Group 56 COS
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Group 56 COS
The Epic of Group 56 por Erin McCartan It was two years ago in Washington, DC we met, We thought, “We’re off to save the world, this, the chance we get!” The time soon came for “Operation Adjustment” phase two…and to kick us some “campo” reality only Santa Rita de Chorrera would do. We spoke of future BFFs and shared a final drink, then stayed up chatting all night about who would swim…and who would The Peace Corps Mobiles nare came to a stop, then threw us out of the car sink. with our bags. Plop. With excitement and wonder we boarded the plane, wonderWith a “suerte” and an evil laugh ing when it would be we’d eat a real meal again. heard from Gil, we met our new famiWe arrived at our new home in the dark of night, the lights of lies and were given our first home-cooked meal. the city and the canal shimmering bright. While meal plans varied throughout the fair city, rice was a staple for all, ah, the pity. We were greeted at the gate by quite a troupe—some tall blonde guy kept mentioning stuff about poop… At this point our big happy group split into two, There was a shorter type high-fiving and yelling “HEY!!!”— EH and CED, but which group was who? enter crazy Bolivian, personality: Type A. Those with machetes and rubber boots, clearly part of the EH The heat hit us and the bus we boarded, lots o’ luggage and group…sounds cool until you realize all they do is talk about all, and in front of us was a fabulously bearded gentleman poop. giving roll call. CEDers can be blamed for the rule of professional dress, their The importance of this soft-spoken Panamanian none of us laptops and constant professionalism: just part of what makes yet knew, but shortly we came to realize…without this suave them the best. man what were we to do? Personally, my time in Santa Rita is best forgot. We were nested into Peace Corps living in Ciudad del SaBut so much was learned during training, I’ll give it a small ber…bad food, no air conditioning, talk of latrines…what, spot. what? Where? For how can one forget, the heat, the hot…and that fine Taty It was here that the term “dinámica” was introduced, and I’m Lorena, a fabulous drinking spot. sure we’re all in accord that its inventor should be noosed! The dogs and roosters and things less pleasing…is it the cockThe language interviews arrived and put most of us in a roach or the nasty latrine that has me sneezing? pout…“Why is he only speaking Spanish, and what is this ‘Body of Peace’ he keeps talking about?” Four hours of tech sure was sweet, followed by four hours of Spanish, then go chat with your host families—neat!!! During our first week we were actually shown a volunteer’s site, then later that day brought to Albrook where we thought, Then sites were announced and we were all ready to go, but “OK, phew, everything is still alright!” tech week and cultural weeks put a kink in the flow. As the week progressed, more characters came aboard…Gil, always handing out money with the presence of a drug lord. Maria Elena roared onto the scene berating us in Spanglish… we could only go to places, “Zone Green!” Lourdes and Emelia also joined the crew, sticking us with needles and discussing all you wanted to know about pu pu. During this time it became clear the CED group was way Type A, and let’s be honest, some of us were hoping others would just go away. Some had it better than others as romance bloomed, while others (Patrick) realized long distance relationships were perhaps doomed. It was here that G56 bochinche was born and grew…should I The big man Peter was also involved, bombarding us with PC mention a few gems? Nah. Ha. Ok, well, maybe just a acronyms like, ET…i.e. you’re dissolved! few… Heather and Brandon I heard are an item… Caleb left town, hey, who am I to fight ‘em? Our friend Dave was lost along the way, too. Oh, and I heard Heather Balance went off to Timbuktu. Mirj isn’t afraid to tell it how it is or to be tough, Just ask IPACOOP or the ladron that tried to steal all of her stuff! Rachel told us during training of her vow to be sober and then Jennifer got engaged and Alan Foster did too, but we all know wowed us with her spirited interpretive dancing which really bowled us over! who beat who to the old “I do”. Drew and Dave both deserve mention for all the ladies they’ve kissed, but they change so quickly, if I wrote a name down, the next mami would be pissed! Our charming, funny Chris chose carnaval to demonstrate his provincial pride and yelled at the Santeños about deforestation on a float ride. Glen got the memo a bit