Together we Live with Cancer!
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Together we Live with Cancer!
MATTHEWS ONCOLOGY ASSOCIATES Together we Live with Cancer! SHEBOYGAN CANCER & BLOOD SPECIALISTS TLC is a “Supportive Community" that provides cancer survivors, their families, friends and caregivers with health and wellness opportunities for the body, mind, heart and spirit. Summer/Fall, 2010 (Volume 10, Issue 3) “Ultimately, man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but rather he must recognize that it is he who is asked.” – Viktor Frankl INSIDE THIS ISSUE: GOOD OLD COMMON CENTS: The Significance of the Insignificant Little Cent THE WORLD ACCORDING TO TIM: 2 The Surprising World of Art By Tim E. Renzelmann SURVIVING & THRIVING: SURVIVOR SPOTLIGHTS: Mary Rohde Poems from the 2010 NCSD Celebration! 4 Breast Cancer Survivor Joe Wield 4 By Kris Krumenauer Chemo the Elephant HOPE HAPPENINGS: By Dr. Jeff Corrigan 9 STUFF FROM THE STAFF: By Mary Matthias Three Wishes! BONUS SURVIVOR SPOTLIGHT: Jeff Corrigan, MD 14 Arriving Home Cancer Survivor The Big Red Truck 13 By Tim E. Renzelmann 14 From the MOA/SCBS Staff 6 HOLISTIC HEALING: Testicular Cancer Survivor Ya Gotta Try Yoga! 15 WHAT’S HAPPENING? The best way to stay informed and up-to-date of what is happening in the local cancer community is to get on the TLC Supportive Community e-mail list to receive regular updates on events and activities of the TLC Supportive Community, The Sheboygan County Cancer Care Fund and other local cancerrelated events and activities. To be added to the list, e-mail: [email protected]. H. Marshall Matthews, M.D. Oncology/Hematology 920-458-7433 1621 N Taylor Drive, Suite 100 Sheboygan,1WI 53081 www.moa-scbs.com S. Mark Bettag, M.D. Oncology/Hematology 920-452-1650 GOOD OLD COMMON CENTS: Supportive Community who has since moved out of state in which she wrote, “Tim, I saw the attached in a magazine and thought of you. I always and still enjoy the TLC newsletter. Thanks for keeping me on your mailing list.” Jill included an article that listed “7 New Uses of for the Penny.” Among these uses were: curtain straightener, tread checker, table anchor, game token, makeshift screwdriver, icebreaker, and birdbath cleaner. Her letter piqued my curiosity and caused me to send an e-mail to some of our readers asking for the different ways they use pennies. This is some of what I received: The Significance of the Insignificant Little Cent! By Tim E. Renzelmann As I sit down in front of my computer to ponder a topic for this column I notice a lonely penny on my desk. As I think about it I realize it has been there for several weeks. I’m not sure where it came from or how it got there. Perhaps someone who knows of my fondness for the penny left it as a token (which often happens). Perhaps it unknowingly spilled out of one of the many Sheboygan County Cancer Care Fund “Coins for Cancer Care” coin boxes that come across my desk (which is where it will end up at the end of the day). “It’s only a penny!” some may say. Indeed. This one lonely little penny seems quite insignificant today and is considered by many to be worthless in our current economy. According to a Consumer Price Index calculation, a roll of fifty cents in 1797 (the first year the cent was minted) would be worth about the same as a roll of quarters today. There was a time when a penny was actually considered useful. In 1873 it cost one cent to mail a postcard. In my childhood days there really was such a thing as “penny candy” and penny gumball machines. Those days are gone! This single cent is but one of almost 500 billion (yes, “billion” with a “b”) U.S. Cents that have been minted over the past 213 years. It is only one of an estimated 15 billion cents currently in circulation. So of what use is this meager little one cent piece? And, more importantly, of what use am I? You see, there have been times in my own life when because of cancer (or life in general) I have felt very much like that penny… insignificant and worthless! After all, I am but one of an estimated 7 billion people living on this earth today and one of about 95 to 125 billion humans who have walked this earth (estimating the entirety of human population is a bit complicated as it includes some unknowns such as exactly when the first human evolved (or was created if that is your belief) and what the average size of the human population has been at different periods in time). How can a single penny (just 1 in 500 billion) or a single life (just 1 in 100 billion or more) be significant? Earlier this year I received a letter from Jill, a cancer survivor and past participant in the TLC o o o o o o o o o o Barb B. - “I use pennies by saving them for a future vacation.” Sherry S. - “Bending to pick up a penny helps the waistline.” Rose M. - “I consider the penny to be a reminder of how important the “little things” in life can be.” Lois M. - “Tape a penny on the back of a framed picture that just won’t hang straight.” Bob S. - “I save them in my “Coins for Cancer Care” box and donate them to The Sheboygan County Cancer Care Fund.” Janet S. - “According to superstition, put a penny in the door frame of a new house for good fortune. Doesn't hurt to do that one.” Pat S. - “Use in a penny press machine for a souvenir of places you have visited. Carol W. - “I have two suggestions 1) An organization called Pennies for Peace (www.penniesforpeace.org) and 2) Central Asia Institute (www.ikat.org or [email protected]) where one penny will purchase one pencil. Mary S. - Throw them in a fountain (the Trevi Fountain, Rome, is my favorite). Give them to children in foreign countries (they love them!). Use to scratch off lottery tickets. Donate them (my favorite: to the SCCCF when I’m checking out at Culver’s). Patti V.: When I look at a penny, I recall Mom’s words: “You are like a penny. E pluribus Unum; you are one among many.” When growing up in a family of ten children, there were times when I would ask Mom why we couldn’t do or have some things. Mom politely replied: “E pluribus Unum; you are one among many.” The penny may no longer have the purchase power it did in 1797 but it sure seems to me that even a solitary penny is pretty significant and valuable even today… if we choose to make it so! Some might suggest that one, some or all of these uses for the meager cent are trivial or quite insignificant and they would have every right to choose to believe that. As I see it, none of these 2 uses has any value other than the value we choose to put on it. And so it is with life… absolutely nothing in life (including life itself) has any real value except the value we choose to put on it. It is not a question of whether or not our lives are significant or of value… Instead, it is a question of what significance or value do we choose to assign to that life. When considering the significance, value or meaning of life many turn to religion and spirituality for answers to the “big questions” and for a look at the “big picture.” That can be useful. But, just like those pennies, we can also find the significance, value and meaning of life amidst the simpler, smaller, more insignificant events. We can find significance in the insignificant! As many of you know, I have recently developed a passion for kayaking. Earlier this summer I took my boat (a Perception Essence 17foot sea kayak) out to Terre Andre to paddle along the Lake Michigan shoreline. The beach was crowded with children and adults laughing and screaming and playing in the water as they were enjoying themselves on a hot and sunny summer afternoon. I have spent many hours in my boat on Lake Michigan and on this occasion the water was as calm and flat as I have ever seen. So, instead of paddling close to shore as I normally do, the calmness of the water prompted me to turn the boat away from shore and paddle due east. Gradually, all of the sounds of the noisy beach and of everyday life began to dissipate. Soon all I could hear was the rhythmic “splishsplish” of my paddle stroke and the occasional gull overhead. After almost thirty minutes I stopped paddling. At this point I was about two miles off shore. Looking shoreward all I could see was a thin line of green from the trees that dotted the shoreline. I was, alone on the vastness of this immense lake… feeling quite insignificant. I grabbed my cell phone and tried calling Shel (my wife). I was curious if there was coverage this far out on the lake, but I also think there was a part of me that just needed to know I was still connected to someone somewhere. She didn’t answer and my call went to voice-mail. I realized I was alone… in fact; I had probably NEVER been more alone than this as there wasn’t a single human being within a good two-mile radius of me and my boat! I have reflected on that moment many times since. In that moment; a moment when I was very much disconnected from my life and the world, a moment when there was absolutely nothing of significance or value going on in my life, a moment when I had no one to turn to and no one to answer to, a moment that “in the big picture” was quite insignificant… I felt as alive as I have ever felt and a felt an incredible CENTS of significance! I realized that even when I am totally alone… I still am!!! It seems to me that much of the “stuff” that we bring into our lives to add significance or value; even our families, our health, our jobs, our community, and our beliefs; can all come and go. Perhaps, when we strip away all of that “stuff” (or when all of that stuff is stripped from us) it may be the significance and the value and the meaning that remains that is, in some ways, the most significant of all! Perhaps we can find a CENTS of great “significance” with the experience of total “insignificance.” What significance do you find in the insignificant parts of your life? As Always, Tim P.S. – I can’t end without sharing what was perhaps my favorite use for the penny that came from our readers: Bernice H. - “I have five grandchildren and for each I have a Christmas ornament (a small knitted sock embroidered with their name) in which I place a penny for every year since they were born. My oldest grandchild will be 32 on December 17th so there will be 32 pennies in her sock on the Christmas tree this year. I hope I can find five 2010 pennies!” I happen to have several rolls of uncirculated 2010 pennies so I sent five of them to Bernice and she replied: “Thanks so much for the pennies!!! It will save me a lot of time going through my change with a magnifying glass. I really appreciate you giving from your own source. God Bless!” But before any of you put that magnifying glass away, consider in April of 2006, Scott Travers (an avid coin collector and author of several numismatic books) released three extremely rare and valuable pennies into circulation (a 1909-S V.D.B. Lincoln Cent worth about $1,000, a 1914-D Lincoln Cent worth about $300, and a 1908-S Indian Cent worth about $250). To date no one has come forth to claim they have found any of them! So it might be wise to pay attention to those pennies!!! And, just for laughs, the funniest use for the penny that I came across (on the Internet) was, “Put them in the freezer and dropped them down the shirts of unsuspecting friends!” 