1 Homeopathic Trituration Proving of Herkimer Diamond Seeing

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Homeopathic Trituration Proving of Herkimer Diamond
Seeing Through the Veil of Illusions: Shattered Lies and Sparkling Truths
Written and Compiled by Sonya McLeod, BA, DCH, RCSHom
Index
About Herkimer Diamond………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. 1-3
Basic Proving Information …………………….………………….……………………………………………………………………. 3-4
Remedy Affinities, Modalities, Miasm …………….…………….……..…………….…………………………………………. 4-5
Major Physical Themes, Pain Themes, General Themes, Remedy Nucleus …………………………………….. 5-9
Pre Trituration Journal Entries, October - November 2012 …….……………………………………………………… 9-17
C1-C4 Trituration Proving Notes, November 16, 2012 …………………………………………………………………. 17-44
Post C4 Trituration Journal Entries, November 17, 2012 – January 2, 3013………………………………..... 44-55
C5-C6 Trituration Proving Notes, January 3, 2013 ………………………………………………………………………… 56-65
Post C6 Trituration Journal Entries, January 16 – March 7, 2013 ………………………………..……………….. 65-75
C7 Trituration Proving Notes, March 15, 2013 ……………………..…………………………………………………….. 75-78
Potentizing to C40, March 15, 2013 ……………………………………………………………………………………………. 78-79
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About Herkimer Diamonds
What are Herkimer Diamonds?
Herkimer Diamonds are beautiful, clear, doubly-terminated quartz crystals. Doubly-terminated means
that instead of having a point on one end, the crystal has a point on both ends, which is very rare. They
are the hardest of all the quartz crystals. Genuine Herkimer Diamonds are only found in Herkimer
County, New York, and surrounding areas.
Herkimer Diamond Etymology
Herkimer Diamond is named after the county it is found in: Herkimer County, New York. The county
itself was named after General Nicholas Herkimer, who died in 1777 from wounds he received in the
Battle of Oriskany. They are called “diamonds” because of their clarity and sparkle - they naturally
appear to be precision cut by man, and have a diamond-like geometrical shape. Another name for this
crystal is Middleville Diamond, named after the town it is found in (Middleville, NY). It is also known as
Mohawk Valley Crystal (the valley it is found in). The Mohawk people were also called “The People of
the Crystals.” Herkimer diamond is also known as Little Falls Diamond, named after the rock formation it
was formed in. The host rock for Herkimer Diamond is the Cambrian-age Little Falls Dolostone.
The Formation of Herkimer Diamond
The Little Falls Dolostone (dolomite limestone) was deposited about 500 million years ago and the
Herkimer Diamonds formed in cavities within the dolostone. Water circulating through these rocks while
they were deeply buried carried dissolved silica into cavities where the crystals were formed.
The Mineral Composition of Herkimer Diamond
Herkimer Diamonds, being a type of quartz, are composed of Silicon Dioxide, SiO2.
Location
Although Herkimer County, New York is the location for which these crystals are named, similar doubly
terminated quartz crystals have been found in a few other locations, including Arizona, Afghanistan,
Norway, Ukraine and China. They have the same appearance but cannot rightfully be called
"Herkimers".
Historical and Present Day Use
In the past, the Iroquois and Mohawk Indians used the crystals for tools and weaponry. The Mohawks
also put these crystals on burial sites, indicating their spiritual significance. At present, they are highly
valued by gemstone and mineral collectors, for use in jewellery, and holistic healing.
Legend and Lore
If held, it is reputed that this stone will vibrate if the person you are speaking to is dishonest.
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Healing and Metaphysical Properties of Herkimer Diamonds
Herkimer Diamonds are the high energy seekers of the crystal world. They are powerful amplifiers of
spiritual energy.
Modern-day healers prize these gemstones for their healing properties. They are said to promote
creativity, stimulate clairvoyance, spiritual vision, link into guidance from higher dimensions, and
promote dream recall and understanding. They stimulate conscious attunement to the highest spiritual
levels and to your own potential. Herkimers are powerful tools for astral travel, dimensional shifting
and other explorations into expanded reality. They clear the chakras (energy field) and open channels
for the spiritual energy to flow (and connect with Divine essence). It promotes past-life recall of injuries
and disease that still affect the present life. Herkimer facilitates gentle release and transformation,
bringing your soul’s purpose forward. This crystal attunes people and links them together, and enhances
telepathy. Herkimer is said to be one of the strongest crystals for clearing electromagnetic pollution or
radioactivity. They can also block geopathic stress – water currents, mineral deposits or fault lines that
emit electromagnetic fields that are unhealthy. In crystal healing, Herkimer can be used with another
stone, to magnify that stone’s vibration.
This crystal is a supreme remedy for fighting pain. Herkimer can also boost the immune system,
alleviates physical exhaustion and insomnia. It boosts the powers of perception, improving vision and
eyesight ability.
References
“The Crystal Bible” by Judy Hall, Godsfield Press, 2003.
http://www.mindat.org/min-1877.html
http://littlefallsdiamonds.com/index.html
http://geology.com/articles/herkimer-diamonds.shtml
http://www.herkimerdiamond.com/history.html
http://www.mpaulkeeslerbooks.com/MohawkCrystals.html
http://www.helium.com/items/1180570-herkimer-diamond-herkimer-diamonds-herkimer-county-newyork
http://www.squidoo.com/herkimers
http://www.healing-crystals-for-you.com/herkimer-diamonds.html
http://www.crystalvaults.com/pages/crystal_encyclopedia/herkimer_diamond.php
Herkimer Diamond Remedy Proving Information
Proving Location
Vancouver, BC, Canada (Coast Salish Territory)
Proved By
Sonya McLeod, BA, DCH, RCSHom
Sahara Majeed
Aysha Majeed
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Prover #4, female
Prover #5, female
Prover #6, female
Prover #7, female
Proving Date
November 2012 and January 2013
Trituration Proving Method
The C4 trituration proving protocol used is outlined in “The Trituration Handbook: Into the Heart of
Homeopathy” by Anneke Hogeland and Judy Schriebman.
Source
Herkimer County, New York, USA. Bought at the Crystal Ark store in Vancouver, BC.
Pharmacy
The 10C and 40C potency of this remedy has been hand potentized by Little Mountain Homeopathy
www.littlemountainhomeopathy.com
Remedy Information
Physical Affinities
EYES
TEETH
HEART
Joints
Head
Mouth
Throat, Dry; Ears, Nose (Congestion)
Back/Spine
Fingers & Toes (esp. Nails/Cuticles)
Skin
Modalities
Worse
Chill
One Side
Night
Lies
Guilt (Anxiety of Conscience)
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Better
Fanning/Open Air
Desires
Fruitful Activity
Self-Care (Doctor, Dentist, Haircut, etc.)
Nice Self-Presentation (clothing, nails, makeup, perfume, etc)
Sparkles (clothing, champagne, trinkets, gold)
Sex
Meaningful/Authentic Relationships
Drugs
Travel & Other Pleasurable Pursuits
Water, to Drink (Thirst Increased)
Cleansing/Purging
The Colour White and/or Purple
Truth
Learning/Reading
To be in Nature
Music (esp. Rihanna)
Perfection
Aversion
Lies
Food
Miasm
Sycotic
Main Physical Symptoms & Themes
Vertigo & Nausea
Mouth Ulcers
Teeth – Caries, Crumbling Easily
Bloodshot, Dry/Watery, Burning, Itchy Eyes
Unfocussed/Blurry Vision/Seeing Double
Dryness and Pain in Throat, Choking
Difficulty Breathing, Chest/Lung Congestion & Constriction
ENT Congestion with Sneezing
Heart Pain & Palpitations
Perspiration Increased
Appetite Decreased
Diarrhea or Constipation with Abdominal Pain & Flatulence
Insomnia
Energy Increased/Decreased (Could be useful for Chronic Fatigue/Fibromyalgia)
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Skin (Itching Eruptions, Warts)
Leucorrhea/Yeast Infections
Pain Themes
Joint Pain/Arthritis/Joint Injuries
Shooting/Nerve Pain and Numbness
Back/Spine Pain/Injuries
Headache
Abdominal Pain
Throat Pain
Chest/Heart Pain
Ear Pain
Eye Pain
General Themes
ESP & Intuition: Telepathic Connections. We Are All One.
Sharpens intuition. Prophetic dreams. Telepathy. We are all born with intuition, and are linked to others
telepathically. We just need to flex our telepathic muscles; we need to really start trusting our innate
telepathic abilities and our intuition more. Provers experienced a telepathic connection with others in
their thoughts and dreams, and an ability to predict the future (sometimes with a feeling of déjà vu).
Provers’ telepathic powers were so intense that they were often able to pick up on others’ thoughts and
energetic frequency. We need to remember that we are all connected and we are all one. Once we learn
to trust our intuition more, our life path/purpose becomes a lot clearer.
Angels & the Supernatural
Connected to the ESP theme was the ability to see or sense supernatural beings such as ghosts, zombies,
vampires and other entities. Angels were a huge theme during the proving.
Lies Become Transparent: Seeking Truth
Provers were able to see through lies very easily. If somebody or something was false, they were able to
discern that. Once the falsehood was discovered, there was no skirting around the issue, provers were
able to see the situation for what it actually was and necessary actions were taken. Also, if something or
someone was not in alignment with the provers’ true path in life, it was time to let go of what or who
was holding them back. Provers above all else strove to be genuine and true to themselves, and it was
easier for them to sense what their truth was during the proving. In many cases it was also necessary to
put aside one’s ego in order to comprehend the truth about oneself. If provers had previously been lying
to themselves, the lie was shattered and they were able to see through the façade, and face their truth.
Authentic Relationships: Strengthened or Broken Connections
Provers had a desire to seek authentic relationships, and in some cases old friends came back into their
lives, or new relationships were formed. These relationships involved friends, romantic interests, or
family members. At times there was also a feeling of being alone and separate, of being out of the loop,
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with the desire to connect with others. This remedy has the ability to heal relationships, or to break
apart relationships. If the relationship was not healthy (e.g. a marriage that was not in balance),
separation happened, with some feelings of guilt, though there was really no choice. Some provers had
dreams of adultery and/or marriages breaking up. One prover experienced the feeling of extreme
heartbreak, so intense that she thought she would die from her broken heart.
Balance/Off-Balance Emotionally and Physically: Light & Dark, Integrating Wholeness Yet Imperfect
Physical imbalance (vertigo) as well as emotional imbalance. Extreme emotional & physical highs and
lows. Lots of energy or none at all. Depression/suicidal/heartbreak or bliss. This remedy can help
somebody find emotional as well as physical balance. Puts your feet on the earth with head in the
clouds. Spiritual yet grounded at the same time. Reminds us not to be too negative, but not too positive
(naïve) either. Recognizing that in life there is darkness as well as light, and that’s OK because life is not
about being perfect and it’s OK to have flaws. Being in nature may help the patient become more
balanced. Recognizing that being whole means having a balance of good/bad, dark/light within oneself.
Embracing one’s shadow side, but embracing the light (e.g. one’s “angels”) as well. Embracing instead of
denying one’s femininity as well as one’s masculinity and recognizing that both sides should be in
balance instead of resisting one side or the other (this remedy can heal our overly masculine world, to
bring femininity in balance with masculinity).
High/Low Energy Imbalance: Helps With Life Transitions
Energy could be too high, almost hyperactive, or very low. Provers who experienced the “highs” were
able to be extremely productive, to get things done that they had not managed to progress with
previously. This remedy can correct this imbalance of energy, depending on what is needed – it can calm
somebody who is too active, or can motivate someone who is not active enough. This remedy can be
useful to support and motivate somebody who has to go through a transition or change in their life.
Conscious Creation of Reality: Opening our Heart, Letting go of Fear & Claiming our Power
Herkimer can help with the process of ascension, which starts with the opening of the heart chakra.
With the heart, we can feel or intuit answers and information, which comes from our connection to
Source. Ascension is the process of anchoring our higher/intuitive selves into our physical bodies (head
in the clouds, feet on the ground). First we must let go of fear, which has been used to manipulate us, to
keep us controlled and weak (used by the elite/corporate powers). Once we recognize the power we
have, and have had all along, we come to realize that we have always been creating our reality and can
now consciously start to make real changes.
Letting Go of the Illusion of Ego: The Higher/Intuitive Self Chooses our Fate
There were reoccurring dreams during the proving of losing children and animals – e.g. of animals
escaping right through the bars and children disappearing. There was a feeling of losing control of the
situation, feeling like we didn’t even have choice over doing the proving, it chose us instead of us
choosing it, or so it seemed. Something this proving helped provers come to terms with is that the ego
has little control or choice over what happens in our lives. It is actually our higher
(unconscious/intuitive) self that chooses our destiny, without our conscious self (the ego) being aware
of that choice. Our higher/intuitive self is always the best decision maker, and the only decision maker.
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Purging & Self-Care
Provers had a strong desire to purge what was no longer useful (“toxic” relationships, environmental
toxins, clutter around the house, etc). Provers felt motivated to really take care of themselves, to get
moving on important health issues and to groom themselves well. Provers felt motivated to go to the
dentist, doctor, hair dresser, get their nails done, etc. This remedy also aids in detoxing radiation and
geopathic stress (electromagnetic toxins in the body).
“Time”
Distortions in time. Does time even exist at all, or is it just a construction of the ego? Time acceleration,
time speeding up, and sometimes a feeling like time was slowing down and was taking forever (e.g. the
proving took almost a year to complete!). Interdimensionality. Déjà vu – has this happened before, or is
it a blip in the matrix?
The Number 7
The number 7 showed up everywhere in the proving – in dreams, while making the remedy, in provers’
life, etc. This proving is Sonya’s 7th trituration proving to be published online, there are 7 provers, the
trituration went to C7, etc.
Delicate & Feminine
This remedy has a very delicate, feminine energy. Therefore it has a greater affinity towards females, or
males who are more in touch with their feminine side. There was a feminine desire for glittery objects,
makeup, champagne, getting nails done, Rihanna music and perfume.
Sparkle & Glitter
Provers were especially attracted to anything with sparkle, including sparkly makeup, gold, trinkets,
jewellery, clothing, sunlight and champagne.
Animals
Many animals showed up in the dreams, and in the life of the provers. Especially abundant were BIRDS,
pets (e.g new hamster), cats, snakes and insects.
Money: Not Having Enough/Starving
This was a theme that ran through the remedy, the fear of not having enough money, of having to
provide materially for oneself and/or one’s family. One prover started a new job so she could support
her children in a more sustainable way. Provers dreamed about having their material possessions stolen.
Drugs & Alcohol
Drugs and drug dealing showed up in dreams. One of the provers started smoking marijuana, something
she had never done previous to starting the proving. Dreams of alcoholic intoxication. Provers had
cravings for sparkling wine/champagne.
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Dryness
Throat and airways became very dry, with a choking feeling, like breathing in dust, with a desire to drink
water. Eyes also became very dry. Dreams of the desert and the opposite, ocean.
