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Happy New Year
January 2013 Newsletter of the Houston West, TX, Chapter Chapter Co-Leaders Joyce Dakin Malena Lopez Annette Mennen Baldwin Lisa Leanard Newsletter Editor Treasurer (281) 858-4551 (281) 995-7747 (281) 578-9118 When a child dies, at any age, the family suffers intense pain and may feel hopeless and isolated. The Compassionate Friends provides highly personal comfort, hope, and support to every family experiencing the death of a son or a daughter, a brother or a sister, or a grandchild, and helps others better assist the grieving family. ***JANUARY MEETING*** We will be joining the Katy Compassionate Friends Chapter for a Special Concert When: Tuesday, January 8, 2013 Where: Kingsland Baptist Church 6:30 PM – Doors Open If this is your first meeting, please arrive by 6:30 pm 7:00 PM—Meeting Begins 20555 Kingsland Blvd, Katy, TX 77450 John Burns Building, East side of church Program: Alan Pedersen Concert Directions: From East of Fry Road (coming from Houston): Go west on I-10 to Fry Road. Turn left (south) on Fry Road. Turn right (west) on Kingsland Blvd and travel 0.5 miles to Kingsland Baptist Church. From West of Mason Road (coming from San Antonio): Go east on I-10 to Westgreen Blvd. Turn right (south) on Westgreen Blvd and travel 0.6 miles to Kingsland Blvd. Turn left (east) on Kingsland Blvd and travel 0.5 miles to Kingsland Baptist Church. (Across from Nottingham Country Elementary School) Our Children Remembered Birthdays January 25 Anthony Joseph Leanard, son of Larry & Lisa Leanard During your child’s birth month, you are invited to bring a special photograph or keepsake of your Loved one to share with the group. If you are unable to attend the meeting during your loved one’s birth month, please feel free to choose another month to share with us. The death of your child is probably the most traumatic, life-changing event that you will ever experience. The Compassionate Friends is an organization of parents who have also lost a child to death. Each of us has experienced the deep, searing pain that you are feeling now. Each of us has turned to other parents who were farther into their grief journey for guidance, support and understanding. This is done through our monthly meetings, our newsletter, our website, our phone-a-friend program, our library, our e-mail program and our referral program. Each month parents find our meeting to be a safe place where they can talk about their pain and problems with others who are uniquely qualified to understand; bereaved parents offer gentle suggestions or often simply listen. We invite you to bring a friend to your first few meetings until you feel a level of comfort with the group. Do not be surprised if we talk about the happy times with our children, the wonderful memories and the various methods we have created to keep our children close to us. It is here that many bereaved parents find hope as those who are more seasoned in their grief shine the light of experience to help illuminate each grief path. We have no dues. We are self-sustaining through donations and the generosity of so many in our community. You Need Not Walk Alone. Happy New Year January 2013 Page 2 Welcome We extend a warm welcome to all who attended their first meeting in December: We need not walk alone. We are The Compassionate Friends. We reach out to each other with love, with understanding, and with hope. The children we mourn have died at all ages and from many different causes, but our love for them unites us. Your pain becomes my pain, just as your hope becomes my hope. We come together from all walks of life, from many different circumstances. We are a unique family because we represent many races, creeds, and relationships. We are young, and we are old. Some of us are far along in our grief, but others still feel a grief so fresh and so intensely painful that they feel helpless and see no hope. Some of us have found our faith to be a source of strength, while some of us are struggling to find answers. Some of us are angry, filled with guilt or in deep depression, while others radiate an inner peace. But whatever pain we bring to this gathering of The Compassionate Friends, it is pain we will share, just as we share with each other our love for the children who have died. We are all seeking and struggling to build a future for ourselves, but we are committed to building a future together. We reach out to each other in love to share the pain as well as the joy, share the anger as well as the peace, share the faith as well as the doubts, and help each other to grieve as well as to grow. We Need Not Walk Alone. We Are The Compassionate Friends. ~TCF Credo Mother’s Retreat—A Few Openings Still Available Snacks Project Joy & Hope of Texas has a few openings for their February, 2013, weekend retreat “Tapestry” for bereaved