Volume 18 Issue 3 March 10, 2016 Kolbe House Jail Ministry
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Volume 18 Issue 3 March 10, 2016 Kolbe House Jail Ministry
Precious Blood Ministry of Reconciliation Kolbe House Jail Ministry Volume 18 Issue 3 March 10, 2016 Page 2 M AK I N G CH O I C E S Making Choices Kolbe House at Assumption 2434 S. California Ave. Chicago, IL 60608 Publisher Kolbe House Catholic Jail Ministry Editorial Team Fr. Dave Kelly Lamonte Lay Making Choices Combines the voices of those who are incarcerated at Cook County Juvenile Temporary Detention Center, Cook County Jail and institutions throughout the state. It is published as a means to give a voice to those who wish to speak out. It is a project of Kolbe House, the Catholic Jail Ministry of the Archdiocese of Chicago and Precious Blood Ministry of Reconciliation Lost soul By William Gonzalez Jacksonville C.C. As I lay here in my coffin, six feet beneath the ground… My tongue which once was talking, now doesn’t make a sound. My lungs which once were breathing, are airless in my chest. The brain that laid inside my head, had me thinking, “I was the best”. I lived a life of violence, never thinking I would die… But the truth really turned out to be, I was living out a lie. I lived a lavish lifestyle, always thinking I was cool, but the truth is that my way of thinking had me living like a fool. The lives I hurt are many and I never respected none. Always quick to use my fists, or pull the trigger on my gun. This life of thugs and gangstas and banging in the street… Is the reason that I lost everything, and my heart has stopped to beat. God gave me many chances, to change my sinful ways and pride. Before the reaper showed up with his sickle, and struck me with such stride. Now it seems I lost my chance to save my sinful soul, for now I lay here in this coffin, deep within a hole. Was I a ruthless gangsta? Or perhaps a mindless slave… For the outcome of my sinful ways, has placed me in a grave. Page 3 V O L UM E 18 , I S S UE 3 Prison life Poetry from within the walls Sometimes I cry By Danny Martinez Sometimes when I’m alone I cry because I’m on my own. The tears I cry are bitter and warm, they flow with life but take no form. I cry because my heart is torn and I find it difficult to carry on. If I had acar to confide in I could cry among my treasured friends, but who do you know that stops that long to help another carry on. They would move fast and pass you by, than to stop and see what makes me cry. It’s painful and sad and sometimes I cry and no one cares about why. By Mary White Logan C.C. It’s waiting on letter when doing time, and your family and friends won’t even write to comfort your mind. It’s waiting on visits that never take place, from friends and loved ones who forgot your face. It’s hearing them lie saying they’re trying, making you promises, but you know they’re lying. It’s making plans with someone who you thought you knew, but the plans suddenly changed and didn’t include you. It’s hearing them say how much they care, but in your time of need they’re never there. It’s the feeling of love, honor and pride, with pain and emotions hurting them inside. It’s expressing yourself to family and friends, but they can’t feel your pain because you’re in the pen. It’s calling and hearing no answer on the phone but you maintain because life goes on. It’s really messed up when you’re doing time, but that’s prison life… Out of sight out of mind. Page 4 M AK I N G CH O I C E S A letter from Son to Father By Eddie Williams Menard C.C. Your father knows the things you have need of before you ask him. –Matthew 6:8 Poetry From Within The Walls Pt. 2 By Eric Snead Hill C.C. In superbowl 50 Denver Defense Dominated, Carolina Cam was frazzled frenetic frustrated! Halftime show was saved by Beyoncé and Bruno, Cold Play had people ready for Uno! I’ve been here before like déjà vu, This is Poetry From Within the Walls pt. 2! High Ho silver the lone ranger rides pronto, Kemo Sabe he is called by Tonto! Bat Mar riding slick in bat mobile, Ready to rumble with man of steel! Poetry from within the Walls Pt.2 Have I gone astray or askew? In court you were the defendant, In I.D.O.C. you are the dependent! Never get 2nd chance at 1st impression, A major mistake is a minor transgression! My nightmare is your dream come true, Therapeutic “Poetry From Within The Walls Pt.2”! February is the month for Black History, Black on Black crime is no mystery! On weight pile you’re getting so tight, Yet you should be getting your mind right! When Good things end I start anew, It was the time to bid Adieu, Over your head every hint flew, So very apart we just grew, On this food for thought please chew, “Poetry From Within The Walls Pt2”! The Lord gave you the power to