Death/Suicide/Injury/Harm/Wars
There were many injuries throughout the proving, so this remedy could come to mind with somebody
who is accident prone. Dreams of guns and needles, and dreams of people or animals being harmed by
something or somebody. Death, suicide, funerals, tombs, killing and wars were themes during the
trituration and afterwards.
Secrecy/Very Personal/Sycotic Miasm
Typical of remedies in the sycotic miasm, provers had a great desire to hide their identity as well as
some of the more personal details of the proving – and this feeling was much more pronounced than in
other past provings.
Other Dreams & Imagery
Dreams of (Crystal) Caves
Shattered/Broken Glass
Ocean, Tidal Wave
Mountains
High-Pitched Ringing Bells
Tesla/Alternative Energy Sources
Remedy Nucleus
1. Seeing the Truth (Eye/Vision Issues): Lies Become Transparent
2. Heart/Chest Pain: Opening Our Hearts & Accessing our Intuition/Power
3. Breaking/Strengthening Relationships
4. Joint Injuries & Pain
5. Dryness in Throat & Breathing, Easy Caries & Mouth Ulcers
6. Nausea & Vertigo; Emotional/Mental & Energy Imbalance
Prover Journals
Before the Proving (2012)
October 20, 2012 (Prover #4)
Saucy this morning. Felt “vital,” alive. Slept the whole night through (usually get up once to pee).
Popped awake, 8:30, interested in the day – and saucy. Sex. Good! Still feeling off balance (flight one
week ago). (Sonya’s note: #4 recently went on a fabulous trip to Europe – France, Italy, etc). but want to
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get things done, “go” vs. the past days of feeling “meh,” disinterested, lost, unfocused, not caring. Feel
like I have sunshine in my veins. 
Yesterday went to doctor to finally address my ears (tinnitus?) after 7 years of hoping it would go away.
PROGRESS.
October 21 (Sonya)
Dreams:
Lips dry (put on lip gloss)
Talking to a man, he was “checking me out.” He was talking about drug smuggling(?) or other criminal
activity.
I was treating a child homeopathically but went over the time limit. The child was in the bathtub.
I was in the line-up of a store that was selling something I needed to buy but they had sold out and sent
us away
Obs: Had nausea for most of the day (nothing made it better)
October 21 (#4)
More “let’s go, do stuff” feeling again today. When going out, wanted to “look nice,” normally don’t care
too much if just running out to the store. Had to wear white jacket. Purging, decluttering house,
especially my space/work area – want it to be “pure,” clear. Been shooting my nasal steroids to help
equalize/fix ear balance equilibrium stuff – prescription – normally strong repulsion to “chemicals” in
body, don’t want to take – but now I just want to fix it, let’s get on with it. Also think – if I have to take
these chemicals/toxins, I can deal with it, I can cope, fix it, detox after. Let’s get on with it already. Not
annoyed or urgent, just…stop fucking around already, move through it. Not particularly interested in
engaging in conversation with dinner guests, but not averse to them being present. Questioning my
relationships with friends, if they are still in alignment, or on what level I want them in my life…(T) and
have I actually fully been myself (with those people)? So, is it a clear, pure relationship? Have I fully
engaged with them? Risked fully, been vulnerable, been myself? Can they truly see me? Realized that
maybe it’s OK to be in a relationship to whatever degree/level my trust is with someone – I don’t
necessarily have to trust my first (hypothetical) first born to them in order to engage socially with them.
But…Do I want those kind of people in my life? Perhaps I could “tolerate” it, but not seek, promote
it…But then what’s the point at all? Humpf. Oh how I love fuzzy baby animals – kittens! I have often felt
left out, excluded or not specifically included…the past month this has been amplified (T) and I am
bouncing between “Oh, who cares!” and feeling hurt, alienated, upset, ignored, disrespected. Flip
flopping. Wanting to analyze. What are all the things going on for me with this trituration? Feelings?
Physical? Mental. Dreams. Everything. Wanting to be thorough. Seeing it in (self) in third person. Slept
well, straight through again.
October 22 (Sonya)
Had shooting nerve pain in leg
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October 23 (#4)
Lots of dreams again last night. Went on all night, instead of an early morning burst (usual). I was talking
myself “down” or comforting self upon waking. Still don’t know “this is a dream.” All over the map –
content. Some empowered, some like usual “can’t get it together/organized/on time.”
October 23 (Sonya)
In dream voice said to me “Lillian Forest”
Hummingbird on our tree all day yesterday
Nerve pain with numbness left side of head/neck
Keep feeling for my wedding ring that I haven’t worn in years (normally don’t do this)
U: dreams of travelling/elevators
U dreams
In Osoyoos but on the coast, a desert, someone coming from out of town, I wanted to show off my
picture taking skills – but parents took away the kids and I couldn’t show off my skills.
A hilly mountainous place, post apocalyptic, no cities or grocery stores. My good friend (in the future)
was an older, confused man chased by thieves or people trying to control everything, but there were
hideouts. He was confused, so wasn’t sure if he had children, he had a shopping cart, someone stole his
possessions, in the end he got away. We kept going back and forth in time. Past/present, old man/young
man. An old man being picked on.
October 25 (Sonya)
Lots of inquiries into detoxing heavy metals and radiation
ESP – it’s a theme. Feeling especially psychic, like I’m predicting what will happen next (think about
something then it happens). Normally I can be this way but it’s increased
October 26 (Sonya)
Detox – had a good sweat last night at hot yoga, felt toxic earlier that day (felt like I was coming down
with something).
Provers – after a year we’ve come together again, had lost touch with each other. Got in touch with a
couple homeopaths I hadn’t talked to in awhile, nice to connect again.
Aysha getting her fillings finished today at the holistic dentist – regular dentist dumped us because we
wouldn’t give her mercury fillings.
So many visits to different dentists with Aysha! (might be useful with dental procedures, was going to
use Aconite but ended up using Emerald, but remedies didn’t work) (Note – didn’t turn out to be useful,
this was more about the truth vs. lies theme)
U: dream of broken glass
Our glass candle holder broke today from the heat of the candle
October 27 (#4)
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Action Jackson! Go. It’s go time. Getting things done. Finally. Some after YEARS in the incubator. After
years of idle. After years of seemingly nothing. Time to do it. But on a current, a flow. Not urgency.
There’s not an urgent/worry associated. Just factual, OK, we’re going. Inspired action. Asking for
something – i.e.: looking for a very specific type of sparkle global earth image on the internet – and
within 30 seconds of having the visual in my mind – I find it on my screen. Then I noticed the image was
not tagged with any of the key words I was using to search. Uhh? Ok – well, great! Thank you, let’s keep
going. Like I am on a flow, current, stream, a universal current?
Efficiency. But without judgement. Still dizzy, off-balance. Must be cautious on the stairs. FELL down
stairs but was caught midway by one of my favourite people – C. He literally physically saved me from a
tumble down a full flight of stairs. I had snagged my shoe-heel on my pants cuff – thus, feet were
literally physically joined – like a mermaid. Danger. And so greatful. Huh. Grateful. Great.
Notice I am thinking things, then maybe I don’t say out loud (I’m never so inclined to be “talkative”) but
later the person will say the thing I was thinking and then I’m like – Damn! I was thinking that too! But
how can they believe me (when it comes to business ideas etc.) The first one to speak it gets the credit.
This shouldn’t matter (ego) as long as the good work/idea gets to the world. But I find it is mattering to
me. So…I’m thinking/telling myself to say it out loud when the idea comes in the first time. Verbalize!
Causing me to engage…when normally I’d take a passive role.
Still feeling stuffed up upon waking. Can’t recall if this usually happens to me (Sonya’s note – stuffy nose
for a lot of the summer & fall along with Aysha, Sahara and U too, more mucus in the nasal passages).
Not particularly hungry or interested in food. But interested in treats, snacks, sugar, chocolate, lattes. Do
not want cheese. (I love cheese, bizarre for me). Do not want anything sludgey or heavy. Want salad if I
have to eat.
Finger nails happy, strong, unbitten (I usually bit when stressed). Hair=static-y.
Want to read. Want information.
October 27 (Sonya)
U thought he saw a ghost last night (tin foil moved across the counter on its own).
Woke up in the middle of the night, tried to connect with my angels (worried about ghosts then calmed
down).
Nerve pain/sensation in my head area alternating with numbnesss, and face (left side)
U dream: There was somebody who turned into something evil like a vampire or zombie (mind control?)
– they kidnapped someone and we had to get them back – scary!
October 28 (#4)
Yesterday around 5pm-ish, was in the garage – car battery dead – and while P fixed it I couldn’t help but
focus on the earthquake kit on the shelf. It is basic but at least it’s something. Wondered can I lift it
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myself? Can I get it off the shelf? The water needs to be rotated/refreshed. We need to do this – it’s so
important….Forgot/didn’t say anything out loud. Earthquake hit soon after (was in grocery store, didn’t
feel). Also didn’t know there was a tsunami warning – and I live mere metres from the beach.
Worrisome! Need to sign up for warning to text/sms alerts. And refresh/expand the kit. Add small
power generating source – like solar? Store phone charging cords. And we don’t have a radio either. Ah.
PAY ATTENTION AND ACT ON THE SUBTLE NUDGES! Thank you.
October 29 (Sonya)
Injuries – lots of people around me have either injured themselves or had surgery (relative – vein
surgery, #6 put her back out, Sahara’s sprained wrist, Aysha’s many dental appointments, U’s knee,
friend put her back out too!)
U dream: It was time to take the kids to school, but Sonya wouldn’t take them, instead they all stayed
home to make pudding, and MIL was there saying I was stupid to want to take them to school – they just
kept getting more and more late
October 30 (Sonya)
If the doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear as it is – infinite -- William Blake
October 31 (Sonya)
Dream about my parents insisting that my husband get a job! That being a house husband isn’t enough
and he needs to make money and/or just do what’s expected of a “normal person.”
2 homeopaths in 2 days trying to get Lanthanides from me – why now?
And lots of snake remedy prescriptions!
November 1 (#4)
Poo schedule has gone out the window! Instead of regular daily AM action – it’s 3 or so daily and
squishy. Tummy has also been sensitive i.e. can’t say I have an issue digesting anything normally, but
potatoes don’t seem to be working out – perogies, to be exact. Still don’t want cheese. Want crispy,
green and “fresh” flavours. Despite period being imminent, skin has not broken out (as would be usual).
Still not nail biting. Feel bloated. Period or?
Lots of dreams…while listening to a radio recording I found myself filling in the blanks with exact words
before they were spoken i.e. 2 seconds in advance. Woke up 30 seconds before alarm, reached for
phone and voila, alarm went off – this was so pleasant to wake up peacefully. Create a happy start to an
abnormally early (for me) day in the pitch black.
Found myself not impacted by a guilt trip from mother, just saw it as “information” and know it’s her
“stuff.” Indifferent.
November 1 (Sonya)
U dream: of sandy/deserty hills.
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U has also been constipated, with lots of urging but difficult and painful to push the stool out.
November 3 (Sonya)
Dream: of going on a trip with family and not wanting to be there (extended family – mom, dad and inlaws) and wanting to go off and do my own thing. Aysha and her friend were crying, her friend pushed
Aysha by mistake.
Reading/studying alchemy. Ordered Paracelsus’ book. Reading U’s alchemy book, and came across the
acronym VITRIOL by Basilius Valentinus: “Visit the Interior of the Earth: Through purification thou wilt
find the hidden stone.” Interior of the earth = interior of the body (consciousness). The hidden stone =
materia prima.
November 4 (Sonya)
Tossed/threw out a bunch of my expired natural supplements/OTC drugs, and it felt good, like I was
really putting the past behind me and fully getting well. Being dependent on any type of medication can
be somewhat toxic and not completely healing though it was a step in getting me where I am now. Just
feel like cleaning/purging.
Continuing to contact/be contacted by people in my past – mostly homeopaths from my school days.
Was asked by one of these former school mates about homeopathy for radiation therapy and my
intuition told me that Herkimer would help.
November 5 (#4)
Upon opening eyes, waking up – feel anxiety, worry, fear, concern, sad, depression, hopelessness…Cry
at any second. Period has not materialized, which means 4 days ago was spotting and cramping
for…what? Tummy still upset, bloated, very gassy. It’s physically sticking out. Three days ago received
“constructive criticism” re: work, where I know/agree I have been doing a less than stellar job, but also
included were things I didn’t realize were upsetting/challenging for him. Received it openly in the
moment and didn’t cry – this is huge progress for me! – but have been replaying it over and over
since…asking self “what is wrong with you?! Why can’t you get your act together?!” And also see that he
is going through personal stress which likely caused my incident to be a tipping point for him – so I’m
trying not to take that part personally, but also learn from this and not just blame my poor behaviour on
something else and not take responsibility. But today – feeling very gloomy, sad for myself. Like a loser.
Left nostril plugged. Back of head feels heavy, dull, achy. Ears continue to ring (chronic). Wonder if the
house needs a clearing, energy wise. I just want hubby to snuggle me and all my worries to go away! I
am deciding whether to allow myself to cry or not – which is strange – normally I cannot control/stop
crying.
November 7 (Sonya)
Little farts periodically – feels remedy related
Relationships breaking (old ones that are not useful) and relationships strengthening (present/past that
are good). Purging, but only the bad stuff/stuff that isn’t useful.
Dream: bats in a cave
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Repainting rooms, saying goodbye to old colours we didn’t like
Finding it hard to breathe/shallow breathing – better fanning/moving air (Like Carbo veg). And worse at
night in bed (a little better elevating the head).
U had really bad watery diarrhea today.
Sahara’s tummy really hurt intensely the other night and mine is hurting tonight after a light dinner.
Mouth/tongue ulcers – a few in the last week
Quote from alchemy book I’m reading: the first stage of the lesser work, under the sign of Saturn,
corresponds to blackening/putrefaction/mortification, sometimes symbolized by a raven (brings my
crow proving to mind!)
Basilius Valentinus: “All flesh, born of the earth, will be destroyed and given to the earth again…then the
earthly salt will bring forth a new birth by means of the breath of heavenly life”
November 8 (Sonya)
Ulcers all along the tip of my tongue!
Alchemy book: “Whereas the “lesser work” has as its goal the regaining of original purity and receptivity
of the soul, the goal of the “greater work” is the illumination of the soul by the revelation of the Spirit
within”
November 12 (#4)
Quick recap – 6 days ago had entity visit – dark energy. Was not sure if it was “me” (just feeling down on
myself) or if it was entity until after I was able to clear it. Then, once cleared, it was like a switch, obvious
as day and night that it was gone and I was back. Time from noticing it to clearing was…30 hours? Woke
up with anxiety, straight away…Nov 5, then again Nov 6. Climaxed in yuck the afternoon/eve of 6th,
cleared it evening of 6th. Been feeling empowered, stronger, proud of myself since. Another 2 days later
I was offered to do easy no-brainer work for a day/week for a month for someone I totally love working
with – and offered to pay me the professional rate ($50/hr) to do this brainless work, without me asking.
Awesome. I feel this is tied in to UPGRADES. All about upgrading – on every/any level. And how relevant
that we are proving this stone. Now, crazy energy November, and in the 2012 blah blah blah Mayan lead
up….