too late…Peace Corps is more than baking brownies and going out on a date. Kyle—the founding member of the Fan Club for Daddy Yankee, always on the hunt for a little hanky-panky. Zack is planning on staying on a year through. If you were Ozzie and accomplishing something, wouldn’t you, too? Alison—at once super chill and yet always ready to dance like a fool. Also known for her signature fun earrings, which totally rule. Daub is still trying to get some play. He’s internet dating from what I hear…ah, to have a sight tan yeye. Who’s footprints are those? They must be Escott’s! He’s always packed with guitar, but apparently that’s all he gots. Blake has been enamored by a sibling of the crew, but with that slow grin and southern drawl what’s a girl to do? What’s there to say about Andrea? I wish I knew! But ask Miss Closet Bochinchosa cuz she knows the dirt on you. I’m afraid here from my rhyme I must digress, cuz to report on Jon rhyming becomes a complete mess. Melissa’s not china, nor is she Becca…this Filipina’s glasses irreparable, but she’ll use tape, what the hecka? Why, is it, that my rhyme must stall? Because of course, Jon was all…and then he was all…HAIR OF THE DOG! And I was all… So clearly while is Jon definitely worth a mention, my rhyme—momentarily—had to go on suspension. Christy, our busty blonde bombshell with her Latino lover, sporting fine fashions that have us saying “keep it under cover!” (We love you Christy!) Matt’s so duro he won’t even buy one, but give Dule a fiddle in the campo and we’ll have some fun! Julie Majkrzak…Maj…Majks…to pronounce that one I need to focus! After her third year I’m sure she’ll be known throughout all of Bocas. Lisa’s left Costa Rica and decided to move to David to give it a go. She’s gonna give her yoga career a try…what, you didn’t know? Jenni tried to rationalize her way out of the human knot, but Becca has had some escapades that I should probably mention with the call to get naked her credibility was shot. too…the Colombian waiter, and mean Drunk Becca, personJake, the force of the Ngäbe world takeover. ality number two. From the amount we’ve seen of this guy, not such a rover. Josh has become one with nature in more ways than one. He Pirouettes, scissor-hands, and other fine Brandon moves… gives alms to Buddah and let’s the mosquitoes bite him, just Secozilla: never afraid to show us how he grooves. for fun. Every time I’d hear tipico my hips would start shakin’, and when the drunk boys would ask for a dance over…and over… and over…this move I’d be making: (insert super-no finger here) Shakin’ it like a racataca in my hot plastic-strapped bra, hearing, “ayyyye, mami, ‘ta bien prity, I looooooooove you, ven aca!” Un pela’o casa’o me acercó y yo le jodí. Busted out solo to Sandra screaming, “Alli mismo, assssiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!” For the 85th time came the pela’o bien triste. I said, “Deja la vaina, ya tengo mi chombo, oiste?” “I’m like” bochinchando about all there is to know, “I’m like” wear, like, a like, condom, like, Heather Love...the queen of the show. Jeff, yes the taller, louder, and (let’s face it) funnier of the two, but not there, tough guy, Cynthia's the boss of you! Lane apparently has some worms up his butt. Two I hear…where’d you get those? I hope from your hut. Gracias a Dios I realized I was one with the culture, just as our time was coming to an end like a hovering vulture. How we’ve all changed from that weekend in DC…now stronger and smarter then we ever thought we could be. So those times you think your time was just a waste, remember that part of our job was to show part of America, just a taste. The fact that we’re here and made it through means we’ve Hey, these are just things I’ve heard, I’m just going with the flow. I spend my time floating out there on my isla, what do I accomplished something that not a lot of others could do. know? The sacrifices we’ve made cannot go unnoted, but what we’ve gained over what we’ve given up…clearly, out voted. What’s up with this culture, I’ll never fit in… I say with a subtle point of my lips and my chin. Did we save the world? It’s impossible to say… But I see the strength in this group and know that at least I’d chow on sancocho, CHUUUULETA it’s hot, we’ve helped pave a way. My nose’d start running, then I’d see how far I could shoot my snot. This phase ends and we move on to something new; Panama Then to call attention I’d give a hsssst, hsssst, and wave a cab and the PC in our blood, something we can never undo. down with a downward flick of the wrist. Perhaps this next step might be a bit