3 SURVIVOR SPOTLIGHTS: Mary Rohde Joe Wield Breast Cancer Rectal Cancer Diagnosed: October, 2009 Diagnosed: December, 2001 Note from Tim: I had opportunities to observe Mary as she progressed through her treatment and I was amazed at how calmly she faced her experience. I was curious what it was that gave her the strength and courage she needed. But, as usual, I realized it wasn’t one thing… but a combination of things: being a practicing nurse with many years of experience helped as did her wonderful outlook and attitude, some strong relationships in her life, an ability to laugh and smile through adversity, being open to new lessons and new experiences, and being on a good spiritual path. Note from Tim: I have known Joe since he first came to the clinic almost ten years ago and yet, in the hour I spent interviewing him and his wife Barb, I not only learned more about Joe’s life but I learned more about life from Joe (and from Barb). And I laughed!!! Despite all that Joe has experienced over the years he has maintained a wonderful sense of humor! Thanks, Joe, for sharing your story and your sense of humor with all of us!!! ___________________________________________ ALMOST TEN YEARS AGO! Joe: I was diagnosed back in 2001. I was going to the bathroom one day and I started bleeding so I checked with the doctor who quickly scheduled a colonoscopy. My dad had it and my uncle had it so I figured it was in the family. But even though I sort of suspected it, it hit me pretty hard. My first thought was how long do I have to live? My dad and my uncle chose not to be treated and only lived a matter of months but I felt I just had to at least try! There’s always a chance… and there’s always hope. Barb: When Joe was first diagnosed every thought ran through my head at first. What’s going to happen? What are we going to do? What’s going to happen to Joe? What would I do without him? I still remember the first time we met with Dr. Matthews and he told us we might have to learn to take it a day at a time… enjoy today… and if you have tomorrow… enjoy tomorrow. We’ve gotten better at that over the years! Joe: I was always pretty healthy up until I was diagnosed. I worked at Tecumseh for 40 years. I started right out of high school and worked most of the time in die cast. That was a very physical job. Then I was in maintenance. Then in 1990 I had my hip replaced and I moved into a janitorial job. I stayed in that job until a few years after my diagnosis when the company was shutting down so I thought it was a good time to leave. ___________________________________________ HOW IT STARTED Late last summer (2009) I had felt a lump. My sister had a history of cysts and I thought that was probably what it was and I was just too busy so I never took the time to get it looked at. But my husband and I were about to put some money down on a vacation that was going to happen in late January but before we did, I decided to get it checked out. That was how it started. I made an appointment, saw the doctor, had an exam, did a mammogram, then an ultrasound and finally a biopsy. It all went pretty quick once I got started. I probably should have acted a little sooner, and I am honest about that because it is my hope that someone else in a similar situation will act a little quicker. Initially, I had a mastectomy with a lymph node dissection. After I healed and got my okay I started chemotherapy about four weeks later. In between I was keeping up with my appointments with Dr. Bettag, Cory and my surgeon. Typically, I can be somewhat of a procrastinator. But that wasn’t the case with my cancer. This was the one time in my life that I really wanted to get on with things. I figured if I did the things that I had to do promptly I could get through it all in the shortest possible time. I just wanted to be done with it and have it over with. Continued on page 5 Continued on page 7 4 SURVIVOR SPOTLIGHT: Mary Rohde wore a hat and at work I always wore my wig. I found a very nice wig that I felt comfortable with… except during the hot flashes! There were times I just wanted to take that wig off and throw it out the window… but I knew I couldn’t. For me hats were so much more comfortable so when I got home from work the first thing I did was take my wig off and put a hat on. I have grandchildren ages 3 and 5 and I didn’t try to hide anything from them so they knew that I didn’t have any hair, although they really didn’t understand why. But I would ask them, “Okay guys, the hat or the hair?” They would always say, “Oh, wear the hair gramma!” But I would say, “Nope, I’m wearing the hat!” The people I work with all knew what was going on but I’m not sure how many of our patients knew. There were a few people who said, “I really like your hair!” and I would tell them that I was actually wearing a wig. If they asked me more I would tell them but when I was working with patients I didn’t want the focus to be on me… it was about them. Once your hair starts growing back you start asking yourself, “Is my hair long enough to go out without my wig or without a hat?” I was on vacation for about three weeks and just started going out without the wig while I was on vacation where people didn’t know me so when I got back and went to work I went without my wig. It was pretty short but it felt like the right time to do it. But that can be a big “coming out” for folks. I think now when I see people, especially women, with really short hair that appears to be growing out or if I see someone with a wig I feel I want to say something to them. I want to ask them, “How are you doing?” or “How’s it going for you?” You almost feel like you’re in a special little club with others. I haven’t done that yet… but who knows? Truthfully, I actually started feeling better when my hair started coming back. That was a big breakthrough for me! It was like, “Well, they really weren’t kidding, my hair really is going to grow back!” I just started feeling like myself again and when I looked in the mirror I started looking like myself again. Continued from page 4 ___________________________________________ A NURSE & A PATIENT I graduated from Nursing School in 1977 and worked in the recovery room at St. Nicholas Hospital for many years. Now I am a nurse at The Sheboygan Surgery Center. My nursing experience, I think, really helped me along the way. Once I had the ultrasound and saw the screen I was pretty sure it wasn’t a cyst so I guess I was somewhat prepared to hear the diagnosis. I also had a better understanding of what the steps would be, I understood much of the language, and I understood what the doctors and nurses were looking for and why they were doing what they were doing. I never felt that I was treated any differently because I was a nurse. I have been in other situations where certain assumptions were made about what I knew because of my nursing experience but everyone was very thorough when explaining things to me and I really appreciated that. Cancer is such a specialty and even though I knew what I knew… it’s all very different when you are the one going through it. I also think my background made it easier to communicate with the doctors and nurses. As I went through treatment I felt that my treatment was adjusted according to what I said my experiences were. Dr. Bettag tried a lot of different things to make each session a little better and, as a result, each round was a little better than the one before. CHEMO BRAIN (or THAT VAGUE FEELING OF NOT BEING YOURSELF) After each round of chemo it felt like my brain was only half there. It took me about three or four days to gradually get through that but I still didn’t feel like myself; I felt like I was someone else. I would say that was probably the worst of the side effects… I don’t know if I should call it “chemo brain.” It was this vague feeling of just not being myself, not feeling like me. It took a while to get through that. Looking back now I realize that there were times my thinking was sluggish and just off a bit. I don’t know if that was the chemo, or the illness, or the stress, or just being overwhelmed by so much. THE ROAD TO RECOVERY I really tried to stay active and continue walking. I also took part in the gentle yoga class that was offered and felt really good about that. I loved the yoga class! And I loved the people in the yoga class! It was good for me physically but I also