create me. Therefore, I will always be grateful. Even though we’re separated by miles, we’ll always and forever be family. Even in a place of difficulty, surrounded by steel bars and concrete walls. It will never break me, nor will troubling days ahead rob me of reason. I was born with my Father’s will. I’ll keep on praying and dreaming as long as there’s peace and courage in my heart. I will keep fighting insecurity in order to overcome life’s trials and tribulations with my Father’s wisdom. When he asked me, “Why do we fall son”? “In order to learn how to pick ourselves up”! I dedicate this letter with pride my beloved Dear Father. Your Son, Eddie Williams Page 5 V O L UM E 18 , I S S UE 3 Maximum Penitentiary Why By Ray Winston Sumner, IL By Floyd Stewart Pinckneyville C.C. I thought that slavery had come to an end, until these four walls have captured all my rage. I ask myself why do White American society hate my African heritage so much? But when I look within the mirror each morning I love who I am. But those with power within a racial system, they are the people’s who judge me, who’s the negative stereotypes now. Why is the concept behind the word love so hard to define, understand or display. Why, the ones who say they love you so much are the people who let you down when you really need them? Why do we think we know the people who were intimate with, but they show us a side of them that were unfamiliar with? Why is it so hard to keep it 100%? Why is it so hard to have a person’s back to the fullest of ones capability? Why when s*** get thick in your life, the same people you hang with get thin. Why do women act different when you get locked up, then when you’re in their presences. Why is it so easy to cheat, but A generation ago many whites indisputably felt that blacks were inferior. The odds will always be against me and my brothers and sisters. If it’s always a double standard within the wok place. Someone has to be brave enough to admit that the issues is important. All American universities got to face the truth and learn from it before we can go forward. We as human beings we are born Black and White and other races, the sad thing that it’s you negative stereotypes out there within society. You don’t judge the beauty of a flower but you judge me!... Maximum Penitentiary hard to accept when cheated on… Why is commitment taking for granted? Why is being faithful so hard? Why the people you trust be the ones who stab you in the back? Why do n****s pillow talk with the most gossiping people (women), especially when trying to keep it a secret? Why is it so hard for men to appreciate and honor his woman when he’s free? Why does it take to be separated by force to value and express true feelings? Why is it so hard for men to be faithful? Why do women look for needs in other men, instead of comforting her differences? Lack of communication is why these questions are being abused, that’s why! Page 6 M AK I N G CH O I C E S Corrupt system By BeBo Jacksonville C.C. This corrupt system turning us into victims. Not caring if we will ever share a hug with our brothers and sisters. Many lives been lost to the “Bang” of the Judge’s Gavel, Lady justice aint blind that b**** the problem. Her scale should be tilt cause money outweigh the guilt. Legalize slavery at its most high, removing the shackles from our feet, but locking up our state of mind. Some say, “The game is cold but it’s fair”. What's fair? 16 shots by Chicago cops! My fellow brother’s doing time for crimes they were framed upon. Some say I’m lucky, some think I’m blessed. Stop believing in God the day my sister was put to rest. It’s trails and tribulation or is it just a test. Is it the cops red and blue lights or the colors we rep? Thinking of a better system one day they’ll correct only if dreams came true, I’ll live to see that day. From Stateville to Menard bunkbeds and bars. Free Spike! Free Greg! Overturn they charge, because this corrupt system is a permanent scar... “Courage is the key that turns dreams into reality”. By Derrick Rose When you are born My corner By Jimmie Dunlap CCDOC By Dwaine Coleman Pontiac C.C. When we came into this world we knew not what we face. When we got older we begun to see what a cold place. Not knowing that we can’t win every race, because there are going to be people better than you. Just don’t give up keep on striving and keep running in the race. Because when we were born we didn’t know what we was going to face. The bell has rung sounding the round, The lonely walk to my corner where no one’s around. The inspiration to continue the fight, where can it be found? Who will motivate me to rise, after being knocked down? The crowd is cheering at the prospect of defeat, so do I stay down or rise to my feet? We are always