mothers. This seminar is one of the finest in the nation. Many of our members have attended this retreat and have reported very positive outcomes. If you would like to attend this seminar, enroll now. Contact [email protected] to receive a Mothers’ Retreat Packet. Scholarships are available for those who are unable to afford the cost. Our snacks in December were brought by all who attended the Candle Lighting Ceremony. January snacks will be provided by Henry and Laura Reding. If you would like to bring snacks email to [email protected] In Memory of our Beloved Children Memorials Given by: In Loving Memory of: No Donations were received in December Thank you for your donation to The Compassionate Friends, Katy, TX Chapter Our chapter is operated entirely by volunteers dedicated to furthering the work of TCF. Your voluntary, tax deductible donations honor your loved one in a meaningful way by enabling us to print and mail this Newsletter and meet other expenses involved in reaching out to other grieving families. Donations along with the name of the person being honored may be sent to: Lisa Leanard 13814 Wheatbridge Drive Houston, TX 77041 Loving Listeners…..Phone-A-Friend TCF Katy has established a phone-a-friend list for parents who want to talk with someone who shares a similar loss. If you would like to volunteer to be a phone-a-friend, please contact Annette Baldwin. Loss of an Adult Child…..Annette (281) 578-9118 Only Child…...Annette (281) 578-9118 Murdered Child….. Robin (281) 851-5425 Death of Teenage Child……Joyce (281) 858-4551 or (281) 750 2259 Brenda (281)804-7087 Accidental Death……..Annette (281) 578-9118 Death from long term illness…...Karen (832) 746-0279 Support for Fathers……..Albert (832) 885-4741 Special Needs Child……. Volunteer needed Suicide ...………..Rhonda (832) 282-7773 Cathy (832)-746-1980 In the night of death, hope sees a star, and listening love can hear the rustle of a wing. ~Robert Ingersoll When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. ~Kahlil Gibran To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die. ~Thomas Campbell Join Our Chapter E-Mail List Join our chapter e-mail list to receive timely notices, writings, articles, special information and more. During the holiday season, we try to send special thoughts and articles to our group several times per week. To join, send an email t o t c f k a t y . [email protected] Inner Loop Chapter Meeting The Inner Loop TCF Chapter holds meetings the 3rd Tuesday of each month at 7:00 pm at the First Unitarian Universalist Church, 5200 Fannin, Fireside Room. Doors open at 6:30 pm. The January meeting will be held on Tuesday, January 15, 2013. Meeting starts at 7:00. Newly bereaved meet at 6:30 pm and join the main group at 7:00 pm. The topic of the November meeting will be “The Many Faces of Grief.” For more information contact Cathy Knapp at (713) 877-8626. National TCF Contact Information TCF National Office P.O. Box 3696 Oak Brook, IL 60522 Toll Free: (877) 969-0010 Page 3 January 2013 Alan Pedersen’s “Angels Across America” Concert On January 8, 2013 at Katy TCF The January Houston West meeting will be replaced by a beautiful musical concert which is presented by Alan Pedersen, nationally recognized songwriter and singer whose music is written for bereaved parents. We are quite fortunate to be able to host this concert in Katy; this is Alan’s last year of touring the country. On August 15, 2001 Alan’s life was changed forever. Ashley Marie Pedersen, his oldest child and only daughter, died as a result of an automobile accident. Alan has turned his journey through the valley of grief and the pain of loss into a collection of powerful and moving songs recorded on to 4 highly acclaimed CD’s. His music is popular with bereaved people around the world and has been used at thousands of candle lighting services, balloon and butterfly releases and by hundreds of professionals and organizations as a healing tool for the bereaved. His music has been played at Ground Zero in New York City, the memorial at Virginia Tech University, the memorial at Columbine High School and is featured on many memorial and tribute websites. Alan has been a keynote speaker and workshop presenter at many prestigious conferences including: The World Gathering on Bereavement, The Compassionate Friends National Conference and The National Gathering of Bereaved Parents of the USA. Alan is currently planning a trip to Connecticut where he will present a concert for the parents whose children were killed in December 2012, at the Sandy Hook School. We invite each of our members to bring family and close friends and attend this beautiful musical tribute to our children. There is much healing to be found in Alan’s music as we continue on our grief journeys. Pain Birthday Table If your child’s birthday is in January, please bring a picture or memento to our February