Mallory Otten - Pine River Anthology
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Mallory Otten - Pine River Anthology
Mallory Otten Pine Cones Fusion is, at its essence, the state of two things coming together. Of two or more things that are not necessarily related to each other joining hands to create something beautiful, something we can learn from, and certainly something we can enjoy. While what comes together can be contradictory, or even shocking in the end it shows us something about ourselves, and about human nature in general. What this magazine is at its heart is an act of fusion bringing together both the English and Art departments to create a fuller meaning. They feed off of each other, inspire each other, and mesh into one piece through the sharing of ideas, of passions, and that final goal we all have in mind no matter what our medium happens to be – to create something unique that will inspire others and even change perceptions about the world. It is on this common ground these students united, submitted their work, and under that mutual understanding that they were able to bare their desires, fears and passions to the community. So pleases come and explore. Come fuse your passions to ours, for it is here that we can all find a common ground, to connect, and to be heard. Written Work 4 6 8 10 13 15 16 18 21 22 25 26 28 30 33 34 36-41 42 44 46 We are on Fire Suspension If my first name was Suzanne The Fisherman The Great Lake’s Summer Current Events An Apple’s Purpose Snow Globe Moonlit Mirage A Man With No Secrets My Wish The Droplet Monster Delilah’s Paradox Beachcombing My First Ride The Gravel Pit Rain Planted A Child’s Song John Benes Carrie Frame Meredith Brown Carrie Frame Matthew Wichtner Ashley Hoke Alexandria Corniuk Carrie Frame Seth Faulk Elena Mausolf Elena Mausolf Rob Armbruster Alexandria Corniuk Seth Faulk Caitlin Marsh Alexandria Corniuk Alexandria Corniuk Jacob Hammer Carrie Frame Carrie Frame Artwork 1 2 5 7 9 11 12 14-15 17 19 20 23 24 27 29 31 32 35 39 43 45 47 Pine Cones Predator Translucent Flowers Sunset in Venice Marilyn Playful Ocean Bloom TiareElena Jewels Orange October Wedding The Woman in Blue Gone Fishing Koi Eternal Youth Slumber La Flor Wishes Washed Away Standing Still Pouring Gold Happy Accident Abtruse Abode Eye of the Sunflower Mallory Otten Brittany Jones Julie Helm Kat Goffnett Shelby Grambau Julie Helm Julie Helm Meghan Kelly Andrew Wright Lynzee Brenner Holly Ross Taylor Mclane Kelsey Irland-Wright Josh Gove Jacklyn Dittmar Carolyn Kujawa Meghan Kelly Josh Cradduck Lauren Moreau Ashley Esselink Elizabeth Webster Molly Wiegand The Pine River Anthology staff would like to thank all those who submitted creative work for their continuing contribution to the Alma College community. Special thanks to McKay Press, especially Scott McDonald, for the professional printing guidance. Also thanks to the English and Art Departments, our wonderful advisors, as well as Student Congress, for their monetary and intellectual support. Brittany Jones Predator 3 We are on Fire John Benes Your last kiss was concussive. It sent me careening into the refrigerator. It ripped fixtures from the wall. Tossed drawers and cabinets, throwing dishes and cutlery in a brilliant cascade of accusing silver and ceramic shrapnel. It shook the very foundation of our home. Leaving the appliances gasping for breath, their spark brought up short. It stole my breath too. Leaving me red faced, heaving chested, pulling in sip after ragged sip of something. Something calmer than the air around your lips. Something that did not reek of cordite and generous destruction. Smoking ruins of a bombshell blast in our once quiet kitchen. 4 Julie Helm Translucent Flowers 5 Suspension Carrie Frame I once stood at the top of the world, seeing the names of millions & climbing the steps to what seemed like the closest to Heaven I could ever get. But it wasn’t enough. Thousands of roses at the palace told me otherwise, and I counted the days until the day I could step off the plane once more and be home. Summer beckons me with the splashing of lake water but I long to remain here in this night, the moonlight glowing through the window with the promise of long days ahead. I taste the last spring air, feeling the lilacs on my tongue sweet yet bitter because I know I will soon be leaving once more. 6 Kat Goffnett Sunset in Venice 7 If my first name was Suzanne Meredith Brown I’d be a different person altogether. I would speak French fluently and shave my legs, I’d wear light cotton dresses in pastel I would study politics I would not smoke cigarettes (ok, maybe