Feeling more of my self, more centred, aware of my energy, my needs, what I want vs. what I’m told to
want or what others want. Reaching out and connecting deeply authentic levels with women, old
girlfriend I don’t see often, her opening up to me about life, energy, her seeking herself. Building
community – based on our truest essence. Being more willing to step into vulnerability, expressing it.
Physical – lungs and chest – super aware of this area. Mucus, phlegm. Ears still wobbly at times, but
improved balance yesterday and today. Dizzy only a few times – much better. I put garlic infused olive
oil in ears 2 nights ago and again just now. Suspect there is bacteria? Virus lingering in chest/lungs.
Aware of heart and mis-beats, clunking, irregular – which is known with me, but is more pronounced
right now. A few coughs now and then over past few days. When I spin my torso I can both hear and feel
constricted air trying to move through tube/passage in centre of chest. Sounds like air pushing through
straw/hose. Also is a known thing with me, but very pronounced right now. Period came and went. No
cramps this time.
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In general – feeling inspired, empowered, aligned to direction of Highest Good for All and really positive
potentials…in short – “on path.”
About the Diamonds Rihanna song – I had not heard it…and upon learning both #5 and Sonya had and
were thinking of it with the trituration I was like – “Ah, I’m not tuned in! What am I missing! I hope I “get
it,” “receive,” etc…Some lack of confidence here, but really wanting to be aligned, involved, on track,
etc…want to be IN FLOW.
November 15 (Sonya)
Voice message on phone from #5:
“There’s been a huge amount of stuff come into my life in the last 2 days, new job at the hospital, super
excited, will give me security and stability that I need with my kids. Putting the light work on hold till
January, so much going on. I don’t have the time to do the proving. Really positive and in the right
direction. The remedy is strong and my heart will be with you guys and be there energetically. I need to
do this to look after my kids and focus and get myself straightened out. I feel like I wouldn’t be there
fully and feel depleted right now, much love.”
Of course I was quite disappointed and shocked after hearing the message. Talked to #6 and #4, they
still wanted to do the proving, #6 thought #5 is taking care of herself by not participating and we are
taking care of ourselves by doing it and completing it – #6 felt personally that the process of completing
it would affect us positively so still worth doing.
November 15 (#4)
Proving tomorrow. Today #5 had to back out. Too much going on in her world…she says, “I see
something about Herkimer meeting us where we are so we can stand on our own two feet. Something
about an immediacy of action to take care of ourselves, our situation – whatever that might be.” Forging
our way…Feet on ground – tangibly – but “head in clouds” – not in an airy faerie way, but a spiritual,
Light consciousness way. The two points/ends of the Herkimer. Jeez – I LOVE sparkles! My Herks are so
bright and beautiful. I notice I am analyzing, processing this proving much more than others. Others – I
would note the data and observations. But with Herk I am processing the info also, not simply observing
or note taking. Introspective. Clarifying. Analyzing, but not in a nitpicky, rip it apart way – but in a more
whole – wholistic way – bigger picture. Zooming out and seeing self. Questioning self. Questioning the
questioning. Ha! An infinite loop.
Not nearly as impacted by others (Sonya’s note – felt that way as well under the influence of this
remedy) – am able to stay in my centre and see them – “I see you” avatar but not be taken
out/overwhelmed by their “stuff.” Stronger personal shield.
Lung/throat/chest – ongoing “problem” here. Heart was doing clunky erratic stuff again today. With the
addition of physical pain, upon taking deep breaths. On verge of coughing. Am I getting a cold? Do I have
one already? Definitely something is not right in my chest. When I twist and hear that crazy air
sound…not good. There is constriction – blockage? In upper chest which I really notice upon exhale. Still
stuffed up every morning. Sheets, pillows, laundry soap have not changed, using same stuff as usual.
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Some dizziness today still. Sounds crazy but feels like it’s more prominent in some rooms of the house
than in others. Stronger in front living area – bright, south, open, ocean view, wifi router, computer,
kitchen area all in one. Do not notice dizziness in bathroom or bedroom which are north, back of house,
built into the hillside. Today I was suspicious about being impacted by the electronics, specifically the wifi. Throat is rough, approaching sore. Voice box is a weak spot for me and I wonder if it’s tired now, sick,
worn, weakened even more. Never ending phlegm. But can barely hack anything up – it’s too deep.
Guessing it’s more in my upper chest. Was so prominent today that I pulled my scarf off because I didn’t
want ANY constriction – and I LOVE scarf action! Warm and fuzzy are so important to me.
Carried stones with me to a film screening tonight, to help regulate my heart (bloodstone and hematite).
It is seriously beginning to worry me. Needs rhythm….And I need to go to bed. Proving tomorrow
Right ear inside hurts
November 16 (morning of proving) (Sonya)
I remember a dream of #5 telling me she couldn’t do the proving because she needed to feed her kids,
and the dream came true 
U dream last night - found some bugs in a park and felt they were in danger so put them in a container
and couldn't seal the lid properly and thought they would get out (wanted to save them from getting
run over). Then we went to a hotel and he was worried the slug would get out in the hotel, worried
about the trail of slime it would leave.
Herkimer Trituration Notes: November 16, 2012
#4: brings out her Herk - when she and her husband first got together, thought they would cut the Herk
and use it as her engagement ring (but not engaged yet). Happened a month into being together.
We're all wearing v-necks.
C1: Sahara
Proving #7 (Sonya’s, note: Wow, thanks for pointing this out to mama, this is the 7th trituration proving
I’ve done/written up!)
Breathing slows down and I breathe in harder. When I do that I have to breathe through my mouth.
When they are mixing mama slows down and says her finger is bleeding!
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All of C1 my stomach was hurting
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Herkimer Diamond teeth
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Some of the stuff inside spilled out in the shape of a tooth
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C1: Prover #4
Feeling easy and open. Relaxed. Drive to here was easy, I was early even…La la la…I have known this
stone forever! We go way back. So familiar and easy. I hope the crystal is OK after I broke off the piece. I
told him/her?? (It doesn’t feel masc. or fem. exactly) that it was OK, what we’re doing. I’m sorry…But
this is important work. The Library of Universal Knowledge is being reactivated. I am conflicted about
taking crystals out of the earth. They are so beautiful and healing, but they are of the Earth and we are
stripping her. Found out this morning that Grandpa had a virus which turned into lung infection. This
worries me – about my chest/lung stuff going on right now, over past weeks.
Aysha’s skirt is so appropriate -
diamond zig zag patterns.
Now I feel sleepy. But this stone is productive! Funny.
Hangnails – this has been going on as of late.
Rainbow. Purple. Crete. Travel. The Universal Home. I noticed yesterday that I felt the Peppermint Halo
aromatherapy on my lips before I even opened it.
Itchy face
Top of head buzzy
Abundance! Look at all the drawings Sahara has made. Where I’ve travelled has been reflected back to
me – I am seeing what I have been blessed with – experiences, adventures.
Floating…glazed over. Unconcerned. Wanting to stretch out like a lazy bear. Feel my heartbeat again.
Clunky. And physically a lot of movement, hand on my chest I can really see it moving, thumping. Eyes
feel dry, especially right eye. Itchy nose, face.
Both sides. What are both sides of the story. How can the Americans claim they won the war of 1812?
Twisting history.
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C1: Prover #6
Expansive, compassionate, positive, support
Connected, reaching out, ESP
Sleep disturbance
Lower back, heartburn, sneezing
Grounding?
Overextended
Self – #5 – us – position in universe/needs
Depth/translucent. Reflect back.
Golden – silver
Creative
Ritualistic – one directional
Stimulation
Yawning
Watery eyes
Throat – heartburn
Universal
Stimulating
Raise – heights (depression) – uplifting
What we love: Travel, Banyen books, crystals, games, jewellery, baking, stores, activities
Pillow, bedding
Dog
Mountain
Cat
Demonstration
C1: Sonya
Pressing pain cervical region
Sharp pain heart region
Finger really bleeding - herk pricked it when we broke a piece off
Sneezing nose feels tickly - u sneezing a lot the last while
A bit of vertigo/unsteadiness/spinning (felt that last night too)
Breathing a little more shallow
Creativity - Sahara drawing a lot
Hammering/pressing pain right temple
Diamond shapes on ayshas skirt
Conversation about makeup
Conversation about painting the house
Water rising (ice melting) - countries disappearing (islands)
#4: Crete felt like home, everybody liked it there. #6: felt emotional. #4: true feminine nurturing energy
Santorini - land of blue and white
Burp/hiccup out of nowhere
Aysha's had a stuffed nose
Sahara
Harder for me to breathe and stomach started hurting
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#4: tummy's been off and sensitive to food
Sahara: drawing teeth. Eyes started watering
Dream: in this diamond cave
Lactose went into the shape of a diamond
#4: Theme in the chest, lungs and throat. Air isn't moving properly. This morning, grandpa who is 93 has
been complaining about his asthma and going to hospital, this morning discovered that he has a lung
infection.
Sahara also hurt in chest and hard time breathing
#4: phlegmy mucusy and stuffed up nose
Sahara: Easier to breathe when standing up
#6
Ritualistic quality in the mixing of the remedy
Disturbed sleep, trouble getting back to sleep, yawning a lot, eyes watery, heartburn in throat,
universality
Things that keep us together - travelling, books, activities, games
Mountains
Grounding activities, uplifting - felt more uplifted and more connected. Feeling compassionate.
Heightened uplifting quality.
#4: Feet on the earth and head on the clouds
All the things we like to do and enjoy, like travelling. Crystals and books and playing games, really joyful,
jewellery, the dog and cat
We had to make a choice - we made the right choice for us and looking after ourselves (5 had to take
care of her family and we had to take care of ourselves)
ESP theme
Trusting your own knowing
Intuition with client's body and changing the remedy if they don't feel well on it
Trusting that body work wasn't good for 6's back
#4: Earthquake end of October - battery dead in the car - the water needs to be replaced, we need to
add to the kit, so important, at 5 or 6pm then there was an earthquake.
#6: walked into the office, just writing you an email (ESP)
Text messages, thinking of someone and bing!
Sahara: I think the wind makes it easier to breathe
Sahara drew some teeth - Aysha had so many dental visits recently
ESP practicing in the family - what colour and number am I thinking of
Sahara - in camp Elphinstone, looked around and saw a crystal, something shiny on the ground. She saw
it in a cave and it named itself.
Aysha: not hungry but thirsty. Every morning throat hurts and feels dry and want water. #4: throat
hurting last week
Sahara dream: Ocean and island to go to a crystal cave and met a dragon with fuzzy eyebrows with ears,
looked like a cat or dog. Bird took off a feather and stuck it in the ground, looked stiff. The tail was fluffy
and short and eyebrows were fluffy. Fluffy nose like a pom pom.
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C2: Aysha
Sahara has dream at Elphinstone
I have been wanting to read my poison apple book about a fortune teller
My head started hurting
I tilted my head to the right and my ear and neck started to hurt
First round very fast
Elphinstone seemed pretty mystical
Maybe a couple of crystals under Elphinstone
Stripes
The need to go fast
At Elphinstone, felt like I had to search for something so signed up for Marine Biology study
Feel tired but still compelled to run
Not hungry for last few weeks
Feel like I need to grind up everything
Arm feels tired but need to keep going
Hair tickling chin
Stomach hurts
Sound of scraping and grinding very comforting
Neat
Badminton and volleyball
Friends
Outside
Stiff back
Animals and plants
Different colours
Hot
Breathing troubles
Feel planted in ground but want to run around
Hot but have feeling to jump into cold water
Headache
Feeling need to do something
Thirsty
Slugs – slow and relaxed
Not tired anymore
Feel mixed up like different parts of me are in different places
Want to walk around but back is still stiff
After getting water I don’t feel tired
Want to stretch
Feel dark but light almost like a raven feather
Feel like I can multi-task
Everything has to be perfect
Loving (hummingbird)
Hummingbirds are fast
Connection to earth
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Hummingbirds are all over the world but come here
Raccoons climb
Hummingbirds relax
Home
Small
Stomach hurts, back stiff
Life
Sideways scrape
Light, almost as if something is going to get me
Jagged mountain in lactose – need perfection
I want to end and do something more active but at the same time I know this is important
Happy I’m doing this instead of school
Waves
Ocean
Sand turns into a mountain over time with forest beside
Inside
Sahara: why is something so hard – so I relaxed
Music
Blue and green
Stomach hurts more
Explore
Breathing
Stiff arms
If I sit here anymore I will fall asleep
Remote areas
Big area
Lively and relaxed
Read
Too much for one person
If I were a cat I would like to go into battle
Open area/place
Ideas
Ocean is both relaxed and lively – maybe this has something to do with both
Choices
Don’t feel like doing last round
Sweat
Everywhere
Energy deepening
Mystical
Headache
Lunch soon but not hungry
Sharp senses
Finger hurts from writing
A balance of things
Happy
Stomach has mostly stopped hurting except upper, not sharp pain but very uncomfy
Running finger under water
Stiff arms
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Happy life
Positive
Personal life
A balance
What’s around you? Be mindful.
Think positive and negative
Aware and open but not too much
Be mindful of other life
Animals
Activities
Give some say to yourself but some to others
Back stiff
Ocean = big
Big picture
Stiff spine and neck
Prapicipate is that how you spell it? I don’t know, kind of zoned out.
What’s right for you?
Calm
C2: Sahara
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Path of Life
Right or Wrong
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Choose what is right for you
C2: Prover #4
That one seemed to go fast!
So talkative – Sahara is
Zoned out
Rhythm – how do you spell it? This is like a heart monitor
blip, blip, blip blip.
Pulsing in my back – mid – left side. Spaced out. Docile. Sleepy. Hangnail hurting on right thumb. If I
stood up I’d be dizzy, wobbly. Yawning. Gunk in my throat. Phlegm. Don’t like the scrape sound. Sharp
spearing pain in front of chest. Like stab w/pin. Phone just buzzed…B? Itching crown and face. So sleepy.
Same buzz, feeling as when I am around high vibration (in-tune) people and it makes me want to sleep.
Thinking of S – who actually falls asleep in B’s sessions.
Don’t necessarily feel compelled to write down what’s coming in because I think someone else will get
it, write it down.
Made pattern in bowl with the scraper. Rays, waves emanating from a central spherical body.
Like water ripples.
Hello hummingbird. Staying around a long time. Still there! Waves. We are all connected. There’s not
even separation to say we are in the soup. We ARE the soup. Continuous. Infinite. Choir. High pitched
singing, choral. Blessing – the sound of the stone? Dry eye – right. Grandma and granddaughter – mortar
and pestle – has been going on for centuries.
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Mercury. Flow, fascinating how it moves, coheres, re-collects itself. Getting hungry now.
Dust, feels like dust in the eyes. Stardust? We are all stardust.
FLOWER OF LIFE
Want all the crayons to have the papers off. So they can be pure clean colour.
Bell – the clapper? What’s the dingle part called that strikes the side? Am using the pestle this way
cross. Integrating: Sahara is integrating seeds planted by what others are saying.
Can’t really “concentrate” in a traditional way – it’s not about thinking or logic, it’s just about “knowing,”
coming in, trusting in it. Thinking is pretty useless actually.