scary, But we’ll enjoy success…si Dios quiere. I’d tell them where I was going and how much I would pay, and they’d mumble, “Aye, joven, I’m not going that way.” I’d reach for the go-to quata in my ear and jump in the packed out, pimped out diablo rojo NO FEAR. I’d gyrate along to the reggaeton beat because no one would actually move over to give me a seat. The pavo flashed me a smile with his eight gold teeth… chucha, missed my stop, qué va…I’ll wait five more feet. My stop was at Samy y Sandra’s, sucked succulent skunked beer, rockin’ my sequined-spandex tank top that reads, “My face is up here.” I switched from “buenas” to “oye, loco, qué sopá?”, insuring the maliantes recongnize aquí viene la panameña gringa. My Two Centavos por Chris Orvin How does one start articles like these? I tried. I looked at Group 55 and Group 54’s COS pages in La Vaina. Yet nothing jumped out at me. Some humor, some wisdom, some sappy emotionalism. All things I’ve felt in the last three months. So then I looked at all sort of quotes from books I had read during my 776 days in Panama to kick off an article. None of them seemed to fit. I leafed through the great thoughts of John Steinbeck, Adolous Huxley, Ernest Hemingway, Somerset Maugham, Milan Kundera, Kurt Vonnegut, Chuang Tzu and Henry Miller on topics ranging from what it means to be an American living in a foreign country to the nature of time and the making of plans. (PRETENTION ALERT: this is where you get impressed by the breadth and quality of my reading). And yet none of them seemed to work, either. So I wanted to look at what had physically, fundamentally, objectively and undeniably changed in my overtwo-years here. The list was interesting. During two years I got to say I conozco five new countries, wrote five journals, read 47 books, sent fifteen bulk emails home, built one house, learned how to mix concrete, ate 820 pounds of rice, got four new scars and lost 17 old pounds, learned how to cook, got my host-grandmother to say “¡Opa!” when dancing tipico with me, got one guy in my town to use SODIS, put on five theatrical performances, and broke five umbrellas and eight pairs of chancletas. influence of college on my life. So I make no claims to understand what Peace Corps will mean for me, writing this article while still in Panama. Have I changed? Certainly. But how? That I cannot tell. What can I say at this point definitively? That, for my life, my service was an overwhelming success. I’d define success as enjoying oneself and learning. So in my two years I had a lot of fun, and I learned a lot. This is admittedly a very selfish definition of success, I suppose. But then again I’m a selfish person. “Helping people” doesn’t fit into this definition. And maybe with time, as my ideas and attitudes mature, this will fit into a definition of success. But the word “help” is a very difficult term to pin down definitively, especially in the context of what is sustainable and unsustainable help. I think we often don’t know when we are helping. I had a friend in college who told me that I said some things to him that were really helpful for him at that point in his life. I can not, to this day, tell you what I said to him to make that kind of impression. And yet somehow, I offered him help when he needed it, unbeknownst to me. I feel this holds in Panama as well: our coffee seminars and latrine-building and co-op organizing may not be our real “help” to Panama. It may be casually mentioning condom-use in an informal conversation or offhandedly remarking on the importance of reading that really helps improve someone’s life, and not all our diligent “work.” And what has changed? I have found it takes me about two years to understand anything (those of you paying attention would realize I’m just now starting to understand Group 56 training). It took me to the sophomore year of college to understand high school. People’s impressions of Peace Corps often rely on an And I’m only now starting to realize the effect and image of a bedraggled, unshaven American living in a The temptation is strong to fall into the yawning cliché trap to say it was all about the people and not the work; it was about the “little things” that made the two years of hardship and triumph and struggle and joy worth it all. These things of course are undeniably true and I believe them heartily. I could bring out sappy quotes and nostalgic photos and play emotional music and tug at all your heart strings. But I won’t. I want to try to keep this a little more objective and analytical instead of emotional. I hope you’ll forgive me, and the unexpectedly