felt a kind of connection with all of the other cancer survivors and that was good for me as well. THOUGHTS ABOUT HAIR (OR LACK THEREOF) It was winter when I was going through chemo so when I was out and about I always 5 CARRYING ON THE BEST I CAN Now I see the doctor every three months. My most recent visit was good and my appetite is good! And I feel like I’m back on track again. I almost feel like nothing happens and when I look back it is hard to believe how much happened in such a short time. I don’t think I’m living in fear of recurrence. I don’t go to sleep at night thinking, “What if it comes back? What if it comes back?” I really don’t worry about that and I don’t feel I need to worry about that. I just want to live my life, enjoy my grandchildren and my husband and my family and just carry on the best that I can. I was getting in shape again but I came up with a knee injury that set me back. It was so frustrating because I felt like I was on my way back. After treatment ends you just want to be normal and you just want things to get back to normal. That was kind of like the proverbial straw and it was that one little thing that just kind of put me over the edge and I probably got more depressed about that than anything else. It wasn’t a big deal but the timing was not good. I also read that it is not uncommon that there can be a kind of sadness or depression or a feeling of being defeated sometime after treatment is completed. MORE THAN A CLICHÉ I know that kind of sounds like a cliché but, gosh, when things like this happen you really do begin to appreciate the important stuff. I think I appreciate my friends, my family, and the people that were there for me more. And hopefully I can be a friend to someone else sometime. And I’ve gained a greater appreciation for every day that you feel good. When you’re feeling good all of the time you really don’t know what a blessing that is. Now I really appreciate it more when I wake up and I feel good. And this experience has all helped me to realize that there are things you can’t control anyway, so maybe it’s made me a little less of a worrier. BECOMING A BETTER NURSE I don’t know if any nurse can go through something like this and not become a better nurse. Just being on the receiving end of nursing care is an experience that has been helpful. Before this, I’ve really never had any medical conditions that have required significant care. I’ve never even had surgery before. Something as simple as the fear of the unknown when going under anesthesia is something I learned from and something that has made me more empathetic. Dealing with a wound drain gave me a whole new understanding of that experience. I used to consider that a small thing but I learned how difficult it can be. IT’S NOT THE END… IT’S A NEW BEGINNING You can get through it. You really can. It’s not the end… in fact it’s the beginning! The beginning of something different and new for you!!! I think when a lot of people look at you after your diagnosed with cancer you can see it in their eyes. It’s like they almost immediately have this pity for you and they don’t know what to say or how to act. I probably did the same thing before all of this. I guess I don’t feel as helpless anymore and I feel more helpful! MY SOUL IS OK… I AM OK I sometimes wonder if there is a reason that this all happened or a reason why I am still here. I wouldn’t say this has really caused any changes in my spirituality. I think my own spirituality has changed, or should I say evolved, over the last several years and I feel like I am on an okay path. I recently heard a quadriplegic on the radio who said his body was miserable, his mind was not at ease but his soul was okay. I could relate to that. We can’t always control what happens to our bodies or what goes through our minds, but if our souls are okay then I think we are okay! I really feel at peace with that part of my life. I’m not afraid to die. It’s not that I want to die… but I’m not afraid of it either. Do you find these “Survivor Spotlights” interesting? If so, consider joining us at any of our TLC Survivorship Sessions or Gatherings… and hear similar stories firsthand! See insert for upcoming events! TALKING ABOUT IT Lisa, my sister-in-law went through treatment about two years ago so she often was my “go to” person when I needed someone to talk to and she understood what I was going through. And then there was my hairdresser who called me a lot and made sure I was doing okay… and just kind of took care of me. 6 SURVIVOR SPOTLIGHT: keep trying. I don’t think I would still be here had I stopped trying! Barb: I think it is still hard for Joe to accept people’s help. He wants to be able to do everything himself like he used to do. I see Joe not being able to do the things that he wants to do. Then he gets frustrated, and that is certainly understandable. So I just have to be there for him and be patient with him and be a good listener. Joe Wield Continued from page 4 ___________________________________________ TODAY - TEN YEARS LATER! Joe: I never thought that I would spend my retirement doing this… spending my days going to the doctor… every week and often times every day. I was here yesterday for a shot, today I had to see Nancy, tomorrow and Friday I need more shots, Thursday I have a day off… unless they find something in the blood work they don’t like and then I’ll have to come in again! But I can’t complain. It will be ten years for me this fall. Barb: We have had a lot of years after the diagnosis to enjoy life. Coming here is just a part of that life. It’s not like we think of it as going to the Doctor’s office. This is family around here. We come in and they call us by name, they ask about our family and our lives, they understand what we’re going through. We have learned some new priorities in life. You forget about the little things and you learn what’s important. You learn to appreciate your family and friends. We have taken the time to travel, we’ve been able to enjoy our children, our grandchildren, and now we even have great grandchildren. Joe: I never thought I’d live to see my great grandson… but I did!!! FINDING NEW WAYS TO FIGHT THE SAME CANCER! Joe: I realize that most of the treatments I am receiving now are pretty much experimental. We’ve burned through all of the usual treatments for my cancer and, one by one, they stopped working so Dr. Matthews had to find new ways to fight the same cancer. It has to be working because I’m still here! Barb: There have been several times when the Doctor has said, “We’re going to try something new and this is going to be a learning experience for both of us. It may work or it may not work.” Fortunately Dr. Matthews has been able to do wonderful things for him and when one treatment stopped working he would find another treatment that would work. And Joe has often said, “Well, maybe if it won’t help me it will help somebody else!” CANCER IS NOT CONTAGIOUS Joe: You can’t keep it all to yourself… you have to talk about it… if you don’t let it out it’s just going to make it worse. I’ve learned that when I keep it all to myself, not only does it affect my attitude, but even the sickness seems worse. A lot of people are afraid of cancer. They’re afraid to talk about it. They’re afraid to talk to someone who has it. But that shouldn’t be. The person who has the cancer has to have an outlet. He has to be able to talk about it sometimes. Don’t be afraid to talk to someone with cancer. Don’t be afraid to ask them about it. Don’t be afraid to talk to them about the things you used to talk about. Cancer is not contagious. Barb: We have a neighbor who also has cancer and her and Joe will talk once in a while. I think it’s good for him to talk about it with her because she can relate to what he’s going through better than I can. I can say, “I understand!” but unless you are actually the one going through it you really can’t understand. THE PATIENT HELPING THE DOCTOR! Joe: The doctor has learned a lot about cancer over the past ten years, and some of what he has learned he has learned through me. Even the nurses have probably learned a few things over the years of caring for me. Maybe they’ve learned how to better deal with difficult, moody patients! I know there have been times when the nurses would have loved to have thrown me out! You just get so frustrated! I have a lot of neuropathy in my legs and, as a result, I’m not as steady as I once was. So I might just bump something off the table and onto the floor and then you find yourself struggling to pick up what fell and you end up knocking something else over. There are times when you just feel as though you can’t do anything right and you start yelling at yourself… or you start yelling at the people around you. I was always active and there are still things that I want to do bit I know I can’t. It’s just so frustrating… you want to do things… but you know you probably can’t do them… but you have to try anyway!!! And if it doesn’t work out you just get so frustrated. But you always have to STORY TIME Note from Tim: Joe had many stories to tell, stories that were not only interesting and amusing but stories that can teach us valuable lessons of 7 That’s unusual because he usually has one of my shoes in his mouth. I looked over and saw his bed was folded in half so I pulled it over and, sure enough, there were four different shoes of mine. He put them under his bed and flipped his bed on top of them. And then he slept on them. Last night I took my shoes off and the first thing he did was grab my shoe, take it over to his bed and covered my shoe with his paw and then he laid his chin on top of his paw. He certainly brightens my days! What lesson(s) do you find in this story? life and how to deal with adversity if we take the time to listen and learn. I challenge you