Funny how we only address health issues when there is an “issue.” This stone feels like it’s for expansion
beyond – from a healthy state and then BOOST that. Like a turbo booster. The wisdom coming out of
these little girls, the thoughtfulness is fascinating, they are really working to distill this remedy.
C2: Prover #6
Love – what we love – what feeds us – knowing who you are
Start with love of earthly things and activities
Passion
Dreams
Communicating is enhanced
Element of longing – spiritual
Galaxy – ancient civilizations – New York
Base of spine – conscious of how we treat each other
“Sacred work”
Hummingbird
Symbols and their meanings
Friendships
Grandmother – granddaughter
Bell – singing
Water – ocean – sounds – blue colour
Finding meaning in your life i.e. lie on beach vs. playing in water
Connecting with each other
Directs what you need
C2: Sonya
Sahara: Went to village and led me to fortune teller and they had a herk instead of a crystal ball
Sahara: dream of a desk, Herkimer diamond on the desk
Sharp pain breast/chest area right side
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Sahara: not feeling so active, heartbeat slows, helps to relax. Helps people who are working hard to
relax.
U saw slugs in the yard
If one person yawns the other person yawns
People start walking around
6: shift in my energy this week
The Curtain/veil (picture I drew) - it's getting thinner - between dimensions, between the spiritual and
the material - the lines blur
Observing the hummingbirds at the feeder - still around in November!
Sah: ocean/waves/relaxed. shells, water, shower, bath, blue, relaxed sound, wind through trees is
relaxing
Clouds
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Opposite is stormy like hurricane Sandy
Aysha feels more lively - likes swimming in the ocean and wants to jump into the water
Affinity for the wilderness
Relaxing/lively
Warriors book is lively
Calm energy
Sah: lungs hurt and want to run around
Expansive energy, connecting people and exchanging ideas
Corrects whatever is needed - to active or busy vs not active enough - whatever you need directs that
Sah: the spikes are like obstacles and you are getting tired
Helps you to feel balanced - not to relaxed or too stressed
Aysha: stomach stopped hurting
Not doing too much or too little
Not being too positive - just balanced
Naivity - should be a bit critical
"The Secret" - I think it did a lot of damage
Be mindful of what's around you
Sahara
You can sit down and relax by a tree. Nature is positive and balanced.
Be mindful of what's around you. Don't hurt nature or do a bad thing or do something wrong. Being
aware and be good not evil. Don't be too open because that could be bad. Positive but not too positive
otherwise something could go wrong. Animals are really positive and mindful and on the right track positive but not too positive
C3: Aysha
Mad zig zag until no powder in middle “This needs to be preserved” then I hung the pestle in the middle
“This is the ancient temple of the pestle.”
C3: Sahara
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The crow is carrying the crystal around the world
All the peaceful and restful things
World on fire
Some of the animals we share the world with
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Breathed in the lactose and it was like dust
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The crystal is resting in the shadow of the earth
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C3: Prover #6
Talk of birds
Decluttering
Killer bunnies game – death
Hummingbird
Wars – Arab/Israel
Religious role
Feeling sleepy – right hand hurts up to shoulders
Breaking the rules
Pioneers
C3: Prover #4
Feeling very smooth.
Indian beat. Boom boom boom boom Boom boom boom girls in unison.
Lips feel dry. Eyes dry.
Consciously deciding to open to Herkimer.
Am I ready to really let it in? It calls on us to integrate change we know we need.
Shifts – helps shift, transition.
OK, 4, you are safe, protected. Set up an energetic safety cord. Then open to Herk.
Continuous wave. Discovery. Dimensions – of self and time. Chant: to army cadence…I am love and I am
Light, I am strong and super Bright.
Head down. Bow, to majesty. What is the word? Not sadness…no…but something a little “missing,”
misty…a bit of sorrow in the movie of life.
Hand cramp. Headache, top of head. No sense of time.
Static energy. Talk of conflict – the provings being rejected in the publication. Conversation turns dark.
Eyes still dry – burning.
There is some of a heaviness or…awareness of darkness…not actual darkness itself, but just an
awareness of it. I am not willing to give it energy. I am not willing to “buy in” to it.
Sonya mentions Silica. This has been on radar the past few weeks.
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C3: Sonya
Lots of birds hanging out in the tree outside our house
Another burp/hiccup
Rhythmic chiming of the mortar pestle - like music
Connection to other people - strengthens
Feel like vomiting (strange scratchy feeling in throat - choking and dry feeling)
Airways feel dry - throat and nose
Black Sand storm Swirling Choking Dry
Keep seeing something flying around me - a moth(?)
Neck feels stiff
Feels like I'm breathing dust
Sharp pain left ear
Want to sneeze
Trust yourself and relax into life more
Talking about the school asking for funding - do they steal it?
Cynical - grandparents tea about asking for money?
Cyber bullying - we should limit kids exposure to internet
Teens can be secretive
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Parents need to have a good relationship with their kids
Technology as babysitter
When AIDS first appeared, gay men dying by the thousands, nobody knew why, identified finally what
was going on, dark days
Identifying a situation - like the nonsense on the web - until it's happened you don't know it's a
dangerous thing and people get hurt by it
Like SARS and the H1N1 - always something like that
Mom's dad's brothers died in the 2nd world war
Talking about everyone's background - immigrants, etc.
A lot of people now are mixed background
Achy feet
6 keeps spilling the lactose!
Feels like the remedy has some vanity
Sahara
Globe with a shadow with a crystal, resting in earth's shadow
The crystal helps power the animals under the earth
The peaceful things in the world
Then the world on fire
Crow carrying the crystal around the world
The lactose jumps out
Aysha got nothing - as opposed to C2 - she wrote so much!
“I don't like dark things!”
People were not wanting to write any of the dark stuff down!
Sahara: Are crystals on other planets? Maybe on Mercury because it's made of stone
C4: Sahara
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C4: Prover #6
(C3 – world, C4 – personal and community)
Sound of stirrings
Creativity, nurturing – protective
Feelings accessed
Tender
Sadness
Spiral
Infinity
Integration
Responsibility
Perfectionism
Smell of cooking
Romantic love
Sleepy – yawning
Mundane things
Taking care of
More sounds of scraping
Music
Sacred
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C4: Prover #4
Wants to go fast. Speeding up. A quickening. THE Quickening. Relief. Milk – in the way that it is the stuff
of life – sustenance – supportive (baby).
Spike in ear ringing (R). Super high for a few seconds. Unifier, unity, universal…The Great Unifier.
Of course the rainbow is on page 7. This is significant but why?
A lot of what this remedy was about is precognitive, or, a knowing, almost without even having to do the
proving. The proving today (physically) was more of a coming together to share about what we already
know to be true for ourselves. Now the work is to go forward, and act upon and make tangible what we
Know (with a capital K) and Trust.
Stretching
Standing tall
Opening
Shine bright like a Diamond
C4: Sonya
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Leg joint right side pain
Yawn/cough/sneeze (tickle left nostril)
Pain left shin - these pains feel arthritic
Rainbow - colours integrated together
Prism
Cleansing
Pressing like a band on my temples
Weak feeling in leg joints
Left sided neck pain
Accepting oneself "warts and all"
Integrating all the colours of the rainbow within oneself - wholeness
Dark and light integrated into one whole
Right nostril tickly
Lots of eating - nourishment! People stop the grinding to eat
Blood got into the lactose at the beginning and keep worrying about food going in while we're eating and the lactose goes out of the bowl - all-encompassing
Playing “Diamonds” by Rihanna in the background while triturating the remedy:
“Shine bright like a diamond
Find light in the beautiful sea
I choose to be happy
You and I, you and I
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We’re like diamonds in the sky
You’re a shooting star I see
A vision of ecstasy
When you hold me, I’m alive
I knew that we’d become one right away
Oh, right away
At first sight I left the energy of sun rays
I saw the life inside your eyes
So shine bright, tonight you and I
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky
Eye to eye, so alive
Shining bright like a diamond
Palms rise to the universe
As we moonshine and molly
Feel the warmth, we’ll never die
You’re a shooting star I see
A vision of ecstasy
When you hold me, I’m alive
At first sight I felt the energy of sun rays
I saw the life inside your eyes
Shining bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond”
The last little while “Diamonds” keeps coming on the radio over and over, really resonates with the
remedy!
After the C4 Trituration
November 17, 2012: Prover #5 (facebook message to Sonya)
I can actually see the energy of the remedy, and it was really funny while I was working as the proving
was going on the kids kept saying the word diamond out loud when they were playing cards, they would
say it and then look at me. It is a very transparent remedy and I think that there are some personal
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things that have transpired as a result of it, I am not sure I am ready to put it all out there, what you
receive may be quite superficial. I suppose one might say I am having an emotional crisis right now, and
actually can’t put much of anything together except to get through the days. I can’t really explain it but
your patience until mid January would be greatly appreciated, by then I will have the processing of
everything that has crumbled around me. And I know it pertains to the remedy because I was given a set
of Herkimer earrings in mid June, It is a powerful enlightener and powerful substance for breaking down
lies and bringing one to their truth and the truth of their existence, I think patience will bring a whole
expanded picture that you did not expect. It feels limitless, and the polarity of truth and lies and light
and dark and depression/suicidal and etheric bliss are profound. Even as I write this it is easy to tap into
it and I feel I may still be proving it, so bear with me and let’s stay connected,
I am learning more about myself and my big self and my little ego self than I ever dreamt possible, and I
asked to be shown in this lifetime.
I love your work and value you as a huge contribution to the health of society as individual and as whole
. . . COMPLETELY we walk a different path us folks … like Alice in Wonderland (also a theme I think).
love #5
November 19, 2012: Sonya
Dream of cheating (husbands/wives) – 2nd dream like this I think
Aysha’s cuticle on her toe really hurts – #4 also had some cuticle problems
Sahara has gum problems or mouth ulcers – I’m also feeling ulcers on my gums and tongue
The number 7 = number of people involved in the proving – #4 said this number is important
Feels like I’ve advanced a lot in my homeopathic prescribing since beginning this proving. Maybe it really
sharpens the brain or perception or intuition.
Realized I’ve been proving the remedy since June 2012! Which is a scary thought at first, then oddly
comforting.
Talked to #5 who backed out of the proving – she thinks it all started when she was given some
Herkimer jewellery. Ding – a bell went off – this is exactly when I started experiencing some odd
symptoms.
It was soon before leaving for Alberta – end of June or early July. All of a sudden I was having trouble
breathing (like sleep apnea) in my sleep and really wanting air which made me feel better/easier to
breathe. Alcohol definitely made things worse (had to cut out alcohol for awhile which isn’t necessarily a
bad thing). I was also getting some numbness in my extremities and some chest pain. Wondered if it was
heart problems but it really did seem mind related because at the time I thought it was a panic attack,
and once I “understood” this, my symptoms calmed down.
Also in Alberta me and the kids were getting a lot of hayfever type symptoms – seems remedy related
now that I think about it – lots of sneezing and congestion.
The thing I realized is that because I started proving the remedy before I decided to prove it, I realized
there was something else in control of my life besides me and that was scary. Something greater than
myself, God? Certainly a power that is greater than myself. I feel like that gives me permission to stop
struggling so hard – but it’s still important to act, etc. – just not so important to struggle against a tide
(but still have morality etc). I have a feeling this realization is helping me in my provings and in my work.
Also the belief these days that we are somehow deficient. Medications and nutritional supplements
pushed on people because they are deficient. My new doctor told me the other day that everyone is
“severely deficient in Vitamin D.” Why the hell can’t I be whole? I am a whole person. We have to stop
thinking of ourselves as lacking, as deficient. We don’t need stuff, products etc. to make us whole
because we already are, we don’t lack anything. Realizing this simple fact is healing.
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This remedy wants to be whole – needs us to realize we are whole – which is why it is important for #5’s
voice and experience to be heard – because she was chosen for this proving and whether she wants to
deny it or run away it is just a fact and Herkimer will not “rest” until she comes to terms with it, and I am
here to do that job for Herkimer, because I can talk and communicate with #5 but Herkimer will act and
speak through me (and so it has been since June – with all of us – #5, Sonya, #4, Aysha, Sahara, #6 and
#7). A motley crew lol. We are a motley team of provers, a bunch of different people who together are
one force to be reckoned with – together we make one whole team – we cannot be separated in this,
even if there is struggle it is just a simple truth, a fact, until Herkimer’s voice, purpose can be heard it
will stay with us. Because it is time for Herkimer to be heard.
November 20
Dental filling fell out on my back molar and going to the dentist for the umpteenth time next week (no
pain thankfully).
Reading Paracelsus book – he talks about the 7 metals/7 planets
November 21
(More Paracelsus): Spirit of Truth = Spiritual Essence = One Thing = The Truth Without Lies = The Soul of
the World. It exists in everything, in every place and at all times. In its first state it appears as an impure
earthly body (imperfect). 2nd nature as a watery body (nearer to truth), 3rd nature as aerial body (almost
perfect), 4th nature as fiery form. 5th nature as illuminated form. There is but one spirit working
everywhere and in all things. The Tincture of the Philosophers = purgation of the body whereof all
superfluity is removed and transmuted.
Sonya’s conversation with #5: November 22, 2012
#5: Got earrings in June and a crystal in July (of Herkimer).
Symptoms?
No, only noticed mid October.
What did you notice?
Tooth pain bottom jaw, in me and N and a friend of mine. Big toes on both feet had some strange
bruising with no reason for it. Cut my finger and N cut his finger within 4 days.
Menstrual?
Pretty normal.
Cuticles?
I got my nails done and never do that – nails and feet, princess stuff. Paying extra attention, cutting my
cuticles.
Possibly yeast infections. J had one too – it hurts, and creamy discharge. Lasted about 2 days and every
time she peed it hurt – but no itching for her just tender red and swollen. But I had itching, burning
lower abdominal pain. I was separating from D and that was going on energetically. Scraping in the
uterus and fallopian tubes.
S: I’ve been noticing a lot of relationships separating
#5: The way we view relationships needs to shift. Relationships that aren’t in male and female balance
are shifting.
Theme of meditation and shedding away ego – coming clean – darker side, truth vs. lie.
S: Male and female not in balance?
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#5: It’s about oneness. Within each of us we have male and female, you will naturally attract the
opposites and that creates harmony – we don’t require that outside. Inward gazing – why am I looking
outward for gratification and not worthy inside? The veils literally fell off my life. Any lies and illusions I
got into got shattered.
The substance is so pure and clear and beautiful.
Not about perfection.
One of the veils we live in is perfection. It’s not about perfection, it’s about knowing. Knowing yourself,
knowing your truth, even if it hurts people. Me separating from D hurt people.
Guilt, darkness, confusion.
I have never smoked pot but have been smoking pot for weeks.
Guilt?
Seeing other people’s reactions and feeling guilty – seeing the children and how they’re feeling. I wasn’t
living in my truth. I felt like such a shit. The ego is the reason for the guilt – no awareness till this
summer. Thinking about it (separating from him) for 5 years.
What is it?