meeting to share with the group. In May and December we ask that you bring your child’s picture for the birthday table in the month following the actual event. We hold our balloon release in May and our Annual Candle Lighting Ceremony in December. Our January 2013 meeting will be a concert provided by Alan Pedersen. Special Small Group Meetings For Parents Whose Child Was Lost to Suicide The Katy Chapter of TCF has a unique program for parents whose children died from suicide. All parents attend the opening of our meeting each month and then adjourn to their own private meeting for the remainder of the meeting. Death from suicide usually requires additional and unique group dynamics. This program is offered only to parents who have lost children to suicide. The grip wrenching pain, The pain that strikes your heart, The pain that strips you of any happiness. Articles & Poems For Our Newsletter The pain of knowing you’ll never see him again, The pain of knowing you won’t grow up with him, The pain of knowing that tickle fight from the day before is the last memory of him, The pain of knowing he never had the chance to start a family. He should be here. He should be here for the holidays, He should be here to guide his little sister He should be here to continue fixing that old 87 iroc Camaro He should be here.. Not in a grave. Scarred for life, Not knowing what to say when you’re asked if you’re okay. Welcome to Our New Webmaster We thank Lee Schurmann who has taken over the job of webmaster. This is an integral part of our communication with our members. National TCF Contact Information Sudden death, Caused by a heartless jerk. I’m left in tears, just hoping Just hoping.. It was just a dream. Kassidy Richard In memory of my brother, Tyler Ray Richard 1/14/1991-11/6/2011 TCF, Katy, TX “Well, I’ve got pictures and videos And I see them all the time But my favorite memories, well they’re right here in my mind.” Alan Pedersen From his original song, I Remember You If you would like to submit a poem, a writing or a brief article (no more than 800-825 words) about your child or your grief journey for publication in our Katy Compassionate Friends newsletter, e-mail your work to Annette Mennen Baldwin at [email protected]. We encourage our members to share with us. TCF National Office P.O. Box 3696 Oak Brook, IL 60522 Toll Free: (877) 969-0010 www.compassionatefriends.org T ! ! Printed in Loving Memory Of Todd M. Mennen ! 1967-2002 January 2013 Page 4 Lessons We Leave Behind In October at Compassionate Friends, you heard Cindy and Lloyd Dunlap share about the new book about their son's life lessons that were found on his computer after he died in September 2010. He told no one about them. In the last newsletter, Cindy and Lloyd shared one of his LIfe Lessons (#18). Here is another excerpt of one of his 42 Life Lessons found in the book. Life Lesson #26: "Have faith that this is what God wants for you; especially when you are lonely." Our son, Chris, had a lot of challenges and trials to test his faith. While in college and after college, he often wondered why so many bad things happened to him. Time after time, obstacles would come up to block his path and his dreams. He knew God had a plan for him, he just did not know what it was. Even with all the friends he had, and with all those who loved him dearly, Chris experienced loneliness and this brought him down. There is no deeper sadness than feeling you are facing the challenges of this world totally alone. Chris remained faithful. Chris asked God for guidance because he knew God was leading him somewhere. He wanted God's direction in his life so he often wondered and asked God why the path was so hard. ** What his life lesson means to Cindy and Lloyd: In Psalm 25, King David was lonely and afflicted and he asked God for guidance. To be taught by God, we must seek Him in prayer and read His Word. Then once we receive His guidance, we must obey. We know we must remain faithful in whatever plan The Lord has for us. Even though we do not know what it is, we know His plan is out there and He is watching over us. We need to trust in Him and let Him lead us in His plan. We should not ask God to bless "my" plan for "my" life. So often we do that. We ask God to bless the things we want or to answer the prayers for what we want. Even though David in Psalm 25 was a King, he wanted The Lord to teach him His ways and His paths. We found it fascinating that David said in Psalm 25:16: "I am lonely and afflicted". Chris' Life Lesson also said "especially when you are lonely". We need to understand, like Chris did, sometimes we will go through lonely times in our lives. Especially during those times, all of us need to realize, more than ever, The Lord will guide us and direct us through the valley and the dark times in our life. Cry out to God like King David did. When you are willing to