serious tone of this, my last La Vaina article. I didn’t expect it either. jungle hut, saving the lives of helpless indigenous children, building schools and latrines and hospitals. This “saving the world” metaphor even shows up in our conversations among each other. And we all feel varying degrees of discomfort with it. The world is not ours to save. And yet, we who prescribe to a religious worldview, would say that the world has already been saved (of course this mythic, archetypical fact is transcribed into appropriate terms within the specific social, historical and linguistic framework of the religious tradition). I would go so far to say that we have come here not to save the world but to be saved by it. Our goal is not not make people dependent on our help (as if help were a one-way street), but rather to realize our dependence on others. Our time here, if anything, I hope teaches us a little about humility, about powerlessness, about frustration, in short about needing someone’s help and rejoicing at receiving it. This lesson about the loss of power and control, in itself, will make the two years all more than worthwhile. “If not to help, then why did you come here?” you ask legitimately. Because I was curious. That’s why. The Reason Number One is that I wanted to see what the world was like outside of my middleclass white university-educated American male bubble. And I wanted to see if I could handle the overwhelming host of challenges that confront every Peace Corps volunteer. I wanted, as Beyonce once wryly quipped in “Bootylicious,” to see if I “could handle this” (Returning to America, I plan to make my fortune by launching a slick ad campaign for the Peace Corps: screw this How Far Will You Go junk, I want to see Destiny’s Child asking me if I can “Handle This?” ... Peace Corps ... “Can You Handle This?”). What does Peace Corps do? It sends us home. And we have to go. And we can never, as with any experience in life, ever really “go back” to the way things used to be, living here as volunteers. But we go home Americans newly enriched with incredible experiences. We go to change the world (and be changed by it). We go with stories and friends and experiences that 300,952,947 of our paisanos have not had. That’s right, 99.93% of Americans never saw Mali or Cambodia or Panama or Turkmenistan like we did. And it is our duty to be the ambassadors of the Real World to Americans fretting over cold cappuccinos, office politics, someone cutting them off in traffic and Other Things That Don’t Matter. Is it glamorous or profitable work? No, perhaps not. Is it important? Undeniably. To those of you who still are in the process of changing and being changed by your two years in Panama, I wish you all the best. And welcome to the club. The Future of Group 56 por too many people to list Blake and Amy: Have many beautiful—yet very skinny— children. Alan Daub: Marries long time sweetheart, Jillbaby29. Becca and Melissa: Back in Panama running a chain of Philipinos. Jennifer: Gets married and has a dozen Tarheel babies who also join Peace Corps Panama. Andrea: Uses her bochinche expertise to become editor of the National Inquirer. Lane and Dave: After a minor accident on their construction site (i.e. house collapses) the Matt: two flee to South America to avoid pend- After winning the lumberjack contest, ing fraud charges. Matt sequesters himself in a cabin in the woods, buries his winnings, and proceeds to indulge in his ocular fixation. Jake: Converts to Mama tata and disappears completely into Ngabeland. Brandon and Heather: Drew: Goes crazy after striving for soap perfection, moves into Matt’s log cabin, and becomes a hermit. Alan: Can be found with a long beard and a loin cloth, running an organic farm in Hawaii. Cynthia and Jeff: Country Director and Diablo Rojo driver, respectively. Rachel: President of the Tom Robbins fan club. Chris: Makes it big on Broadway with Peace Corps safety and security skits which star Matthew Broderick and Nathan Lane. Kyle and Allison: Life partners relationship is jeopardized as Kyle sails away with sailor number ??? while Allison becomes relationship counselor after having run the gamut of possible Peace Corps relationships. Rejoin Peace Corps to “recapture the magic”. Mirjam: Overthrows Dutch government in hostile takeover. Erin: Puts public speaking skills to use and becomes dictator of small isle in Pacific. Josh and Lisa: Finally discover the meaning of life. Jenni and Eddie: Owners of approximately 97% of the Azuero. Julie: Incites women’s rights riots in Changuinola. Jon: Loses readjustment allowance