My whole life I have been trying to be perfect for other people. Met D, relationships trying to fill the
gap. Meet a guy, and still feel empty – not connected to my light. Met D, he’s safe, I will stop going from
guy to guy, but still didn’t look inward, major distraction. I can do kids and family and white picket fence
and the perfection – chasing the dragon, have to look inward. Why am I feeling like I have to get
approval from people?
My whole life – from the time that I was a year old, people asked me to do stuff and I would say yes, I
wasn’t part of the equation. I don’t have to do that and it’s OK. Me letting people down is hard but I’m
allowing myself to do that to experience it.
Also mirror – everyone mirroring you. Easy this summer and fall to see people’s behaviours that mirror
what I’m experiencing inside. Prior to that could not see the connections, just the chaos.
This week D has been punishing me for breaking up with him. Where inside am I feeling like I deserve to
be punished?
Working on D for some of July and August. The breakup came as a surprise for him even though he’s
threatened to move out in the past.
Dreams?
Dreams of guns – sound asleep and opened my eyes – lots of ghosts showing up – open my eyes and not
awake or asleep, an experience – staring into a 5 barrel gun. Terrified, grabbed J and ran to the other
room and dropped her on the head because I wasn’t in my body. Trying to figure out what was real and
what wasn’t real. It’s like being in a war country, that scary. D dreamed that grandmother came into a
room and was shooting a gun (she was a ghost – letting us know she was pissed that we broke up). She’s
told me before she doesn’t like some things I’ve done.
Sleeping on couch, open my eyes, not in this world, like Alice in Wonderland, saw this boy outside the
window, said it’s OK come in the door. I go to the back door and say where are you come in. Seeing
shimmers of ghosts.
I saw a stag – big beautiful stag in South Surrey.
Number 7?
7 is huge.
I dreamt about this bus that was a number 7.
It’s a personal process – that remedy is personal.
People mirror your emotion and our ego has a response. I am working on my transmutation process.
I had this shooting energy beam through the crown of my head up into the multi dimensional solar
system, like an affirmation – hi, I’m here, I would like contact, don’t forget about me on this planet, this
energy being.
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The sparkliness, the star quality (Sonya’s note: water sparkled when potentizing it).
Big time nausea. Like the ground went out from under me.
My eyes – like I can’t focus. Everything is totally blurry, then I will sit there and wait and it will totally
clear.
In the last 2 weeks, coming face to face with masculine energy that I’m in resistance to.
D and I split up and everyone around us re-evaluated their whole lives. Rift in space time continuum,
everything needed to change. The lows were very intense. One night thought I didn’t want to be here or
do this shit anymore.
My flaws bared to all.
I’m on a pedestal, I’m jumping off now. Shattering of that ego and recognizing how tricky my ego is.
Appetite?
When stressed out no appetite, last 3 months no appetite.
Breathing?
About a month ago – like a mucusy throat congestion. I wake up and can’t talk. With breathing it’s
anxious, take a big breath. This feeling of melting into the world around me with limited separation.
There’s this blurred vision but heightened sensitivity to colour and definition. Leaves were flashing, they
were so bright. The highs and lows are so pronounced.
Dryness?
Yes, lots of dryness, especially at night.
Felt like house was so cold for last 3 weeks. Had the heat on and couldn’t get warm. Usually chilly but
cold. Skin is cold and icy, like in ghost vortex. (Sonya’s note: Me and U have experienced this off and on
at times during proving months, sometimes icy chilliness, difficult to get warm).
Heart?
Dad had surgery to have valve fixed – having these super rapid heartbeats – happened twice.
Huge healing between relationship with my dad and me. Owning truth. Not trying to fix everything and
be perfect. Said dad when you did this this is how I felt – forgave each other and opened up a lot of
loveliness.
Friends I used to know are coming back into my life.
Theme of the voice being heard is so important.
Wholeness, we are whole inside. A hard lesson.
I go deeper and deeper into my wholeness but not easy.
We’ve done all this before
Trying to stay grounded because I am working at my job.
Seeing the truth – ugly truth. I’m strong enough now to go through those veils and face my inner child,
face the light that I am that I’ve been ignoring, that I’ve been creating a façade around.
Sonya’s Journal
November 24, 2012
U’s back (middle) went out for no apparent reason today, and #6’s back is out again!
November 25
Dream of “I” (yesterday was his funeral) wishing he was still alive – such a positive influence on the
world
November 26
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This past weekend we went to a Natural Family Planning workshop with a volunteer teacher couple. Me
and U found it to be a positive experience. In fact, I felt it draw us closer together because it felt like he
was an equal partner in the contraception. So often women are left to figure out the birth control, often
with damaging side effects. The man doesn’t play much of a role with birth control, especially married
men who don’t like condoms too much. I felt like we were working together to figure it out, and I think
he learned more about my body and how it works, which led to better communication/understanding
about how we were going to use this method. As well, there is greater cooperation from the man with
the method once he’s educated about how the woman’s hormonal cycle works.
This whole experience has made me wonder if birth control could be a factor in why so many couples
are breaking apart. Does it set up a “barrier” between couples, setting up distance between them?
I know that the “Pill” really damaged me physically and emotionally, in hindsight. Does it do damage to
marriages? Very likely, I would think. If a woman is moody, not herself, and has lower libido due to the
pill or other type of birth control, that could destroy a marriage.
November 28
A colleague of mine mentioned the “veil” yesterday after I medicated her a bottle of Herkimer and I
started wondering exactly what is this veil that I drew in C2?
http://intermetu.com/2012/02/what-is-the-veil-and-what-do-we-forget-because-of-it/
Oversoul (our spiritual self) vs. Undersoul (ego)
Oversoul and Undersoul are one being (joined but separate)
Oversoul is eternal but Undersoul remembers only this lifetime.
Pulling back the veil = accessing the knowledge of the Oversoul
The Oversoul is the true incarnator of our past, present and future
The veil separates the undersoul from the oversoul so the undersoul can maintain individuality
What is the veil? Answer is Hermetic (alchemical) in origins
Tarot card #2 The High Priestess
The guardian of the veil = time
Time is only a construct used by the collective unconscious to create a flow of experiences = life
Everything is an energetic construct (yes, I knew this, this is why homeopathy works!)
We dream the world, share the sensory environment together and call it reality
Time only affects the undersoul not the oversoul
In order to maintain the illusion of “reality” the undersoul must always exist in “time”
We can train our minds to see beyond the veil by shifting our consciousness
“What lies between the realm of the Oversouls and the realm of the Undersouls? What lies between
these two Realms – THE VEIL? Here we carve out our stone seat and in a place between the worlds, like
the High Priestess of the Tarot, we recline upon the Veil, speak to the dead, see visions, and borrow the
power of the Oversoul to recreate the world in which we live. Once we learn to enter trance and explore
this realm, we are in a place of great power. This is why, we must be diligent in our studies, meditate
and journey regularly, and discipline our minds.
To quote another mythical character, “with great power, comes great responsibility.” Let us thin the
Veil and with the Gods enjoin.” (really feeling this paragraph resonating with Herkimer, feeling shivers
it’s resonating so much!)
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The other day I sent out an email to the other provers saying that the proving started in June 2012 (or
did it? Illusion of time) after #5 got some Herkimer earrings from a friend. – and was wondering if any
other provers noticed anything around that time.
Well apparently, in August 23, 2012 of this year #4 and #5 were doing a meditation circle and were given
a Herkimer crystal.
Sonya’s Phone Conversation with Prover #4
Mount Shasta?
Woman named L who is all about energy and travels a lot and works with crystals and does a ceremony
and is guided and receives channelled info that the crystals have to go here and here. On August 23rd
there was a group meditation in White Rock in Crescent beach, #5 and I were at that, L was at that and
brought baggie of Herkimers that were in a Mount Shasta ceremony, guided to give them at that
meditation here locally.
My husband received one too. Everyone was so giddy and excited. Oh, now I have the power! It felt
really powerful, like we’d been given some magic bullet.
Sister in law also received one, has been sleeping with it in her mouth.
Mine I’d been keeping on my bedside table. It got lost during vacuuming, gone for several weeks. I’d
thought it had been vacuumed up, then one day looked at bedside table and it was sitting there, oh
you’d found it! What the hell, no. It was back. Not sure how it got back. We’d searched for it. We have
hardwood floor.
When travelling, a girlfriend came that we’d travelled with, getting hot and cold reaction from her,
unusual and upset by it. Is she avoiding me? Re-evaluating relationships (with her for example). Is she in
alignment with where I’m at, am I on the same page?
The veil?
Disappearing or thinning or not actually there
It’s a construct, like ego, helping us operate as humans in this dimension
I had a dream last night – I was a Herkimer. The one that is double terminated and pointy. That is what I
am/we are – our feet and heads are terminations (pointy) and our light body/essence is the centre
column – we tap into feet and head, we are a solid manifest light part where those two things come
together. Column of solidified light.
It feels like there’s a permanence to it – working with it, it’s a permanent vibrational alteration. It caused
a shift. We’re not the same as we were before. Then it becomes integrated.
Sonya’s Phone Conservation with #6
My back first went out in June in Hawaii. The pain is back again, still dealing with it.
Also have a good replacement with my job. Painful process with leaving my job. A big change that’s not
easy.
With relatives, disagreements about how I would exit, different points of view. Miscommunication and
different ways of looking at things.
Ultimately it was time for me to leave.
S: It’s been resolved?
Not an easy thing. Speaking your truth and it can be hurtful.
Didn’t feel supported by my friend.
Felt kind of alone through the process. But everyone meant well. Eased myself out of the job. Do you
have to split an atom to get out of there? Doing it for so long. Able to feel more divorced from it. And I
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really liked it. I did have power, not appropriate to have power but I did, enjoyed having a say but it’s
not appropriate.
Like a divorce?
Yes, moving away from something I cared about.
(Sonya’s note: She asked for this to be edited, thought people could “see through it” if I didn’t edit it.
Noticing a lot of secrecy with the remedy )
Noticing a theme of the very personal
What bothered me was how my relative responds.
Trying to take control of my health. Reaching out to doctors. Focus on my health. Branching out.
Really letting go of work – not thinking or worrying about it. Letting go. Feel good about it, and other
interests opening up.
Like gardening, organizing the house. Books and spiritual things I enjoy doing.
Travelling more, that’s relaxing, increasing travel, more participating and open to it.
Trying to exercise, not lose momentum. Pace it and still be open to it.
#5 and I are going through something similar. Lots of parallels. Very connected.
November 29
Yesterday long conversation with hair dresser about travelling, pretty animated discussion
Me and U have started planning a trip to Cuba
Warts – are they a symptom? Sahara has had them on her arm since June, a big crop, and recently they
became very itchy and started disappearing. I got a small one on my thumb a few weeks ago.
Similarly to how 2 other provers feel (they asked me not to go into too many details and didn’t want me
to share some private details) I too have gone through something but don’t want to share the details
with the rest of the world. Suffice it to say my husband and I went through some personal difficulties in
September and our relationship was quite strained for that whole month. However, we did come
through it and I feel like our relationship is stronger than ever. Lots of personal things people are going
through in their relationships, but so personal that they don’t want to share, a big theme.
November 30
Yesterday went to the dentist and it was a cavity that I had, ouch, got the filling.
Theme of really taking care of oneself – haircut and dentist within a 2 day time period for me.
Sahara’s cuticle on her little finger really hurt this morning.
Aysha and I have a cut almost on the same place on our ankle (talus bone near the joint)
December 1
Dream about going to a place (Seymour Mtn?) that if you follow a path down by the river, that is the
place where all the young people go to get/deal drugs, and we were driving in a car around that area.
There was a giant pile of stuff, and people at a party were leaving, it was very early morning, there were
some stragglers, we had left an item there by mistake (small appliance?) and someone had taken it
already.
Then another dream where we had a rabbit and a guinea pig but they escaped through the bars and I
picked one up and it started biting me.
Another dream where I was with Aysha and told her to come with me, she was pushing something, went
through a busy area and I lost her.
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December 3
Veil/illusions
Seeing through the lies/transparent
December 4
Over the weekend U complained of headaches which is highly unusual for him, and not an occasional
headache, but he’s had a headache a few days in a row this week!
Kids have also complained of headaches – first Sahara in August, then Aysha in the last month, also not
usual for them (for Aysha it was both temples and for U it was left side of the crown of the head)
Last night dream that U’s friend J was trying to harm/sabotage me in some way and my dad came to
defend/protect me
Yesterday something clicked about the painter we had over here 2 weeks ago, he was finishing up the
painting while we were doing the proving!
I found him off the Homestars review site. In fact the last few tradespeople we had referred by that
website were really excellent, but he was a total fraud. Turns out he was faking reviews – and not just a
few but hundreds! I had no idea people who seemed perfectly nice could be so deceitful! He can’t paint
worth a damn, for sure. He made so many mistakes!!
Then last night I was stewing about this painter who duped me and it came to me that this remedy has
an ability to see through the veil of lies into truth, true reality.
Falsehoods and lies are just stories.
If we can see beyond the story, we can glimpse truth (what we’re always aiming for in homeopathy, to
see beyond the story).
And the truth is that we are all just energy! And that energy is constant, eternal, it cannot die! (the
oversoul?)
So am I communicating with the oversoul of the substance? Maybe.
The true essence of a substance – I like it, sounds so alchemical.
U remarked that this remedy has a quality of get up and go and get it done, of going with the flow and
I’m feeling it too.
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So getting back to the undersoul/oversoul thing – what if in everyday “reality” we are only seeing the
undersoul of things, but of course some of us (like me) sense the oversoul and sometimes that sensing
can get really powerful if we keep honing our skills
And time is an illusion, the remedy exists before I make it (eeek, paradox but I think it’s true)
So making a remedy is like capturing(?) the oversoul of that substance – of course it is willing to be
“captured” otherwise it wouldn’t happen because these things have freewill
December 5
Dream: went to the hairdresser but they had sold off my spot to the highest bidder (new policy!)
As I continue to transcribe proving notes today I got a very sudden pain in the left side of my head
Also a very sudden pain in my ovary/right side abdomen
I feel like this remedy partly gives us the inner resources to deal with the world around us, to give us the
inner strength to follow our path.
Lots of cramping now in both sides of lower abdomen
Last night got a really severe cramp in one of my feet while thinking of the remedy, my foot really seized
up, felt arthritic
December 6
Dream: We lost Sahara’s friend L (U has had several dreams about losing the kids). I’ve also had dreams
about husbands and wives swapping partners and remarrying.
December 10
Keep rubbing my eyes and they look bloodshot (for last several days). Just getting over a mild head cold.
Yesterday U got a red rash on his wrist.
Sonya’s Conversation with #5: December 13, 2012
Moments when you think you’ve got choice and you don’t. Since June felt like the last 6 months, feel
like that has been going on. Last night I dreamt about D and he smiled in my dream whereas a before
that he was hurting me.
I created the veils for 12 years, it was fine to live in that.
Remedy has allowed me to look deeply to my truth and where I stand, without ego. Shedding a lot of
ego.
We don’t live in the world without ego…Mine is really tricky and has learned to be super sneaky. For
instance, I’ll be a martyr, which makes me feel better but it’s ego, rather than truth which is not ego.
Since July, N has complained that his spine is hurting – going on and on about it.