to listen to and learn from these five stories from Joe! STORY #1: Joe: My brother and I did a lot of hunting and fishing together. One Sunday morning right after I was diagnosed he invited us over for breakfast along with many of his in-laws. I helped him make breakfast that included fried fish, beans, fried potatoes and eggs. We had to leave to get to church for our granddaughter’s Christmas program and as we were leaving he looked at me and said, “Well, Joe-joe! You know, we have to enjoy ourselves while we are here because we never know what day will be your last.” I don’t know if he had some kind of premonition or something… but later that day, I was putting the angel up on my Christmas tree at home and my son called up and said, “Dad, you better get up by Uncle Ken! I don’t know what’s going on but there is an ambulance and squad car there.” When I got there his wife told me he went in to the bathroom to change his clothes but never came back out. When she went in she found him lying on the floor. He died of a heart attack. What lesson(s) do you find in this story? STORY #4: Joe: And Neko has saved me at least once. October is a bad month for me. I’ve gotten to the point where I say there are six weeks and September and six weeks in November and there is no October anymore. I’ve eliminated October from the calendar. I had my first cancer surgery in October, I had my second cancer surgery in October, and I had my liver resection in October. Well, a few years ago I almost made it through October without having to go to the hospital. In fact I even said to Barb, “Just think, a few more days and I’ll have made it through October!” The next day I was in the back yard and accidently stepped off this ledge while I was picking some things up. As I was falling, all I could see was rocks and stones so just before I hit the ground I pushed myself over the top of the biggest rocks and somehow landed in a three-foot wide flower garden but I landed hard on my shoulder. If it hadn’t been for Neko I would probably still be laying there. Neko is an 85-pound Doberman and he stayed with me. I was able to use Neko to help myself up and he followed me back to the house where I called Barb. I figured my shoulder was dislocated because it was sticking out about as far as m chin and I also broke a few ribs. Barb: When I got home and saw Joe I actually started laughing aloud. He had burrs in his hair, his eyebrows, all over his clothes… It wasn’t funny… but I have to say that the site of him really was funny! I wish I would have thought to take a picture. Joe: She put me in the car and when we got to the hospital the nurses even started laughing because I was such a mess. In fact, after a while, even I had to laugh about it. They gave me a local anesthetic and tried popping my shoulder back into place but they just couldn’t do it. So into surgery I went. When I woke up I said, “Well at least now I can watch the Packers on Monday Night Football!” I turned on the television just in STORY #2: Joe: At one point the cancer had spread to my liver so I went to Madison to have the lower left lobe of my liver removed. While I was in the recovery room they noticed I wasn’t responding the way they wanted me to so they sent me for Xrays and found out that they had left some sponges in during the surgery so they sent me right back into surgery to remove the sponges. I woke up in the intensive care unit with tubes down my throat and in my nose and my hands and legs were tied down to keep me from pulling the tubes out. If that wasn’t bad enough… there happened to be a Badger game going on that day… at Camp Randall Stadium… which I could see from the window… and the nurses and staff are all screaming and cheering about a touchdown… and there I sat… and I am a BIG Badger fan!!! That was pure torture!!! What lesson(s) do you find in this story? STORY #3: Joe: I’ve got this crazy dog at home! Every time I want to go somewhere there is a shoe missing. As soon as I get home and take my shoes off he’ll take one and run away with it so I can’t go out again. I was in the hospital for a little over a week. I came home from the hospital I noticed that he had one of his toys in his mouth. 8 time to hear, “And the final score was…” I didn’t get to see the game!!! What lesson(s) do you find in this story? And, like my brother said almost ten years ago, we have to enjoy ourselves because we never know what day will be our last. I could leave here and get hit by a truck! At least then I wouldn’t die of cancer! STORY #5: Joe: We went on vacation earlier this year. I just love to fish but I really can’t get in and out of the boat very well anymore… so I couldn’t take the boat fishing. My nephew has a cottage about five miles from where we are and he has a nice pier with a nice bench and he gave us the keys to the cabin. So I went there every day… all day… as you can see by how tan my legs are. I caught over 100 pan fish during the week. I would get out there in the morning. It was so peaceful and quiet. I would listen to the loons in the morning. Then about nine or ten in the morning the silence was broken. The three mother hens (Barb and two other women) started cackling! The real loons would fly away and these new loons would come out!!! What lesson(s) do you find in this story? ____________________________________ HOPE HAPPENINGS: The Big Red Truck By Mary Matthias This past week my twin sister, my niece, and her two little children vacationed with us for several days. As we gathered with family on several occasions I noticed that much of our conversation consisted of stories. A few new tales were told and then there were the old familiar favorites that seem to be the narrative of every family event. As we sat on our patio one evening sharing stories, laughter embellished the crisp summer air filling the big dipper that loomed above. Our stories were quite entertaining. According to Wikipedia “storytelling is the ancient art of conveying events in words, images and sounds often by improvision or embellishment. Stories or narratives have been shared in every culture and in every land as a means of entertainment, education, preservation of culture and in order to install moral values.” Throughout ancient history stories were told on stone, leather, parchment and even cave walls. I must confess…some of our stories were rather primitive! Please allow me to share an entertaining story with an accidental message. This story was recently gifted to me by my soul sister, Merry. Merry is a two-time ovarian cancer survivor who can find laughter in almost any life event. With cancer lurking in her past Merry has always ruminated over “getting hit by the big red truck one day.” Some of us may be waiting for the bomb to drop, the sky to fall, all heck to break loose, or our luck to run out. Well one day Merry called laughing hysterically telling me that she had been in an accident. Since I found no humor in that, I surmised that she was suffering from a concussion or perhaps in shock. Merry detailed out what had happened and finally gained enough composure to inform me that she was indeed not injured. Still finding no humor in the situation I finally asked her what she was laughing about. Merry shared, “Well it finally happened…I got hit by the big red truck only it was a little red truck. And I didn’t even get hurt.” At that point I chimed in on the laughter as we mused over the red truck ADVICE TO CAREGIVERS: Barb: Caregivers just need to be patient with the person who has cancer. I figure my job is to be there for Joe, help him when I can, and listen to him. I understand that there are times he may need my help even though he doesn’t always want it and I understand that this can be really frustrating for him. I try to take care of myself as well. I have some very good friends I can talk to. Just like Joe may be better off talking to another cancer survivor, I think there are times when I am helped by talking to another caregiver. Just like I can’t always understand Joe’s frustrations and difficulties he can’t always understand mine. I have a sister-in-law and another good friend who have cared for their husbands and I talk to them when I need to. CLOSING COMMENTS FROM JOE: Joe: Don’t ever let anyone tell you there is no hope! There is always hope! I’ve been through a lot over the years and I am still here. They’ve learned a lot over the years and they’re going to keep learning. And who knows when the next best drug or the next cure is discovered. And I hope I am here when that time comes. Or I hope that the doctors learn something from me that will help someone else. Sometimes my only hope is to wake up tomorrow. And when tomorrow comes my hope may be to wake up the next day. But, you know what, that is still hope! That is all I want! I hope to wake up tomorrow… one day at a time! 9 irony. For Merry there was some odd sense of relief that evolved out of her fender bender. She could finally tow her big red truck concept to the junkyard and put it to rest. It had finally happened and it was a little red truck! In some sense it’s the same concept that Dr. Matthews shares with his patients of letting the elephant out of the closet. When you set it free, it’s not so big and scary. Do you have a big red truck in your life or perhaps an elephant in your closet? We all have fears and concerns that we ruminate over and the more we ruminate the bigger they get. It is those fears and concerns that rob us of taking pleasure in the joy that lies in all of life’s moments. It is those little moments that evolve into great stories. Tow that big red truck away! Let that big elephant out of the closet! And may you always remember the wise words of Gordon Bitner Brinckley… August of 2006. It was pretty unexpected. I was 42 at the time and I thought I was outside the window of