in David Casino. Christy: Founder of Pi Chi/Panama Sorority chapter. I am... por Christy Crais Scott: Finally finds his shoes. Zach Fi- To my community, I am… A first-class chef Because I make popcorn and birthday cakes. An architect Because I learned the difference between a caballete and a carriola nally saves the world. And those that didn’t make it… Patrick Becomes a millionaire after inventing waterproof cigarettes. Dave Z: Gains fame from his multiplatinum remix of the Cuerpo del Deseo theme song. A nurse Because I put antibiotic cream on wounds. A teacher Because I write straight on a chalkboard in cursive. A doctor Because I discuss information about AIDS. A computer whiz Because I type ‘rapido’ without looking at the keyboard. A health nut Because I choose wheat over white. Caleb: Turns his life around and becomes a motivational speaker. Glenn: Corners the market on overpriced “solarpower baked” brownies for malnourished children. Heather B:Medivac-ed back to Panama. A math genius Because I add and multiply in my head. A permanent invite to special events Because I own a digital Camera A Profes sional athlete Because I run to the beach And back ...without stopping. A beauty queen Because I have blue eyes. A friend Because I go to the river to play. A neighbor Because I give away extra food. A resident of Madre Vieja Because I built my first home there. A success Because I stayed. Kyle and Allison’s Poetry Corner por the Life Partners Sitting in their hammocks in little indigenous villages in the Darien for two years gave Allison and Kyle lots of time to hone their poetry skills. They are here to share their art with you. Allison’s ode to her life partner Although I’ve made many a dear friend in G56, none compares to my LP…Kyle “Isabela” Irwin. A limerick… Kyle and Allison’s ode to the Darien boyz Chris, Alan, Matt, Dave, Drew They really are quite a crew Each with his own skills and purview. The theatre major, the mountain men and the nerdy engineers; On the surface very distinct, but after a few beers, A force to be reckoned with, these Darien seers. There once was a PCV named Isabela, Who was quite fond of the fellas. She kissed them a lot, You exposed us to the rich woody And got them real hot, flavor of Kentucky Cream, But I always took her back, You helped us debut on the mi bella. Darien PCV wrestling team, And we even dabbled in the Don’t even ask! music and acting scene. We will be unstoppable in any Kyle’s ode to her life partner future task. But what really brought us A lil limerick… together? It was fine Lady Just remember where you came Darien. There once was an from and where it all starts, Who many a Panamanian had India blanquita name Allison. Y recuerdan de tus compañeras, deflowered again and again, Pasearing wih her paruma tied keep us in your hearts. Yet we don’t care, we love and tight impressed everyone. We love you all… She chanted “Que sopa mi fren”. appreciate her like an old friend. we know that part. Danced the mariposa like a And now we diverge on our own chabawera to the end. Blood, Sweat, and Tears. separate paths, Without her I just could not be in Could others do what we did? the Darien. Fast Forward por Becca Acuña (#1) August 11, 2005 . The day group 56 arrived in Panama. It seems so long ago, or was it just yesterday? On that day, as we waited in the airport in Atlanta to board our plane to Panama, I called my friend on the phone. I told him - I don’t know about this. I wish I could just fast forward two years. You know, turn the page and move past the chapter entitled “The most challenging portion of my life … EVER.” Two years later, I realize that was one of the sillier things I’ve ever said. We all had our mental stabilities tested these past 27 months. But those are outweighed by all the unbelievably beautiful moments we’ve also experienced. There are so many unforgettable memories. How I am grateful for the memory of walking down the road in Las Nubes on a sunny morning and beholding the sight of 10 girls in their Sunday dresses so happy to see me, that they took a running start towards me, screaming my name, racing to be the first to hug me. Or stuffing myself silly with homemade coco rice and beef curry in the Darien with friends. Or hiking to unknown waterfalls in the Comarca and being in awe of their beauty. Or consoling my neighbor in the middle of the night after a nasty fight with her husband, who doesn’t approve of her working outside the home. Seeing her appreciative eyes finally made me feel like I was making a positive difference for someone. Or squeezing that last bit of fermented-grape