going to have haters throwing things in our face, but God say hold your head high and keep your faith, because there’s no one that can take his place. We was born to walk with God at all times because Satan want us to stay thy way, down and out. But God say keep your faith he promise we would make it through the golden gates. God Bless All. The heart of a Lion is the Champions creed, So even though my corner is empty and I continue to bleed. I must answer the bell and center the ring, if victory is to be more than just a dream. My strength is weary as the blows are felt, but I continue to jab to capture the belt. I found my corner empty as they wagered the odds, But my strength and endurance didn’t come from my corner… it came from God! Page 7 V O L UM E 18 , I S S UE 3 Doing Time By Robert Douglas Pontiac C.C. As I stare out the window feeling the chill of the wind, I see fences with barbed wire that I call my friend. Trapped in a cell as I await for my release, I know it will be awhile before I finally find my peace. Very few people know and understand what it’s like to be locked in a cell with a man you don’t even like. Memories of the past help you through out your day, awaiting for letters on the way day after day. You feel tension from within when you don’t get a letter, and your homie down the way says it soon to get better. Tossing and turning at night unable to sleep, Some watch T.V. in peace and some silently weep, No mater how you look at it we are all doing time, Stay clam and be cool it’s only a matter of time. Dear Reader By Joseph Galesburg, IL I’m glad to see that the IDOC is finally addressing issues of mentally ill inmates. I am sad however that it required being taken to court. Making the IDOC officials do what they know to be the “right” action all along. Until IDOC staff is taught to see inmates as people and not criminal livestock, the systemic violation of inmate rights will not stop. Because of the abuse of power being perpetrated by law enforcement, the prison system is going to have a monster it cannot handle. Much like ordinary citizens who are having their lives taken at the hands or a corrupted system. Inmates are being mentally and physically abused daily. We were sent to prison as punishment, not for ongoing daily punishments at the hands of the guards and administration, who have their own personal agendas. The difference for the inmate, there are no cameras, no news crews to report the injustice. No way to make our voices heard outside of these walls. The IDOC is trying to force inmates to take a less than human stand. In doing so, advancing their own agendas of more jobs, more pay and less work. They have adopted a “keep the animals caged” mentality. We must tell our friends and family to contact their local elected officials and let them know what is really happening. Lives are not just being taken on our streets by a corrupt system. They are also being destroyed by the brutality and inadequacy of an overcrowded prison system. We must make people aware that our lives matter. Page 8 M AK I N G CH O I C E S that they can, in their day to day lives. This is certainly true for me. As a Buddhist, for the past 16 years, I strongly relate to one of my early heroes and mentors, Dr. George Washington Carver: “No individual has any right to come into the world and go out of it without leaving behind his distinct and legitimate reasons for having passed through it. My inner me By Julian Robinson Sheridan C.C. My inner me is my enemy. It allows me to pretend to be everything but free. My inner me is tricky and very strong, it talks me out of doing right and tell me to do wrong. My inner me is no one but self, it hurts me and no on else. To beat my inner me I must move on, have an open mind, face my problems, and be strong. My inner me hits from left to right, to defeat this enemy I must have the will to fight. A personal look at karma By Z.L. King Hill C.C. Most of my life of 72 years, I been a strong believer in karma. For the most part, I believed and still believe: Do good and receive good, Do bad and receive bad. Also I accept and believe the native American position, namely: “All human beings have a good wolf and a bad wolf”. This simply means if we practice good, we become good. Also, if we practice bad, we become bad. The things that we strive for and work towards are the things or actions that we become or project in our day to day lives. It is my simple belief that good books will help us to become good people. Likewise, bad books will help us to become bad people. Most Buddhists and spiritual people seek to do all the good The above words of Dr. George Washington Carver are clearly in harmony with the noble teachings of Shakyamuni Buddha. Venerable Reb Anderson speaks very highly of