do that, God is always there waiting for you. Psalm 25:4-5, 16. "Make me know Your ways, O Lord; Teach me Your paths. Lead me in Your truth and teach me, For you are the God of my salvation; For You I wait all the day. Turn to me and be gracious to me, For I am lonely and afflicted". A copy of the book can be found at Compassionate Friends website and at: www.lessonsweleavebehind.com and in our Katy TCF chapter’s library. Lloyd and Cindy Dunlap In memory of our son, Chris Dunlap TCF, Katy, TX Another Year Old year has gone away With gift and candleOld year has gone away With thought and song Old year has given light And dark and season Old year has been too short And been too long Old year has given joy and disappointment Old year has given grief and strength to cope. Old year was a memory and was forgetting. Another year is come: give it your hope. Sascha Wagner, from “The Poems of Sascha Wanger” Our Sincere Thanks It goes without saying that a child is a special gift who must be nurtured and raised with good qualities. Children are our future and therefore we should see that hope fulfilled. That is why the pain of losing a child represents so much emotional anguish to the parents experiencing the grief process. No two people grieve alike and women definitely grieve differently from men because grief is a hands-on phenomenon – we can continue ad infinitum cataloging nuances on that subject! But in our grief, we must stop and think seriously of this child that we mourn. What was life really like for him or her? I know that Robin suffered the disease he was afflicted by with great fortitude, courage and dignity. Although he was frequently hobbled by the pain of the muscle contractions involved in Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy, his optimism and good humor were never quenched. Where did he find his psychological edge? Surely it was in the great faith he possessed in God and his tremendous love for us, his parents. He knew we had his back, come hell or high water! Robin reveled in life and for him, as his cousin Samir avowed in the touching eulogy he delivered at the funeral on August 14th, 2006, for Rob “the cup was always half-full.” Another friend, Shaumo, from Taylor High School in Katy, stated that Robin never complained or whined about being physically disabled and confined from the age of thirteen in a wheelchair but took himself to the next level. It was as if his ailment gave him the patience of Job and the religious commitment of Abraham when asked by God to sacrifice Isaac. He was never phased by long lines in physician’s offices and the like – he just took everything in stride. That is also the major reason that my husband and I were able to handle DMD with equanimity and matter-offact perspective for as long as we did. It is now our turn to thank the teachers, doctors, diagnosticians, physiotherapists and other individuals who assisted us along the way to make Robin’s life a happy, productive, hopeful and life-affirming thing. Not for him a dismal and pitiful existence. That is what made his life such a success story and provides proof that there is an Almighty God who watches over each tiny sparrow out there. God is not a myth made up by people to give them false hope of an afterlife but a true indicator of what comes after we die. I also want to tell my beloved son that I really appreciate his goodness and responsible attitude toward others. I am grateful to him that he worked diligently to be such a great student, an acclaimed National Merit Scholar and an active member of the National Honor Society, I say, “Thank you Robin for being a true credit to your family!” My husband and I try to keep the good memories alive, and let our recollections of those last terrible 34 days leading up to his demise, fade slowly away. Neela Sen In memory of my son, Robin Sen TCF, Katy, TX Check the web for locations: www.griefshare.org Page 5 January 2013 Year One 12/16/12 Dear Matt, One year ago today you were alive, planning for your future and staying strong. Who knew in less than 24 hours you would die. You called me about 4 hours before you died and I still have that voicemail on my phone. How did a whole year pass? How have I survived? How will I survive? Now I know what all the future years of my life without you will be like. My imagination reruns the scenario of your death over and over. My only comfort is that I know your Guardian Angel was with you when it became time to guide your way toward peace. 