N has had low appetite. Wanted reiki on his back last night.
D felt shattered in September – his whole world shattered and torn away, rawness.
I had a dream 1.5 weeks ago – D texted me at 3am, he gets insomnia with the stress – in answer to
question I’d asked him, couldn’t sleep and had to get up at 5am, first thing I dreamt about was him
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reaching up inside my body, grabbing my spine and pinching it and hurting me – told him to please stop
and he wouldn’t.
Then my friend came over the other day – he said you were in my dream, I dreamt you had a steak stuck
in your spine and I pulled it out for you.
People talking to me about their teeth.
I was driving around and seeing spirits over Oak St. after the flu shot.
I’ve really gone through a lot, looking at who I want to be, what’s true to me. I come back to my job and
they offer me a leadership position. I get to work with leaders and create change.
Oh my God, get me off this planet, I can’t do this (theme of remedy!)
(I mention my email from R – like a peace offering, felt my relationship with him was healed)
Young female leaders coming into leadership on the planet. How did I get into this job position so
young? I have an energy that nobody else has and it shifts people. Calling in open minded people now to
work with and try some other therapies.
Post 26th?
Such a transformation for me.
Sonya’s Journal
Dec 14
Sahara is sick with a dry cough, some ear pain, lots of dizziness and seeing double/multiple, worse when
turning the head (sideways or backward).
December 20
A LOT less tolerance for BS. If you are going to BS me I am going to expose you. Just saying it like it is.
Not putting up with manipulation or mind games.
Aysha’s had back pain the last few days, also eye pain (right), stomach pain.
December 22
Dream that I was walking around an island, on vacation on a French island, with a family member. I also
remember we were staying in a nice hotel suite. My family member would bring his daughter(*) here as
a way to make up for his (guilt?) for the future divorce from her mother.
*But it was actually his son’s ex girlfriend (turns out they got back together), but in the dream she was
his daughter
December 27
Dream that I parked my car and went to a music concert. The concert started late and when I came out
the car was gone (rough neighborhood). So I called my relative to help because I could not find the
towing place (Busters?). My relative picked me up and we were driving around looking. I think I was
doing a job/errand for her and told her I quit and didn’t want to do that sort of thing anymore. She
understood. Then cut to a scene of people rehearsing/singing in Chinese for a concert and they were
cutting themselves out of shackles.
Thinking back to seeing my younger relatives on the 25th and not liking who they had become.
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December 28
Dream that I was driving in the rain and it was really starting to pour. Mom was in the car plus 1 or 2
more friends. I wanted to park my car and take the bus but I was worried I didn’t have an umbrella. One
of the women with us was hitting on/interested in a man walking by us on the street. Cut to us stopped
in a Stanley Park café.
As I write this, there are flocks of seagulls and loud calls outside my window.
In my dream L (colleague) was telling me that business was not so good for her lately, agreed that mine
was not too because of the economy. And because I dreamed of her, knew the remedy she sent me
would arrive today (and it did, prophetic).
Last night the cat killed the hamster and I couldn’t help thinking was this some family curse because my
childhood hamster also escaped the cage and died. Yesterday I had also been looking at new hamsters
for sale on Craigslist, I think it was a foretelling.
December 30
Dream about old friends from high school. We were all sitting at a bar table. I think I was quite drunk.
We talked about old high school friends last night.
This morning looked at new reviews of the painter we had that horrible experience with and an old
colleague/acquaintance had rated him highly – phoned her up right away (can’t be a coincidence – this
remedy can bring old friends back into your life).
Dream that somebody’s son almost swallowed a needle – parents left son with me, dad was missing,
had fun but I was worrying (?) that he might swallow a needle.
December 31st
Death – hamster,” I’s” funeral (went back to where his wake was to see a movie), of raccoons in the
movie we saw
January 2, 2013
Death of an old year and beginning of a new one! Yesterday the theme of death continued as we visited
the King Tut exhibit – treasures found in this Egyptian king’s tomb. Especially resonant with Herk was the
golden room (precious and sparkly). And at that point I realized Herk had brought us all there. The
Egyptian tombs are key to understanding this remedy – the Egyptian people understood that it was
important to bury their dead a certain way so that the soul could travel to the spirit world.
U saw a “road ghost” on the trip back from Seattle.
Eyes hurting (me, Sahara) – the eyes are the window of the soul. And joints hurting yesterday (definite
proving symptom as it would come and go).
We got another hamster. A big orange cat keeps coming into our house, very aggressively. A crow was
perched very near to me and was not afraid. Animals are drawn to this remedy!
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Proving Part 2: January 3, 2013
(Animals gathered around the proving circle – cat, stuffies, hamster)
#5: Had champagne last night. Nanny brought some, let’s have a glass, OK. Really nice, organic stuff, no
headaches or icky. Very sparkly glass.
Sonya: Bought a 4 set of sparkly eye shadow recently. At Solstice they asked us to wear sparkly things
during the ceremony
#5: Nostalgia with sense of closure today. Have a feeling I will be learning from Herk for awhile
#4: It’s with you
#5: Didn’t bring writing utensils, it’s a talking not a writing remedy
#4: Before Xmas dinner with friends, had super fancy expensive champagne, had it for a few years,
vintage, meant to age, so fancy when will I drink it? When is it supposed to be? Stored it specifically, in
its box, brought the champagne to friends’ house, they said this is fancy, yeah. I don’t even care
anymore! I have no attachment to it!
#5: That letting go!
#4: Drank it, pretty good, it’s OK. The bottle was beautiful and clear and gold.
Sonya: The gold room at King Tut exhibit, it felt overwhelming
C5: Sahara
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C5: Prover #4
Woke up with running nose (but hubby has had for 3 days prior)
Cat sitting cats at our house <3 Love kitties!
The cycles. P ->huh? – rhythms….
Stunned, dazed, glazed…uhhh..What are we doing? (forgetting the process I certainly know)
2 white scarves (#4 and #5)
Sunshine
Itchy, burning eyes
Ushering in the matriarchal era . . . out, away from patriarchal. OH! And our conscious males will do so
nicely in our matriarchal BEYOND.
If there are cycles (yes, there are) then here we are “pinching” the end of one (oh dear – like a poop!?
Not a gorgeous image, but accurate, I suppose . . .)
Delicate . . . a delicate energy to this remedy
WORDS . . . words . . . words don’t capture – ah! We don’t want to capture, do we! – alas, words do not
do justice . . . the truest essence – frequency. (whereas “words” put meaning (extraneous) on things). By
naming things we reduce them . . . but if we could just humm . . . create voice, music, song, instruments,
then that would be true . . . there is a high-pitched, frequency tinkly, twinkly, glittery sound, tiny
beautiful ringing bells. The sound of glitter, sparkle, magic wand. TRANSFORMATION, TRANSITION.
Ancient Rome – bees – fountain.
C5: Prover #5
Herkimer Diamond
There is a feeling in my tummy like a tiny echo built from excitement, anticipation . . . before a climax. It
is also in my low heart, throat, as if my whole body is vibrating with anticipation, even my palms are
sweaty and my body has a flush, the need to take deep breaths to steady, secure, a sense of honor, a
need for grace, tradition, poise. Breath out through small open pursed lips, control the breath, control
the excitement. I am drawn to the glitter in the room and as I say/write this Sonya’s eldest daughter
walks in, she has a gentle softness highlighted sparkling from her, goddess feminine energy. Blurred
vision, close and far. Things about a foot – 2 feet away are clear.
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This remedy makes me play with my fingers. I have also experienced a very itchy face.
The anticipation needs more explanation. It isn’t that of a teen or a child energy. There is a maturity to
it, a reserved anticipation that catches one unaware and bursts forth with such strength it can
overwhelm, thus the need, desire to pair it (like a good wine with cheese) with grace, poise.
The need for perfection is gone. You show up how you show up. Intense, soft, mini explosions of
excitement, peace, it’s all there in you. You who have fake nails not to hide yourself but to remind
yourself of that sacred feminine energy you be.
CAPACITY
Om mani padme hum
C5: Sonya
“Orange Kitty” – keeps coming into our living room and makes himself at home late at night!
Death – our culture sees it as negative but don’t think Egyptians saw it that way
Jewellery – sparkle – #5’s earrings
#4: What would the highest best aspects of femininity be?
#5: Shit! This is a powerful remedy! Gone as soon as you started grinding! Like I’m high on pot! When
you asked that question, it’s totally what I was writing
S: pass it on (like joint)
#5: hope I “come down” by Monday
Wave of nausea and whooshing sound
#4: ushering in a matriarchal era, not necessarily feminine. Not necessarily dominance, just whole and
nurturing.
#5: theme of feminine power, we are doing the work, this body holds resonance needed to create
change, having feminine eyes, can see the beauty of masculine, pendulum settles into the centres,
softness. Yet places where we need to act and harness those charges
#4: Crete is popping up
#5: D and I weren’t talking for months, but as remedy closes, can have conversations. Is my life my own?
Alice in Wonderland trip. #4 and I went out for coffee after Crete, talked about how beautiful it was. 2
heads floating through the shop, so surreal. This is how energy works! Thinking you’re going for coffee
yet doing something you don’t know that you’re doing.
#5: Dream the other night, grandpa told me there was an earthquake. He’s done that before and
accurate
#4: Put an earthquake app on my phone
#5: Lots of dreams of tidal waves coming in, people holding hands, we didn’t expect this, on the beach,
ride the wave then OK, but quite tumultuous riding of the wave. This is a conscious male vs. unconscious
male. I was asked on a date, went because I needed to be showed something. Showed me this is an
unconscious male, you already know what a conscious male looks like, like the same person but
unconscious vs. conscious version. You have a choice, it’s that certain. I will just sit here, become a
hermit crab.
#4: Our conscious males will do nicely in a matriarchal society.
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#5: Ability to transcend the fight. I’ve seen someone put their patriarchal energy out the door in a male
body then be a female, the ability to step into the energies we need to step into to promote healing, it’s
a part of who I am but leave it out the door, a different being, the capacities.
#4: Capacities and potentials, Jean Houston (author)
#5: Tesla Kids, kids coming from Orions Belt, green thinking but hard energy, loving our planet through
energy and how to harness it (Sonya’s note – watched a documentary about this topic – Tesla keeps
coming up and his ability to harness alternative energy sources)
#4: Science but not science, it’s just natural
#5: Working the solar panels, etc. Orion has stars and they line up with the pyramids, Those tiny rocks
were in the pyramids
#5: #4 and I got stones twice from woman L. 2nd set of stones – 1 was quartz, etc.
#4: The little sliver, the tiny sliver was like a nail, it was clear, maybe it was topaz or quartz, it had been
taken to Giza Pyramids and had a ceremony there, wedding ceremony.
#5: All these sacred ceremonies
#4: Lumerian, clear quartz, eagle and condor marriage, male/female energies, balancing,
#5: What is above is below, eagle and condor unite, time of peace, indigenous and non indigenous make
harmony on the planet. We’ve been in Pisces and coming into Aquarian Age. Ancient Greece, coming
out of Christian symbolism into the golden era, back into the hands of the mother from the father as the
stars shift. Everything plays out. It blows my brain. We’re being placed where we’re being placed, just be
who you are. Sit with legs crossed and fingernails painted.
Sonya: Teeth! They look like teeth
#5: K was given a Herkimer and was told to put it in her mouth, and another woman slept with it in her
mouth.
Sonya: Mouth sores and ulcers,
#5: It cured me of my mouth sores!
#5:Went to lib, grabbed these 2 books, very romantic
#4: Fake romantic? Surface. Super romantic for me to give crayons to hubby if I know it’s important to
him
Sonya: 50 shades of grey (reading this over the summer)
#5: We create fantasies but it doesn’t work that way. Is it fake or not fake? The illusion of that. I don’t
know
Sonya: Or it’s so clear!
Sonya: 50 shades, it’s very male, power dynamic
#5: It’s all about the copulation, but remedy has so much depth, gaze at someone and lost, it’s beyond
this world
Sonya: And yet in this world
#5: Driving down the hill, remedy is saying you’ve got to let go, that’s what today is about. Grief, loss?
Don’t have a word for it. Really intense. But it’s OK, the beautiful stuff will ease you through the process
of transformation. Someone showing up at your door with flowers. If you know you have to let go and
it’s part of what we’re here to learn, ease through transitions it lightens the intensity. Channel, swirling,
then coming out the other side. Huge star connection
Sonya: Crows like shiny things.
Sonya: Getting hot times. #5: Sweaty palms at night
Sahara: Tiny bit nauseous. Almost trouble breathing, stiff and hot.
#4: Boling something on the stove, P has just cleaned stove, sparkly and shiny, heard the pot going,
pushed chair back and ran to stove but on my way, going at 150% speed with full force, completely
smashed into our countertop, and my knee and all up my hip, annihilated it, it’s sore. Right knee
#5: I did the same thing when rock climbing, hit my right knee and right toe, bruised.
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Sonya: U hurt his right foot
#4: Put rosewater in middle of circle, very feminine
#4: Perfume! I’ve been wanting perfume (S noticed this too)
#5: The feminine! The soft feminine, womanly.
#4: P gave me perfume for my bday. And sister perfume for Xmas
Teeth hurting
Aysha: Now I’m feeling nauseous
Sonya: Visited AG store, debut of the American Girl of the year, January 1st
#5: It’s the debut of this remedy, this whole process is its debut, packaged beautifully so it can be
powerful
#4: Good marketing, packaging
Talking about American Girls – Aysha’s doll looks nice in new sweater set
#4: I’m cat sitting, they go behind the TV and come out full of dust bunnies
Sonya: I keep my office clean because babies will find and pick up dust
#4: Cleaning and purging stuff #5: Yes, any clutter, I will give it away, I don’t need this #4: Let’s get rid of
things, I don’t want things. How are we going to go to France? A lot easier if we don’t have things
#5: I will be moving into smaller accommodations, figure out how much stuff I need, decided in
December
Sahara: I see the dust and my eyes are watering, getting into my eye
#5: I don’t want too many transitions (kids moving schools)
#4: Transparent, transform, transcend
So sunny outside – everything sparkles
#4: You know that sound with a magic want when they wave it, it’s transformation, high pitched teeny
bells, sound of sparkles
Sahara
Random bubbles and a weird shape. I saw a puffer fish in the bowl. In the back, Herkimer diamond
floating in the ocean.
Then the teeth, more diamond
Is it quartz or is it Diamond? The structure
Does Herkimer like the sun or moon better? Maybe the sun because it makes it brighter. But maybe the
moon helps it hide. Saw a bee in the lactose. Just thinking of colours.
#4: Bees are a symbol attached to ancient Rome – statue with bees.#5: My body is tingling now
Is it done? A long ending and long beginning.
Lunch conversation
#5: Reticent
Sonya: The reluctant prover – maybe it will be the title of my book!
#5: I start my job on the 7th!