Dr. Carver, in his book: Warm Smiles From Cold Mountains :Dharma Talks on Zen Mediation. Venerable Reb Anderson is one of my early Buddhist teachers and his books helped to convince me that Buddhism was the religion that I had been seeking, for well over 50 years, all of this is part of my karma. The habit of reading good books was instilled in me by my mother, when I was a young boy and this habit still continues today. Each day of my life I try to read good books or literature and consider my reading to be a tribute to the life and memory of my beloved mother. Even after a life or more than 72 years, Booker T. Washington and Dr. George Washington Carver are still heroes to and for me. Also, mother and several members are heroes to and for me. All of this is part of my karma. Thank you for taking the time to read my words about karma. Gassho &Metta. Page 9 V O L UM E 18 , I S S UE 3 Reminisce of 08’ Home Save me By Floyd Stewart Pinckneyville C.C. By Anthony Arrington CCJTDC 5C By Charles Hall CCDOC I remember the first time I saw your beautiful brown eyes again, it was the summer of 08, when things in my life wasn’t so great. I remember our first date, the block thought I was square, cause I took you to build a bear, but they were just mad cause they wasn’t there. You said I was the best boyfriend you ever had, but that don’t mean nothing, because the way I treated you was all bad, and now that you’re not in my life, I’m raging mad, but if giving a second chance, that will make me super glad. I was Clyde and you were my Bonnie, your brown skin remind me of sweet honey, and the love I have for you, I wouldn’t trade for no amount of money. I know I wasn’t there for you when you were sick, but you were fighting me and I didn’t understand it. For everything I did to you I’m sorry, and even though you say the boy aint mine I need “Maury”. I talk about you to the homies all the time about my feelings for you,, and they say tell her, so I’m expressing myself through this pen and paper praying everything will be better. Your cousin Lil Red said we wouldn't last long, she was right cause now I’m singing Neyo -”So sick”, love song. So until the day we can be one again, I continue to express my true feelings through this pen! Man this being locked up stuff really hurt in the inside. On Bro, when I come home I really got to change some of my ways. I don’t want to be like my Dad, in and out of jail all my life. That s*** aint go’ cut it! I don’t like being away from home for so long. On Bro, low key I been going crazy in the head because I been seeing all these nice looking lady's every day but I’m in here. That hurts me even more. When I get out I got to find something to do to better myself. Save me from all the pain. Save me from these chains. Save me before it’s too late, and I get lost behind this gate. Save me from the violence in Chiraq. Save me and have my back. Save me before I fall down, and crack my skull on the ground. Save me from my hateful mother. Save me because I’m your brother. Save me so I can be at the reunion with my family. Save me from this life of sin. Save me if your my friend. Save me so I can do some good within our struggling neighborhoods. A NOTE FROM FR. KELLY The front cover gives me pause. I see in that face, so many young people I have met over the years. They have a look of being left behind, abandoned, alone. As I work in the community (5st and S. Racine), I have come to understand that young people often times feel as though they are alone in the world—that adults are not looking out for them. Every young person should feel as though the community— especially their community– is looking out for them. No one should feel alone in their own community. There is a saying that was coined by an African American civil rights woman from Detroit—”Putting Neighbor back in the Hood”. That has been our summer program’s theme for the past several years. It is the vision of having a community that is connected to one another. Bryan Stephenson wrote in his book, Just Mercy, that we must change the narrative. Too many feel ( and this is racism) that black young men are dangerous or criminal. The community narrative has to go something like this—”these are our children and we want the best for our own.“ Let us work together so that all our children grow up knowing that they are good—that they are gift to the world. Peace, Fr. Kelly MAKING CHOICES Kolbe House 2434 S. California Ave. Chicago, IL 60608 Label here Making Choices Newsletter is a project of Kolbe House, the jail ministry of the Archdiocese of Chicago and Precious Blood Ministry of Reconciliation . Continue to send your articles and poetry to : Making Choices 2434 S. California Ave. Chicago, IL 60608
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