12/17/12 I sat outside while the clock ticked through the time of your death. I’m sure of it within minutes. Although I am crying, I am sure the angels in Heaven are rejoicing. I am trying to relate better to God to get strength for myself and for others. For 26+ years of my life I loved you beyond measure. For the rest of my life it will be no different. I will continue to love you beyond measure, only with a broken heart. I love you, Mom Susan Archer In loving memory of my son, Matt TCF, Katy, TX KAREN For many years, I looked around at those young mothers and fathers Yearning for a baby, I prayed that someday I would have a family of my own. God looked into my heart and found there was enough love for two. So one rare snowy day in January he sent twins. My heart almost burst with love from within. A love for all animals, big or small, they both had; So hiding cats in trash cans and bringing a horse in the house They thought was not so bad. From sweet and innocent little girls – to mischievous you say, From pennies to quarters, from candy to cookies to cake, These were their own scavenger lists, theirs alone to make. They say Sunday’s child is “full of grace”; that it must be. They became beautiful young girls full of charisma and appeal From precocious teenagers to beautiful and intelligent women in their own right. With their beauty and talent, I thought their futures would be happy and bright. The day we received the phone call telling us Karen was dead, Is the message that all parents dread. Our life, as we knew it, turned dark and gray. I asked God, why? as I got on my knees and began to pray He had protected her so many times before. Couldn’t she be saved once more She reached out to the Lord on that final day, 14th of October, 2011, The Lord said to her, “Karen, I am taking you to heaven.” He held out his hand and said Karen, “you‘re coming to heaven” And when he recited “Calling All Angels”, that autumn night, he added another angel to his roll call…the one with the smile so bright Death took my twin daughter Karen away Leaving us as a family shattered and in dismay. As pure mortals, we don't always understand Just what God has in his plans. The passage “Let not your hearts be troubled” Put your trust in God and your soul at rest. Remembering God took Karen ‘cause He only takes the very best!! As my life goes on, I will always love and remember my daughter, A beauty she was, inside and out I will always remember her gorgeous smile and hearty laughter Her loyalty and devotion to family and friends…. She was a friend until the very end. She tried to find her angels here on earth, But because her life is now heavens home. My angel is now free to roam. Where sorrow or pain is no more. Only peace and eternity on every shore. Karen, until we meet again, I will hold you in my heart until I can hold you in my arms. I’ll love you forever! Laura Redding Karen’s Mom TCF, Katy, TX Email of Chapter Newsletter Offered to Members Our TCF Katy Chapter newsletter is available in a PDF format as an email document for those who would prefer to receive this instead of a paper copy. If you do not read the printed copy, we unnecessarily spend chapter resources. If you would like to make the change, simply email Annette Baldwin at tcfkaty. [email protected], This is an option, not a requirement….. we are asking parents who are beyond four years in their grief to receive the email copy. Reading List – Scottie Holton, Licensed Professional Counselor Scottie Holton, LPC, who spoke to our group in August, has provided us with an excellent list of books. A Child’s View of Grief, A Guide for Caring Adults – Alan D. Wolfelt A Grace Disguised – Jerry Sittser Good Grief – Granger E. Westberg Guilt During Bereavement, A guide to understanding – Robert Baugher Healing Your Grieving Heart for Teens, 100 practical ideas – Alan D. Wolfelt How Do We Tell The Children? A step-bystep guide for helping children when someone dies – Dan Schaefer, and Christine Lyons I’m Grieving as Fast as I Can, How young widows and widowers can cope and heal – Linda Feinberg Lament for a Son – Nicholas Wolterstorff Life After the Death of My Son, What I’m learning – Dennis L. Apple Low pain Threshold, poems – Corinne Edwards On Death and Dying – Elizabeth Kubler-Ross On Grief and Grieving, Finding the meaning of grief through the five stages of loss – Elizabeth Kubler-Ross and David Kessler Sacred Grief, Exploring a new dimension to grief – Leslis Tessman Someone Special Died, children’s book - Joan Singleton Prestine “Tell Us Papa”, a childrens’ book The Bereaved Parent – Harriet Sarnoff Schiff The Grief Recovery Handbook – John W. James and Russell Friedman The Last Dance, Encountering death and dying – Lynne Ann DeSpelder and Albert Lee Strickland The Unwanted Gift of Grief – Tim P. VanDuivendyk The Will of God – Leslie D. Weatherhead The Worst is Over – Judith Acosta and Judith Simon Prager Understanding Anger During Bereavement – Bob Baugher, Carol Hankins, and Gary Hankins Visions, Trips, and Crowded Rooms, Who and what you see before you die – David Kessler January 2013 Annette Mennen Baldwin In loving memory of my son, Todd Mennen TCF, Katy, TX Katy, TX 77450 565 South Mason Rd PMB 152 Houston West Chapter The Compassionate Friends