“So our eyes look to the Lord our God,
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“So our eyes look to the Lord our God,
Painting of Parker Breding NFR Contestant “So our eyes look to the Lord our God, Until He has mercy on us.” Ps 123:2a Painting courtesy of Charley Art Painting Inspired by Molly Morrow PRCA Photographer CONTENTS OCTOBER 2014 THE LINE RIDER is published monthly by the Fellowship of Christian Cowboys, Inc., 3125 Maple Lane, Cañon City, CO 81212. Subscription: $45.00 suggested donation POSTMASTER: Send address changes to THE LINE RIDER, P.O. Box 1210, Canon City, CO 81215. All rights reserved. No part of this magazine may be reproduced except with the written permission of the Fellowship of Christian Cowboys, Inc. Editors: Lynne Schricker & Linda Scholtz Printing: Espirit Graphic Communications, Inc Kennewick, Washington Graphic Design: Annie Thomas FEATURE ARTICLES Donna Walker Testimony God said He would not give us more than we could bear. MONTHLY COLUMNS Spotlight On Youth: By Rachael Reinholt …my favorite time is working or moving cattle…. Bible Study: By Mike Shields If the fence wasn’t broken, it will be. Down the Road: By John Kissell If this century old relic could only talk! IN THIS ISSUE... Back in the saddle again. We have had a down time in the production of the “Line Rider” but are back in the saddle again. This issue will be our first edition of the year and we are so pleased to be able to offer you, our readers, these edifying articles written by these dedicated and talented folks. This is your magazine. We would love to hear from you and share some of your stories. Just contact the National Office and send along your testimonies of God’s love. Donna Walker Testimony W hen I think about the women in my life, they are my mother, my mother-in-law and my grandmothers. I feel God has truly blessed me. My mind goes back to a time years ago when my mother was a major influence in my life. It seems all my good memories are centered around her. I always knew I was loved and special in her eyes. We did not go to church during my childhood but my mother was always there and taught me how to be a mother by example. My mother-inlaw is responsible for my salvation by raising a son to know and love God, who then showed me the way to salvation. As a young girl I had always loved animals especially horses. We lived in the city until I was 14. I use to beg my mother to let me have a horse. I told her I would keep it in the basement. Of course that never happened, however when I was 14 we moved to the country. I saved up my money from a calf I raised and sold to buy my first horse. I got my mare when I was 16. She lived until she was 32 years old. I met my husband Rowland my junior year in high school, October of 1973. Our love of horses brought us even closer. We lived about five miles apart so we would get on our horses and start riding from our homes and meet somewhere in the middle. I did not know God at this time; however I went to church with Rowland because that is what his family always did. We went to every Sunday and Wednesday service. During a revival by Cecil Welch, God tugged on my heart and I went to the altar to be saved. On June 28, 1975 I married my high school sweetheart. We were both 18 years old and had no clue what life was really like. Being so young, we grew up together. I had only been a Christian for a year and a half when we married. One year after we married God gave me my first miracle. I had worn glasses since I was young. I was at a revival when the minister said that God wanted to heal someone’s eyes. I could not see very far in front of me without my glasses. I did just fine wearing glasses but I felt like God wanted me to be healed so I went to be prayed for. Nothing happened immediately but the next morning when I woke up. I could see perfectly. I did not wear glasses until I was in my late 40’s. I guess God wanted me to be like everyone else in my generation and I had to get bifocals. However to this day I can see fine except for when reading. God knew what was in store for me in the future and I believe he wanted me to know without a doubt that he could do miracles so he healed my eyes. Life was good for the next two years. I became a mother on March 29, 1977 to a precious little girl. We named her Kasandra and called her Sandy. Sandy did not progress like a normal child. When she was six months old she was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy. She was such a sweet little girl and always a joy. She was Gods special little blessing. Two years later on August 7, 1979 our son Jeremiah was born. Within a few months he too was diagnosed with CP. Each of them had different incidents that happened at birth causing lack of oxygen to the brain. However, doctors thought we could have normal children. So now I had two precious special children. They were total care children. They could not walk, talk or take care of any of their needs on their own. It was like having two infants that never grew up. They were happy