occasionally a clove…) I would cover up my freckles with May belline foundation, clean ivory smell and I’d build my credit at IKEA, or some fancy hair salon, and I’d never feel depressed and I wouldn’t write until my fingers morphed into bunched caterpillar rings and I wouldn’t be scarred by Latin men no words would leave rope burn around my neck I’d be cleaner and stronger, my pores would be smaller and I’d go running every day, and I would meet a man this way and in middle age I’d get divorced and move -to Belgium? yes, to stuff my face with chocolates I’d spend summers shrouded in black muslin on the beach roasting fish on rocks mourning the day my parents named me Suzanne, not Meredith. 8 Shelby Grambau Marilyn The Fisherman Carrie Frame This is what I want you to see. Mist over the water in the early morning not a ripple across its glass tabletop surface Our boat pushes forward as if it is Moses parting the Red Sea cutting through the still water like a swift blade My father feels the air with his fisherman’s gaze his silver strands of hair shimmering as he takes us to the secret spot where the fish are just awakening beneath us fins flitting like butterfly wings unaware of our peaceful plans. He knows the fish Their slick scales are constellations and he is the astronomer swimming with them through the sky of lake water They grow weary in our world, eyes searching sanguinely for a drink They fear they will fall out of the sky into the dry world past the bow He lets go and they swim back home through the galaxy of seaweed I look to the sunrise, orange and blue, and see my father smile reaching out and casting another line in his own private heaven. 10 Julie Helm Playful Ocean 11 Julie Helm Bloom The Great Lake’s Summer Matthew Wichtner Sweet dark cherries, in the summer’s sun Waves crashing gently, as we sift across the sand Arms full of food, we’re ready and we’re smart The evening by the beach as we wait for night start We skim across the water as the sand begins to cool We watch the sun go under, hiding from the land The sound of streaking matches, the smell of maple smoke The sweetness of the air: a seal that’s just been broke The stars have come to play, they glimmer in their joy Lighting up the lake, and shooting through the sky Nighttime starts to whisper, and cover us in cold The stories by the fire keep us from getting old 13 Current Events Ashley Hoke Somewhere on the coast of Italy Lies a ship On its side With people still trapped inside. Splattered across every channel Broadcasting anything Believed to be worth watching By anyone that is intelligent enough to watch it. Although they believe themselves to be so Damn intelligent They cannot for the life of them Figure out why Somewhere on the cost of Italy Lies a ship On its side. Meghan Kelly TiareElena Jewels An Apple’s Purpose Alexandria Corniuk My skin is smooth against your lips A deep red color. My shape fits perfectly into your hand As you bring me to your face To sink your teeth into my flesh And taste the cool, crisp flavor of fall. I know my purpose has been served As my juices drip down your chin. And I crunch between your teeth, Sweet, but not too sweet. My refreshing taste lingers On the very tip of your tongue Even after I am gone. Just like that delicate woman, The one that you slept with last weekend. The one that you still reach for, Fingers outstretched in the middle of the night, Whose smell still lingers on your sheets, Whose red lips you still crave against your skin. But for now, I know that I am enough To satisfy your craving, at least for tonight. 16 Andrew Wright Orange Snow Globe Carrie Frame I watch the people passing me by under the yellowish glow of the streetlamps. They all seem to be moving with a purpose, and they walk through the glittering snowflakes without pause to marvel over the beauty of the winter scene. I am surprised at how beautiful it seems to me at this moment despite the hardness that I feel in my throat and the emptiness that reverberates deep within my heart. I finger the small suede box in my hands, looking down at it with an expression that I can only imagine echoes my heartbreak. I venture to open it slightly, and the second that I see the shine reflecting the streetlight back into my eyes, I snap it closed and look away once more. Over one simple word, my life has completely changed—turned upside down and shaken like a snow globe—and I am lost from what I thought was in my control. My future now lies before me as a big question mark, and I cannot shake the constant and utter shock that keeps rippling through me. A family of four passes by, and the