goodness from a box - It’s not wine but it’s Clos! Or finding the simple satisfaction in having my rice come out perfectly cooked, not aguacha’o. Or being grateful to my site mate for offering me her patient and levelheaded words to help calm me down after the all-too-common Peace Corps anxiety attack (What am I doing here? I can’t get anything done!) Or realizing my heartfelt appreciation of water heaters and flush toilets (though I do dig a wellmade composting latrine). Or living in beach paradise in Kuna Yala for a few days, allowing my mind to be as calm as the clear, blue waters that surrounded me. Or just finally realizing that the words “ sweet’, “ass”, and “napkins”, when put in various combinations, can be incredibly funny. Two years ago, I was anxious about what I was going to encounter in Peace Corps. I was so anxious of the difficulties that I almost wanted to skip this whole portion of my life. How silly I was. Life is not a book with chapters you can skip. It must be LIVED - the good, the bad and the ugly. Thanks to Peace Corps and all the 56ers for sticking through it together. What We Wrote por Jeff Redwine, Daub, and Zach Bearclaw If you are reading this, you made it the two years, gracias a Dios! At this point staging probably seems long ago, but chances are good you may remember those first days. After several hundred dinámicas and roundtables and skits, we were all circled up, and Heather articulated well what all the rest of us were thinking: how nice it was not having to explain “why Peace Corps?” anymore. From that point on we were connected to a community of people that, on some level, understood us. Though we may not have been fully aware of it, we were all embarking on a similar journey – emotionally, socially, professionally, etc. And though the particular motives and expectations of each of us differed, the common journey into the unknown created a solidarity not easily matched. In anticipation of the wild ride before us, we said our hasta luegos from Rio Mar after a weekend of healthy, low key, and conscience preparation for our service. Like a shotgun we scattered away to discover our reality - hiking, boating, and busing into the random, beautiful, dirty hot corners of paradise. The days were long as the months flew by. The bochinche began to trickle in of other 56ers and the jaw dropping circumstances that burned down their hut and proved to us all that Panamanian women do indeed dig solar backpacks. As the shock of training wore off and our sites became home, friendships began to take new form and new depth thanks to the frustrations, humility, bodily functions, and comical situations that periodically sought an outlet. group to “desnudarse” with camera ready; painted our faces for a soccer game; charlared about “dolores” instead of “dólares”; made monthly casino trips in order to quadraplica our sueldo; witnessed the reenactment of being mounted in El Salvador; attended a Daddy Yankee concert… one month in advance; were told to not drink our own beer in the Radisson, etc, etc, etc. The truth is, if it hadn’t been for our compañeros de Cuerpo de Paz, we may not have made it … but here we are. And now, as we finish up our service, and come away from our Peace Corps experience with twice the questions and half the answers … there is a humble confidence that goes with us. We might not be any more sure about the sweeping and And so the next few years played out. We fed each universal truths around other with confidence as we searched together for us; but within us, we know we’ve changed for the deeper, and without us, we know that we’re in the the missing pieces of the sanity puzzle. We self company of buena gente – people we’re lucky to medicated with laughter as the saturated popsicle sticks flew home to mama and daddy Redwine; we know and even luckier to call friends. This next exploded chairs; rode floats at carnaval; spoke with leg of the journey may be just as complex, uncomfortable and crassly comical as the last, but we go Ozzy; asked “sweet ass napkins” to get out of the forward knowing that anything that grows and car; dated old sailors and young Panameños; deepens our character and our friendships like preached against deforestation to Santeños … in Peace Corps Panama has, si vale la pena! Los Santos … at carnival … en la madrugada; pummeled little children with water balloons in It has been an honor serving with each and every Pedasí; cheered on marathon runners and passed out bebidas; defied armed malientes for the all-too one of you! Echa pa´ lante precious I-Pod; fell off of Blake’s house; told a