children and I feel they had a special communication with God. Life went on and in 1982 I became pregnant again. We did not plan to have another child. My hands were full with the two I had. After having two CP children we were both fearful of having another one. However we would love this child like the other two regardless of what happened. When I was between four and five months of the pregnancy I had a miscarriage. Due to complications I was unable to have any more children. A few months later we discovered Sandy and Jeremy did not have CP like the doctors thought. They had a terminal disease that would attack the major organs in their body and they would die. There was no cure, no hope. Here I was a mother of two and there should have been three children. Finding out so suddenly that I not only lost the baby I was carrying but was going to lose my other two children as well was unbearable anguish. I could not believe God would allow this to happen. I became angry and bitter toward God. My faith was shaken and I fell away from God. I was so hurt! My heart was breaking, at times it felt more than I could stand. God said he would not give us more than we could bear. God never left me; He was there all the time, hurting with me. I left God but He was still calling me. Praise God He was, and I gave my life to Him again. God forgave me and cleansed me of my sins. I still did not understand why my children were dying or why I could not have children, but I knew God was there with me. We believe in miracles and God had healed my eyes so I knew He could heal my children. On August 16, 1985 at 6 am God gave me a dream that he had healed my daughter. I was so excited. At 1 pm that afternoon Sandy passed away. God healed her in death. Rowland and I had always wanted to have four children. We still had Jeremy left and he was dying. Jeremy mourned Sandy’s death. A couple of months after Sandy’s death we talked about maybe adopting. We checked into adoption thinking it would take us three years or more to get a child. We discovered that by going through Family Services we could get a sibling group. Since our children were like infants their whole life, we did not mind having older children. So in April of 1986 we became the proud parents of Serena, Sarah, Dusty and Jonathan, ages ten to four. Jeremy had brothers and sisters to love and we had a very active household. At our adopted children’s encouragement, we became a licensed foster group home having anywhere from 5 to 12 children at a time. We were able to take in sibling groups, keeping them together. Life was full. On September 14, 1993 Jeremy passed away. He was 14 years old. We were in between sibling groups when Jeremy passed away. I felt I was through being a foster parent. I was Donna and Roland Walker with adult children Serena, Sarah Dusty, Jonathan, Steven, Matt and all the grandkids. mourning Jeremy and my physical body was tired. We had just been through 17 years of terminal illness. Six months later on March 22, 1994, Family Services contacted us. They had a 15 month old baby who needed a foster placement. On that day Steven came into our lives. This sweet little boy saved me by bringing me out of my mourning and giving me a baby to love. In February of 1995, along came Steven’s little brother Mathew. Matt was 3 months old. We had the boys as foster children for four years when they came up for adoption. We adopted the two little boys. There was a 10 year difference between Steven, the oldest of the two little boys and Jonathan, who was the youngest of our older children. Despite the talk of how crazy we were to adopt more children at our age… and many other comments… we still felt God wanted us to adopt them. We loved them so much; it would have been like going through the death of our children again. During the 38 years of marriage I have carried, delivered and lost three children. We adopted six children. I have gone through and had to deal with comas, feeding tubes, seizures and numerous hospital stays. God has been with me all the way. For a while I was consumed with the “why’s”. I still do not know why. But I know God does. I learned I could not let circumstances control my life. Why was I healed here on earth and my children by death? Only God knows. God knew what our life would be when we married. He knew the struggles and heartache we would go through. God gives us strength to endure the trials that come our way. I praise God for the wonderful husband He gave me, my true helpmate of 39 years in June. I praise God for allowing me to have Sandy and Jeremy for as long as He did. For letting me love them and for the blessings they were. I praise God for blessing me with six wonderful children and now nine beautiful grandchildren. We wanted four children. God gave us eight. Most of all I give praise for Jesus Christ my Lord, for the salvation He gave me and for carrying me through all the years. I praise Him for the blessing I would never have known without Him and for the wonderful life He gave me. To God be the glory.