littlest child, a girl, hesitates behind her family to look at me. I am neither annoyed nor surprised, and I force a smile. She is wearing a red velvet coat with matching earmuffs, and there are snowflakes atop her little blond head as she glances at the box in my hands. She doesn’t say a word, just looks quizzically at me as if waiting for me to say something. In my loss for words, I hesitate, and her parents call for her to follow. I nod as a form of reassurance that she should tag along, and she nods in reply with a maturity far beyond her age before turning on her heel and running to catch up to her family. I look back down at my hands, at the box I cannot stand to look at any longer. As I glance back up at the sidewalk before me, I notice a tiny red mitten in the snow. In a moment of impulse, I jump up from my bench and pick up the mitten, jogging quickly in order to reach the little girl. “Excuse me,” I say as I approach them, “I believe you dropped this.” I hold up the mitten. They thank me as I hand it to the little girl. She looks up at me with confusion as she feels the weight in her hand, but she doesn’t ask. I turn and walk in the other direction, the city splayed out before me for miles. It shines with promise through the snowflakes, and I walk emptyhanded into its light. Lynzee Brenner October Wedding 19 Holly Ross The Woman in Blue Moonlit Mirage Seth Faulk The palmettos will sober from their drunken frenzy Enraged by the wind And then the valley will lie A gown of sandy silk Washed head to toe with moonlight Not a scorpion stirring for miles and lands. Peace whispers A rhythmic slur at first Next a trumpet call of serenity And there I will find you Twirling beneath the sequined stars Your moonshadows snaking along The white gritty silk. May I touch you, Desert Nymph? But your body flits free Kissing the freezing grains with your toes. 21 A Man with No Secrets Elena Mausolf A fishbowl upon his shoulders. no face, no head, no brains. He didn’t need them. Its lucid glass walls disguised the water within. no skin, no eyes, no ears. No expression existed. Papery fishes slithered up and across, no thoughts, no memories, no tears. He had no feelings. The golden rays pierced right through the fishbowl upon his shoulders, Not an obstacle in sight, He had no secrets. 22 Taylor Mclane Gone Fishing 23 Kelsey Irland-Wright Koi My Wish Elena Mausolf I want to drown in the ocean with palm trees and fishes. I want to gulp its salt: let it gnaw away my insides. I want to be a wave and breathe no air, to let my lungs be idle. I want my skin to become water, to stream away into the deep, to let my troubles free and lucid, to wash away my fear. I want my heart to fill with seashells, So they could rattle a joyful song while I swim away from the world into the tranquil blue. 25 The Droplet Rob Armbruster From the inside out My humble beginnings in a cloud Within a shroud of vapor I abide Until I am belched out, a lone droplet Free falling I scream towards earth As I persevere through the hazy atmosphere A neighboring drop is taken By a Boeing’s wing So sudden, so simply All the while still falling Mindfully aware of my imminent destiny I fall Mattering nothing if I am whished by the wind I fall Mattering not where I land I fall In freedom from gravity’s slavery 26 Josh Gove Eternal Youth 27 Monster Alexandria Corniuk The pain of losing it pierces Through my body, even now. He never loved me and never cared. He only wanted one thing. I was pushed hard to the ground Pale fingers snapped my wrists down Like cold, hard handcuffs. Stitches were ripped apart Ruining my new outfit. I remember crying as he forced his lips on mine. I screamed as he tore into me. Pain rushed through my body, But he wouldn’t stop. Blood trickled out of me, The deep color staining my tainted skin. My insides ached, leaving me weak, vulnerable. Deep purple marks were left across my body. Laughter echoed through the room, Followed by the zip of his jeans as he left. Even now, he still haunts me in my dreams But the worst part of it all is I will never be able to tell my daughter How much of a monster her father really is. 28 Jacklyn Dittmar Slumber 29 Delilah’s Paradox Seth Faulk She was slim, her hair ran in ebony streams To her hourglass waist Her face was lovely in a pouty way Sure she seduced him No man could resist Delilah when she smiled But did she love him? With silver the captains bribed her To find her lover’s weakness She couldn’t answer her heart Once, twice he lied about his source of power How could he love her and still deny her? But then he gave his secret She cut his muscular hair The army tethered and blinded him Delilah couldn’t hurt him if she loved him Then why did she cry Seeing his sunken figure Strapped to the temple columns? 