Annette Mennen Baldwin In memory of my son, Todd Mennen TCF, Katy, TX Watching recent blizzard coverage on the anniversary of my son’s death, I was reminded of an event that took place when Todd was 11 years old, and we were living in the Midwest. January is an interminable month in the Midwest. Gray clouds, freezing cold, and light deprivation can try the patience of the hardiest among us. So, my husband and I decided that we should all go to a “selfcontained” resort a few hundred miles from home. We enjoyed our stay despite the blizzard which raged around the complex. Todd and his best friend were busy with swimming and video games and exploring the complex. We relaxed and grabbed some artificial sunlight. Then it was time to return home. The interstate and two lane highways were cleared by late Sunday, and we had an uneventful trip home. We dropped Todd’s friend off at his home in the city, and we headed for our country home. When we arrived, we realized that the road that led to our home hadn’t been cleared. Snow drifted up to six feet in depth. My husband pushed through the drifts and Todd and I followed. The temperature was 18 degrees below zero, the winds were blowing at about 15 miles per hour. Todd’s face was so freezing cold; I took off my wool scarf and wrapped it around his mouth and nose. Fighting the cold and the snow exhausted us both. He began to fall, and I helped him up. I began to fall. After about a half mile of this, we both collapsed in the snow. I knew then how easy it is to give up and quietly fade into death from cold. As I struggled to get up and help Todd up, my husband kept pushing the snow back for a tunnel of sorts. I felt as if I couldn’t do it anymore, the cold, the overwhelming nature of the heavy, drifted snow and the exhaustion set it. I simply tumbled over into the snow. Todd scuttled up to tower over me and said, “You can do it, Mom.” Come on, take my hand. We’ll get through this.” And we did. On the 10th anniversary of his death, I heard his voice telling me, “You can do it, Mom. Take my hand. We’ll get through this.” And we did. Return Service Requested Another New Year has slipped into our lives, radically changing some things and leaving other things to evolve naturally. For bereaved parents a new year marks another year on the calendar without their precious children. It is a new year, but not much has changed since the old year. Why is that? We act as the catalysts of change for ourselves. We choose to help ourselves; we choose to stay in a specific place in our grief. We choose to reach out for hope or we choose to withdraw into the familiar and postpone facing life and hope another day. There are no set rules or specific timetables in bereavement. We are each unique in our grief. Eventually we all find hope. We find it in different ways and in different times. There will be no one moment of epiphany for bereaved parents. Instead, there are a series of minutes, hours, weeks, months and often years until we realize that we can truly say we feel the power of hope coming alive from deep within us. This moment will come for each of us. It will come in its own time and its own way. Even those of us who have found hope and who shine its light on the paths of newly bereaved parents, still regress and withdraw into the dark sadness of our loss. And that is as it should be. For we have lost the most precious gift of our lives...our children’s presence with us and their future in this life. Our children live in our hearts and our memories and our dreams. They do not share this plane with us. It is normal and it is good to think of our children often and to shed some tears for all that has been lost. These aren’t setbacks as much as sweet memories that bring cathartic tears. The element we find in these memories is a closeness to our child and our child’s life. This, too, is healthy. An often-expressed fear is that our children will be forgotten. Worry not, gentle parent, your child will be remembered for all of your days and for many days thereafter. You will never forget your child. Others who knew your child will never forget. The proof of this is in our memories….sweet memories that take us back to another time when our child was with us. So this New Year’s, whether you are a few months, a few years or many years in your grief, think about hope. You have not forsaken your child when you reach for hope. Your hope brings your child back in a positive way that will warm your heart. Reach for that hope. As you move forward in your grief in the New Year, reach for hope. Your child will still be with you. And one day you will find that your child’s presence is sweeter when hope is within you. You Can Do It, Mom January 2013 Meeting Tuesday, January 8, 2013 The New Year: A Time of Hope Alan Pedersen Concert Plan Now to Attend Page 6
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