Sonya: Things will happen but not emotional about it, not lack of empathy but just see it very matter of
fact, like it’s just a part of life
#4: The emotions don’t take us out at the knees
#5: I got heart stuff. Pain in the heart, really painful
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C6: Prover #4
#5 says reticence – reluctant, unwilling
Back of head aching – where neck meets head
Feel zoned out, checked out, “invisible,” unheard
DOUBT DOUBT DOUBT SECOND GUESSING
Outside . . . #5 and Sonya having a conversation and I am outside of it, out of the loop . . . hmmm
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeemmmmmmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmuuuuu
Sadness . . . separate. Alone? No . . . just separate.
Are we done yet?
Thinking thoughts, useless . . .
Cranky. Am I getting PMS’y?
Sleepy. Nap please. Off. Cut off.
Itchy scalp.
Tibetan Black Quartz (Herk Shape).
Forlorn. Able to burst into tantrum. Right now . . . if I had to act one, I could . . . emotional welling up.
Pain, ache, right lumbar
MAPLE SYRUP!
Life blood of the tree. Tree of life. The earth essence.
Bacon.
C6: Prover #5
Eyes burning slightly
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My physical feels very relaxed. My mind has this perceived perceptual disturbance questioning what is
real. Like with the matrix and its feedback loops and vortices we get into rhythms and patterns and
don’t fully see the magnitude, or big picture.
Feeling around my ear lobes, was kind of numb and spacey like tunnels.
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C6: Sonya
Dry mouth. Dust!
Keanu Reeves movie (watched the other day) – sees devils and angels, beyond the veil, psychics
#5: Getting a full astrological chart reading done tomorrow. What stars will around when I was born,
how was it aligned, how to draw on the energies to clarify the purpose of the planet
#4: Feeling really separate and don’t want to feel like that and sad about it – feels like the opposite of
what this is about (Herk remedy)
Remedy has ability to bring people together or apart (hg) – it’s done (#5 hears the word “done” echo in
her mind)
People see death as a separation but the loved one is just on the other side of the veil – just in another
form now, left their body
Aching knees
Noticed more sweating at Bikrams.
#5: I’ve been very cold, but will also get a cold sweat. Right now my feet are cold sweating
I’ve had bloodshot eyes. #5: Last night, couldn’t see properly. Close up can’t focus and far away can’t
focus, kind of misty or hazy, everything kind of smoky
#4: Feel cranky and cut off
#5: Perception. Eyes. How do you see it? Perspective.
#4: You see the present. We created time because we couldn’t handle something, so we needed to put
time in place
Sonya: Without time the ego time won’t exist
#5: Up and over the edge. Went rock climbing for the first time with the kids. Indoor climbing.
Aching joints.
#4: Right lumbar is cranky. In the structure.
Lots about structure in my work
#5: Sonya’s face looks peaceful and angelic
#5: Out of body experience in yoga, too much for me at that time
#5: Family healing, relationship with dad healed. I was 4 years old again. When I was 4 my mom was
hospitalized and stepmom came into my life at 4 and asked will you be my mother and she agreed. We
loved each other. I blocked her out because of my sisters’ journey with her. Before Xmas realized it’s not
my karma, been trying to balance everything for everyone. Said to half sister say hi to your mom for me.
Told her thank you for being there when I was 4. Huge healing moment. She hasn’t seen the kids. Family
healing, huge beautiful moments. After Xmas prayed for a miracle, for D and I to start talking. Then he
and I started to communicate in a positive way through a place of real honesty and real depth, really
cool and touching in a lot of way, the softness and ability to be honest and vulnerable. And N softened.
#4: I’ve not been wanting to have clothes on, don’t want anything restrictive, get off me! Jeans are
terrible torture, want sweat pants.
#5: (lost weight) Now can feel hungry.
#5: Lady at Tim Hortons thought I wanted 7 double double coffees.
Talking about eating disorders. Find that love/light within yourself.
#4: One of my girlfriends is bulimic.
#5: Needing to have control in our world
We didn’t’ have control over this remedy!
#5: I quit my job 2 times and lost seniority! What! Then went back again. Maybe we should just all free
fall. We make choices..
Or do we?!
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We might want to have control, but it might not be true that we do (just comforts the ego to think it has
control, makes us feel better)
Cake and ice cream – yum
Talking about coffee – love the smell #5: Bought a coffee grinder, grinding beans and drinking coffee.
Not buying my own marijuana. #4: I love the smell of coffee and bacon. Bacon and maple syrup. Maple
syrup in coffee. Maple syrup was stolen, barrels onto the black market. It’s the life blood of the earth.
They tap it.
After the Proving
January 16, 2013: Communication Over Email
Sonya (Email Title: Reluctant No More)
I was a little drunk when I sent my email last night, I was at a wine tasting, with lots of sparkling
chandeliers everywhere I immediately thought of Herk!
Holy crap you guys listen to this from http://www.ascendedearth.com/product_p/divine-alignment.htm
“The whole process of "Ascension" is the anchoring of our Higher Dimensional selves into our physical
bodies, so that we embody our True Divinity as creator Gods and Goddesses, and all of our spiritual
abilities and knowledge. This process doesn't begin with the Crown Chakra, as most would think, but
with the Heart Chakra, as the Heart's energy field is huge, much much larger than the other chakras.
With Ascension, the Heart becomes the Mind of the body, not the Head or intellect. With the Heart, we
feel or intuit answers and information, which come from our Divinity and connection to Source. This is
through Divine Love, the guiding force of the Universe, and the building block of all of Creation,
including all of Humanity.”
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Prover #5 Email
I keep seeing little sparkles around people's heads
I went to an angel meeting last night and as I was sitting there someone from work literally walked out
of my head, to be healed, I don't quite know how else to explain it, they just walked out. My gift of
becoming peoples’ energy so the light can see them is heightening. The interesting side to this phase of
spiritual embodiment is keeping elevated above the egoic interactions
Unlike me normally, I became so overwhelmed and could see everyone's truth that I literally felt
nauseous and began to cry
It was like too much going on at once
I stepped outside to get fresh air, my whole body went intersensional
There was one woman talking about her daughter’s depression and I actually felt her and her state and
that was overwhelming too.
I went to look after me and my own spirit and left feeling really weird, still trying to sort it out, but I
think I will more just rise above and leave it behind, that is what I felt today
The letting go theme continues and recognizing that perhaps what I thought was my vibration is actually
too entrenched in patriarchal nature. My fear of letting go is to be alone without a guide, and yet deep
in my soul I know I am my guide, very profound time of choosing to let go of vibrations that expect me
to be unwell and have baggage and a profound time of choosing to let go of vibrations that say you have
to work HARD to shift patterns. What if we are in a time where because the veil is so thin we can leave
patterns instantly.
What if that is each our journey to find ourselves our own healer
I wish I could claim that I am drunk during this email, but I am not ;)
Bahahaha
From a pure loving heart
Ps very strange but also made very lear to me: my ET name is
Commander Lily
Love love love
(Prover #5 Email Continued Later that day)
Omg
Ok I write this for the Herkimer record
Because the whole might was just too fantastical to not be the absolute breakdown of every illusion I
have err bought into
Also forgot to mention that a client was at this event as well as a precious colleague and because I was
clearly being more truth and courage and openness than I has chosen to show up as before, and I did
not want to talk to anyone because it seemed petty and not sacred in that moment
The client came up to me and said that “It's ok #5 I just want to be friends and not be your client
anymore!” The whole illusion of everyone's thoughts literally were so apparent and how they all felt
sorry for me because I was crying,
Made me almost hysterical at their idiocy not knowing me at all,
All in all it felt very Alice and wonderland and the hilarious thing about it all is that I don't care,
I am doing my work whether I want to or not, that is the strangeness of it all!
I can't put it into words or sort any of it out
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I don't usually open up at angel night and had not been in months, and I started the group feeling so
positive, I think maybe I am not supposed to go anymore!
Anyway. If either of you have had this confusion between knowing your exact purpose and alternating
with a great big giant question mark and in my case every test I can imagine being thrown at me
Phew, Sonya I hope this intense Remedy helps tons of people!
Love #5 by day and commander Lily by night
Prover #4 Email
I can't help but think that we may not have a sense of 'closure' or 'done' with this Herk proving because
it has actually altered our understanding of time/dimension/truth - in that it is eternal and never ending
and infinite and therefore, the proving never really began, (at a specific point) and has not and will not
ever really end…. It is as though we are being shown a snippet, a chapter, a layer of what WAS, and now
we are living more as we ARE.
Good Lord this is tricky to articulate…. If Herk impacts us by expanding our sense of time (and that time
ISN'T) then of course being able to define a 'done' date will be difficult. Maybe, it is not about done, but
about INTEGRATION. When we feel Herk has worked its way through all our cells, recalibrating here,
there and shifting this and that - THEN we will feel like the proving is 'over'
SHINE ON.
January 19: Prover #7 (By Email)
Realizations/Themes
*The truth about friends and family members*
Although the process started in 2011, when G was increasingly unstable, it seems that 2012 and 2013
(so far) have been important for me to fully see the truth about friends and family members and decide
what to do with each one so I'm able to continue to work on being healthy in all ways and not have
anything take me down and away from being happy about my life! No more. The latter half of 2012 had
a lot of this. The main theme that has come up is how some people are very self sabotaging, and/or
need to control others, because they can't face themselves and I need to step away and realise it's up to
them to see the truth about themselves, look in a mirror so to speak, I can't healthfully be around them
unless they do, or at the very least I have to limit contact with them. It has also been a reminder for me
to trust the little tweaky thoughts/impressions that pop up along the way about what is going on with
people and not just take someone else's opinion about the person as the full truth. I've had to take
action with 2 people to remove them from my life.
More than ever, I don't want to waste any time with people who I'm easily irritated by, particularly
those who have fake spirituality, for example people who talk about karma yet don't act like they really
fully get what that should mean (the do unto others part of it) and are therefore hypocritical. This
applies to the most disappointing thing to witness, a close relative choosing to be with someone who
embodies this. I can feel a lot of anger at that man because he's controlling my relative under the guise
of being spiritual. I've had a bit less anger lately, I've let a lot of it go, but also I find myself almost being
fooled by him at times because he's usually fairly nice to me.
*Fear of being like my relative*
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This is not something that worried me much in the past, I didn't think it would happen. Well, it did
happen but it isn't going to happen anymore, I've had it.
I've been increasingly determined to not repeat any bad past patterns in any relationships, and the
harder realization has been how bad my relative is in romantic relationships. I could see her mistakes
clearly over the years, but the hard part to face is that I did something similar with G as she has in her
relationships, putting up with things I shouldn't, burying how powerful I can be, diminishing myself
because I wasn't fully appreciated for what I really am. Really I was usually in the hands of decent
people, I judged well, but G was the shatterer of that, he took advantage. I more fully realised how I had
let go of certain ideals that I had about romantic relationships as a teenager that were pretty healthy.
Actually it's quite shattering (best word to describe it for me) to realise this, how I've never held out long
enough to see if I can meet someone who really feels right to be with, beyond friendship.
And I've had symptoms that my relative had at about this age since the summer of 2012, hair loss,
worsening of IC in the last 2 months in a way that never happened before, maybe a narrowing of my
urethra due to inflammation. It has been harder to pee for the last 2 months or so, meaning I have to
wait longer for it to leave my body. I have to make certain sounds in order to get it flowing, sometimes I
hum, or even shout words like "whatever!" or "peeeee now!" Apparently my relative has a "pee song"
that she uses for the same purpose. For me the vibrations help, it's not like running water to relax. I
finally realised more about what those symptoms are about, symbolically, and maybe with this
realization I can shed them (or stop shedding when it comes to my hair). I realised them this week, no
other mind-body work with the hair loss helped, it continued, and it seems to actually be about her. I
feel like with the hair loss, my femininity is leaking/dripping/falling away and it's harrowing. I have more
facial hair too, like I'm becoming a little man. Yet, I feel more feminine in many ways, more sexual, and I
don't look like a man to myself.
With my relative, it's like watching someone choose deliberately to be blind, and tra-la-laing about it.
She trusts "authority" too much unless the authority is rude to her.
*New interests, unexpected*
In January (2013) I've been drawn to more sparkly things for some reason, buying a disco ball dress and
prisms to hang in my living room. I only once before bought clothing that sparkled, a top many years ago
that I rarely wore, but I liked the disco ball dress so much and was surprised by how well it fit too. It
made me so happy that I put on music as background as I looked at myself in it. I'm also wanting to get a
number of things that are red and was disappointed that a red top I wanted from Sears has been
discontinued. I felt a lot of disappointment at that, I really wanted it, again unusual for me. I so wanted
the red, and the top was kind of sexy in a pretty type of way.
Another thing I've thought about more in the last few months, and rarely did in the past, is horses. I wish
I could have a horse, maybe a miniature one, but that's impossible for me and I know it, so I don't feel
sad about not having one, and likely wouldn't like the upkeep even if I did have one. But I've read more
about horses than ever in my life and was really moved recently by a documentary about the guy known
as The Horse Whisperer. Peacocks are another animal I've focused on, not researching them much like
horses, but i have several items in my house with peacock designs, and peacock feathers too, and in
January (recently) ordered a peacock dress because somehow I'm feeling more ready to be a peacock
maybe? I also have a number of bird themed pictures, something I never used to have before because I
tended to fear birds but now I don't. I started collecting most of that in 2012.
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I also have considered buying things made of copper. I had copper bracelets years ago but fear the
effect of copper on the body so I haven't purchased anything to wear of copper yet.
And glow in the dark things, I've contemplated getting some of that, maybe a glow in the dark moon,
but then I worry about how safe that stuff is, and a lot of it is tacky so I may never find anything that is
suitable.
Health Changes
In the fall and winter so far, I have been horribly inverted with my sleep, becoming so nocturnal that I
felt it was a problem and suddenly in Jan (this month) I realised I had to change this and get more light
into my body so I'm doing that (I felt a hunger for light), hopefully returning to being asleep by 2am like I
did in my 20s. So far it's working, though I feel like I'm being thrown around all night, waking up every
30-90 minutes unless I take some medication which I try to limit.
For about week this month, I was getting migraine every night, and had my first ever migraine with
flashing lights. They appeared in my left peripheral vision and were preceded by a bright white/yellow
zig zag in my left field of vision. Bizarre. No pain during it until after the flashing stopped.
My eyes have been a bit bloodshot, mostly red streaking out from my retinas, often this January
(December a little too), surprising me, though this makes my eyes look even lighter blue which is
interesting (but no thanks, I don't want the red to have this effect!). As I have almost always really liked
my eyes, even when I didn't like other parts of my body, this has been hard at times because I feel like
it's a bad failure to lose my eyes, so to speak.
I had bad joint stiffness/pain that affected my sleep for maybe 2 weeks but then I took some magnesium
citrate and that cured it in one day.
My teeth have suddenly worn down more on the bottom row, fillings from last year are worn more, all
very recently.
My hair has continued to fall out since the summer (mentioned earlier above), which is very sad. I had
stopped the loss before, and kept my hair all through the G stuff until the water contamination
happened in the summer of 2012. I have to sweep/vacuum it up frequently. I have bald spots when I pull
back my hair in some places. I am hoping that getting to bed earlier will help. I try my best to relax and
reassure myself about this, telling myself that if it all goes, or most, there are better human hair wigs
now that I could wear (god I hope I don't have to). I'm distressed that I know women who are unhealthy
who don't lose hair. My relative lost a lot of hair in her 40s and it didn't grow back.