30 Carolyn Kujawa La Flor Meghan Kelly Wishes Washed Away Beachcombing Caitlin Marsh is a desperately private act best performed early. Any later and you’ll have the rest of the world out picking through the detritus of your being, pawing through the flotsam to see what bits it likes: Tinfoil for the magpies and the war effort. Driftwood for the termites looking for something aged and seasoned. There are prettier pieces to be sure hiding salt-bitter secrets. Shells curling cast-off bodies in which the hermit crabs may hide their tender flesh. Pearls sugar-coated evils made palatable for tongues behind tight-closed lips. Check your map. Do you know what you’re looking for? You’ve arrived first. Be quick. The rest are coming. 33 My First Ride Alexandria Corniuk It was the first time I had ever gotten so close to such a beautiful creature. I ran my hand over his thick, leathery gray skin as I hoisted myself up, sliping my feet into the curves of his body. He stayed still as I climbed up his side and swung my leg over his back. He began to move forward with heavy, practiced steps. I couldn’t stop a smile from spreading across my face, but I knew he wasn’t treated well. The man in front of me held a long, wooden stick with a metal pick at the end. He dug it into his skin; the creature huffed as he swung his trunk and head up from the pain. It was as if someone had just punched me in the stomach as I watched that man do it again and again. When I was finished and slid back down the elephant’s side, I looked up into his eyes. Regardless of whether or not he was human or animal, I could feel the pain he felt. From the pick, from the cement roads on his feet. Ashamed, I brushed my hand down his trunk as my apology and turned away. 34 Josh Cradduck Standing Still The Gravel Pit Alexandria Corniuk The old church was filled with all their family and friends, soft voices carrying through the rafters and bouncing off the stained glass windows. Everyone was dressed formally in long black skirts and crisp dress shirts, a rainbow of dark ties filling the room. It was quiet. He could see her down the aisle. She was beautiful – her long eyelashes soft against her cheeks. She wore the most beautiful white dress that hugged her flawless shape and held perfect red roses gently between her hands. He smiled softly, remembering the first time he had ever kissed her. The sun beat down on green grass that needed to be cut as they ran through it, chasing each other and laughing. He grabbed her hand and stopped her in the middle of the yard, his eyes lighting up with innocent excitement. “Abby,” he said, squeezing her hand, “let’s go to the gravel pit!” A wide smile broke across his face, exposing his little teeth. One was missing on the left side of the lower row. She tilted her head slightly to the left, her blonde hair falling over her shoulder. “The gravel pit?” she questioned. “Where is it?” He pointed to their right where tall pine trees stood on the outskirts of the yard, a barricade to the outside world. “Just past those trees!” He started toward the trees, pulling on her arm to make her follow. She didn’t hesitate to run after him, her purple dress flowing out around her as she ran. They stopped, hand in hand, at the border of the trees. Abby tilted her head back, her lips parted slightly as she gazed up at the tall pine trees. Their needles were a deep, forest green, at least 4 inches long. The bark was blotchy grey and brown. 36 She reached out and touched one of the branches, pulling her fingers back immediately as the needles pricked her fingers. She had never gotten this close to one before; she didn’t have them at her house. “They’re evergreens,” he said, gently squeezing her hand again. “They don’t die. They stay green forever.” She turned to look at him and met his gaze. His hazel eyes stared at her, almost as if they were trying to tell her something. She smiled again, her blue eyes lighting up. “I like them, but they hurt.” They laughed. “Look here.” He tugged on her arm again and led her around one of the evergreens where the grass was worn down and turning brown from being trampled on so many times. He pulled her forward, lifting a thin branch over her head and pushing her ahead of him. They stumbled forward, bent over to avoid being poked by any stray branches or needles. They made it through the tree line and found themselves standing in front of a dirt road. The road was lined with wild purple flowers growing out of