dollar bullet. I remember my watch. It’s calf skin band and dual time zone function kept me calm. I used to stare at it in meetings, to remind myself of what I was doing. I remember my job. GIANTS ARE APT TO BE KNOCK KNEED An extinction is coming. An old Indian man with purple lips and a rotting face moves along a stone path through Trinity Church Cemetery with a yellow New York Post tote bag. He's within 8 feet of a stone structure that tourists are using to eat their lunch. I can smell the sharp scent of his determination to make it underneath the cherry blossoms so he could rest. This man is selling newspapers in 2015; he certainly will not last long. In this one moment I feel as if I have come across the most doomed man in the city. A white flash sends silent waves of immeasurable force throughout the city. A black homeless man carrying an overstuffed plastic bag on Nassau Street scrambles to catch his belongings as the bag bursts open - countless sun faded magazines, a jar of cheap no name peanut butter with the label half peeled off and a bottle of lotion hit the pavement. An old white lady is on her way to drop off her recertification papers to the HRA to renew the lease of her rent controlled apartment. She isn't fortunate enough to have any other objective in her day. She stands dumbfounded as the white, cleansing light comes around the corner. She cannot think quick enough to dive in the nearby bank vestibule. A Mexican man with a guitar is walking through the cars of a train passing over the Manhattan Bridge; he had just performed for a train car full of disinterested commuters and didn’t receive a cent. An overweight junkie in sweatpants and an athletic hoodie is nodding out on a bench inside of the park on Forsyth and Hester. He is wearing a lanyard around his neck that holds his government benefit cell phone. It's ringing - an antiquated ringtone. The man's head slumps so low his cheap sunglasses fall off his face. His eyes open at the very moment he is destroyed. A man is walking south on 5th avenue just below 42nd Street. He is wearing a suit made of poor quality fabric. The collar of his dress shirt is yellowed from years of sweating, cooling off, and then sweating again. He smells of his own urine. He is carrying an attaché case with nothing of real importance inside.. A poorly wrapped homemade tuna sandwich slides around the inside of the case when he walks, staining the three or four loose papers he had put inside just to feel as if the attaché case was serving its purpose. He is attempting to open the doors to the 455 5th Avenue New York Public Library. A man sits smoking a cigarette outside of a Mitchell Lama complex turned luxury high rise, on a set of benches near the entrance to the buildings lobby. A boom box sits at his feet, blaring out classic rock. The man bobs back and forth, greeting the new tenants of the building. "Hey how ya doin, hey how ya doin?". Out of a few hundred tenants, several respond with a nervous acknowledgement - a wave of the hand, a weak nod or a muffled "hi". I pass people and streets that recall memories of large CRT monitors being sold on Park Row. Compaq Presario’s and Hewlett Packard computers - impatient Jewish men trying to sell them to my mother and I. A chiropractor on Broadway, the McDonalds on Broadway with the piano sitting on a loft alcove accessible by a ladder. Small electronic stores that somehow sold authentic video games for less than the chain stores. A man getting chased down Christopher Street by police in that sharp, harsh daylight that creates shadows so deep and dark they almost beg to be used for no good... a man that carries flammable liquid in a Windex bottle, spraying things and igniting them in blasts of flames - the cops drive up onto the sidewalk and almost push his body through a park fence.. The man hits the hood and then the pavement. The police almost tear his white shirt from his body but the collar is still around his neck while they beat him with batons. I pass people and places that recall memories of homeless men standing on West Broadway and Prince Street saying: "I fucking hate Koreans, I HATE Y’ALL" I pass people and places that recall memories of homeless men approaching my golden retriever and I outside of a grocery store, smashing a bottle at my feet and lunging towards me while my Mother was shopping inside. Men unzipping the flies of their suit pants on the 6 train and stroking their cocks off at 8AM on a work week. Men who stand outside of the St. Luke’s school during recess and wait for boys by the gate on Hudson Street – sticking one long arm into the yard to feel the clothing and skin of young boys running past playing tag. Men taking crude baths inside of subway cars - pants dropped to ankles, rotting skin showing, using household cleaning wipes to clean their skin, knocking dead flakes of flesh to the subway car floor. The back seats of yellow taxis with silver bumpers in the winter. Black water