getting testicular cancer. Most people get testicular cancer at a younger age. The risk really starts to fade at 35. Then there is another peak which occurs after 65. So in those middle years testicular cancer is actually quite rare. So I was very, very, very surprised. All along the way it was both a blessing and a curse to be a patient who also happened to be a doctor. I knew about all of the permutations and the things that can happen; at times it was like I knew too much. At the same time I had to work hard to remain the patient. There were certain assumptions by others in the medical community that I knew more than I did. I’m a family physician and I have a great deal of knowledge about a wide breadth of things. But not only is cancer care very much a specialty but it is a totally different story when you are going through it yourself and you are the one who is confronted with all of the different treatment options, risks and the outcomes. "In all of living have much of fun and laughter. Life is to be enjoyed, not just endured." MeM Mary Matthias Thanks Merry for giving me a story to tell! ________________________________________ I KNEW THE ODDS When I was first diagnosed I didn’t really worry about whether I would survive or not. I believe that God’s in charge. I prayed a simple prayer right off the bat. I prayed, “Dear God, I pray that I live… but more importantly I ask that you walk with me through this!” Fortunately, testicular cancer has a pretty good prognosis in most cases. But it’s still that “cancer” word! It’s still that unexpected and scary diagnosis that COULD take your life no matter what kind of cancer it is. I knew my odds… I had a 95% survival rate over the next five years. Well… flip that around. There was a 5%, or one chance in twenty, that I would NOT be alive in 5 years. If someone said to you, “A terrorist was caught in the parking lot of the building, but don’t worry, he only put a bomb under every 20th car!” you’d certainly think twice about getting in your car and going home! So, yes, it was a shock and it changed my perspective on how I started viewing things. BONUS SURVIVOR SPOTLIGHT: Dr. Jeff Corrigan Testicular Cancer Survivor Note from Tim: If you participated in or attended this year’s National Cancer Survivors Day th Celebration on June 13 at the John Michael Kohler Arts Center (JMKAC) you may remember Dr. Jeff Corrigan. Dr. Corrigan spoke briefly at the event and shared some of his poetry (see page 14) along with an exhibit of his photography. I invited him to join me in a discussion with staff from the JMKAC along with Assistant Professors Julie Lindemann and John Shimon from the Lawrence University Department of Art and Art History who will be offering a photography class specifically for cancer survivors (see insert for more info) and, after that meeting, I asked him if he would be willing to share some insights about photography as a coping strategy with our readers. Once we sat down to talk and he shared more of his story with me I quickly realized I had to share more of his story with all of you. So, this issue includes a third “BONUS Survivorship Spotlight!” CHEMO WAS AWFUL My first step was surgery and an orchiectomy to remove the cancer. That was done very soon after the diagnosis. Once I had recovered from that I elected to go through chemotherapy. Some people take no treatment at all and take a “wait and see” kind of approach. But I was 42, had a young family, and hoped to live a long time, so I chose to go through chemotherapy. There were ________________________________________ I DIAGNOSED MYSELF Most people come in and say, “Doctor, I have a lump!” I came in to see my doctor and said, “Doctor, I have testicular cancer!” I diagnosed myself. Based on my experience, there was no doubt. The tests just confirmed it. That was in 10 THE MYRIAD OF LOSSES… AND GRATITUDE There is a myriad of losses that you experience with cancer, many of which only you alone and maybe the few closest to you ever see. For me it included the neuropathy in my hands. I have no problem doing office procedures when I can see what my hands are doing, but if you give me a penny and a dime and I close my eyes, I can’t tell the difference. That drove me nuts for a long time and I would wake up every morning waiting for the sensations in my hands to return. Eventually I realized this is it… this is as good as it’s going to get. Cancer can be financially devastating as well, especially for someone who is raising a family. Just paying for our COBRA insurance, which was outrageous for a family, was expensive and I certainly couldn’t be without coverage or allow for a lapse in coverage. So in several ways it has been like starting all over again. I don’t mean to complain and I certainly don’t look for pity. As a result, there is a tendency to not talk about that kind of stuff, but we know it’s not good to keep it inside either. It’s a dilemma. That’s when many of us turn to others who have “been there, done that.” I met with a group of guys after my diagnosis. We all had some tough stuff going on in our lives. Two had lost their jobs and two had cancer. We knew we didn’t have to have all the answers for one another and that the one thing we often needed more than anything was just someone to talk to and be with. We weren’t complaining… we were just dealing with our own individual stuff… together. My cancer experience has made me a lot more aware of this emotional side of illness and I think now I can be a comrade to people who are going through difficult times. That was a part of medicine that I didn’t get in medical school. I realize it isn’t all that far back in history that this diagnosis would have been fatal. So I’m grateful. And the treatments that I received, even though they were really hard, well, I am grateful for them too. some unique aspects about the cancer on the pathology (when they look at the cells under the microscope) that made us a little more concerned about micro-metastases so we decided to do two really hard cycles of Carboplatin. That was very, very challenging. Everybody has a different experience but for me, chemo was awful. It felt like it killed me. I dropped 30 pounds in a month, and although weight loss isn’t everything, I think that was a pretty good indicator of how I was doing. I have a really good friend named Steve whom I met while I was in Medical School. He lives in Toledo. He’s one of those people that I didn’t want to learn about my cancer from anyone but me, so I called him. He listened to me and then he asked, “Are you going to have chemotherapy?” “Yep!” I said. “What day?” he asked. I told him, and without hesitating he said, “Okay, I’ll be there and I’ll stay for two days!” It was one of the kindest things that anyone did for me through this whole ordeal. On the day of chemo and the day after I really felt like death; I couldn’t sleep, but I couldn’t stay awake, I was sick to my stomach, I was feeling in a daze and in a fog, and all the other side effects that come with it; and he was there with me. He just sat with me. He didn’t demand any conversation. He didn’t ask anything of me. He was just with me. About a month later, after I recovered from the first round, I had the second round of chemotherapy. Then there was the long recovery after that. I would say it took about a good year to recover. If you ask my wife she would say longer. I CAN CHOOSE TO TRUST I’d have to say I’m a very different person today than I was before my cancer diagnosis. I’m a lot calmer. I used to be extremely anxious to get things done. But I’ve realized there are a lot of inconveniences in life; there are a lot of things that come up in life that you really have no control over. But with God in charge, I can trust that he is with me. Obviously, my preconceived idea about how things should turn out, what I was going to accomplish, where I was going to be, isn’t always His plan. I can choose to fight that… or I can choose to trust and go along with it. I’d probably have to say I’ve learned as much about being a physician while being a cancer patient as I did in all the years before that. I had the knowledge and I think I was a good doctor… But my cancer experience has made me an even better physician and a more sensitive physician. FINDING “MY RIGHT MIND!” I found many ways to cope including some artistic ways. I started writing poems that literally just tumbled onto the paper. I was dealing with these frustrations and things were just simmering in my head and all of a sudden a poem would find its way onto the paper and when I was done I could say to myself, “Yup, that’s what’s going on!” I would finally get it out and I could release some of what I was feeling. I would feel this huge sense of relief. I also taught myself how to draw and 11 learned calligraphy. Suddenly this guy who was very left-brain started doing all of this right-brain “artsy” stuff. I kept a journal through the whole experience and I often titled each journal. I have a journal from the summer of 2007, written in the midst of my slowly-resolving chemo brain, that I titled with all of the obvious “tongue-in-cheek” humor “In My Right Mind.” It was at this point that I started to understand what was going on and I was relying more on the right side of my brain. I also came to the realization that if God has allowed this to happen and this is who I am now and this is how my head works than I have to be “In My Right Mind.” how I felt. I remember being inside, feeling down and defeated, and not wanting to go out. I remember getting mad at myself because I let the nasty weather keep me inside. Then I said to myself, “What are you doing? Get your coat and your ski mask and get out there and go for a walk!” It was two degrees out, the wind was howling and I was alone. I was out there almost in defiance of the elements