pointed green weeds. Abby leaned down and picked several of them. “Eric,” she thrust the flowers forward so he could see them better. “Look how pretty these are!” She laughed, her mouth spread wide into an open smile. “Do you ever take them to your mommy?” Eric nodded, taking the flowers from Abby. “All the time. Mommy says they’re pretty. But let’s go down to the gravel pit. I want to show you the tadpoles!” He dropped the flowers and ran across the road, where the ground slanted down. It was covered in sand and pebbles and more of the purple flowers grew there, mixed with different weeds and plants. He slid down on his heels looking back at Abby. She hesitated for a moment, her childish eyes filled with the echoes of fear, but dared to chase after her friend. Tall mounds of sand and gravel were piled throughout the small valley and standing water occupied the whole right side of the area. The mounds cast dark shadows that played across the surface of the water. Little circles danced across the surface, getting bigger and bigger with each second. Tadpoles of all different sizes swam around the edges of the water, disappearing into dark murkiness of the center. Eric kneeled down just before the water, his small knees sinking into the muck, the edges of his shorts brushing the surface of the ground. He cupped his hands together and dipped them into the pond, scooping up a handful of water. He stood back up again and called to Abby, who had wandered over to the bottom of one of the dirt mounds. “Abby! I caught one! Come see!” Water dripped from the cracks be- tween his fingers as he danced around. He loved catching tadpoles. Abby peered inside his cupped hands at the small creature that wiggled over his fingers. It was small – no more than an inch long – and a dark brown color. Its body was a wide oval, almost flat with a nearly translucent tail. Its tail was just as long as its body. The eyes were tiny black dots on the top of its head. She reached out a finger and stroked it gently, pulling back as soon as it flopped around from her touch. It was smooth and slimy. She rubbed her fingers together, feeling the traces of mucus left behind on her hand. “Pretty cool, huh? Mommy said I could bring one home sometime. I haven’t done it yet, but I will! She said it will grow up into a big frog and then we can let it go again in here, so it can be with all the other frogs!” He turned and threw the tadpole back into the water. It hesitated for a second, just below the water’s surface, before disappearing into the mud. “Here, I’ll show you how to catch one! I was no good at catching them at first so don’t be sad if you can’t do it.” They kneeled, side by side, scooping up water into their tiny hands. “Just put your hands like this,” Eric formed a little cup with his hands again. “Look for a tadpole in the water and…” He dipped his hands into the water again and pulled them out with another, more developed tadpole in his palms “Tah-dah!” He grinned. “You try!” Lauren Moreau Pouring Gold 39 She cupped her hands like he had and tried to capture one of the little creatures she watched swim around, but each one managed to evade her fingertips. She tried once more and was again defeated. “I can’t,” she pouted, sitting back on her heels. Her purple dress had a thick coating of mud on the edges and her legs were brown all the way up to her knees. She leaned forward, trying to reach the one just outside her reach with the little tail and four little legs, but she reach too far and toppled forward, soaking her entire front. They laughed and Eric found it to be an invitation to jump into the water himself. The two children ran and played for a while, racing each other around the gravel pit and going up and down the smaller dirt mounds, pulling out weeds with their hands as they scrambled up the sides of the gravel mountains. Frogs hopped out of their way to avoid being squashed by their feet. Sand and rocks slid down the sides of the mounds from the weight of their bodies as they races and dirt wedged itself tightly underneath their fingernails. But Abby and Eric didn’t care. They didn’t care that they were covered in mud and sand or that their hair was stained brown from the muck. They didn’t care how long they had been there. They were just glad they were. Eric dashed over to the tallest dirt mound and raced up to the top of it, stumbling and falling a little as the dirt gave away beneath his feet. He reached the top before Abby had even gotten to the bottom. He struck a pose at the top, his hands on his hips, his chest puffed out proud, and his right leg slightly in front of the other. “I