One more thing of note, for the last 2 months or so, when I've been in certain exasperated states,
feeling angry and thwarted, I'll say out loud, pushing out the words, "Death!"
(Sonya’s note: edited a bit at prover’s request – secrecy/the personal theme continues!)
January 22: Prover #4 Email
You know what, this is so helpful.. .Sharing…..
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Both relationships and Mother things have been coming up for me, more so the last few months…
maybe even last half of 2012? I have been acutely aware of how my mother cannot ask for anything
directly. She will use almost any other means necessary… (surprises, manipulation, guilt, 'suggesting',
planting ideas etc) Not that she is 'bad', but I have been seeing this clearly and it is disappointing and
annoying to me and I certainly do not want to behave this way myself. It is not some big super
noticeable thing to others perhaps, but I see it now, see the patterning. I also feel sad about it.
There is a father element too…not sure if related to Herk, but has been more evident of late: I see how
he thinks Life happens TO him. It is always that he has to react to some outside force, that he doesn't
understand/believe that he has the power to create his life. Simple example is that at his work,
everyone else will book their vacation time and he is left with 'scraps' Upon mentioning this in advance,
he says he can't book his time off because he doesn't know what everyone else has planned… WTF!?!?!
is what I feel! I want him to grab the bull by the horns, so to speak. I want him to be a strong man.
Similar things come up with my hubby - wanting him to be powerful (healthy powerful).
Since a trip in Sept/Oct with a group, including a valued friend, I have been disconnected from her. We
have been friends for 10+ years and I have valued her very much/good relationship. Something switched
while on this trip and I have not seen her since we returned and I re-run events in my mind, looking for
what I did wrong…. but I cannot find something that would truly count. I can find an incident where she
did not like a truth… to which she said, "It's fine." dismissively… And if that's the case, if she is upset by
that, then I have to question whether we are in alignment anymore. I miss her and have reached out a
few times… with no response. So, I don't know how to take this one. It has never happened to me
before and it's upsetting…. could also be along the theme of 'is this person in alignment with my
direction/my path'… and I'm not ready to let go…???
I must say, ladies, that I am so grateful for the openness, the vulnerability (i.e.: strength!) we are all
bringing to the table. Very beautiful and perfect.
LOVES!
Prover #5 Email
I even joked that I was turning into a little boy because I was getting so skinny and this week I am seeing
the truth in the control and lies from the person I thought was the love of my life, shattered is an
excellent word and almost deathlike
Holy crap
On a different note I was given some amazing info on connecting to the goddess in a sacred ritual and it
is my birthday and was thinking of holding a sacred ceremony
If it feels nurturing for you to join please do, it is about the sprouting of new beginnings
I also read (and this is funny) women used to expose their vulva to newly sprouting seeds to let them
have the vibration of femininity and that they would grow that high! I guess that is why the '70's flower
goddesses did not like to wear panties!!
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Sonya’s Email, January 22, “On Family, Friendship, and Our True Destiny”
It is now our job to align ourselves with people who are living their highest truth. People who lie or
deceive themselves because they don't want to see the truth don't resonate anymore. The positive side
of this is that some old relationships (R who introduced me to the provings, my cousin who has grown
closer to me, old friends, etc) will naturally become stronger. We will start to align with the right people
naturally.
I used to think that the answer to living in this "toxic" world was to isolate myself like a hermit - now I
see how forging and keeping healthy relationships is really the answer, how that can strengthen us
because we have so much power, all we have to do is know how to access it, as we keep learning to
truly know ourselves and our destiny better.
I thank you ladies for doing this work, because it's important, it can really change the world because we
are all connected. I now see my very existence as an act of rebellion :)
Sonya’s Journal
January 21st
It’s become increasingly clear to me that the sensation method and many of the newer methods,
although no doubt they’ve influenced me, seem delusional and/or untruthful. These theories are really
just theories but have not proven true to me in practice. Why has modern homeopathy become so
impractical? Looking forward to starting the Andre Saine course in homeopathy tomorrow, the way he
practices rings true for me. Some homeopaths say you need modern remedies for modern diseases, yet
he has good results treating modern diseases like MS using polycrests.
January 23
Dream last night that someone/something had “fixed” my heart – I woke up briefly in the middle of the
night, knowing/feeling that my heart was healed.
U: dream of hamster escaping the cage, and another dream about adultery
January 24
Today, playing Killer Bunnies card game with Aysha and the dice would not stop spinning, and at that
moment she said she had a feeling of déjà vu and she has had this feeling a few times in the last few
months. We then had ESP during the game, predicting “Bunny” deaths, etc.
January 25
Thinking this is like the Matrix, where we notice inconsistencies and/or start waking up to the fact that
we are starting to notice another reality or dimension that most others don’t see – The Red Pill!
Feeling more tired and negative and sure it’s the remedy because I can really feel its presence today.
Thinking of all the suffering in the world, song “A-Team” about an addicted crack addict/whore. This
remedy is so endlessly deep that it can suck you down down forever. Feeling all the sadness of the
world, it’s so vast and endless and hopeless and unfair. Feeling negative about that damn virus that
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infected my website, and sure that I would be doing better if it hadn’t gotten infected. Live and learn but
it was a hard lesson. Needing some time on my own and I feel myself retreating. Feeling a little
desperate, like poverty consciousness (a little anxious about not having enough business/money). Doing
my taxes right now is not helping that state of mind.
January 28
Oh what a journey last weekend. On Friday (when I last wrote) I’m pretty sure I was picking up the
energy of my relative who is an alcoholic, we cooked dinner for he and his girlfriend and you could really
sense something wrong, the energy of an addicted person is so dark. Considering that I have been there
myself it was quite easy for me to sense and perceive the signs.
Then the next day (Saturday) realized I was feeling so much better. The day before feeling so down and
hopeless and frustrated with not having enough business. But on Saturday realizing that it was not
business or money that I was needing or really wanting – as I have said in the past before. Really, I feel
that my role is to help the earth and everybody on it with education, first and foremost, as well as
healing which has ripple effects. For example, even our perception of the world and how we interact
with the world can affect how people treat us and our life path. Ian Watson says we create our own
destiny and that definitely rang true for me on Saturday when I perceived how much life seemed to
change for me when I had a different outlook on Friday vs. Saturday.
It’s fascinating to me that as we shift we can also shift and influence the people around us. Of course
there is a time for action and a time for contemplation/shifting, and I do my best to do both at once (or
perhaps there is an alternation to it, because perhaps shifting cannot happen without acting and vice
versa).
January 29
The 7 Sacred Directions (native spirituality)
North – winter – blue – courage
East – spring – humility – yellow
South – summer – red – honesty
West – fall – black – respect
Up/above – wisdom
Here we are right now – green – love – within yourself
Down below – brown – truth
(colours vary between authors, message is the same)
February 7th
Lots of shifting recently.
Reading the book “The Alchemy of Nine Dimensions by Barbara Hand Clow” and feeling big shifts while I
read it, consisting of energetic detoxing (feeling emotions release in my body, plus sometimes a little
joint twinge or nausea). Yoga has sometimes helped with detoxing the emotions/stuck energies.
It strikes me how easily we can all get stuck in 4D, even those of us who are aware of what is going on
(corporate/government elite brainwashing etc.).
Fear = Control
We must be masters of our own world/reality
For so long humanity has been controlled by fear, not seeing our own power, not trusting ourselves, our
intuition.
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WE ARE POWERFUL
WAKE UP
IT’S TIME NOW
We can create our own reality. We always have. That’s the key/secret. Mind control. We hold the key
and we always have. All we have to do is wake up.
How do we get out of the confusing world of 4D emotions, used to manipulate humanity for so long
(think Capitalism, Organized Religion, etc).
WE ARE FREE
ALWAYS HAVE BEEN
ALWAYS WILL BE
ALL WE NEED TO DO IS
REALIZE THIS
SO SIMPLE
I was so wrong. And that’s OK, people to make mistakes, I admit I was wrong. It was the wrong tactic.
All along I was trying to be the saviour, when all I really needed to do was own my own power, and
teach this wisdom to other people.
People dominate us because we let them. I’m done playing the game.
Wow. Taking full responsibility for our own lives, and the creation of our lives. A huge leap even for me, I
have to admit.
The fact is it’s so easy to blame others and point the finger.
Simple wisdom for a dying race and a dying planet.
The people who are truly awake just need to start doing, because just interacting with others sends out
ripples, ripples of truth, will help people see beyond the veil of illusions and lies.
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Feeling the need to do workshops and go out into the community.
Feeling very powerful, because once we realize our own power, and stay in our bodies, reminding
myself of the 7 directions and that I am located in the “Heart” chakra/direction. Feeling truly present.
Positivity is the answer, not finger pointing or arguing or trying to make others “see the light.” People
who are ready to see beyond the veil will be influenced. Those who refuse to see or are not ready will
not see it – but they have made that choice and I have to respect that.
The truth is that if enough of us wake up a change will happen. Even by witnessing my own shifting over
the last few days, I know this to be true. But it’s a personal journey and one we can influence but not
interfere with, because everyone has to find their own way in their own time.
Seeing things in Polarities rather than Dualities (from Clow book)
Self/Other
Grounding/Letting Go
Integrating in 3D/Integrating with Spirit
Feeling/Power
Creating/Giving
Now/Bliss
If we live in polarity instead of duality we can expand our frequency (live fully in 3D).
“The interconnectivity of individuals is what opens the portals to the higher dimensions”
5D = The Realm of Light that centres in your heart (must clear the 4D dualities first before moving into
5D)
February 12
Clients booking then cancelling, but I already had the feeling they would not be coming, so not caring at
all. Just increasingly excited about all the new plans I have for my business, finishing off this proving,
adding to my website, and creating a brand new (2nd website). Money could be better but I’m realizing
more than ever how empty it can be to only have that as a goal – it will all come eventually and enjoying
the process of establishing my business. I have some good loyal clients and I appreciate them and think
of them fondly all the time.
February 19
Reading “Awakening the Planetary Mind” by Clow. We need to open our hearts, become less material
and more emotional. In order to do this, expose our hidden fears, which results in becoming more
creative and loving.
February ??
Dreamt that I ate shit last night, and woke up gagging, felt like I was about to vomit, choking/coughing
and dry throat. Yuck!
March 1
Saw #5 a few days ago – she said that in this remedy can be heartbreak so intense you think it could kill
you. Literally feeling like you are dying from heartbreak. We agreed to leave out certain details from the
proving, which is OK, we still get the gist (extended version of the proving in future? Lol)
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U had a dream that the toilet flooded, and I was not helping keep the mess clean, in fact, making it
worse (and he then started choking me!)
March 7, 2013
Time is accelerating at an enormous rate! At times in my life things seemed to be going so slowly, taking
aeons, centuries, decades to unfold – now boom, I cannot even keep up! So much to do and so much
happening that I am becoming overwhelmed! It’s a good thing, though.
I looked at one of the lines of my email and it kept looking purple even though I *think* I typed it in
black. – keeps happening in various texts in my email that I’m editing throughout the day (some of the
proving data is in my email)
And yet this proving is taking so long to complete (polarities) time speeds up/slows down. But of course
time is an illusion and necessary for the ego to function.
March 15, 2013
The proving draft is 77 pages long, and I know I can’t ignore Herk’s message that going up to the C7 level
is needed. So hard to say goodbye, part of me just wants it to stay but I know I need to let go. (Rihanna’s
“Stay” really strikes a chord)
C7: Sonya
Itch itch itchy leg, back of neck and arm and face
Purity fills the room
Angelic and delicate the sweetest music
Pure White
Catch in the back of my throat like excitement
There is no emotion here just truth and light
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Back of throat feels like sadness but not quite
Ding ding ding ding bells
We are all connected. We are all one
Just trust in the universe, that it is all happening as it should
It is all happening simultaneously all at once. So are we just going through the motions? In a way we are
hmmm
Why would that makes us feel so bad to realize this? Because we want to be in control. The ego
Well what about the truth? “You can’t handle the truth” – well that’s true  most people can’t
It’s hard to hear that we have just been puppets and slaves. That could be shattering.
Shattering the ego. People don’t like that. We like to think that we are “in control” of our good deeds,
that we “did it” The ego just gets in the way of the truth (tears in my eyes but I can’t feel the emotion of
sadness)
It just is. In that place of “is-ness” there is no emotion, emotion doesn’t live there – The Oversoul
Detached? No, it’s not the right word – just knowing what is, and accepting it
Accepting it with our eyes wide open, knowing that what’s going on the world is NOT OK
“Time” is flying by way too fast!
OK, so we are born, with a destiny that our oversoul has already chosen, and what I have “done” has
already taken place. Yes, it makes sense.
Well, OK, angels could be a metaphor. Let’s just call them “The Good Guys”
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An army of Angels that are fighting the Bad Guys
It’s already happened, yet not in this dimension
Easy to fear what’s coming – but remember, it’s already happened so nothing to fear
Fear (an emotion) doesn’t exist on this level, and that’s what’s been used to control us in the “past”
But the time for fear is over “now” Now we must fight
Not fight in a desperate way, but in an illuminated way, for what is right. Fight for what is right and true
and beautiful – for freedom.
There are little angels along the way – little messengers – use them to guide you.
Acts of kindness, good deeds.
Sunlight pours in the window
TIME IS A LIE
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Just accept it, it’s OK (feeling nauseous, hard to digest this)
I’m ready for the truth, I can handle this
That’s why ESP works, because a part of us has been through it and knows it will happen
This has happened before and this will happened again
Why do we keep so busy doing “stuff,” just a distraction
A distraction from the purity of life – if we don’t savor it, could pass by, fast, in a blink
Living always in the past or the future – but there is no past, and there is no future, so we are not really
living
Most of us are not really living. Like in the Matrix before they are unplugged
It’s time for us to live in a higher vibration – no choice if we want to live (those who don’t will die)
Hold a mirror to ourselves and to the world. No choice not to look (or else die)
Heart attack, heart break – what is it about ourselves and we don’t want to face? A painful truth
But truth is actually not that painful. We only believe it’s painful, we’ve believed the lie that it’s painful.
No more lies ever ever ever ever ever again
"Stay" by Rihanna
All along it was a fever
A cold sweat hot-headed believer
I threw my hands in the air and said, "Show me something,"
He said, "If you dare come a little closer."
Round and around and around and around we go
Oh now tell me now tell me now tell me now you know
Not really sure how to feel about it.
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you.
It takes me all the way.
I want you to stay
It's not much of a life you're living
It's not just something you take – it's given
Round and around and around and around we go
Oh now tell me now tell me now tell me now you know
I want you to stay.
Ooh the reason I hold on
Ooh cause I need this hole gone
Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving
Cause when you never see the light it's hard to know which one of us is caving
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I want you to stay, stay.
I want you to stay, oh.
Potentizing to C40
Emotions – used by Illuminati/evil people to manipulate – press, docs, corporations etc.
Caught up in emotions/web of lies – trap/manipulation (4th dimension)
Just one person can be enough to make a difference, but we still need an army
I’m ready
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