and in defiance of what was going on in my life and in defiance of my own weakness. I felt very much like that tree. I was that tree. And that gave me a better understanding of my experience, and it gave me something concrete to look at. It gave me a new way to look at the circumstances in my life. It gave me a release. Today that photograph is a reminder of a difficult time in my life, but it is also a reminder of the choice I made and the resolve I found to face the day and face the future. It was a turning point for me. IT OPENED MY EYES Then I got into photography. It really started the day after my first chemotherapy when my friend Steve was visiting. I was really frustrated that I couldn’t do anything but I asked Steve if he wanted to take our shotguns into the wood lot to hunt squirrel because I figured I could at least sit and hunt. As we walked out to the lot I was feeling down and I was looking down. Well, Steve was looking up. He stopped to admire the panorama of western Sheboygan County as the sun was going down. There were turkeys over here, deer over there, and the sky was a gorgeous golden hue. He said, “My gosh! What a beautiful place!” And for the first time I looked up and looked around and realized he was right. That just kind of opened my eyes! For a while it was difficult for me to even climb a flight of stairs so when I started to exercise to rebuild my strength I would try to walk a block, and then a quarter-mile, then a half-mile, then a mile, then a couple miles. Every day I would go for a walk, and I started carrying this little point-and-shoot camera with me and I would just take pictures of the things I saw. I took pictures of all these neat and beautiful things that I hadn’t noticed before. It helped me to look beyond myself and my own problems and focus on the beauty around me and capture that beauty in a photograph. I was in the midst of all kinds of bad stuff happening all around me and to me… but I could look at those photographs and see reminders of the beauty that surrounded me and reminders of God’s goodness. Many of the photographs I have taken actually reflect how I was feeling when I took them. One of my favorite photographs is of a lonely oak tree standing all by itself in the middle of a field. When I look at that photo I can remember that day and I can remember exactly PHOTOGRAPHY AS A CREATIVE OUTLET Photography was also a good way for me to document my cancer journey. When you are in the midst of the chaos you can’t always see the beginning from the end. When you’re overwhelmed it can take all of your energy to just survive the moment. Sometimes, when it’s scary, you just don’t want to face certain lessons head on. You don’t always have the energy or the opportunity to learn the lessons as they come up. But if you document or record them you can often learn those lessons retrospectively. When I was ready, when the right time came, I could look at my photographs or I could read my poetry and journal and take the time to learn the lessons I wasn’t ready to deal with when I was going through them. Some of the lessons you may only learn with time… so don’t miss out on the opportunity to learn them. If nothing else, photography can be a creative outlet that simply allows you to see some joy and beauty and design and meaning in a life that can appear to be nothing but chaos. It can be a good reminder that amidst all the ugliness of cancer there is still great beauty to be found! Note from Tim: If you have an interest in pursuing photography as a creative outlet for your own cancer experience, consider participating in the “Survivorship: th Through a Lens” workshop starting on August 28 ! I also invite you to join Dr. Jeff Corrigan who will lead the “Cancer Conversations” at our TLC Survivorship th Session on Tuesday, November 9 at 6:00PM where he will share many of his personal experiences with cancer. See insert for more information on both of these upcoming events. 12 THE WORLD ACCORDING TO TIM: Joann’s “Survivors Spotlight” in the next issue of the TLC Supportive Newsletter.) Hedy Lamarr stated, “A good painting to me has always been like a friend. It keeps me company, comforts and inspires.” Twyla Tharp believes, “Art is the only way to run away without leaving home.” And Thomas Merton suggests, “Art enables us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time.” Perhaps cancer survivors understand better than most the value of a “good friend,” the need to occasionally “run away,” and the importance of “finding ourselves.” At the age of 47 I guess I have finally developed a greater appreciation for the arts. Inspired by those amazingly talented survivors that took part in this year’s event, we are planning another “Expressions of Survivorship” during the winter of 2010-2011 (watch this newsletter for more information). We also have decided to celebrate next year’s National Cancer Survivors Day with another Art Fair! So, all of you artists out there, get your artwork ready! In the meantime, I invite you to be inspired by the insights of Dr. Jeff Corrigan and join us at the “Survivorship: Through the Lens” workshop which is being held at the John Michael Kohler Arts Center starting on August 28th (see insert or contact me for more info). I would like to recognize all of the artists that participated in this year’s NCSD “Art Fair!” The Surprising World of Art! By Tim E. Renzelmann To be honest, I have never considered myself to be much of an art aficionado. In fact, I think the last art class I took was in about 3rd grade… and I think I got sick from eating the paste! That was until this past spring, that is, when I participated in the “Expressions of Survivorship” workshop offered through The Sheboygan County Cancer Care Fund at the John Michael Kohler Arts Center (JMKAC) along with a group of fellow cancer survivors. Being as inexperienced in the arts as I am… I didn’t know where to begin until Erica, our instructor, suggested, “Sometimes you just have to play with the clay and the clay will figure out what it needs to be.” So I did… and the clay didn’t let me down! The other participants asked, “What is it?” and the best I way I could explain my abstract piece was simply to say, “It isn’t anything, but it MEANS a lot to me!” I really didn’t expect to enjoy the workshop so much… but I did. I didn’t expect to get very much out of it… but I did. And I certainly didn’t expect that I would ever have a piece of art as a part of an art exhibit… but I did. A few weeks later most of us who participated in the workshop displayed our art work at the 2010 National Cancer Survivors Day Celebration. We have celebrated this event in many ways since I joined the clinic more then ten years ago: we celebrated with a “Hobby and Craft Showcase” for several years, we gathered at The Sheboygan County Historical Museum, we had a graduation ceremony at the University of WisconsinSheboygan, we enjoyed the antics of Comedy Sportz; we had a pig roast, a carnival, a Germanfest, a 50’s sock hop, and more! This year we held an “Art Fair” at JMKAC that featured the amazing artwork of local cancer survivors. I REALLY enjoyed putting this year’s event together perhaps more than any other. “Henry Kissinger said, “Art is man’s expression of his joy in labor.” Those cancer survivors and caregivers who exhibited their works invested hundreds of hours in developing their skills and creating their pieces. Consider Joann Cotant, a pancreatic cancer survivor since 1995 and Colon Cancer survivor since 2009, who somewhat reluctantly submitted a few of the dozens of quilts that she has created since the 1970s. “I don’t consider myself an artist!” she told me. And yet, her pieces that represented thousands of hours of labor also earned her the PEOPLE’S CHOICE TOP PICK AWARD! (Note: Watch for PEOPLE’S CHOICE TOP PICK: Joan Cotant (Pancreatic & Colon Cancer Survivor), Quilting – “Healing with Quilts.” PEOPLE’S CHOICE – HONORABLE MENTIONS: Kathie Horness (Lymphoma Survivor), Glass Beads & Cement - “Gazing Balls.” Kevin Rauch (Neuroblastoma Survivor), Drawing - “Superstink.” Janet Sand (Pancreatic Cancer Survivor), Painting “Survivor Celebration.” OTHER PARTICIPATING ARTISTS: Dr. Jeff Corrigan (Testicular Cancer Survivor), Photography - “Sunlit Lighthouse,” “Pigeon River Birches;” Poem - “Chemo the Elephant.” Colleen Dunn (Breast Cancer Survivor), Patchwork Sweater - “Life is a Patchwork.” Chris Graf, MD (Multiple Myeloma Survivor), Chainsaw Carving “Mushrooms.” Kris Krumenauer (Breast Cancer Survivor), Touch Drawing – “We Are One in the Spirit,” Needle-Felt Creature - “Sophie,” Poem “Arriving Home.” Meghan & Kelsey Long: Honoring their mom Bridget Long (Melanoma Survivor), Performance Art – “Irish Step Dance.” Hope Mueller (Personal Caregiver), Painting - “In the Morning.” Cynthia Neece, (Breast Cancer Survivor), Stained Glass & Cement - “Stepping Stones.” Sheryl A. Reif (In Memory of Mark Reif), Painting - “Walk in the Woods.” Mary Schueller, 13 hear… The bigger picture, the best plan. RN (Professional Caregiver), Photography Collage “Seasons of Survival.” Carol Westphal (Lymphoma Survivor), Published Book - “Faith, Hope & Cancer.” Pam Wilhelmsen (Ovarian Cancer Survivor), Cross Stitch: “Father Christmas.” Expression of Survivorship Participants: Barb Bogenschutz, Joanne D’ Alton, Vickie Menuge, Cynthia Neece (Breast Cancer Survivors), Tim E. Renzelmann (Lymphoma Survivor), various work from “Expressions of Survivorship” workshop. ________________________________________ Thus, I will trust you. _________________________________________ Chemo the Elephant By J. K. Corrigan, MD Whether grey, baby, mom, dad… (Beware the doc of “Oh, it’s not that bad.”) For ponderous, light, once, or thrice, When you’re the chair the behemoth uses It’s never, ever nice. SURVIVING & THRIVING: Poems: 2010 National Cancer