am king of the mountain!” he cried. He looked down at his friend and grinned. “And you, Abby, are my queen and together we will rule the world!” He threw his hands high in the air and laughed before lying down on his back. Abby struggled up to the top and laid beside her friend. “What cha looking at?” She questioned. “Nothing,” he answered. “I’m tired.” “Me too,” she sighed, closing her eyes. “Hey, Abby?” He looked at her out of the corner of his eye. “What?” “Do you think we’ll be friends forever?” She opened her eyes. “Yes. You’re king and I’m queen. That means we have to be.” She laughed, her voice carrying over the gravel pit and echoing through the clouds. He reached over and grabbed her hand. “Good because you’re my best friend.” He squeezed her hand tightly. “You’re my best friend too,” she said, squeezing back. He sat up and looked at her for a moment before leaning down and pressing his lips gently to her right cheek. Then he hopped to his feet, his cheeks burning red. “I’ll race you back!” he yelled, taking off towards the ground. Abby giggled, her cheeks also tinted pink as she clambered to her feet and chased after him again. He reached the end of the aisle and placed a shaky hand on the edge of the smooth chestnut casket as he looked down at her. He drew in a long, soft breath, trying to stay composed. He reached out and placed his hand against her icy cheek. Hot tears welled up in his eyes as he traced the outline of her lips, her chin, her eyes with the tip of his index finger. “I miss you,” he whispered. “Abby…I love you.” Tears slid down his broken face as he stared at the love of his life. He guided his hand down her neck and over her collar bone, following her bare left arm down to her fingers where his engagement ring sat upon her third finger. He squeezed her hand tightly before leaning down and kissing her forehead. He pressed his own forehead against hers, their noses touching and closed his eyes. “Goodbye my queen.” 41 Rain Jacob Hammer Sparkling like rain Words fly down and say “Awaken Listen to us fall on the rooftop” Eyes slowly openandbegin If I were an astronaut I’d fly to all the stars And talk to them In their loneliness Raindrops on leaves Make their way down slowly Sliding Slipping back to earth I could disappear In a million breaths Over several years (vanishing) Soaked into the earth (Between dirt Between clay And rocks) To join rivers Deep beneath the roads Man made above (Some day to join the sea) This is the exogenesis Of everything I once Stood for What I was is no longer Me Floating away Clouds across horizons Encouraged by winds Growing over lakes Fed by rivers Channelled from Rain on rooftops 40 To start again In September (Holding my breath) I hear the rain outside And I run into it Ashley Esselink Happy Accident 41 Planted Carrie Frame She is not a bird. Her arms are not wings; her skin not feathered. She cannot take flight into the cool afternoon sky; cannot escape the gravity of the peeling tree trunks the deafening sound as each cherry blossom crashes into the Earth. She cannot feel the clouds in her hair with each soaring stroke of her smooth, silky wings as she reaches for the heavens. She cannot feel her body become weightless as she lets herself fall through the air catching herself just before the treetops rise to meet her elusive eyes. But she does not wish to be a bird. Wonderstruck, she plants her feet on the sun-hot asphalt; dares to catch the cherry blossoms before they fall like twirling missiles to the ground below. And her hands are overflowing with pink but she refuses to give up; refuses to take flight 42 Elizabeth Webster Abtruse Abode A Child’s Song Carrie Frame I want to hear the birds sing to me as if I am in a fairy tale, a place where the streetlights don’t shine down on all that is broken & sterile because there is nothing broken or sterile to speak of. I want to see sunflowers where all of the burned out cigarette butts lie on weathered sidewalks trodden on by the heels of the crestfallen. I want to return to childhood, catching fireflies for my father so I can show the world a little bit of wonder, a little bit of majesty, before they try to convince me otherwise. 44 Molly Wiegand Eye of the Sunflower 45 Art Director Meghan Kelly ‘13 Cover Design Meghan Kelly ‘13 Josh Gove ‘14 Layout Design Meghan Kelly ‘13 Kelsey Irland-Wright ‘13 Photography Meghan Kelly ‘13 Lynzee Brenner ‘13 Art Staff Kelsey Irland-Wright ‘13 Lynzee Brenner ‘13 Ashley Esselink ‘15 Kat Goffnett ‘13 Brittany Jones ‘12 Josh Gove ‘14 English Staff Erika Schnepp ‘13 Advisors Sandy Lopez-Isnardi, Art Robert Vivian, English 46