from melted snow sloshing up and jumping from one foot rest area to the other. The feeling of walking home from school alone, unattended. Black Israelites standing high in Times Square. "YOU AINT WHITE MOTHAFUCKA YOU RED! IF I SLAP YOU ACROSS THE FACE WHAT COLOR YOUR SKIN GONNA BE? NOT WHITE, RED!!" "JESUS DOES DEMAND THAT I SMASH YOUR BABIES ACROSS THE ROCKS!!" Street justice. Street logic. Schizophrenic men standing in pedestrian tunnels underneath Port Authority, asking boys cutting class: "How should I get to Reno? Michael Jackson is waiting for me there. I need something to drink, should I get a juice? A coffee?" Sun faded advertisements. Cyan holding out, begging you to acknowledge the product, the person, the service, the event, the cause. Weber’s Closeouts, Odd Jobs, Woolworths. Cheap stores with Indian security guards that never let their guard down. The clothing stores that took your bags and gave you a tag to claim them on your way out. Passing porn stores in my Father’s red Isuzu Trooper. My throat tingled, my dick awkwardly bulging and throbbing at the sight of a bland blonde woman with a fuck me face. Blue eyes, white teeth, tits that glow in soft light, faces that look like they were designed to have semen shot all over them. I would put my own hand to my chest; feeling my own breaths made my dick grow larger and larger, sliding it down my leg to the point where a single step felt like the hard stroke of a strangers hand. Cheap colored fluorescent lights, pinks and deep blues. The feeling of slithering into the adult section of J&R Music World’s basement movie store while my Mother browsed for both a family movie and an R-rated thriller for herself. Don't move the beads above the doorway too much, you might get caught. You're in. Pure rush, pure adrenaline, it all turned you on. Men on men, women on men, women on women and women alone, black, white and especially Spanish girls. Drunk Mexican men pulling up in vans, cargo doors sliding open, shots fired from a revolver at two young boys walking their dog in the back courtyard of the Shearson Lehman building. Cab drivers who massage private school girls running late to class in the morning. Men in vans. All of the day’s meals, tickets, and receipts scattered across the dashboard. A tortured biography written out in detritus. Men playing music from cellphones in crowded public spaces, mumbling the lyrics to themselves, getting turned on by their own reflections… silently hoping someone calls them out for it so they can yell “I’M NOT THE ONE!!”. First and foremost, I want everyone to know that the reason I am jumping today is not because I am a closet homosexual. I have simply chosen a career that has taken control of my life and identity, and the only way out is to fly from the very window that separates me from the rest of the world Monday through Friday. I have spent the last nineteen years of my life in this office and although I wear a smile, there are many things inside that I choose to hide from my friends and coworkers. In June when Steve took us all to the strip club, he saw me crying in the bathroom. I told him that my sisters dog had died, but really I was torn up about never becoming the dancer I was destined to be. I knew that I should have been the one on stage and not the one in the chair with a wad of cash and a cigarette. Last week I went to the ballet and I got so frustrated and full of jealousy that I walked out halfway through and went to Shake Shack. I have only been with one man in my life, and because he was my woodshop teacher I could never fully express my true love for him publicly. I desire certain men in the workplace, but most of them have wives and think I am a vagina slayer. I have come to the realization that no one knows who I really am and therefore I will be leaving no one behind when I exit this life. I will dive into lower Manhattan just as it dove into me and I will come back to earth as the beautiful dancer I was meant to be. I am donating all of my belongings to Jesus, the janitor from the 3rd floor who helped me assemble my desk. Goodbye cool world... Scott A READING OF THE TEXTS IN THIS BOOKLET TOOK PLACE ON THE EVENING OF SATURDAY MAY 9TH 2015 850 FEET ABOVE STREET LEVEL INSIDE OF THE OBSERVATORY OF 70 PINE STREET FIRST KNOWN AS THE CITIES SERVICE BUILDING THEN THE AMERICAN INTERNATIONAL GROUP (AIG) BUILDING IT IS CURRENTLY BEING CONVERTED TO A RESIDENTIAL DEVELOPMENT WRITINGS LORENZO BUENO CODY RANALDO JACK IRVING SPENCER TULLIS MERCER TULLIS ALEC TINMAR SEAN VEGEZZI TOMMY MALEKOFF PRODUCTION PARIS VENTURE KEEFE BUTLER MANUEL SMITH DESIGN BY SEAN VEGEZZI COVER IMAGE BY ALEC TINMAR IMAGES BY SEAN VEGEZZI AND ALEC TINMAR ARCHIVAL IMAGE (X2010.7.2.5184) BY WURTS BROS (NEW YORK, NY) / FROM THE COLLECTIONS OF THE MUSEUM OF THE CITY OF NEW YORK POST PRODUCTION BY CODY RANALDO OF THIS BOOKLET 25 COPIES HAVE BEEN PRINTED AND BOUND FOR PRIVATE DISTRIBUTION UNDER LOCK AND KEY / IS THE WAY IT HAS TO BE