Survivors Day Celebration! If chemotherapy were an elephant Then mine was big and fat. I surely felt him sit on me, And heard that awful splat. Arriving Home By Kris Krumenauer But just a couple of days ago I almost gasped. I giggled. I thought I sensed… yes, I knew: Chemo really wiggled. As I approached the front door of my home last night, weary and in a mental space which one experiences when intensity and uncertainty seem to co-exist… when walking the unknown edge that could lead to a promising or trying future, Distinctly, I heard two loons on the lake. He shifted mass once or twice. Was he about to rise? Today I looked and, whoa, he stood! Freely I breathe and sigh. I’m flatter than before he sat. (About that, I’m not debating.) But I thank my God that Chemo’s gone, And I can start my re-inflating. Two loons that visit twice a year coming and going beyond my small world, staying for a day or two then taking flight. Don’t know where they have come from or exactly where they are going… Don’t know why they arrive or why they leave However, I do know… Some chairs are weak. Some chairs are stronger. Sometimes he sits once. Sometimes much too longer. It’s amazing how God, through nature, speaks to us in words we cannot speak paints to us in pictures we cannot capture visits us within our most private and holy space knowing when to visit knowing when to keep vigilance. Whatever the case, may God’s endurance and grace Be yours the night of Chemo’s sitting. I pray Chemo stands; you greet the dawn, Breathe anew, and choose re-singing. _________________________________________ Distinctly, I saw two loons on the lake. Reminding me of the bigger picture Reminding me of the deeper message. STUFF FROM THE STAFF: Several readers told me they “wished” I would reinstate this column because they enjoyed reading the comments from our staff. If there is anything you “wish” to see in this newsletter just let me know and I will do my best to make it so! Great spirit who speaks to me so impassioned yet simply. Painting pictures so obvious yet skillfully Persuading me to gain direction, tranquility and peace. Three Wishes! From the MOA/SCBS Staff I hear you, see you, and feel your presence. I know you understand the bigger picture. As the loons call, I know it is you – calling for me to see and If a genie granted you 3 wises, what would they be? (One wish for yourself, one wish someone you know, and one 14 HOLISTIC HEALING: wish for all of mankind.) Lou Ann (Business Administrator): My wishes would be: That I am always guided by the right advice leading to the right direction. That all those who touch my life are rewarded with peace and serenity in their life. That in my next life I am 40 pounds lighter and milk chocolate replaces broccoli in the food pyramid. Ya Gotta Try Yoga! By Tim E. Renzelmann A recent study presented at the American Society of Clinical Oncology (ASCO) on June 5th in Chicago promoted the many benefits of yoga for cancer patients. According to the study, cancer patients who practiced yoga were able to reduce their sleep medication by 21% compared to a control group who had an increase in sleep medication of 5%. In addition, those in the yoga program experienced a reduction in daytime fatigue (42% vs. 12%) and sleepiness (29% vs. 5%) over those in the control group. “In conclusion,” stated lead author Karen Mustian, PhD, MPH from the University of Rochester in New York, “we can state that it is possible that Hatha yoga classes and restorative yoga classes might be useful to cancer survivors in communities across the United States in helping these side effects that impair quality of life.” Annie (Nurse): I wish that I had more time in the day and more time on the weekends. I wish my Dad would regain his strength and memory. I hate to sound like Sandra Bullock in Miss Congeniality, but I really do wish for world peace. Denise P. (Scheduler): It's hard for me to think of a wish for myself that doesn't sound or is superficial. So my wish is for my children to grow up to be happy and productive adults in their own ways. My wish would be that we (as individuals, a community, and a nation) be willing to help and care for our neighbors. If these two wishes are granted then my wish would be complete. Sara (Nurse): Let me preface by saying.... I'm inclined not to ask for something for myself... and these are really tough. Wish #1-- I wish to live long enough to see and enjoy my grandchildren. Wish #2 -- I wish my sons happiness and contentment with age. Wish #3 -- I wish for an end to all violence among humans. Here’s what participants in the SCCCF’s “Gentle Yoga for Cancer Survivors” had to say: Cynthia: The yoga class is amazing! At first, I was a bit skeptical. I thought from what I perceived yoga to be, I would not be able to do it. Katy (our wonderful instructor) changed my opinion. She said not to compare yourself to anyone. With that in mind, I was able to concentrate on myself. I learned new ways on how to relax by breathing, I was able to let go of my thoughts and tension. The yoga positions I learned from Katy have helped increase my flexibility, strength and balance. The class left me relaxed, rejuvenated and always full of energy. I highly recommend it. Thank you for this opportunity! Dr. Bettag: 1) Patience for me, 2) for my children to deepen their faith and use their talents to the best of their ability, 3) for the USA to return to traditional values and core beliefs. Cindy (Lab): Myself – continued good health with peace of mind. Family – Happiness in their careers and education. Mankind – Wish for peace among all people. Mary Beth (Reception): For myself: Grace and peace. For my family: Grace and peace. For all mankind: Grace and peace. Cindy (& Bruce): I wanted to share the conversation that Bruce and I had today. I told my husband just today that I am so grateful for the yoga class because I truly didn't think I'd ever be able to ride a bike again. My balance was soooooo "off" since cancer/chemo that I didn't even walk straight sometimes, much less run!! Yoga has not only helped with improving my balance, but also improved my endurance as well as providing stress relief. Again, thank you so much for allowing my husband and me to participate in the yoga session. We have continued yoga on our own while at home.....but it is also fun in a group setting -especially when we are available to provide support and encouragement to one another as cancer survivors. Thanks for providing that opportunity! Marge (Nurse): If I had three wishes this is what they would be: For myself – Time. There is so much to learn and see and do. For my family: The ability to slow down and enjoy what is right in front of them – they are so busy working towards their goals that they often miss what is right under their noses. For the world: Clean air, clean water for everyone. Ellen (Nurse): I wish I could live where it is warm all of the time. I wish for my family that they will have very few regrets when they look back on their lives. I wish for peace in the world. Cory (Nurse Practitioner): First wish would be to end the war in Irag and Afghanistan and bring home all our troops to their families and friends who miss them so much. My family's good health and safety would be my second wish. My third wish would be for a grandchild, though I'm not optimistic there! See insert for more info on SCCCF’s “Gentle Yoga for Cancer Survivors!” 15 Survivorship: Through the Lens! th SCCCF Fundraisers: th Saturdays, August 28 & September 25 John Michael Kohler Arts Center You are invited to participate in this workshop that will not only teach the basics of digital photography but explore how you view the world after your cancer experience! Call 920-458-7433 (Tim) for more info! Beacon of Hope / Rally for a Cure Golf Outing! Saturday, August 14th Sunset Hills Golf Course Call 920-467-0780 for details! Fashion for Hope Style Show! Thursday, October 14th The Kohler Design Center Call 920-458-7433 (Tim) for ticket info! Road America Walk/Run Saturday, October, 30th Road America, Elkhart Lake, WI Registration 8-9:30 am, Race Start 10:00 am March of the Pink Brigade! Saturday, October 16th from 6:30 AM to 10:00 AM 2 or 4 mile walk/run Sheboygan YMCA Call 920-458-7433 (Tim) for more info! You are invited to join “Team TLC” at this year’s event which is once again sponsored by Matthews Oncology Associates & Sheboygan Cancer & Blood Specialists! Call 920-458-7433 (Tim) for more info! 16 UPCOMING TLC EVENTS: SUMMER/FALL, 2010 TLC is a growing “Supportive Community” for cancer survivors, their families, friends and caregivers that offers healing opportunities for body, mind, heart & spirit and provided by Matthews Oncology Associates and Sheboygan Cancer & Blood Specialists. For more information on the TLC Supportive Community or any of the events and activites listed contact Tim at 920-458-7433 or [email protected] ________________________________________________________________________________________ Together we Live with Cancer! TLC “Survivorship Sessions” for Cancer Survivors and Caregivers 2nd Monday of the Month at 11:00AM and 2nd Tuesday of the Month at 6:00PM All Sessions Held at MOA/SCBS, 1621 N. Taylor Drive, Sheboygan, 2nd Floor Conference Room All area cancer survivors are invited to join us for these casual “Casual Cancer Conversations” as we explore the many facets of living through a cancer diagnosis, its treatment and beyond. Monday, September 13th at 11:00 AM Casual Cancer Conversations: Join us for the sharing of personal cancer stories for purpose of education, support and networking. Monday, October 11th at 11:00 AM Casual Cancer Conversations: Join us for the sharing of personal cancer stories for purpose of education, support and networking. Monday, November 8th at 11:00 AM Casual Cancer Conversations: Join us for the sharing of personal cancer stories for purpose of education, support and networking. Tuesday, September 14 at 6:00 PM Guest Speaker: Kandee, Multiple Myeloma Survivor and experienced public speaker of Millennium Ambassadors will offer inspiration, support and education for patients and survivors of all cancers. Tuesday, October 12th at 6:00 PM Guest Speaker: Kris Krumenauer, Breast Cancer Survivor, will share thoughts and insights related to her on-going breast cancer experience and the benefits of art therapy for cancer patients and survivors. Tuesday, November 9th at 6:00 PM Guest Speaker: Dr. Jeff Corrigan, Area physician and Testicular Cancer survivor will offer insights into his personal cancer experience including his own personal experience and insights of “chemo brain.” ________________________________________________________________________________________ “Survivorship: Through the Lens”! Saturday, August 28th, 10 am to 3 pm; Saturday, September 25th, 10 am to 12 pm The John Michael Kohler Arts Center, 608 New York Avenue, Sheboygan Area cancer survivors and caregivers are invited to participate in this unique opportunity to express their personal cancer experience through the use of various mediums of the visual arts. The SCCCF is offering this program free of charge to area cancer patients and their caregivers. RESERVE YOUR SPOT TODAY!!! (see insert for more info) Registration is required and space is limited. To register, contact Tim at 920-458-7433 ________________________________________________________________________________________ SCCCF’s “Gentle Yoga for Cancer Survivors (& Caregivers)!” Come and experience the benefits of gentle yoga along with other area cancer survivors and their caregivers! These one-hour sessions will include gentle stretching, breathing and meditation to bring some peace and relaxation to the mind and body. Wear comfortable clothing, avoid heavy eating 2 hours prior, mats are provided (or bring your own). According to Mary S. (a regular yoga participant), “Yoga = the best part of my day!” Space is limited!!! SHORT SESSION: Tuesdays, August 17th & 31st, Monday, September 13, at 5:30 PM Location: Greenseed Studio, 1011 Indiana Avenue, Sheboygan th Instructor: Rachael Haas Lewinski th FALL SESSION: Mondays, September 20 to December 20 at 5:30 PM Location: MOA/SCBS, 1621 N. Taylor Drive, Sheboygan See Insert for details on how to register! Instructor: Katie Presutti UPCOMING TLC EVENTS: SUMMER/FALL 2010 TLC Survivor & Caregiver Gatherings: Life is a game. Play it. Summer’s End Salad and Ice Cream Social with a Game of UNO & Wii Resort! Wednesday, August 25th from 5:00 PM to 9:00 PM MOA/SCBS, 1621 N. Taylor Drive, Sheboygan, 2nd Floor Conference Room Join us for this casual end of summer gathering! Engage in warm conversation with fellow cancer survivors and caregivers or join in on the popular summer card game of UNO. We‟ll do some “Wii Resort” (including bowling) for those who are interested! Bring a favorite summertime salad and enjoy an ice cream dessert. RSVP Appreciated by calling Tim at 920-458-7433 Let’s All Go “All In”: No-Limit Texas Hold-Em! Thursday, September 23rd from 6:00PM to 9:00PM MOA/SCBS, 1621 N. Taylor Drive, Sheboygan, 2nd Floor Conference Room Even if you have never played poker before, come and join us for this friendly game of “No-Limit Texas Hold „Em!” There will be a brief instructional video at 5:30 PM for anyone who is interested and we will “Shuffle up and Deal!” at 6:00PM. Snacks and beverages will be provided and participants are welcome to bring a favorite snack to share! RSVP Appreciated by calling Tim at 920-458-7433 Annual TLC Fun Fall Gathering (with Specially-prepared “New England-Style Hot Dogs”)! Sunday, November 14th from 3:00P to 8:00 PM Dogs back by popular demand! King’s Park Indoor Pavillion, 1615 S. 7th St., Sheboygan Join us at for this annual gathering that features specially-prepared “New EnglandStyle Hot Dogs” (the most delicious dogs you‟ll ever have)! Come early and participate in a cribbage tournament (other games will be availavle), stay late and join in on a game of “Kings In The Corners” (because we‟re at King‟s Park), or just relax and enjoy this beautiful location, wonderful people, and good food. You are invited to bring a side dish, snack or dessert to pass! RSVP appreciated by calling Tim (920-458-7433). ________________________________________________________________________________ ACS “Look Good, Feel Better” Session Monday, October 4th at 6:30 PM MOA/SCBS, 1621 N. Taylor Drive, Sheboygan, 2nd Floor Conference Room This American Cancer Society program is designed to help women who are undergoing treatment learn to cope with the appearance-related side effects of treatment. There is no cost for the session but registration is required so that we can have appropriate materials available. To register, please call 920-459-4636. ________________________________________________________________________________ Quick View Calendar: Mid-August thru November! For more info call Tim at 920-458-7433. Aug 14 – SCCCF Beacon of Hope Golf Outing @ 8A Aug 17 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (Greenseed) Aug 25 – TLC Survivor & Caregiver Gathering @ 5P Aug 28 – Through the Lens @ 10A (JMKAC) Aug 31 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (Greenseed) Sep 13 – TLC Survivorship Session @ 11A Sep 13 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (Greenseed) Sep 14 – TLC Survivorship Session @ 6P Sep 20 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Sep 23 – TLC Survivor & Caregiver Gathering @ 6P Sep 25 – Through the Lens @ 10A (JMKAC) Sep 27 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Oct 4 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Oct 4 – ACS Look Good, Feel Better @ 6:30P Oct 11 – TLC Survivorship Session @11A Oct 11 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Oct 12 – TLC Survivorship Session @ 6P Oct 14 – SCCCF Fashion for Hope Oct 16 – SCCCF March of the Pink Brigade @ 6:30A Oct 18 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Oct 25 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Oct 30 – ACS Road America Walk/Run @ 10:00A Nov 1 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Nov 8 – TLC Survivorship Session @ 11A Nov 8 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Nov 9 – TLC Survivorship Session @ 6P Nov 14 – TLC Fun Fall Gathering @ 3P to 8P Nov 15 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Nov 22 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Nov 29 – SCCCF Gentle Yoga @ 5:30P (MOA/SCBS) Gentle Yoga for Cancer Survivors! Come and experience the benefits of gentle yoga along with other area cancer survivors and their caregivers! These one-hour sessions will include gentle stretching, breathing and meditation to bring some peace and relaxation to the mind and body. Wear comfortable clothing, avoid heavy eating 2 hours prior, mats are provided (or bring your own). Summer’s End Sessions: 5:30PM to 6:30PM Tuesdays, August 17th & 31st; Monday September 13th Led by: Rachael Haas Lewinski Experienced Registered 200hr Yoga Alliance and Anusara-inspired Yoga Teacher Location: Inspire Yoga/Greenseed Studio 1011 Indiana Ave., Sheboygan Fall Session: 5:30PM to 6:30PM Mondays, September 20th to December 20th Led by: Katie Presutti, Registered & Certified Yoga Teacher Location: Matthews Oncology Associates/Sheboygan Cancer & Blood Specialists 1621 N. Taylor Drive, Sheboygan - 2nd Floor Conference Room Space is limited. For more information & to register contact: Jeff Shea (920-457-6800, ext. 2686) Vince Lombardi Cancer Clinic Tim E. Renzelmann (920-458-7433) Matthews Oncology Associates/Sheboygan Cancer & Blood Specialists Brought to you by: “Katie's yoga class is the high point of my week. I feel better after yoga than I do the entire rest of the week. It is a joy walking into class, seeing everyone, and feeling good. Thanks for making this all happen.” - Rose K Survivorship: Through the Lens! Saturday, August 28th, 10AM to 3PM Saturday, September 25th, 10AM to 12PM Area cancer survivors are invited to participate in this unique opportunity to learn the basics of digital photography while considering how their view of the world may have been impacted by their personal cancer experience. Basics of Digital Photography Including: Learn digital photography basics from resolution to flash Explore online photo groups and sharing Learn to read snapshots and find meaning in them Identify subject matter that reflects your perceptions All while connecting with other area cancer patients and survivors Selected participants and images will be considered for an exhibit at the John Michael Kohler Arts Center on December 12, 2010. ABSOLUTELY NO previous photographic experience is necessary. Workshop will be held at the John Michael Kohler Arts Center 608 New York Avenue, Sheboygan, WI Workshop Facilitators: John Shimon & Julie Lindemann are collaborative artists whose photographs are in the collections of the Art Institute of Chicago, Madison Museum of Contemporary Art, Milwaukee Art Museum, and Wisconsin Historical Society. They are the authors of "Season’s Gleamings: The Art of the Aluminum Christmas Tree" (Melcher, 2004) and "Unmasked & Anonymous: Shimon & Lindemann Consider Portraiture" (Milwaukee Art Museum, 2008). They are Assistant Professors of Art teaching photography and digital processes at Lawrence University in the Department of Art & Art History. Registration is required! Space is limited! For more information & to register contact: Jeff Shea - (920) 457-6800, ext. 2686 Vince Lombardi Cancer Clinic Tim E. Renzelmann - (920) 458-7433 Matthews Oncology Associates/Sheboygan Cancer & Blood Specialists This workshop is being offered as part of the “Connecting Communities Project 2010” by the John Michael Kohler Arts Center.